she stares out the window crying
and always will
alone in the world
so different from everyone else
alone in her own mind
where she is trapped
by her own insanity
that will consume her every thought
no one will ever understand
no one will truly ever care
no one to ever know
she stays trapped alone
fearing her every thought
hating everyone for they suck
by unintentionally tearing apart her soul
until she has nothing left to believe in
no breath left in her lungs worth breathing
no care left in her heart
that has turn so angry
no one left to trust
no one to ever have faith in her
to get better
no chance of recovery
shes in way too deep now
no chance of ever being happy
all she can do is frown
she knows shes not normal
but really wants to be
not sure of what noramlity is
not sure why she doesn't understand people
or why they don't understand her
craving pure happiness
as if it water and she dehydrated
she wishes she were dead
or atleast totally away from her head
she wants to disapeer
craves death during her sleep
never wanting to wake up each day
rather enjoying eternal dreams
of such things she'll never have
such beauty she imagines
such happiness on her face
such great people in her life
who can never go away
and never grow to hate
the horrible way she is
she never know why
she desprately hates her life
and why with every strife
she dies a little more
she feels closer to teh morgue
and farther from help
well when medicine wont work
and doctors are still too stupid
she fears she has no hope
no chance
no luck
she'll always be hated
mostly by herself
never be understood
even by herself
so alone she sits
staring out the window crying
where she will always be
alone
different
trapt by pure insanity
as it consumes her every thought
until she can muster the courage
and she will
someday
make it all go away

WR