Illusions. If one consults a dictionary the definition would
be as such;
false idea, belief or impression,
thing that a person believes to exist,
believe wrongly.
One illusion or another is always in our lives may it be the fact that we actually believe that someday the world will achieve peace, a unilateral peace or the illusion that someday mankind will actually come in harmony with nature. You may snicker or roll your eyes now thinking for a fact that in fact that this piece of literature is nothing but an adolescence folly, angry at the world and life. But question that should be asked would be in fact what is the truth? Is the truth believing that one day all mankind will come under one roof thinking one thing feeling one thing whilst also at the same time ‘pushing’, as would a hawker his product, the value and importance of individuality? Or The fact that man will always have war either in the form of a bullet as it speeds towards a man's skull leaving the barrel or in the form of hateful words through the mouths of self-righteous politicians who have the support of all the individuals whose mental capacity could be surpassed by a mere ape?
Everyday we are bombarded by the shells of ideas, claiming to embody the right and the just and the good. And anything bombarded enough gives and the ideas in fact slowly pour into the conscience that is our mind. Aren’t most morals, our sense of right and wrong artificially inseminated into our heads through an external body? How many of us can truly say that in fact our morals and ideas have been created by ourselves seeing and experiencing what truly is and is not? Not truly all, or am I in fact a depressed delusional entity who vomits morose prose?
Take the idea of good for instance; one contemporary example would be a person who donates money for charity. Would a person in fact be good if he/she donates just for the shake of appearance? Buying respect could be a term that can be used at this particular instance. Giving great deal of money from the overweight fat layer of wealth that he/she already accumulated. In order to indeed absolve them from the guilt from perhaps ruining many lives whilst getting to the wealth, all the while perhaps furthering his illusional persona. And later after the wealth has indeed been donated not caring whether in fact the money reaches the populace that the money has been donated to. Does that in fact exude or radiate "good"?
Does this very ‘generous’ person embody good or perhaps a poor ragged unclean person who has just donated his or her last dime? Some may argue for the fact at least the ‘generous’ person’s donations will be able to eventually, as it trickles down from the hierarchies of vultures, help more people than a dirty dime, which would be lost in the depths of shifty hands each vying for a piece of the cake. But again I would put to those people again, Is a concept of good nothing but a branching deprived of the idea of survival of the fittest, or the saying "Honey, money talks" and such? Or is it the thinking that makes someone good? Could we sacrifice the good thought to feed the good act? What is truly good?
And as every coin has it opposites sides there is also the conceptuality of "bad" or in a more religious term "evil". Before going into the concept of evil itself, I would like tell you what in fact someone said to me. I think it went like as so; "Be Good. Don’t be evil. Otherwise God will roast you slowly over a fire in the depths of brimstone hell". What I do not understand is if god in fact is supposed to be our creator wouldn’t it be in fact the matter that he is our parent? And I would like to ask the question of whether in fact any living human being in this face of the earth could roast their offspring alive slowly, the offspring that they have nurtured and grown? If a human being cannot do such vile an act how could someone who is supposed be an embodiment of good?
Evil:
morally bad, wicked
wrongdoing or wickedness.
This is the definition that one would find if they were to look up the word in a dictionary. But there has been a many different references and definitions of evil, religious or otherwise. Moreover the concept of evil is of such complex matter that none has tried to, or at least generally or more to the point, rationally succeeded in defining evil. And I am not arrogant as to think that I can.
But I would like to tell you about a documentary that I saw in a not so distant past. It was about the recruitment of children soldiers in the world, how young children were being used for killing and dieing in the world. During the one hour or so documentary the interviewer asked a young boy not more than 13 year old what in fact he did during the war. To which he replied that he in fact used to find pregnant women in the raided village and joked and bet with his friends whether it was a boy or a girl, and after the bet was done they used to cut the woman up and find out.
Shocking as it may sound this in fact did happen and there was not much change in how I interpreted it. Would or more clearly can this be viewed as an act of evil? Can a person not knowing of good or bad, or having delusions that they are doing good, be absolved of all evil? If in fact this is the case then so many, many "evil" people should be absolved, Hitler would be in fact to name one (I in fact apologize if I have offended people with this example).
Heinous as Hitler was, he was still a delusional man who actually thought that he doing the correct thing for the people, and "the betterment of the human race". Thus should he have been absolved? Is he evil? America in the World War II bombing of Hiroshima and Nagasaki is also not much less atrocious. They prided themselves in being just and fair and good but in face or fear of losing men, their men, decided that in fact lives of millions and millions of innocent civilians were suddenly expendable. Some may argue that it was a good course of action, because they, the enemies, have also in fact killed a lot of civilians. To whom I would reply with a very sardonic chuckle; Good? Just because they have already stooped down to that level, you want to too? What is the difference between them and you? There is a small innocent child and she has a virus that could spread in two days and wipe out a whole country or the world. Will you be ready to save human race through! the sacrifice of humanity?
But then again were the Americans wrong to think about their own people who have put their lives in their hands? Humans have for the time since their existence or more correct to the matter ‘awakening’ always used illusions to shield themselves from the truth and deemed the result what they see reality. May it be religion or the sake of the country or the people, they have used everything they can in order to justify themselves, they always say to themselves that in fact they wouldn’t be doing it if they had any other choice, when fact of the matter is that there is other choices but they are too weak to choose them. And later argue that killing a man was a very hard task indeed but how refuse to think that saving a man’s life would have been even harder, especially when the man is trying to kill you just because he think you are going to kill him.
Only when humans’ shed themselves of the tattered rags in which they hide themselves, shall they truly find order. Neutrally-Chaotic, as I would like to describe it. People often have illusions that they are good or right because they do one thing or another, give charity not because they want to but because they believe its good. That itself is very charitable and generous, but it is not good because the charity comes from the guilty conscience and not because you wanted to give charity. Neutrally-Chaotic may indeed sound like another inane conception thought up by the mind of hormonal adolescence. Perhaps an anarchist trying to make another form of anarchy, but in anarchy also there are rules and boundaries, possibly not more symbolized by a "A" with a circle around it but Neutrally-Chaotic person have no rule nor boundaries in which to cage themselves.
When someone is Neutrally-Chaotic they in fact don’t have any illusions about wrong or right, they do not make excuse about how their life is his because of that. Nor do they make excuses about what they are doing is because of this thing or other, they do what they want, they don’t what they don’t want to. They also matter of fact know that even though they do what they want, they shall have no illusions surrounding them whilst they look at themselves. They could say that they did this thing or another because of this thing or another, thus remorse will certainly follow. And remorse leads to depression and so on until they are incapacitated by their own guilt.
It is said that everything has a consequence but they will have no layer of illusions to protect them, and thus they will have to face the consequence, because a person can hide when naked from everybody but oneself.
BUT THEN AGAIN THIS IS ONLY ONE PERSON"S POINT OF VEIW.