... * journal ...
11.09.02 (saturday) 09:34 amok, so maybe i don't do my dishes right away! so what? it's not like it's a freakin' huge deal or anything! ... gosh, can't you find someone else to rag on and talk about behind their back? which is what you do to EVERYONE who doesn't live up to your wacked out standards! what did i do to deserve your attitiude? i HATE that! why are you so self centered and why do you think you're so much better than EVERYONE else? can't you accept people for the way they are? ... get a life! there's more to this existance than keep the freakin' apartment clean! it's not the end of the flippin' world just because the "gimp" doesn't do her dishes! it takes me three times as long as it takes you! gosh you're insensitive! you think i like being inept? you think i like that? it's frustrating! it's humiliating! i HATE it! .. do you think i have all the time in the world? .. just because i don't go out everynight with some new boy or with some plethora of fake friends doesn't mean that i don't have a life! i am here to study! i get up everyday at 3:30 just so i can stay here! what about you? you complain that your parents won't let you get a job - because you think you don't have enough "stuff"! grow up! honestly ... and leave me alone! .. i don't need friends like you if all you're gonna do is turn on me when i'm not perfect - which is never by the way! and you're never perfect either - so STOP JUDGING ME!05.23.02 (thursday) 10:31 pmso ... guess what i did tonight .... i think someone will be mad at me about it ... just because i know how much "new experiences with me" are craved ... anyway ... i got off from work at, like, 5:15 ... instead of 6:15 ... i jumped in my vehicle ... went home changed ... got back in my car ... and went to get gas ... the attendant, who i swear has a thing for me, or something, was there of course ... he kinda creeps me out ...... moving on ... i had to make a trek to williams .. almost ... for those of you who are not familiar with southern oregon .. that's about 20 miles out in the middle of nowhere ... so, you're probably wondering what i was doing ... well, for our enrichment night activity we "old women" went horseback riding ... it was so fun! ... it took me awhile to get the hang of it ... and i was always afraid of hurting the horse ... but once i got over that ....... let me tell ya .. it was fun stuff ... i wanna do it again!! ... me bum kinda hurts though ... and my legs are really tired ... but then again my legs are always tired these days ...life pretty much suchs right now ... there's not much to do ... go see star wars ... that's pretty much it ... i have nine more days to endure before i get to see my man again ... i'm gettin' excited! ... oh yes, and "dirt-nick" is this weekend ... oh .. yay ... but at least i don't have to work on saturday .. or monday ... hmmm ... what to do with my free time? .... oh the monotony of the working at a financial institution ... anyway ... i've run out of things to talk about ... i just wanted to express how totally awesome horseback riding is .... oh, yeah ... and i got stepped on ... that really hurt ... in the past . . . |
