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You laid me down to sleep, you caressed me. Helping me drift into sleep where I could dream of perfection. "I’ve been treated so wrong; I’ve been treated so long, as if I’m becoming untouchable." As your hands ran across my back, I felt touchable. Like I had purpose, somewhere to be. You left, silent in step; you disappear in the darkness. My words rang out, underneath the covers pulled tightly. I confessed to my soul how I love you. Whispers in the darkness I cried out for you to hold me, you were no where to be found. I prayed all night, in the midst of my sleep. For you to love me. I awoke in the middle of the dark, with a tear in my eye and a fit full of rage in my hands, as I cried, I cried back to sleep. Where you were not, where we were not. Where I cried hoping to love you. You laid me down to sleep, gentle as you walked away. I know you don’t want to hurt me so bad. Yet sweet angel, love of my life. I need this. You should kiss me now, let me slide away. Oh I how I need you now, hurts me inside for I will cry. For the angel that’s lifted from my despair. To the one I love. To you, my dear the one that holds me so dear. I love your smile and your laughter, everything about you. You’ve grown to despise my sweet hands, my face, and my laughter, my every breath you despise. Leave me in the darkness, where I can hurt all alone. Where no one will see my desperate soul. Leave me for I am to, what I wish you were to me. I will not forget how you loved me so sweet. How close you held me. How my face was always in your reach. I will not forget my sweet angel.
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