from the album “Adema”
EVERYONE
I’m sick of the excuses that you want me to believe.I’ve been understanding, giving everything you need.
Using me is over now and soon you’re gonna see I’m done with you.
Would there be a difference if I followed what you say?
Taken from my mind and I can’t seem to get away.
Using me is over now and soon you’re gonna see I’m done with you.
Everyone is the same, quick to point the blame,
All I know is that life is a struggle.
Why? I can’t seem to escape all the games that you play,
All I know is that life is a struggle.
Sorry, I’m angry, I’ve fallen from everything.
Why am I so angry inside my head?
Life’s all the same, it’s gonna change, I’m not ashamed to live my life.
Everyone is the same, quick to point the blame,
All I know is that life is a struggle.
Why? I can’t seem to escape all the games that you play,
All I know is that life is a struggle.
Life’s all the same, it’s gonna change, I’m not ashamed.
BLOW IT AWAY
Every day I think about what you did, living life ain’t much with all the shit,Cause I’m going insane with all of it, you keep driving me crazy.
Always crazy, you’re gonna drive me crazy,
You’re gonna wake up one day dead inside cause your alone, not in my life.
I think about you sometimes and want to kill you.
You disrespected my pride, how could you do this?
All my life has always been like this, taking shit
And I can’t deal with it, selfish bitch that’s always full of it,
You keep driving me crazy, always crazy, you’re gonna drive me crazy,
You’re gonna wake up one day dead inside cause your alone, not in my life.
I think about you sometimes and want to kill you.
You disrespected my pride, how could you do this?
I’m going crazy tonight and I blow it away.
You want me to be like you.
GIVING IN
Will you walk me to the edge again? Shaking, lonely, and I am drinking again.Woke up tonight and no one’s here with me, I’m giving in to you.
Take me under, I’m dying tonight, watch me crumble, I’m crying tonight.
Caught up in life, losing all my friends, family has tried to heal all my addictions.
Tragic it seems to be alone again, I’m giving in to you.
Take me under, I’m dying tonight, watch me crumble, I’m crying tonight.
I look forward to dying tonight, drink til I’m myself, life’s harder every day.
The stress has got me, I’m giving in now.
FREAKING OUT
I was so much an outcast, no one ever liked me cause I wasn’t wanted,I was so different from the rest of them all, fucked up on the drugs, from all the speed,
And I never got no sleep cause I kept on tripping over what they said,
And everything that my mom said made me mad,
And everything that my dad said made me sad.
Why am I even trying? I’m crying out, I cannot seem to keep from freaking out.
Spinning round, I’ve fallen down, I cannot seem to keep from freaking out.
You keep shooting those glances, relating to the rawness of a fucking lost kid,
Trying so hard to become just like me, talk like me, walk like me.
You keep tripping on everything I wear, every time I swear, even when it comes to my hair.
It seems like you don’t have the time to relate to my kind, I’m not a dumb fool in your life.
Why am I even trying? I’m crying out, I cannot seem to keep from freaking out.
Spinning round, I’ve fallen down, I cannot seem to keep from freaking out.
I’m tripping out, I cannot seem to keep from freaking out.
Draw me down, break me down, I’ve hit the ground, I cannot seem to keep from freaking out.
Now do you trip, are you still tripping on me?
I was so much an outcast, I can’t seem to find a way to make it right.
I was so much an outcast, no ever liked me, I can’t seem to find a way to make it right.
THE WAY YOU LIKE IT
(I’ll get inside you)Don’t live with shame, cause feelings change and fame remains,
The reason why you're gonna want to take me home tonight.
It’s all the same up in this game, the people change
And money claims everyone from everything.
I can’t believe that you would think that shit of me,
I was amazed at the torment that you put me through.
If you could see right through the greed and all your needs,
You’ll realise that you are just about as bad as me.
Sometimes I only remember the days when I was young,
Nowadays no one remembers when they were young and stupid, the way you like it.
Come on baby help me, someone to confide in, now you’re begging me to stay.
My life has changed but fuck the fame, I’ll stay the same.
You can’t complain when you can pay the bills and do your thing.
Appreciate, don’t player hate, congratulate,
I miss the pain and the torment that you put me through.
So what’s to fear when everything is crystal clear?
You realise that you should do the things you want to do.
Don’t give in to what people say, don’t be ashamed
To separate the feelings on your mind you can’t sedate.
Sometimes I only remember the days when I was young,
Nowadays no one remembers when they were young and stupid, the way you like it.
Come on baby help me, someone to confide in, now you’re begging me to stay.
They would always say I’d never be shit, but look at me now.
CLOSE FRIENDS
Today you told me that I’d hate you forever, I can’t believe what’s really going on.Somehow I knew that you felt guilty for something, but tell me why you do this to me?
Today you told me that I’d hate you forever, I can’t believe that you’d wreck my life.
I was betrayed, how can you say that you feel sorry inside?
It’s devastating, losing close friends.
I’ve gone away, you make me stay but I can’t tell it from lies.
I’ve gone insane, losing close friends.
Today I made the worst mistake, I put my trust into someone I don’t know,
And now I know because you’ve done everything possible to me, made me so upset.
And now I know just who to trust because you’re laying in bed,
You’re thinking bout all that fucked up shit.
I was betrayed, how can you say that you feel sorry inside?
It’s devastating, losing close friends.
I’ve gone away, you make me stay but I can’t tell it from lies.
I’ve gone insane, losing close friends.
I’m so weak, the closeness of your skin, the smell of this place makes me go insane.
DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO
Where will we go?Sign away all of my decisions, choke me when I breathe,
Too many opinions, I gave away my freedom to please you.
Let them talk so they feel important, they don’t mean a thing, this is my own dream,
Why do you have to put this on me?
Where will we go? I’m a mess.
Do what you want to do, when the fuck you want to do it.
Try hard to live your life, live life the way that you want.
Life’s a game, so don’t complain, you can’t obtain, figure out how to maintain.
It’s a shame, make a change so life will never ever bind me down.
Found out just what it’s really all about, never doubt, I wish I could get out,
Why do you have to put this on me?
Where will we go? I’m a mess.
Do what you want to do, when the fuck you want to do it.
Try hard to live your life, live life the way that you want.
SKIN
Days will come that make no sense, my present situation makes me think too much.It all revolves around you, this life that I’m living means nothing without you.
I’d shed my skin for you, what would you want me to do?
I will always love you, but I can’t live like this.
This problem here is my fault, it’s not that I don’t care but I’m so lost.
I’d shed my skin for you, what would you want me to do?
I will always love you, but I can’t live like this.
Now you see why.
Don’t fuck with feelings inside. Who you lying to? Will I survive?
I like what you put me through cause I feel almost alive.
PAIN INSIDE
Realise that I’ve lost control, impulses keep flashing through my head, I’m on the outside.Take apart my life inside, why would I let them make up my mind and be misled?
Go ahead, make up your mind, I have had enough of who they want, leave me alone.
There's pain inside, I can’t understand, this hate in life that will not go away.
This pain inside, I cannot live with it, it feels like no one really understands.
It’s always killing me, the problems I face daily.
It’s always things that I have always taken in vain, I’m sick of you judging me.
SPECULUM
There’s so many people dying, you complain about your situation, what about me?Half the world wouldn’t know what it’s like to lose your seed,
Maybe you can understand how it feels.
I cannot reach that soul, you’re probably watching over us.
Know that I think of you, it’s killing me.
The guilt has lasted, you still cry, it was all planned out.
Why was I last to know? Don’t you trust in me?
The table’s cold, it’s too late to make up for these mistakes,
Maybe you can’t understand how it feels.
I cannot reach that soul, you’re probably watching over us.
Know that I think of you, it’s killing me.
If I would have known, I can’t say what I would have done.
If you could forgive, I’d like to rest with you someday.
DROWNING
I gave in to the stress in life, I can’t escape, the pressure seems to get me down.It’s like a needle in my spine, it stings inside, poisons me with time,
I can’t deal with your lies, I wish I could watch you drown and die, and take my time.
Life has always been a problem, can’t you see I don’t fit in?
People have said I’m not okay, I lost my mind, numb me til I won’t feel pain again.
It’s like a needle in my spine, it stings inside, poisons me with time.
I won’t deal with your lies, I wish I could watch you drown and die, and take my time.
Life has always been a problem, can’t you see I don’t fit in?
Life is gone, I have no one, life is gone, I am no one, life is gone, I have a lie.
Something is happening inside of my mind, let it all go and in time you will find
Nothing is real and it dies in the lies, suffocate feelings you hide with lies.
TRUST
Let me breathe.I can’t even think right now, something’s got me feeling guilty.
Hurt you slowly but so surely, I don’t know why, love you so much.
I can’t feel because I’m lost, not too much matters no more.
Is it you, is it me, is it us or is it trust?
Push you into what I want because I am so goddamn selfish,
Left you hanging, stopped relating, I don’t know why, love you so much.
I can’t feel because I’m lost, not too much matters no more.
Is it you, is it me, is it us or is it trust?
I’m so alone, empty and lost, it’s easier to let you go.
Time will erode the shame and the fault, it’s easier to let you go.
from the EP “Insomniac’s Dream”
IMMORTAL
Let’s fight!We’re face to face, loyalty is what I need to see from you.
You’re insecure, I can see the fear that breeds in your heart.
Where will you run? Where will you hide? I see the blood drip from your eyes.
Who will survive? Let’s get it on and we’ll fight.
I know who you are, the leader of lost souls, you can’t kill me, I’m immortal.
I’m not afraid to die, my soul will travel on, you can’t kill me, I’m immortal.
I need the rush, there’s nowhere you can hide before you die.
Why won’t you face me? I can see the fear that’s in your eyes.
Where will you run? Where will you hide? I see the blood drip from your eyes.
Who will survive? Let’s get it on and we’ll fight.
I know who you are, the leader of lost souls, you can’t kill me, I’m immortal.
I’m not afraid to die, my soul will travel on, you can’t kill me, I’m immortal.
SHATTERED
Do you wake up and wonder where you’re really going,Reached the age in life you wanted to achieve your goals?
Now confusion, it lingers making me feel sick to my stomach,
Because who knows what will happen next?
I shattered into pieces in this world, your world, my world.
Confusion, it lingers, a fear of loathing that I regret
Because who knows what will happen next?
I shattered into pieces in this world, your world, my world.
What do you want in life, do you have plans for the future?
I wonder, does anything matter?
Is luck all the same or they had a tough road, hold onto your gold or you’ll have nothing.
Why have I shattered into pieces in this world, your world, my world?
NUTSHELL
We chase misprinted lies, we face the path of time,And yet I fight this battle all alone.
No one to cry to, no place to call home.
My gift of self is raped, my privacy is raked,
And yet I find repeating in my head.
If I can’t be my own, I’d feel better dead.
from the album “Unstable”
CO-DEPENDENT
Most people don’t care, some people just fear.There’s so much pressure that my life will feed us.
Don’t need a reason, I will get even, this is the season where I feel so manic.
You hurt yourself and blame me when you fall,
You have lost control and crashed into a wall, you’re codependent.
I am a bad seed, it fuels my own needs, I never was scared to take my chances.
I see the downfall cause I’m not social, I’ve got my own life and you can’t stand it.
You hurt yourself and blame me when you fall,
You have lost control and crashed into a wall,
Life has found a way where karma slaps you in the face.
You depend on me for everything, you’re codependent.
RIP THE HEART OUT OF ME
I woke up this morning and knew that the world would test me, come unglued.Is it me, or do you feel my pain? This world makes my blood boil again.
You rip the heart out in me, you make it look easy, control and deceive me.
I’ve tried everything to please you, gone out of my way like a fool.
What makes me break down like a bitch? It’s so hard to crawl out of this ditch.
You rip the heart out in me, you make it look easy, control and deceive me.
STAND UP
Abusive no more.He says he loves you but the makeup will not cover up the bruises he left on you.
I’ve tried to stop the cycle for you, this relationship is wack,
You bastard, don’t touch her anymore.
(stand up)
He’s a drunk and abusive, he thinks that you’ll never leave him,
I won’t let him get near you, it’s not your fault when he hurts you.
I think that you should have the chance to enjoy the friends you have;
He wants to erase them.
I know that you were trying hard not to show it
But the coward is an asshole, he’s shameless.
(stand up)
He’s a drunk and abusive, he thinks that you’ll never leave him,
I won’t let him get near you, it’s not your fault when he hurts you.
Abusive no more.
(stand up)
It’s not your fault when he hits you, he thinks that you’ll never leave him,
He’ll always hurt you, one day he’ll kill you.
He’s always hurting you, one day he’ll kill you.
UNSTABLE
I wanted to know who you really are, I needed the chance to stitch up my scars,I’m closer to you than I was in the start, come dive right in and tear me apart.
I’m trapped and we can’t get along, I thought that I was strong, we are so unstable.
In bed I’m strung out from your touch, but I won’t give you up, we are so unstable.
I wanted to learn about the dark side of you, you bring me down like a bottle of pills.
I hate the way that you make me feel, I keep coming back, I never get killed.
I’m trapped and we can’t get along, I thought that I was strong, we are so unstable.
In bed I’m strung out from your touch, but I won’t give you up, we are so unstable.
You’re so unstable, we’re so unstable, I’m so unstable.
PROMISES
I went outside to take a walk so I could relive memories,I thought that you would lend a hand, but you were never ever there.
It’s all in your mind, you do what you want to do.
Your promises are all played out, you’ve got your wish, you’ve worn me down.
I’ve treated you the best I could, I realise that I don’t need you.
I lost my way when you left home, I thought that you could change your life.
What did I do, why do you lie? You’ve walked back in, my hands are tied.
It’s all in your mind, you do what you want to do.
Your promises are all played out, you’ve got your wish, you’ve worn me down.
I’ve treated you the best I could, I realise that I don’t need you.
I’m tired, I’m so damn angry with you, you’re not gonna change, I see who you really are.
Your promises, they’re all played out, you’re so played out, they’re all played out.
BLAME ME
I’m always gonna be one life behind, that’s why I’m all alone.What’s it gonna take to make you see that we are falling apart?
I wonder can we throw away the past so we can stop the screaming match?
I’m not gonna break down anymore, I’ve found my way to the door.
I can see through both of us, it’s an issue over trust, it’s killing me to watch you leave me.
I’ve tried to talk about what’s really wrong, I see that look of discontent,
The volume starts to rise and then it’s on, that’s why I have to go.
Dealing with the pain is all that’s left because we cannot get along.
You want to put the blame on me again, I think that we have reached the end.
I can see through both of us, it’s an issue over trust, it’s killing me to watch you leave me.
It’s your turn to watch me leave you.
SO FORTUNATE
I never thought I was strong enough to handle raising my own son,You’ll always fear what you’ve never done,
I hope he’ll know me when I come home.
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you.
I love my child, he’s got his mother’s smile, I’m so fortunate.
Life can get tight but I will make it right, I’m so fortunate.
I had to learn what meant more to me, my family’s became everything.
I miss you more than you’ll ever know,
I wish that I could just leave, go home.
Nothing’s gonna change my love for you.
I love my child, he’s got his mama’s smile, I’m so fortunate.
Life can get tight but I will make it right, I’m so fortunate.
STRESSIN’ OUT
The weight of the world has been put on my shoulders,I looked in mirror and know that I’m older.
I try to escape but the rain makes it colder, why do I let all our problems take over?
There’s nothing I can do, there’s nothing I can say,
We need to try to find the right way.
(stress me out)
God has turned His back on me, there’s nothing left for us to say,
God has turned His back, there’s nothing left to bleed.
I’ve tried to explain what it’s doing to me, arguing over the simplest things.
You try to make life how you want it to be, upset everyday isn’t something we need.
There’s nothing I can do, there’s nothing I can say,
We need to try to find the right way.
(stress me out)
God has turned His back on me, there’s nothing left for us to say,
God has turned His back, there’s nothing left to bleed.
You’re letting me down again.
DO YOU HEAR ME
Are you looking down on me right now? I feel your presence beam down.Watching you get ill, it changed our lives, your hand went limp and we cried.
I didn’t realise you had to go, emotionless overflow.
I wish I had the chance to tell you I’m so sorry.
Do you hear me praying to you? I’m thinking of you.
I know that you are in a better place, somewhere that you can escape.
I’m looking for a sign from up above that you still care and have love.
I was really young and didn’t know, the pain took over your soul.
I wish I had the chance to tell you I’m so sorry.
Do you hear me praying to you? I’m thinking of you.
Work harder for nothing, to find you, I’m failng.
Work harder for nothing at all, to find you, you’re nowhere.
LET GO
I’m sitting on the edge of the water, contemplating my strange life.The sun starts to fall into the ground, a breeze picks up off the waves,
And everything is fine.
Let go of all of your pain.
I know that I am not alone,
Everyone makes mistakes and starts to learn with time.
I am content with who I am, there’s nothing more I need to say,
I’m happy with my life.
Let go of all of your pain, let go and you’ll escape, you’ll be happy with yourself.
Let go and release all this pain.
BETRAYED ME
I watched you change and never knew that you would be like all the rest.You were so true, too good to be true, I trusted you and fell apart again.
I cannot change the fact that your not coming back, so depressed I’m your slave.
Betrayed me, you’re not the one to be trusted with my love,
Betrayed me, you’re not the one who should be trusted with my love.
I had to leave so I could breathe, I hate to fight, that’s not what I want.
You were so true, too good to be true, I trusted you and fell apart again.
I cannot change the fact that your not coming back, so depressed I’m your slave.
Betrayed me, you’re not the one to be trusted with my love,
Betrayed me, you’re not the one who should be trusted with my love.
NEEDLES
Do you want to live?I know this girl with a needle in her arm,
The red dragon’s walking circles through her soul.
Chasing dragons to appease the tracks upon her soul.
Cooked the shit twice today to shut out all the pain.
I can’t take it anymore, take this needle from my vein, take it from my vein.
All I feel is pain, there’s nothing left but bloodstains.
The tracks you have, they tell the tale of what your hell on earth would feel.
Do you want to live?
Let that needle fly away, remove it from your life.
Do you want to live or do you want to die?
I can’t take it anymore, take this needle from my vein, take it from my vein.
All I feel is pain, there’s nothing left but bloodstains.
When it all comes down, does the one thing end your life?
And you make the world that we hate inside.
Everything is crying on me, it’s gone, I’ve become your god.
Why does everybody have problems?
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