Madness?
no, i'm not mad.
i've just got nothing to be happy about.
Craziness?
yes, i'm crazy.
or maybe i'm the only sane one.
As i light a smoke,
i wonder,
why should i care?
Then i wonder,
why shouldn't i care??
As i finish,
i'm back to wondering,
why should i care???
I'm pushed over the mental cliff,
into insanity,
by people who don't give a damn about me.
If there IS anyone who cares,
they don't help.
and i wonder again,
why do i care?
... why should i care?? ...
-- Gerry Geer
VII
Hate.
a blind rage.
i can't think.
can barely move,
can barely speak.
i need out.
i must get away.
every one of my senses
tell me to get out.
i see blood red, taste blood,
i hear nothing
but my heart pounding.
my whole body shakes.
i escape!
...
...
...
i can think again.
i feel pain.
my knuckles dripping blood.
everything is broken, beaten.
...insanity...
-- Gerry Geer
VIII
God
he can not exist
does not exist
a myth, like Zeus.
if he truly exists,
an alien
a higher living intelligent being.
I can not believe in his existence,
for is he does exist,
How could such a god sit by and watch
as his followers become the way we are?
How could he let us suffer?
He cares not.
He exists not.
God
a story simply for hope
a hope for those,
who are damned with a weak mind,
with no self-strength.
God
a myth.
-- Gerry Geer
IX
Love, pain
friends, enemies
greed, lust
fear, hate
good, evil
right, wrong
craziness, need
hope, frustration
sorrow, memory
past, future
perspective
perception
.
LIFE
.
it bleeds, it burns
it shatters, it screams
fly away
get far away
reach for the stars
give in to the need
to
rise above it all.
-- Gerry Geer
X
Depression.
punishment for laughter.
scorn for a smile.
bindings from happiness.
held back by ... love?
hatred in that love.
nonconsentual feelings.
helpless in a one-sided fight
the light is there,
warm, happy, caring,
understanding,
out of reach.
held back by chains,
cold, hated, bound, jaded.
a tear is accompanied by only
a silent scream.
bindings from happiness.
-- Gerry Geer