Where from the depths of the human heart
Can love sustain itself alone?
Where in the breadth of the human soul
Can devotion and desire comingle one as one?
Where in the morass of astral longing
Can a soul find sustenance, fulfillment?
Why is it always me who loses all,
Family, mate, home?
What have I done or not done
To always wind up at the bottom of the pile?
Why do I lose and lose and lose and lose?
What drastic deeds from past lives brought this
Misery to my life? Was I so evil?
Am I so horrible my heart's desire will not
Even meet with me?
Am I that disgusting, that sight unseen I am refused?
My entire being is on fire with grief and keens long
And bitterly into the empty night.
Why this living death?
Why this ability to feel so deeply and to have my heart
Strangled with the thrombosis of rejection?
Why bother ever? And who cares anyway?
What is this life but a vale of pain and heart break?
This is a grand and foolish cosmic accident.
There is no compassionate god. There is no compassion.
This is the world of dog eat dog, cat strike out.
This is the world of cruelty and greed where the good die
And the bad live well.
This is the world where little kids go hungry
And big men rape and pillage the earth.
This is the world where might makes right
And staring down the barrell of a gun is the ultimate judgement.
This is the world where ugliness runs rampant,
Destruction of beauty and goodness goes unheeded.
This is the world where those who know don't do
And those who do, don't care, and those who care
Die miserable and alone.
This is planet earth, welcome to hell.
