Losing a whole year 
     I remember you and me used to spend the whole damned day in bed 
     Losing a whole year 
     Lying in your room we'd lay like dogs 
     The phone would ring like a joke that's left unsaid 
     Rich daddy left you with a parachute 
     Your voice sounds like money and your face is cute 
     But your daddy left you with no love 
     You touch everything with a velvet glove and 
     Now you want to try a life of sin 
     You want to be down with the down and in 
     Always copping my truths 
     I kind of get the feeling like I'm being used 

     And now I realize you never heard 
     One goddamned thing I ever said 
     Losing a whole year 

     Took your stuff and put it in the basement 
     When I found out what the smile on your face meant 
     I've seen you pop that check 
     Craning your neck at my car wreck 
     It always seems the juice used to flow 
     In the car, in the kitchen you were good to go 
     Now we're stuck with the tube 
     A sink full of dishes and some aqualube 

     I remember you and me used to spend the whole damned day in bed 
     Losing a whole year 

     And if it's not the defense then you're on the attack 
     When you start talking I hear the Prozac 
     Convinced you've found your place 
     With the pierced queer teens in Cyberspace 
     When you were yourself it tasted sweet 
     But it sours into a routine deceit 
     Well this drama is a bore 
     And I don't want to play no more 

     I remember you and me used to spend the whole damned day in bed 
     Losing a whole year

     I'm on a train, but there's no one at the helm, 
     And there's a demon in my brain starts to overwhelm, 
     And there it goes, my last chance for peace, 
     I lay me down, but I get no release, 
     I try to keep awake, I try to swim beneath, 
     But still I find this narcolepsy slides, 
     Into another nightmare. 
     And there's a demon in my head who starts to play, 
     A nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday, 
     And I hold my breath 'till it's more than I can take, 
     And I close my eyes and dream that I'm awake, 

     I try to keep awake, 
     I try to keep awake, 
     But still I find this Narcolepsy slides, into another nightmare. 

     I read dead Russian authors, Volumes at a time, 
     I write everything down except what's on my mind, 
     Cause my greatest fear is that sucking sound, 
     And then I know that I will neer get back out, 
     And there's a bone in my hand that connects to a drink, 
     In a crowded room where the glasses clink, 
     And I'll buy you a beer and we'll drink it deep, 
     Because that keeps me from felling asleep, 
     How'd you like to be alone and drowning, 
     How'd you like to be alone and drowning, 
     How'd you like to be alone and drowning, 
     Still I find this narcolepsy slide slide slides, Into another nightmare, 

     Keep awake. Keep awake, Keep awake, 
     Still I find this narcolepsy slides... 

     I'm packed and I'm holding, 
     I'm smiling, she's living, she's golden and she lives for me, 
     She says she lives for me, Ovation, She's got her own motivation, 
     she comes round and she goes down on me, 
     And I make her smile, It's like a drug for you, 
     Do ever what you want to do, Coming over you, 
     Keep on smiling, what we go through. One stop to the rhythm that divides you, 
     And I speak to you like the chorus to the verse, 
     Chop another line like a coda with a curse, 
     And I come on like a freak show takes the stage. 
     We give them the games we play, she said, 

     I want something else, 
     to get me through this, 
     Semi-charmed kind of life, 
     I want something else, 
     I'm not listening when you say, Good-bye. 

     The sky it was gold, it was rose, 
     I was taking sips of it through my nose, 
     And I wish I could get back there, Some place back there, 
     Smiling in the pictures you would take, 
     Doing crystal myth, Will lift you up until you break, 
     It won't stop, I won't come down, I keep stock, 
     With a tick tock rhythm and a bump for the drop, 
     And then I bumped up. I took the hit I was given, 
     Then I bumped again, And then I bumped again. 
     How do I get back there to, 
     The place where I fell asleep inside you? 
     How do I get myself back to, 
     The place where you said, 

     I want something else to get me through this, 
     Semi-charmed kind of life, 
     I want something else, 
     I'm not listening when you say, good-bye, 

     I believe in the sand beneath my toes, 
     The beach gives a feeling, 
     An earthy feeling, 
     I believe in the faith that grows, 
     And the four right chords can make me cry, 
     When I'm with you I feel like I could die. 
     And that would be all right, All right, 

     When the plane came in, She said she was crashing, 
     The velvet it rips, In the city we tripped, 
     On the urge to feel alive, 
     But now I'm struggling to survive, 
     The days you were wearing, That velvet dress, 
     You're the priestess, I must confess, 
     Those little red panties, They pass the test, 
     Slide up around the belly, Face down on the mattress, One, 

     Now you hold me, And we're broken. 
     Still it's all that I want to do. 
     Feel myself with a head made of the ground, 
     I'm scared but I'm not coming down. 
     And I won't run for my life, 
     She's got her jaws just locked now in smile but nothing is all right, 
     All right, 

     I want something else, 
     To get me through this, 
     Semi-charmed kind of life, 
     I want something else, 
     I'm not listening when you say, 
     good-bye. 

     I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend, 
     You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in, 
     And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand. 
     I would understand, 

     The angry boy, a bit too insane, 
     Icing over a secret pain, 
     You know you don't belong, 
     You're the first to fight, You're way too loud, 
     You're The flash of light, On a burial shroud, 
     I know something's wrong, 
     Well everyone I know has got a reason, To say, put the past away, 

     I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend, 
     You could cut ties with all the lies, That you've been living in, 
     And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand, 
     I would understand. 

     Well he's on the table, And he's gone to code, 
     And I do not think anyone knows, 
     What they are doing here, 
     And your friends have left, You've been dismissed, 
     I never thought it would come to this, And I, I want you to know, 
     Everyone's got to face down the demons, 
     Maybe today, We can put the past away, 

     I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend, 
     You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in, 
     And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand, 
     I would understand, 
     I would understand... 

     Can you put the past away, I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend, 
     I would understand... 

     Can I Graduate, 
     Can I look into the faces that I meet, 
     Can I get my punk-ass off the street, 
     I've been living on for so long, 

     Can I Graduate, 

     To the bastard talking down to me, 
     Your whipping boy calamity, 
     Cross your fingers, I'm going to knock it all down, 

     Can I Graduate, 

     Echo fading, We can't let go, 
     She goes walking by in slow mo', 
     Sell your Heart out for a buck, 
     Go on, Fade out, Before I get stuck. 

     Talking to somebody like you, 
     Do you live the days you go through, 
     Will this song live on long after we do, 

     Can I Graduate. 

     Can I look into the faces that I meet, 
     Can 1 get my punk-ass off the street. 
     Won't die on the vine I want to knock it all down, 

     Can I Graduate, 

     Echo fading, Candle blow, 
     Did you flash out long ago, 
     Cross my fingers, I don't know someone poked you down below. 

     Can I Graduate, 

     Can I get my punk-ass off the street, 
     Can I look into the faces that I meet, 
     I'm not waiting here for you to die, 
     Will this song live on long after we do. 

     I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore, 
     Before you take a swing, I wonder What are we fighting for, 
     When I say out loud, I want to get out of this, I wonder, 
     Is there anything I'm going to miss, 

     How's it going to be, When you don't know me, 
     How's it going to be, When you're sure I'm not there, 
     How's it going to be, When there is no one there to talk to about, 
     How it's going to be, 'Cause I don't care, 
     How's it going to be, 

     Where we used to laugh, There's a shouting match, 
     Sharp as a thumbnail scratch, 
     A silence I can't ignore, 
     Like . . The hammocks and the doorways we spent time in, Swing empty, 
     don't see lightning like last fall when it was always about to hit me, 
     I guess that is how it's going to be. 
     Want to get back in again, 
     The soft dive of oblivion. 

     It's all in your mind, She said the darkness and the light, 
     The clock, it bleeds for you but you never got the time in right, 
     I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence, 
     And we laughed in the night, And I felt allright. 

     All hands on deck boys 'cause this ship was made to sink. 
     Your swabber salutes you now, but I know what he's thinking. 
     I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence, 
     And we laughed in the night, And I felt allright. 

     Thanks a lot, 

     The clothes she wears mis-fit, and she's nervous when she speaks, 
     Her zombie mom and dad live in a separate house of freaks. 
     I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence, 

     I'm the one for you, 
     'Cause I know all the dirty things you like to do, 
     I'm the fear in your eyes, I'm the fire in your flies, 
     I'm the sound that's buzzing around your head. 

     Thanks a lot.

     The rise and fall of my sloppy love, The smatterings, and splatterings, 
     They'll get you. 
     I'm not the one you were thinking of, 
     Maybe you thought I'd call, Instead of crashing down your hall. 
     Hold me down, but I'll find out. 
     You know you will never get what you need, 

     Blue Diamond strike 'em anywhere, 
     First we caffeinate, then incinerate, 
     We'll get you. 
     And sparks will fly in the summer air, 
     Did you pull out of your stall, 
     Maybe I'll see you after all. 
     Say we don't. Know who we are. We say no, 

     I live my life like the burning man, 
     Like a burning man, 
     Like a burning man, 
     And I won't get enough 'Till my legs are broken, 

     The stars they shine. In an empty void. 
     Life is not to fear, life is to enjoy, 
     He'll get you. 
     Mr. Death catches all someday. 
     Baby I thought you'd call. 
     Or leave a light on in the hall, 
     Hold me down, But I'll find out. We say no, 

     I live my life like a burning man, 
     And I won't get enough, 
     till my legs are broken.

     Hey, will you stay awhile. 
     My smile will not misleading, 
     Cause I've been alone, And my faith turned to stone, 
     Still there's something in you, I believe in, 
     Close to the pierce, 
     I go wild and fierce, 
     Still I let you be, 
     I feel you next to me, 
     'Cause outside I feel, 
     A wind it starts to blow, 
     I'm taken in your undertow. 
     Everything is fine But I'm lonely all the time, 

     All I want to do is be there for the things that you're going through, 
     Is that good for you, 
     Is that good for you. 
     You haunt my nights when I don't know where my life should go, 
     Is that good for you, 

     Hey, child please stay awhile. 
     My smile will not mislead you. 
     And roll me out. 
     I go wild with doubt, 
     I grab at you, 
     I can't stop grabbing at you, 
     Cause I feel you cross my mind in disarray, intoxicated ricochet, 
     There's nothing wrong, 
     just don't take too long, 

     All I want to do is be there For the things that you're going through. 
     Is that good for you, 
     Is that good for you. 
     You haunt my nights when I don't know where my life should go, 
     Is that good for you.

     Through the satellites, I fight with you, 
     That local brew is spillin', 
     I know just how you spend your time. 
     I want to get my hands on him, 
     Somebody's party in a London flat, 
     You're where it's at and I know, 
     You want to see me loose my mind, 
     I'm tired of chasing after you The is jealous, 
     See me on the dark side of your mind, 
     I want to get my hands on him, 
     To a club that's pounding in the London rain, 
     The world could end We wouldn't hear it. 
     I know just what's on your mind, 
     I see the way your face has changed, 
     We're no good for each other, 
     You tricked me into coming here, So let go, 

     l don't want to go to London, 
     I told you I don't care, 
     I don't want to go to London, 
     To live there, 
     I don't want to go to London, 
     All your friends afflicted, 
     I don't want to go to London. 

     She's addicted, I saw you with him, 
     I know where you've been, 
     That nose is broken wide open, 
     Your way has got me out of line. 
     I want to get my hands on him. You're so sick just to make me prove, It takes a fight
     to move you, I know just what's on your mind. It's been this way a thousand years, We
     torture each other. So why the hell did you call me here, And you know, 

     l don't want to go to London, 
     I told you I don't care, 
     I don't want to go to London, 
     To live there, 
     I don't want to go to London, 
     All your friends afflicted, 
     I don't want to go to London. 
     She's addicted. 

     l don't want to go to London, 
     I told you I don't care, 
     I don't want to go to London, 
     'Cause you're not there. 
     Even when I see you, You're somewhere else in London.

     I've seen suckers loose themselves in the games they learn to play, 
     Children love to sing but then their voices slowly fade away. 
     People always take a step away from what is true, 
     That's why I like you around, 
     I want you. 
     Yeah you do... you make me want you. 
     An open invitation to the dance, 
     Happenstance set the vibe that we are in, 
     No apology because my urge is genuine, 
     And the mystery of your rhythm is so feminine. 
     Here I am and I want to take a hit, 
     Of your scent and it bit, 
     So deep into my soul, 
     I want you. 
     You do you do, you make me want you. 
     Send me all your vampires, 
     And I can't get enough, 
     And I can't get enough, 
     The village church yard is filled with bones weeping in the grave, 
     The silver lining of clouds shines on people Jesus couldn't save, 
     You want to know how deeply my soul goes, Deeper than bones, 
     I want you, 
     And I can't get enough. 
     After we did it by the window sill, 
     Smoke rings drift into the midnight sky, 
     presently in the quilt that your mother made, 
     And a candle burns to fight off the gloom, 
     I said to live in this way is not for the meek, 
     but you talk real soft and kiss me on the cheek. 
     And like a jazz DJ you talk me into sleep, 
     There will be no regrets when the worms come, 
     And they will surely come. 
     You do you do, I want you, 
     Send me all your vampires, 
     I want you.

     Everything is quiet, Since you're not around, 
     And I live in the numbness now. 
     In the background. 
     I do the things we did before, 
     I walk Haight Street to the store, 
     And they say where's that crazy girl? 
     You don't get drunk on red wine, And light no more, 
     'Cause I don't see you anymore, 
     Since the hospital, 
     But the plans I make still have you in them, 
     Then you come swimming into view, 
     And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do, 
     The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you, 
     I only know this cause I am, Way back down, 
     In the background. 
     Words they come and memories all repeat, 
     I lift your head while, They change the hospital sheets, 
     I would never lie to you, No 
     I would never lie to you, No 
     I felt you long after we were through. 
     And the plans I make still have you in them, 
     Cause you come swimming into view, 
     And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do, 
     The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you, 
     I only know this cause I am, Way back down, 
     In the background.

     Summer time and the wind is blowing, Outside in lower Chelsea. 
     And I don't know what I'm doing in this city, 
     The sun is always in my eyes, 
     it crashes through the windows, And I'm sleeping on the couch, 
     When I came to visit you, 
     That's when I knew, I could never have you, 
     I knew that before you did, 
     Still I'm feeling stupid, 
     And there's this burning, Like there's always been, 
     I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive. 
     Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by, 
     Cigarette ash flies in your eyes, And you don't mind, And you smile, 
     And say the world doesn't fit with you. 
     I don't believe you, You're so serene. 
     Careening through the universe, Your axis on a tilt, Guiltless and free, 
     I hope you take a piece of me with you, 
     And there's things I'd like to do that you don't believe in, 
     I would like to build something, You know it's never going to happen, 
     And there's this burning, Like there's always been, 
     I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive, 
     And there's this burning, There is this burning. 
     Where's the soul. I want to know, New York City is evil. 
     The surface is everything, but I could never do that, 
     Someone would see through that. 
     And this will be the last time, We'll be friends again. 
     I'll get over you and you'll wonder, Who I am. 
     And there's this burning, Like there's always been, 
     I've never been so alone, And I've never been so alive, 
     I go home to the coast. It starts to rain, I paddle out, On the water Alone, 
     Taste the salt and taste the pain. I'm not thinking of you again, 
     Summer dies and swells rise, The sun goes down in my eyes, See this rolling wave,
     Darkly coming to take me, Home, 
     And I never been so alone, And I've never been so alive. 

     Every thought that I repent, 
     There's another chip you haven't spent, 
     And you're cashing them all in, 
     Where do we begin. To get clean again, 
     Can we get clean again. 
     I walk home alone with you, And the mood you're born into, 
     Sometimes you let me in, And I take it on the chin. 
     I can't get clean again. I want to know, Can we get clean again, 
     The God of Wine comes crashing through the headlights of a car that took you farther
     than you thought you'd ever want to go, 
     We can't get back again, We can't get back again, 
     She takes a drink and then she waits, 
     The alcohol it permeates, 
     And soon the cells give way, And cancels out the day. 
     I can't keep it all together, 
     I know...I can't keep it all together. 
     And the siren's song that is your madness, 
     Holds a truth I can't erase, All alone on your face. 
     Every glamorous sunrise, Throws the planets out of line, 
     A star sign out of whack, A fraudulent zodiac. 
     And the God of Wine is crouched down in my room, You let me down, I said it, 
     Now I'm going down, And you're not even around. 
     And I said no... 
     I can't keep it all together, 
     I know...I can't keep it all together, 
     And there's a memory of a window, Looking through I see you. 
     Searching for something, I could never give you, 
     And there's someone who understands you more than I do. 
     A sadness I can't erase. All alone on your face.