is 4 sleeping pills too many?
Mood:
irritated
so... not much to say 2day... i keep typing things then backspacing...
hmmm.. so yea. metallica's old music is pretty cool.. i really hate
when people tell u to do things and they seem like really stupid things
and then the worst part is when they don't give u a reason. I've been
moody recently for not really any reason. I miss the ocean. very very
badly! i miss other things too. i miss freedom, i miss constant fun, i
miss being able to do whatever i wanted whenever i wanted. Don't get me
wrong i still have fun. Just not as often. Just not freely. i
hope
this isn't making any sense at all. sooo is 4 sleeping pills too many?
gotta get up early though. for reasons i will not state. so do not ask.
CRITICAL!! there is a critical person watching over my shoulder all the
time complaining and ect. asking about every little thing i do... hmm..
trying to understand this CSS crap on my friends site to help him out.
i'm feeling stupid ooo i'm feeling stupid... like my singing? good thing
no one reads this crap. they'd probably die of boredum... boredum o
boredum o why do u make me so bored??? oook gotta sleep now. yay i
learned more html and css today! bye ty for coming.
Hey everyone. Thanks for visiting. I thought i should mention that i do have anime now. and my art site is well
Thursday, 5 August 2004
i have lots of plans 4 new sites i'm gonna make! a panda shrine, a photo page of my garden as it progresses, maybe a london photo site, maybe a music site with a forum, sample mp3s, links etc, a hmm lets c what else, oh yes i wanna do more animations but when i do my comp frezes and wont save my work. ok well well what else.. hmmmmmm
Sunday, 1 August 2004
Jack Off Jill- Vivica THIS IS MY FAVORITE SONG
Oh Vivica I wish you well
I watch you burn in humid hell
No sleeping pills no old tattoos
will save you now
He'll never change he's just to vague,
he'll never say you're beautiful
Oh Vivica I wish you well I really do,
I really do
The apple falls far from the tree
she's rotten and so beautiful
I'd like to keep her here with me
and tell her that she's beautiful
She takes the pills to fall asleep
and dreams that she's invisible
Tormented dreams she stay awake
recalls when she was capable...
Oh Vivica I wish you
I watch you sit I watch you dwell
No crooked spine no torn up rag
will save you now
He'll never change he's not that brave
He'll never say you're beautiful
Oh Vivica I wish you well I really do,
I really do
The apple falls far from the tree
she's rotten and so beautiful
I'd like to keep her here with me
and tell her that she's beautiful
She takes the pills to fall asleep
and dreams that she's invisible
Tormented dreams she stay awake
recalls when she was capable...
Oh Vivica I wish you well
I'll sit right here I'll never tell
no tender scar no twist of fate
will save you now.
He'll never change, he's just not there
He'll never say you're beautiful
Oh Vivica I wish you well I really do,
I really do
The apple falls far from the tree
she's rotten and so beautiful
I'd like to keep her here with me
and tell her that she's beautiful
She takes the pills to fall asleep
and dreams that she's invisible
Tormented dreams she stay awake
recalls when she was capable...
She's empty and so beautiful
I'll keep her here with me
Jack Off Jill - Strawberry Gashes. my second favorite JOJ song..
Turn her over
A candle is lit
I see through her
blow it out and save all her ashes for me
Curse me
Sold her
The poison that runs its course through her
pale white skin with strawberry gashes
all over - all over
Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
With strawberry gashes all over
Called her over
and asked her if she was improving
she said feels fine it's wonderful
- wonderful here
Hex me
Told her
I dreampt of a devil that knew her
pale white skin with strawberry gashes
all over
all over
Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
With strawberry gashes all ove all over
I lay quiet
waiting for her voice to say
"Some things you lose
and some things you just give away"
Scold me
Failed her
If only I'd held on tighter to her pale
white skin that twisted and withered
away from away from
Watch me lose her
It's almost like losing myself
Give her my soul
and let them take somebody else
get away from me
Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
Kill me faster with Strawberry gashes
all over
All over ME
http://www.lyrics.com/j/jack.off.jill/clear.hearts.grey.flowers.html
The devil is in TV......TV NEEDS TO DIE!!!!!!!!
television has gone down hill. theres nothing on and the only things that are on bomb-bard you with offensive commercials. GRRRRR. tv is so anoying. too hard to watch. *puking* i have lost all faith whatsoever for what i ever liked about tv. i feel alone. alone with only educational programing and reality shows. NOOO NOT REALITY SHOWS!!! i feel i'm loosing sanity. ok so maybe i'm not insane cause of tv. but... its horrible mindless garbage. not made for those who have brains of any sort in their subjected heads!!! WHAAAA. i give up on tv. when i move to my next house i think i will avoid owning a tv.
Wednesday, 28 July 2004
more bands i like see the 9th for the first list...
Orgy
velvet Revolver
Powerman 5000
Gravity Kills
Einsturzeade Neubauten
Seether
Ulalena
Dropkick Murphys
NOFX
...
Wednesday, 21 July 2004
wishing wells and cockle shells they swim throughout my head i lie inside my bed at night wishing i was dead.
today i called a friend then we hung up, then i walked aound the house. then i realized i was still holding the phone. hehe so after like 5 minutes of walking around w/ it i put it back on the reciever. hmm that was my whole day.. o yea i also went kayaking. it was cool. not very exciting though, found a couple of towels, dirty towels, but still good towels, colorful dirty towels, and i found a hat, a guy trying to strand his two small chilren out in the water, a dead fish. the hat was dirty, red and dirty but still a hat. hey did i mention there was a guy fixing to leave his children in the middle of the water until he saw me heading that way, then he went back 4 them. ergh!! anyway i think the towels can b washed they were just a little dirty... ATHF is so freaking awesome!! hehe. i love this show. its my new obsession! i like inu-yasha alot too. i cant wait to see the movie i've only heard vaguely of. my fav episode of aqua teen hunger force is the one w/ danzig! that episode is awesome!!! gahhh.. w/ the blood coming out everywhere in the house! heh heh i'm out 4 now.
Sunday, 18 July 2004
My weekend has been productive. Even with visiting with family I still got a lot done. I think I?ve gone web page crazy though cause I now have two additional sites. But the one is just real pretty but it doesn?t have much on it. I think when I snaze it up it?ll be my best looking page yet!!! So I?m pretty excited!!! Right now its just a little ?train station? is the word I?ve come up with cause people will end up at it the take another link (train) to another page. Hehe, yea don?t ask. Anyway I also have a little graphic art page. It aint nothing special yet but just support it cause u know u love mea enough to do so. Anyway I watched ATHF today but it was only one 15min. episode. So disappointing, grrrr I hate that! I really like aqua teen, but geeze when they only play one episode its just down right annoying. You know what?s weird, every time I type ?grrr? I am actually growling. I very thoroughly type my emotions and very verbally make odd noises representing how I feel. I tend to notice that I growl at my computer a lot, and sometimes which this is actually embarrassing to admit, but sometimes I get frustrated and scream and it too. I could just see myself at a new job sitting in my cubicle as a programmer and screaming at my computer every few seconds making everyone around me jump. I wonder how long I?ll be at each job like that. Hmmmm I think I?m going to put a mouse over affect on my newest website. Here?s a list of all my sites.
aren't pandas so cute!! i cant get enough panda stuff. I read somewhere that there are only 1,000 pandas left in the wild. To adopt a panda... Anyway yea i can do hyperlinks with html now so i'm going crazy w/ it.
I have a pamphlet from the wwf right in front of me right now... (world wildlife fund, not the wrestling federation) anyway its says for picnicing...
1. Use recycled or reusable products, utencils, glasses. Recyle bottles and cans, don't litter.
2. when grilling, use chemical-free charcoal instead of standard briquettes.
3. When grilling salmmon, make sure its MSC certified wild Alaska salmon, which is responsibly being caught.
4. Pesticide-free. buying organic foods supports farming practices that cut down on the pollution of our land and waterways by toxic chemicals.
5. When leaving your house for an extended amount of time turn off lights and adjust thermostat to 85 degrees.
Hmmmm, how do u use iso entities... what are they? heh. I still have much to learn... yet i waste my time rambling on this blog. lalala later!
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