tired. i've got too much homework to do today and i didn't get enough sleep last night. i didn't get all fucked up, i just sort of lost track of time.... so now i'm paying for it.

i don't know why, but i was so not feeling it last night. maybe it's because i have been watching st. patricks day drunkeness all weekend, but i just felt over it. the irish bar was too packed, too hot, and too loud for me last night. guess i'm turning into an old fuck. so i just stayed in my little corner table pretty much and had a couple of beers. everyone else i was with was all about it, and they were pummeling shots. fun stuff.

i know i'm in the "honeymoon" stage of a relationship. and that's when you're allowed to be a little sappy. i still don't know, however, how to take it when she says "if you get sent away, i'm going to cry everyday until you get back." it's nice to hear because it's sweet, but still not how i would want somebody to feel. this, unlike any other job in the planet, is my life. i will go away. it will happen sometime, and it will happen a lot. i'm used to that and have accepted it. i don't get real emotional because i have to go away for two weeks. there's no point to get upset because there's nothing i can do about it. i don't have a choice. and to me, i'd rather not know that that makes someone upset. by being with me, you have to accept the things in my life that i have no control of.

so that makes me a little unstable right now. if you add the fact that i haven't been sleeping enough lately, i'm sure you end up with me rambling.

what a fucking day. or weekend. first i went to a casino and lost 400 dollars. (don't worry, i'm a balla) joel edited the fuck out of my new review. i guess i was a little harsh when i questioned the motive behind the cd... i don't know, anyone into "the punk scene" wouldn't put out garbage like this. the uncut review is now on this site. then today i got into it a little with janis. nothing serious, just a spat, but that shit still sucks.

there were highlights though. first off, the new AFI cd. holy shit, go buy this. i'm so happy they are my favorite band, because they have never let me down. yea, i'm an uber-fan dork about them, but still, it seems that they have grown with me through each of their releases. how many hardcore tracks do you know that can pull off midi's and cellos? fucking amazing.

anyone who wants free cd's.... email me here with a sample of writing skills. all about records just gave me a shit ton and i could use the help.

st. patty's day tomorrow? fuck me... hangover.

new addition to the photography section. aaron's work kicks ass, go to his page on the link section for more.

today is my first day of spring break..... and to celebrate this morning, i scraped 6 inches of snow and ice off of my windshield.

so many things going on. added a new sleeve..... so now both arms are done. (well not done..... but you get what i'm saying.) took an advancement test for e-6, fun stuff. and ended up with an A- in my last class. finally, i got my ass kicked in our soccer game a couple of days ago. got 13 hours of sleep last night.... fuck me, that was just me catching up for this fucked up last two weeks.

can you see i've moved on? that i'm getting used to being here now? that i still hurt myself whenever i try backlips down handrails?

white belts are out now apparently...so are waaaay too tight t-shirts. we know you're waify, dude.