There Is Love Here

By: Chris Cannizzaro

So many nights I lay awake
Wondering why I’m afraid to take
That one big step into your life
And say, “hi, what’s your name?”
Or….”How you doin’?”
Is it because I’m afraid to ruin
What my mind is telling me we don’t have?
Or I can’t have?
Or you won’t let me have?
Or am I just a little bitch,
Sitting and waiting for something which
I have to make happen? Yo, It’s time for a switch
Maybe I’m just full of the fear
That you could be someone that I would hold dear
Only to have you completely switch gears
Leaving me standing here looking in the mirror
Asking myself, “Is there love here?”

I am afraid…..you see

I’ve been hurt, used, broken, cheated on, walked over, and just plain left
By women I’ve loved who should be charged with theft
For stealing from me what I have left
The ability to love without thinking
To trust without questioning
And to live without asking
Was I just so naive?
Or was it that I was willing to believe
Something, which I could barely conceive?
That I could find my love, and fill my heart, and live my life
With the first woman I met and make her my wife
Wait, wait, wait, that can’t be it, because she isn’t here
Instilling in me this feeling of fear
That you could be someone that I would hold dear
Only to have you completely switch gears
Leaving me standing here looking in the mirror
Asking myself, “Is there love here?”

But I am also tired …you see

I am tired of being the savior
I am tired of being the teacher
And I’m tired of being the counselor
Only to be left when my job is done
For someone else who gets to be the one
That reaps the benefits of what I’ve done
Believe me when I tell you “it ain’t fun”
I’m the one who saved them from their own depression
I’m the one who taught them to love without question
I did this for months, even years in succession
But you won’t get this from your first impression
All I can tell you is that I am strong
No longer wondering what went wrong
Or asking why it took me so long
To take the bad with the good and move on
Now I can state loud and clear
That I don’t have this feeling of fear
And I’m not afraid to hold you dear
And damnit…There is love here!

I also remember…you see

There was a time in my life when I was prone
To liking this feeling of being alone
But as of late, I have grown
I’m not afraid to need love, I’m not afraid be humble
I’m not afraid to open up only to watch my hopes crumble
I remember a time when I had the nerve
To love someone without reserve
Not planning for what was around the curve
I remember a time when I lived in the present
When I dismissed the future and forgot the past
Not caring at all if that feeling would last
I lived in the moment and eventually passed
The point where that moment was fleeting so fast
And I like that feeling, because it is so appealing
And I’m through concealing, all my true feelings
I’m no longer afraid of what might be near
When I stand and say loud and clear
That I don’t have that feeling of fear
And I’m not afraid to hold you dear
And damnit…There is love here!