Why Am *I* Here? Why Do *I* Exist?

An Essay by Kate Garoutte-Smith, circa 1995

Some of my beliefs of my purpose in this life tie in to my ideas of reincarnation. I believe that we go through many lives, progressing levels, learning more each lifetime, and once we've gained all we can, our souls move on to a higher plane. In my more cynical moments, I believe I'm here to experience poverty, obesity and lots of obstacles because in my last life I was a rich, gorgeous, spoiled brat who never had to work for anything, and this life is my punishment. Other than that cynical belief, I believe I am here to gain knowledge and pass it on to others. Another idea I've toyed with is that I am here to write "The Truth" because it will change the world, and the way people think. Ok, so that's a little grand, but it's a nice thought.  But I do believe that I have something to give humankind, something to contribute. Maybe this is it. Maybe it's something else entirely. I also believe that we are meant to learn something from most of our experiences in life. And relationships. I look at every past romantic relationship and try to determine what long-term purpose it served. I usually always find some purpose in every relationship. As for experiences, I have less luck with finding purpose in every experience than in relationships, but I can usualyy come up with something.
So, I am here to learn all I can, to gain knowledge, process it, and pass it on to others. It sounds simple maybe, but it is a 'round the clock, often exausting experience. Mostly the processing is the hard part. But hey, I'm doing it right now, writing these pages! :)

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