DISCLAIMER: The Young Riders is the creation of Ed Spielman, and the property of Ogiens/Kane productions in association with MGM/UA television. This Story is created for entertainment purposes only, no infringement intended. Not to be copied without permission from the author.
Wearing his heart on his sleeve he once again crossed to the house and followed the same path he had trodden so many times in the last few days, it just seemed with each journey he was becoming more and more uncertain about his future with the woman he now knew that he loved.
Standing in her open doorway, he surprised by the fact that she was not in the room. Confused he scratched his head wondering just where she could have disappeared to now. His mind in turmoil, he decided that she probably didn’t want to see him again tonight and turned to return to his own bedroom, knowing that if she wanted to find him, that was as good a place as any. Besides he couldn’t face the questions that he knew he would face if he returned to his friends. Entering his room he closed the door behind preparing himself to face a long sleepless night.
Walking to his bed, guided only by the moonlight shining through the uncurtained windows he slipped his vest and his shirt from his shoulders, hanging them on his bedpost, he sank to sit on the side of his mattress to pull his boots from his feet.
“I’m sorry Buck” Lou’s gentle words startled him.
Turning his head, he noticed her sitting on the window seat that he and Kid had built while this room was being used as a nursery. Unsure of what she was apologising for he watched her rise and walk towards him, completely unaware of how beautiful she was in his eyes.
“You have nothing to apologise for Lou,” he stroked her hair as she fell to her knees at his feet.
“Yes I do” she spoke resting her chin against his knees “I have no right to expect you to do as I want. I’m sorry for that” she looked into his face, his own eyes turning liquid as he watched the turbulent emotions in her face.
“You have every right Lou, every right in the world” he placed his hands under her arms and lifted her from the ground and onto his lap. Unable to resist, he placed a gentle hand against her cheek and turned her face to his. He looked deeply into her tear swollen eyes and watched as her teeth nervously worried her bottom lip.
“I’m sorry Lou” he spoke as his head bent gently to hers, their lips meeting almost tentatively at first. They kissed, long and tenderly, their hands caressing the others body in ways they never had before, almost as if they were afraid the other would evaporate.
Buck pulled back from Lou, his hands framing her face, his lips leaving hers lingeringly, his breathing as erratic as her own, he rested his forehead against hers trying to catch his breath and compose his thoughts now that the woman that had become a drug to him was in his arms.
“I have no right to be making you feel these things Lou. You are confused enough, you don’t need me making it worse.”
“I’m not confused about my feelings for you Buck. I just don’t want to lose you, not when I have only just found you” she spoke her own voice as shaky as his.
“Lou, now that I know what my feelings for you mean, you will never leave me, you are like a thirst in my soul, I long to drink from the pool of your love. I could not leave you, even if I tried” he paused “unless you asked me to” he finished his impassioned statement to her his eyes never leaving hers, trying to gauge, what she was thinking.
“Buck” was the only word she could murmur as her lips met his again, her hands travelling across his bare chest, sending a shiver through his body.
“Lou” he forced himself to tear his mouth from hers, his noble intentions nearly obliterated as she lifted one dainty hand to gently wipe the moisture that lingered at the corner of his mouth. He grabbed both of her hands in his and looked into her passion drugged eyes trying to get his message across to her. “Lou, sweetheart, if we go much further I don’t think I’ll be able to stop.” At her continued silence he tried one last time “Honey I told you I wouldn’t rush you, and I won’t, but I need you to help me. I couldn’t bear it if you regretted anything we do in the morning. I want you to be sure that this is what you want. I want you to know that this is me. I don’t want you to be confused about who I am” He spoke his voice cracking with emotion knowing that he would not be able to stand the pain of her making love to Kid through him. “If you don’t want this tonight, that is fine, we can just go to sleep.” He spoke to her knowing that, if that was what she wanted he would honour her wishes, but he would not be getting any sleep this night.
“I know who you are Buck” she placed a gentle kiss on his lips “You are a good sweet kind man who thinks of everyone but himself” she murmured. “I know exactly what I am doing, please don’t deny me this Buck” she kissed him gently again
”I am confused about a lot of things Buck, but my feelings for you are not one of them.” She kissed him
“Lou, If you keep kissing me I won’t be responsible for what happens” he spoke his voice husky
“maybe I don’t want you to be responsible” she murmured as she pushed him back onto the bed falling onto the mattress beside him, still cradled in his arms.
“Maybe just once we could think of ourselves, just this once and not worry about who or what we will be hurting” she leaned up on her elbow until she was looking into his passion clouded eyes “maybe just this once we can think about each other and forget the rest of the world” her fingers traced tiny whorls on his chest as she spoke, her actions and her words pushing Buck past his better judgement as he rolled to pull her deeper into his arms, his lips meeting hers wetly and continuing the dance that they had just begun.
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