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I AM A BEAUTIFUL PERSON!! NO MATTER WHAT!!

So what is it to be a woman? Can it be defined? Funk and Wagnalls Standard Desk Dictionary defines woman as 1. An adult human female 2. The female part of the human race; women collectively. 3. Womanly character; femininity. 4. As as applied to man, one who is effeminate, timid or weak. How do you define your self? By definition woman are many things. Mothers, wives, partners, CEO's, Politicians. We are everything. We are whomever we seek to become.

In my life I personally have been many things and will continue to be many things. I have been an object of perversion. I have been an addict. I have been a slut. I am a mother. I am a wife. I am a student. I am MICHELLE. I am a Survivor. I am a goddess. I have been an overcomer since now! I no longer survive; I live.

I was born February 11, 1970. I was sexually abused from 1975, on and off, until 1984. I started doing drugs and drinking in June of 1983. I have been in recovery from addiction since September 13, 1989. I have been a survivor and not a victim, since 1992. I became a wife March 21, 1992. I became a mother November 11, 1992 and October 3, 1996. I became Michelle in 1992 when I started college.

I was coming home from being therepized one day and had some what of a spiritual awakening. I was driving down a country road back to my home and realised that I am a beautiful person. I am a beautiful person no matter what I have done. I am a beautiful person no matter what my abusers have done to me. I am a beautiful person no matter what!!

That was many years ago. I try to hold on to that thought every day. I try to share that with every one every day. I forgot at one time. At the depths of my depression, I forgot. I got angry. I got angry at life's injustices. I thrashed my bedroom. I wrote a note to my son. I took a broken light bulb and proceeded to attempt suicide by cutting my wrist. I spent a week in the psychiatric ward at the local hospital. I take my anitdepressaants now. I don't forget. I am better. Needless to say my life as a woman has not be easy. I have come a long way. I have worked hard. I don't always feel great. I have never been happier, though. I did the steps. I went to therepy. I went to church. I prayed.

I have a daughter. I will try to enable her to be the best woman she wants to be. I will hurt for her. I will be proud of her. I will be there for her. I will love her unconditionally. I will honor myself so that she can learn from me.

So whether, you are a woman who wears her favorite sweats and stays at home. I honor you. If you are a woman who wears business suits and heads a major corporation. I honor you. If you are a poor woman or a rich woman. I honor you. I am proud to be a woman. Be proud!! Be strong!! Fight!! Love!!

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