****CHAPTER 20****
**GINA'S PERSPECTIVE**
AJ and I got in the car and he drove off very quickly. I didn't know what to say and I was afraid what he was going to say. He kept his eyes on the road but started to talk. "How could you not tell me?" I sighed. "You really want to talk about this now? It isn't good to drive upset." He groanded. "Spare me, Gina. Were talking about this now, since you refused to tell me eariler." I looked out the window and watched the road go by. "I just found out like an hour ago. Why are you so upset about this? Aren't you at all happy?" "Because I can't have this now. I don't have time for it." I looked back over at him. "You can't have a baby right now? Well sorry AJ, but its coming if you like it or not. Look, I want this baby. I am perfectly happy taking care of it on my own if I have to." He looked over at me, not looking ahead anymore. "What?" I looked at the road ahead of us and saw we were coming up to an intersection. Then I noticed there was a car speeding and we were about to hit it. I screamed, "AJ, watch out!" Just then I heard a scretch and screams and I was knocked out.
When I woke up my head was lying against the dashboard. I rubbed my head and then I looked at my hand. I was bleeding. I looked over at the other car and saw the man driving it was threw the windsheld and there was blood everywere. I could feel myself getting sick. Then I looked at AJ. He was pinned up against the steering wheel. He started to wake up and then he looked at me. I moved closer to him. "AJ, baby, listen to me. I'm going to pull you out of the car from my side. The car smashed into your door, you can't get out that way and your sitting in a weird position. It doesn't look safe." I opened the door and got out. Then I leaned over and grabbed his arms and started to pull him out. When he was out I layed him on the ground. Then I remembered we had a blanket in the backseat. I went and got it then placed it under his head. Then I sat down next to him. AJ looked up at me and smiled. "Hi baby." I forced a smiled. "Hey." I ran my fingers threw his hair. "Gina, I'm sorry for being an ass. Look, can you tell my mom I love her?" I got confused. "AJ, you can tell her yourself." He coughed alittle. "No, I can't. Just listen to me. I am so sorry for fighting with you. I love you with all my heart. Nothing else in this world makes me as happy as you do. Not the fans, the music, nothing but you." I started to cry. "Please stop saying your goodbyes. You'll be fine." He shook his head. "No I'm not. And I know you can take care of the baby on your own. Don't be scared to be without me. I'll always be with you." Then his eyes rolled back and his eyelids closed. I started to cry uncontroably. Just then someone pushed me out of the way. There were police and paramatics everywhere. One of the paramatics took AJ's pulse, then he looked at the other and whisperd, "He's gone."
One of the police officers told me he would take me home. I had stopped crying but I was still in shock so I wasn't really talking. He parked the car in front of my house. "Listen miss, you shouldn't be alone now. Call someone to come over and be with you." I nodded my head and stepped out of the car. When I got inside I sat down on the couch. I saw a picture sitting on the coffee table. I picked it up. It was my favorite picture of me and AJ. It was taken during the video shoot of "Larger Than Life." I smiled a little. In the picture AJ was kissing my cheek and I was smiling. I traced the picture with my finger, then a tear fell and hit it. I put it down and rubbed my eyes. "Oh God, what am I gonna do?" I leaned over and quickly dialed the girls phone number. Christina's gitty voice picked up the phone. "Hello?" I sighed. "Um...Christina." I couldn't even finish the sentence. I started to cry again. "Gina? What's wrong?" I swollowed my tears. "Can someone come over? Um...AJ's....he's dead." She gasped. "What?... Oh My God. We'll be over right now. Don't move." I hung up the phone and then sat there for a second. Is this really happning? Everything was perfect. We were getting married in a week. It isn't supposed to end like this. I got up and went to the kitchen. I opened the cabnet and took out a bottle of pills. I filled up a glass with water. Then I opened the bottle, but they flew everywhere. I sat on the ground, franticly picking them up like it was free 100 dollor bills. Just then I heard the door swing open and all the girls came running in the kitchen crying. They sat down around me, hugging me. I pulled away and Danielle was sitting infront of me. "Oh, God. What happened?" I started to cry more. She hugged me again. "Okay, we don't have to talk about it." Then she looked at what I was holding. "What is this? Were you going to kill youself?" I looked away from her angry eyes. "Gina, no. Your not alone. Were here for you. We love you so much." I shook my head. "I don't deserve to live." She then slapped me.
I sat up in the bed, sweating bullets. I was breathing heavy. I looked around. Where am I? Just then I felt familiar comforting arms wrap around me. I turned and saw AJ. "Oh my God, AJ!" I wrapped my arms around him and didn't let go. "Baby, are you okay. You were shaking and scraming in your sleep. Must have been some dream." Then he noticed I was crying. "Gina, your scaring me. What's wrong?" I told him the whole dream threw my sobs. He hugged me again. "It was so real. I don't even now what is real and fantasy now." He sighed. "We'll us fighting in the car was real, but you fell asleep. I carried you in, and here we are." He sighed again. "I''m sorry for yelling at you. I just was upset you didn't tell me the second you new anything. I really do want this baby. The more I think about it the more I know what a great mom you will be." I kissed him. "And you will be a great dad." I took a deep breath. "I never want a dream like that again."
AJ got up off the bed and walked over to the CD player. He put in a CD and turned to face me. I heard "No One Else Comes Close" start to play. He walked over to me. He put out his hand. "May I have this dance?" I smiled and placed my hand in his. We wrapped our arms around eachother and started to sway to the music. AJ whispherd in my ear, "This song explains exacally how I feel about you." I smiled as he sang along with the words. "No one else comes close to you, no one makes me feel the way you do. Your so special girl to me and you'll always be eternally. Everytime I hold you near, you always say the words I love to hear. Girl with just a touch you can do so much, No one else comes close." Soon the song ended and we sat back down on the bed. I looked deep into his eyes. "Are you scared?" He cringed his nose. "About what?" I sighed. "The baby." He bit his lip. "Are you?" I started to cry. "I'm terrified." He hugged me. "Don't be. We will be fine. I know it's scarey, but we can do it." I kissed him. "I hope you right."
