My heart constantly cries and mourns
I feel the dull aching pain deep inside my chest
it seeps through my veins
and into my fist
I feel the Anger ragin inside me
I hit the wall but the pain doesn't flinche or fade
I curl up in a ball on my floor and cry with no tears
all my tears gone from crying for days on ens
I still feel the dull pain racing through my blood and back into my hands
I need to release it to bleed it out
I pick up the blade
I remember the screaming as i press the jagged edge against my wrist
harder and harder
until i feel the stinging as my skin tears apart
and the warmth of the blood as it runs down my hands
and drips of my shaking fingers
on to the floor
I feel light headed and dizzy
I sink down and fall to my side on to the ground below
I feel the dull pain
I cry harder with tears of red
I gag then vomit the acid from my stomach
with my last bit of energy I scream out your name
the room spins so I shut my eyes and whisper:
why, you all I had. Why?
I feel my last breath escape me
my heart slows to a stop
my soul flys free
my mind to peace.