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Lou stood just inside the window and watched as Buck sat despondently on the stairs, is elbows on his knees his head bowed. His whole appearance one of pain and torment, she stood there for a few moments torn between gong to her friend and letting him alone to sort through the problems that were troubling him. Buck had been hardest hit of all of them when Noah had been killed, following so closely after Ike’s tragic death.
Nobody had noticed it before but each of the boys, had their own place in their little family, and if her beloved Kid was the conscience of the family then Buck was certainly the heart and soul. Things, while he never spoke of it, hit him harder then they hit every one else, she knew that it was hard for him to cope with the loss of his friends but he would never burden his remaining friends with his pain, so it seemed he suffered longer and harder then everyone else. But she knew now that he was having trouble coping with his feelings for Jenny Thomkins. She could see it in his eyes every time he looked at her, every time he said her name. Lou knew that Jenny was the only woman for Buck just as Kid was the only man for her.
Wanting to offer him a little of the support he always offered to her she walked outside and sat on the step beside him, waiting for him to open up to her, just a little, so she could help him she smoothed her skirt around her knees and rested her chin on her hands watching him.
“It gets easier you know” she spoke softly giving up on waiting for him to break the silence
“No it doesn’t” he answered softly
“sure it does Buck, its hard at first but it will get better” she reached out one hand to stroke his arm gently.
“Ah Lou for it to get better I would have to tell her” he answered her flatly
“you will find a way Buck” Lou misunderstood the intention of his statement
“I can’t tell her Lou she is probably after Ike the best friend I will ever have, she will never know how I truly feel” he stood his hands in his pockets and walked toward the barn kicking the dirt at his feet as he did.
Lou sat on the steps watching as he walked towards the barn, completely bereft of what to say to him. She sat there for some time trying to understand what was going on inside Buck’s noble mind, when she noticed Jenny walking toward the station, her face tearstained but determined.
“Lou is Buck around?” she asked quietly Lou paused for a moment unsure if she should tell Jenny of Buck’s whereabouts, especially after what Buck had just told her
“yeah Jen, he’s in the barn” she finally spoke “But be careful, he is upset about something” she warned the younger girl.
“Aren’t we all” Jen spoke softly as she turned and headed toward the barn.
She entered the barn cautiously not sure what to expect after Lou’s comment. Her eyes scanned the barn, quickly finding Buck seated on a bale of hay in the corner. She walked toward him quietly, her cloudy eyes liquefying as Buck stood and walked away from her.
“Buck what have I done to you, to make you hate me so” she almost sobbed
“Nothing Jen” He didn’t have the courage to face her and see the pain he knew he was causing,
“I’m the problem honey not you” he spoke his voice husky with his emotions.
“What have I done Buck?” she almost begged “Please, tell me so I can make amends please”
she almost cringed hearing the desperation in her voice but she was powerless to do anything about it.
Buck listened to the pain in her voice and flinched as if she had hit him. He hadn’t meant to hurt her but he couldn’t continue to spend so muh time with her and keep his own sanity. He ran his fingers through his long ebony hair trying to form the words he needed to say to her in his mind.
“For God’s sake Jen I can’t keep doing this” he spoke hoarsely not daring to turn to face her “It’s killing me”
“What Buck?” she shook her head “What I don’t understand” she spoke her tears flowing afresh “Please tell me what it is?” she spoke
“Dammit Jen don’t ask me that” he cursed “I don’t want to lose what we have” his voice impassioned
“We are already losing it Buck, you keep pushing me away, what else could happen” he heard the hopelessness in her voice.
He turned, his eyes dark with passion and liquid with tears, his face full of an emotion she had never seen I his face before
“You don’t know what you are asking for Jen” he spoke as he stalked towards her. His hands gentle as he traced her face, his fingers trembling as he tilted her face up to his. His lips meeting hers in a kiss of such passion it brought tears to her eyes. His mouth mouthing wetly on hers, his tongue tracing her lips, sliding between her parting lips, sliding erotically across her white teeth before tangling in an erotic duel with her tongue, sucking it deeply into his mouth his lips moving across her own as their tongues duelled. One hand moving down to press her body against his from shoulder to hip, letting her feel what her proximity and kiss was doing to his body, his other hand tangling in her hair pushing her face closer to him.
His kiss stopped as abruptly as it started, Buck setting the bewildered Jenny from him and stalked back to the opposite corner of the barn.
“That is what I didn’t want to happen Jen” he spoke flatly “It can never happen again and now we can never have what we once had again”
Jen stood there for a few moments her fingers tracing her kiss bruised lips, she had never dreamed that her first real kiss would bring with it so many emotions. Never had she expected the pain of rejection to be one of the things she would feel. Too distraught and overwrought by her new feeling she turned and ran from the barn her sobs the last sounds Buck heard from her.
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