I'll Live a Lie - Disturbed lyrics
from the album "Asylum"
ASYLUM
Release me!
No remnants were ever found of it, feeling the hot bile with every fake smile.
Though no evidence was ever found, it never went away completely.
I tried to hide from the unholy sound of it, another day gone, another night's dawn.
Dark forces pull me underground that never went away completely.
How can I feel this empty? I will not recover this time, this loneliness is killing me.
Will I never know peace of mind again? I don't believe it, I can't achieve it.
I think it all is just another sign it never went away completely.
Terror is coursing in me, dreading the final moment when I have to dream and feel you die.
(Death inside of me keeps a diligent watch on everything, keeps a terrible hold on my belief, just waiting for the moment when I die.)
In asylum I live a lie, don't you know I'm in love with you and I wasn't ready for asylum, relive a lie.
To let go, now it's dragging me into your grave, your asylum, forgive the lie,
Overcome by the feeling that I will get to join you in time, for the loneliness is killing me.
Death's images are all around again, they're right behind me, they're gonna find me,
Judgement for the immortal sin that had enveloped me completely.
I know I'll never know a peaceful night again, afraid they'll hear me, they don't fear me,
Punishment for the immoral crime, the debt was never paid completely.
Terror is coursing in me, dreading the final moment when I have to dream and feel you die.
(Death inside of me keeps a diligent watch on everything, keeps a terrible hold on my belief, just waiting for the moment when I die.)
In asylum I live a lie, don't you know I'm in love with you and I wasn't ready for asylum, relive a lie.
To let go, now it's dragging me into your grave, your asylum, forgive the lie,
Overcome by the feeling that I will get to join you in time, for the loneliness is killing me.
In the end there will be no suffering (more suffering), in the end you will find out everything (not anything),
In the end you may question your belief (what belief?), in the end you will realise finally how you were deceived.
This has gone on too long, no more demonic dreams; destroyer, come tonight because her memory is killing me.
In asylum I live a lie, I let go, now it's dragging me into your grave.
For asylum, relive the lie, overcome and the feeling that I will get to join you in time, (without you) this world is not fulfilling me.
Don't think I live in asylum, I live a lie; don't want to live in asylum, I'll live a lie.
THE INFECTION
In the back of my mind I can barely even remember when there was nothing left to hide and she had found a way inside then.
I was forced to walk alone, living in an empty home, all I wanted was to hide and try to numb the ache inside,
And I'm still afraid of the light, and a thousand voices share their laughter at my demise.
Now if I am to survive, the infection must die; murder the beast that's been eating me alive, the infection must die.
Nothing left but a broken man, terrified of everything, nothing left of his foolish pride, his fond memories slowly die then.
As he wakes again alone, still a prisoner in his home, ready to allow the dark to penetrate his broken heart,
And he's still afraid of the light, and a thousand voices share their laughter at his demise.
Now if I am to survive, the infection must die; murder the beast that's been eating me alive, the infection must die.
(Come on, motherfucker.)
This is where I draw the line, this infection must die; give me release from this demon of mine, the infection must die.
WARRIOR
I am now an instrument of violence, I am a vessel of invincibility, I cannot leave this undecided, stepping down to battle another day.
Remember me for all time, this determination is a vital part of me, surrender now or be counted with the endless masses that I will defeat.
Come on, bring it, don't sing it, better believe it.
Broken down til your hope has died, beat down til the victory is mine, stand up and show me some pride, and now are you ready?
I'm one with the warrior inside, my dominance can't be denied, your entire world will turn into a battlefield tonight.
As I look upon you through the warrior's eyes now, I can see the fear that will ensure my victory this time.
I can't be told to compromise this, they'll never doubt the body lying at my feet, a most formidable reminder they will speak my name for eternity.
I have no need of any guidance, I am a weapon powerful beyond belief, seen through the warrior's eyes, I never need to question how to defeat you.
Come on, bring it, don't sing it, better believe it.
Broken down til your hope has died, beat down til the victory is mine, stand up and show me some pride, and now are you ready?
I'm one with the warrior inside, my dominance can't be denied, your entire world will turn into a battlefield tonight.
As I look upon you through the warrior's eyes now, I can see the fear that will ensure my victory this time.
You can't hide now, I am the warrior, so decide now how they'll remember you.
Do not hide now, act like a warrior, show your pride now, solidify your place in time.
I'm one with the warrior inside, the evidence can't be denied, the entire world will stare into this battlefield tonight.
As I stand before you with the warrior's heart now, I can feel the strength that will ensure my victory this time.
ANOTHER WAY TO DIE
The indulgence of our lives has cast a shadow on our world, our devotion to our appetites betrayed us all.
An apocalyptic plight, more destruction will unfold, Mother Earth will show her darker side and take her toll.
It's just another way to die.
There can be no other reason why, you know we should have seen it coming, consequences we cannot deny will be revealed in time.
Glaciers melt as we pollute the sky, a sign of devastation coming, we don't need another way to die, can we repent in time?
The time bomb is ticking and no one is listening, our future is fading, is there any hope we'll survive?
Still we ravage the world that we love, and the millions cry out to be saved, our endless maniacal appetite left us with another way to die.
It's just another way to die, can we repent in time?
Greed and hunger led to our demise, a path I can't believe we followed, black agenda's rooted in a lie, will we repent in time?
Species fall before our very eyes, a world that they cannot survive in left them with another way to die, are we dead inside?
The time bomb is ticking and no one is listening, our future is fading, is there any hope we'll survive?
Still we ravage the world that we love, and the millions cry out to be saved, our endless maniacal appetite left us with another way to die.
It's just another way to die, can we repent in time?
NEVER AGAIN
Never again.
They have a frightening desire for genocide, they wouldn't stop til what was left of my family died.
Hellbent on taking over the world, you couldn't hide in the shroud of conformity.
We can't forget how we were devastated by the beast, and how we pleaded to the captors for release.
We were hunted for no reason at all, one of the darkest times in our history.
All that I have left inside is a soul that's filled with pride, I tell you, never again.
Their depraved society didn't end up killing me, scream with me, never again, not again.
A generation that was persecuted endlessly, exterminated by the Nazi war machine.
We will remember, let the story be told, to realise how we lost our humanity.
You dare to tell me that there never was a Holocaust, you think that history will leave the memory lost,
Another Hitler using fear to control, you're gonna fail this time for the world to see.
All that I have left inside is a soul that's filled with pride, I tell you, never again.
Their depraved society didn't end up killing me, scream with me, never again, not again.
For the countless souls who've died, their voices fill this night, sing with me, never again.
They aren't lost, you see, the truth will live in me; believe me, never again.
THE ANIMAL
I can feel the animal inside and my resolve is weakening; pounding at the doors of my mind, it's nearly overpowering.
I cannot begin to describe the hunger that I feel again, run if you intend to survive, for the beast is coming to life.
Taking form in the glimmer of this tainted moonlight, death approaches on this night.
For the animal's soul is mine, we will be completed right before your eyes.
I have no control this time, and now we both shall dine in Hell tonight.
I can hear it calling again, the primal need is filling me; changes are about to begin, and now my blood is boiling.
I can see the fear in your eyes but you can't bring yourself to scream, time to shed the mortal disguise, the beast is coming to life.
Taking form in the glimmer of this tainted moonlight, death approaches on this night.
For the animal's soul is mine, we will be completed right before your eyes.
I have no control this time, and now we both shall dine in Hell tonight.
We begin the hunt tonight, I feel the power course as the creatures take flight, for the kill is close and I will be satisfied,
For the smell of fear tonight wakes an ancient lust that will not be denied, you're mine.
For the animal's soul is mine, and the world around will never hear your cries.
An unholy crime, and now we both shall dine in Hell tonight.
CRUCIFIED
When others left before, I could never turn away, now that it's come to this, is there nothing left to say?
I've never known before such exquisite suffering, as I watched you walk away I gave into panicking.
I can't believe that this is really happening, am I really lost again, desperation drives me insane.
I will focus all the pain right into your heart til it makes you blind, til the faces of your former world have fallen from your sight,
Til you're mine, until the voice of doubt no longer dominates your mind, I'm crucified.
Cold and unwhole again, crying out and questioning, will I ever love again, what's the point of anything?
It takes a toll again, this is where the fun begins, visions haunt me through the night, now I'm dying for your sins.
I can't believe that if you looked me in the face you can say there's nothing left,
how the silence drives me insane.
I will focus all the pain right into your heart til it makes you blind, til the faces of your former world have fallen from your sight,
Til you're mine, until the voice of doubt no longer dominates your mind, I'm crucified.
I cannot feel anything, anger I've been harbouring, you've nailed me to the cross, upon it I will remain.
I can't feel anything, rage inside is festering, you've nailed me to the cross, upon it I will remain.
SERPENTINE
See the dogs come running, smelling blood now, to an open sore on the parasite.
Countless hearts have fallen, hard to number, damnation's whore is looking for a victim tonight.
With an angry soul and a wicked design, your will cannot endure and your heart is torn away.
I was caught up in the moment, we were alone and you seemed to harness the light,
Even though I felt cold inside when you told me it would be alright.
I had given up control and I didn't focus hard enough to see the warning signs, your heart is serpentine.
Damn what I'm becoming, one of them now, just an opened door on an endless night.
Dark desire burning in my blood now, how can I be sure, I don't know if I'll be able to fight.
With a tortured soul and an honest design, my will cannot endure as my heart is torn away.
I was caught up in the moment, we were alone and you seemed to harness the light,
Even though I felt cold inside when you told me it would be alright.
I had given up control and I didn't focus hard enough to see the warning signs, your heart is serpentine.
Now that I've been torn apart, will there be an end to this, will there finally be release, will I finally rest in peace?
I'm determined to believe my prayers will be received.
Evil personified, your heart is serpentine.
MY CHILD
Tore it up again, I couldn't stop again, letting go til there was nothing in the way.
Fought the feeling then, I gave in again, sweet surrender to the angel I denied.
When you came to life, I was terrified, I knew that nothing else would ever feel the same.
Doubt came over me, what kind of father would I be, I knew the time had come to stand up and be a man,
To change a face in my life, your future in mind, time to do what is right, a new beginning.
The world around me died when I saw that heartbeat, I knew it wasn't a sin.
Can someone tell me why this has happened to me, why was it only in death were you redeemed, my child?
No serenity within agony, every day brings on a hundred ways to fight.
Constant scrutiny, I can feel you judging me, resurrecting every demon that's inside.
Her face was horrified, you struggled still alive, my one desire was to trade my soul for yours.
Grief crippled me, the reaper cheated me, left me yearning for the path I'd come to adore.
To change a face in my life, your future in mind, time to do what is right, a new beginning.
The world around me died when I saw that heartbeat, I knew it wasn't a sin.
Can someone tell me why this has happened to me, why was it only in death were you redeemed, my child?
I pray you were redeemed, my child.
SACRIFICE
I will forever be reminded of how I struggled to survive the betrayal that you conspired in, all that devotion thrown away.
And with everything I confided, I should have known not to trust again.
This insanity has divided, left me with nothing left to destroy, I'm becoming so paranoid, everyone is so paranoid.
In a moment you will see my other side, when I'm confronted my demeanour turns from Jekyll into Hyde.
Hell has broken free tonight, no pale deception anymore; you awoke him, now he will feed on the lies, he demands your sacrifice.
I can barely control this feeling, look at the murder in my eyes, I was never good at concealing violent thoughts have come to life.
Horror will have a deeper meaning, you are the reason this began.
Even now I can hear you screaming, there's only one thing left to destroy, and I'll no longer be paranoid, no more reason to be annoyed.
In a moment you will see my other side, when I'm confronted my demeanour turns from Jekyll into Hyde.
Hell has broken free tonight, no pale deception anymore; you awoke him, now he will feed on the lies, he demands your sacrifice.
INNOCENCE
Who is innocent, no one is innocent, who is innocent?
Who is innocent, is it relevant in the world today, I shake my head in disbelief.
The killer walks again, freed by evil men in their dark charade, this can't be happening.
A mother's selfish pride, her child's homicide, can she be to blame, the suited vultures circling.
A father's cruelty, a murdered family, is the world insane, their defenders ready to embrace their lies with their devious smiles.
Your corruption is like a cancer growing inside, you owe the world an apology.
You've been taught all your life that truth is easy to hide, you'll face your judgement another day and suffer eternally.
Who is innocent, no one is innocent, who is innocent?
Presumed innocent, justice fails again in the masquerade, a battered woman trembling.
Her lover drunk again, when will the torture end in her web of shame, is death the only way?
A child victimised, the crime politicised for the counsellor's gain, the rabid media congregates.
His tortured memories, a pervert's fantasies, is the world insane, the parasitic devastation seen on your TV screen.
Your corruption is like a cancer growing inside, you owe the world an apology.
You've been taught all your life that truth is easy to hide, you'll face your judgement another day and suffer eternally.
False defender, burn forever.
Cold and spineless, have you no soul, wicked-minded, out of control and guided by their hunger, they will find new ways to betray us.
Who is innocent, is it relevant in the world today, I shake my head in disbelief.
Presumed innocent, justice fails again in the masquerade, has the whole world become insane?
I STILL HAVEN'T FOUND WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR
I have climbed highest mountains, I have run through the fields only to be with you.
I have run, I have crawled, I have scaled these city walls only to be with you,
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for, no, I still haven't found what I'm looking for.
I have kissed honey lips, felt the healing in her fingertips, it burned like a fire, this burning desire.
I have spoke with the tongue of angels, I have held the hand of the devil, it was warm in the night, I was cold as a stone,
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for, no, I still haven't found what I'm looking for.
I believe in the kingdom come, and all the colours will bleed into one, but yes, I'm still running.
You broke the bonds and you loosed the chains, carried the cross of my shame, you know I believe that,
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for, no, I still haven't found what I'm looking for.
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