depressed
fucking stupid me
hatred fills the little crevises inside of me, consumes the bigger parts of me, leaving me small
wanton desires push their way in upon me, and they leave me restless, leave me empty, leave me totally useless
i am the hole that you've feared i was
i am the vacuum that sucks all down with me
step back, else the undertow pull you along
love has taken my defenses and thrown them to the wind
i have been left the husk that was all they ever saw in me
what happened to who i was?
torn and blown to the seas
depressed
fucking stupid me