I want to really say something that I believe. Nobody, and I mean absolutely NOBODY can be 100% trusted on. The only one you can fully trust is yourself. If you think otherwise, then carefully read what's next.
Why would you ever put complete faith in someone? Because you know them well? Exactly how well? It's easy to be 99.9% sure that someone will keep some kind of secret or promise or do an important task. However, there is still the chance that you will be let down, and that is not a risk I would like to take. Because of a decision I made a few years ago, everything suddenly crumbled into pieces in the blink of an eye.
It's even worse when you tell people to NOT do something. "Never tell this to anybody", "Do not open that door", and countless other things. Others will blatantly disobey you if you add a "Don't" at the beginning of your sentences. This was another bad choice on my part. For example, I was on a small island close to Massachusetts (did I spell that right? ^.^ ) and the high tide had come in. I was balancing on the edge of a dock, grabbing onto ropes to make sure I didn't fall into the salt water, since I had all my clothing on plus more. (It was cold!) A 5-year old kid (the son of my dad's friend) walked up to me, and I could tell he was going to push me. I strictly told him to NOT push me at all or else I would fall. Perfectly following my theory, he pushed me backwards. I clung onto the ropes hard, but they SNAPPED and dunked me into the freezing water. I had several things in my pockets, too, including batteries. o_0
Something else I would like to add in this little self-debate of mine is to tell others about yourself if you dare, unless you like to be emotionally scarred. As soon as somebody gets to know you well -- the moment you let your guard down -- they turn on you and hammer at that weakness until you can't stand it any longer. This is when I started to support darkness, because that is what I fell into after all of this happened.
So now, I am going my own independent way, instead of with crowds or doing the "normal" things that everyone else does. However, perhaps I am being too independent...
Who can you trust, though? After those theories I lived by, it's impossible to win in this situation. Does this mean something I said is wrong? It's kind of scary, walking down a street, always expecting the worst possible thing to happen, imagining a car crash straight into you, dying too quickly to realize that the driver was someone you were close to for 5 years, who has nothing but a smirk on their face, and it all doesn't matter...
...Wow. I'm tempted to delete most of the stuff I just wrote, now that I'm looking at it again. But sometimes, that's just how I really feel about things. People have given me solutions, but none of them work... perhaps just another reason not to trust anybody...
Either way, expect the worst possible thing to happen... because it probably will.
Reply 5/19: DARKNESS IS BAD DAYLIGHT IS GOOD GO TO THE LIGHT [S1x] GO TO THE LIGHT!!! MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU!!!
-Obviously, you do not really understand the point I am trying to make. Are you hyper or something?
Reply 5/21: There is no way that you should trust yourself 100%. Trusting other people too much is bad too. Letting people know stuff about you isn't that bad. Telling people what you feel and think is what can really get you hurt. Expecting the worst isn't always the best. Expecting the best isn't great either. Being prepared for the worst, and expecting things to go marginally well is how a person should probably go through life.
-Maybe... but expect the worst, and usually you'll be pleasantly suprised with things. ^_^ Many times, I wish I could add in my plans "and here a miracle occurs", but it never works.
Reply 5/26: Words are too good to explain my opinion. In a way, I agree with you. School just brings hardship to me, while I get teased, my fists clench and my brain calls, "You can take him, Show him why he shouldn't say that", but my grades and things of the future keeps me from doing most things.
The problem is, I am not violent at all. If anyone were to look at my mind and my thoughts, it would be a complete mess. The future could hold a lot of different things, and I expect the same stuff to continue. However, I guess I cannot be sure... Anyways, that reply was from my other site manager. It also came with a short poetic thingy just like mine, and if you want to put it up on this page, go ahead.
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Life will play out in its own way, but you can't just give up that easy, you must have someone you can trust, darkness is conquering over one side of my mind, yet, slowly the other side is seeing weaknesses in Evil, and it is just crying, "Don't let darkness win." As the other person stated, you shouldn't go expecting the worst or the best. I wish I could change things from the past, but it's too late, my mind will slowly be split while my dad and my mom continue playing tug of war with it. I hate how my life goes, but I will resume fighting darkness, as you should too, for even the most evil have soft spots.
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