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from the EP “God Lives Underwater”
DRAG ME DOWN
You don’t know me, you think you can judge me, budge me, rape me, love me.You wait for me to just believe you like all the time before.
I was young then, ask for it again, I feel the sweat in my eyes.
How could you treat me just like a child when I couldn’t even realise?
Do you love me, do you need me, maybe someday.
Do you please me, so I’ll please you, don’t drag me, don’t you drag me down.
Now I know you think that I love you, trust you, want you, don’t you?
You want me to be free to say anything on my mind.
I can’t understand why another man wouldn’t leave you alone.
Maybe they don’t see what I see, I hope you’re left on your own.
Do you love me, do you need me, maybe someday.
Do you please me, so I’ll please you, don’t drag me, don’t you drag me down.
LONELY AGAIN
Deep, deep, slowly, I’m slowing down, not to be found for a while.I keep thinking the past few days, sometimes I’m wrong in my ways, I tell myself someday I’ve got to explain.
Now I’ve become what I said, said I’d never come to, you just figured that I would never care about anything.
Sleep, sleep, lonely again, toss in my bed, regret what I said to you.
I can’t stop thinking of how you cried; you’re probably drinking, tomorrow you’ll lie.
I know myself, it’s something that I can’t control.
Now I’ve become what I said, said I’d never come to, you just figured that I would never care about anything.
NOTHING
Sitting here thinking about what everything means to me, do I want it all, can I take it all?Sitting here thinking about you, do I need this jealousy, what do you mean to me, what do you really mean to me?
I know what you’re feeling, here I am again, I’ll regret what I have been to you, and there’s nothing I can do.
Sitting here thinking about why I sometimes scare myself, I’m so high above, I rose so high above.
Sitting here thinking about how you want me on the ground, you can’t bring me down, I’m never ever coming down.
I know what you’re feeling, here I am again, I’ll regret what I have been to you, and there’s nothing I can do.
Sitting here thinking about how I’m giving in, I should be giving up, I should have given up.
Sitting here thinking about why I’m jumping in again, more than a friend again, more towards the end again.
TRY
I can see you but I don’t know what you’re thinking, I can feel you but I don’t know what you’re feeling.You take me away when I look in your eyes, I can’t reach you no matter how hard I try.
I don’t care what gets in the way, some days I don’t know what to say.
I can’t get this through to you, maybe you just don’t want me to try.
I can touch you but I don’t know if you’ll let me, if you let me I don’t know if I’ll want to.
You push me away and I don’t come back, sometimes it’s so hard to get you to react.
I don’t care what gets in the way, some days I don’t know what to say.
I can’t get this through to you, maybe you just don’t want me to try.
I can’t help it I’m too young to be truthful, maybe I’m not good enough to deserve you.
You lead me astray and I can’t fight back, can’t you help me, I want you to protect me.
WASTE OF TIME
How much longer will I be waiting for you, you know that I’ve been thinking of what I’m gonna do.I knew when I saw you, the look on your face, I hardly had to ask you over to my place; I’ve been waiting, anticipating you.
You know it’s just a waste of time hoping I would change my mind.
What’s this coming over me? I don’t free anymore.
I could please you but I don’t choose to now; I’ve got needs, you know, please fulfil them somehow.
I know I seem demanding but it’s all worthwhile, I need your understanding of how to make me smile, I can see you working out just fine.
You know it’s just a waste of time hoping I would change my mind.
What’s this coming over me? I don’t free anymore.
What do you think you mean to me, how important you must seem.
What’s this coming over me? I don’t feel free anymore.
from the album “Empty”
STILL
Where you’re at, you shouldn’t be, although I wish I was there too.Back and forth through the course, my mind is not made up, still.
Do you lie to everyone? You don’t have to lie to me.
Is your sight without light? You can’t see me, still.
My mind is not made up, still.
ALL WRONG
I hate to break it to you, but this convenience ain’t convenient anymore.Now I realise I had different eyes back when I thought this was a good thing.
Here I am, my anger and me, temper makes it hard to see,
This situation I’m in again, everything must come to an end now.
There’s some things that I want to do, and I don’t want to lie to you,
But it still makes me go and do the things I know, all wrong.
I’ll dig to learn about you, I’m sure I’ll find you were as evil as me.
We can call it even, you can let me leave then, you can leave me to my own thing.
Here I am, my anger and me, temper makes it hard to see,
This situation I’m in again, everything must come to an end now.
There’s some things that I want to do, and I don’t want to lie to you,
But it still makes me go and do the things I know, all wrong.
FOOL
These days I’m getting older before my time, to say I’m getting stronger would be a lie.I think you’re trying to break me, it seems so unreal; don’t know how to take me, don’t know how I feel.
Look around you, do you see what I see? Other people think you try to make a fool of me.
It seems to take so long til anything gets done, why do I have to lose to get things I never won?
I’m defeated again, I see the look on your face, I’ve got that feeling again, my mouth has a bad taste.
Look around you, do you see what I see? Other people think you try to make a fool of me.
My hope in empty promise put me to shame, I know it’s what you wanted, I need the pain.
I was gonna be someone, you held me down, didn’t want me to move on, you let me drown.
Look around you, do you see what I see? Other people think you try to make a fool of me.
EMPTY
Why won’t you face me? It’s been such a long time, I’m walking a fine line, now we’re walking out.Why can’t I see things like I’m supposed to see things?
I’m not supposed to be this way, not this time around.
Sometimes I feel so empty, so much pain I still ignore, every day I endure.
Sometimes I feel so empty, so much pain I still ignore, every day you want more.
My expectations were high in the first place, were high in the worst way, it leaves me so down.
I give up easily, can’t speak so freely, won’t someone release me just this time around?
Sometimes I feel so empty, so much pain I still ignore, every day I endure.
Sometimes I feel so empty, so much pain I still ignore, every day you want more.
DON’T KNOW HOW TO BE
It’s all too clear now, well, I’ve been running away, almost on the hour of mostly every day.Now I see colours that I never seen, and now the reddest of them all, so vibrant out of me.
Without you I don’t know how to be.
See this zero, the lowest of the low, I let you take me down until lower I could not go.
Now I see scars I willingly made, I facilitated one need, now here I lay.
Without you I don’t know how to be.
Tell me, what was I thinking?
Tell me, what the hell was I thinking?
Without you I don’t know how to be.
NO MORE LOVE
I can see the signs, I’ve been waiting here for you, but nothing’s getting through.I am gone up in the clouds, praying I can turn myself around.
A year ago, I gave it a year, I hoped it wouldn’t happen, now it’s here.
It took so long, I can’t carry on.
I know the reason that you left me, you had nothing more to give me, no more love.
I can see your eyes, I can feel your heady stare, I run my fingers through my hair.
I am high as one can be, and I hope I don’t come down, I hate when I come down.
A month ago, I knew you lied, took my life into your hands.
You just don’t understand how it feels to be free.
I know the reason that you left me, you had nothing more to give me, no more love.
23
I’m breathing the air I always breathe.I don’t have a lot; I want someone to share it with me.
I really only want a few things; they’ve all been taken away.
What does the next life bring? I just want to feel okay.
I’m searching forever for someone or something.
I want to be high. I want someone to love me.
I really only want a few things; they’ve all been taken away.
What does the next life bring? I just want to feel okay.
I’ve spent twenty-three years now, trying to get by.
Other people make it day to day; I still wonder why.
I really only want a few things; they’ve all been taken away.
What does the next life bring? I just want to feel okay.
I really only had a few things; they’ve all turned to tears.
One tried to kill me, the other kept me here.
I’m still here.
WE WERE WRONG
Breathe, turning blue and I can’t breathe, in the water underneath, and we’re way too deep to save ourselves.Now that you don’t know me, and I’ve been away for long, have you also been growing, and seen how we were wrong?
Deep, my misery is now complete, I’ve been falling under feet, and I’m way too deep to save myself.
Now that you don’t know me, and I’ve been away for long, have you also been growing, and seen how we were wrong?
Please, I’m losing consciousness it seems, like everyone’s on top of me, and these suffocating dreams are real to me.
Now that you don’t know me, and I’ve been away for long, have you also been growing, and seen how we were wrong?
WEAKEN
Here I am, understand, no one sees how I feel, how’s it feel to be free.Why does everything come true the way I don’t want it to?
Everyone and everything pushing me to weaken, feel like I am sinking, wish that I could push this all away.
Please, you remember I will never be the same; please, you remember I will always be ashamed.
Here I am, back again, in the trees, now I’m lost and I’ve lost what was me.
How could anyone give me what I want and what I need?
Everyone and everything pushing me to weaken, feel like I am sinking, wish that I could push this all away.
Please, you remember I will never be the same; please, you remember I will always be ashamed.
TORTOISE
I know what it takes to normalise, to slow me down and cut me down to size.I want to get that feeling, to touch the ceiling and send me reeling.
I want to know, how can I ease my mind?
I’m being taken away, I’m feeling that I’m finding my way to something that’s completely overwhelming me.
I get tired of most everything, I anxiously await the gifts you bring.
I spend my time thinking, and I hate thinking,
To stop this thinking I want to know, how can I pass the time?
I’m being taken away, I’m feeling that I’m finding my way to something that’s completely overwhelming me.
SCARED
I’m scared of you, there’s nothing I can do, no sense in wasting time, I want you out of my mind.You make me feel unhappy, I wish you weren’t real, you only make me unhappy, and I can’t deal with it.
I never wanted you, but I’m afraid it’s true, you’re gonna catch me by surprise, I hope there’s time to realise.
You make me feel unhappy, I wish you weren’t real, you only make me unhappy, and I can’t deal with it.
from the album “Life in the So-Called Space Age”
REARRANGE
All along, we knew the answers all along.‘Why’d it take you so long?’ I hear you say.
It all depends on how your point of view can change, round and round, rearrange.
Don’t count the days.
All along, I didn’t listen physically.
I have come to find what’s not mine, I thought was a given.
It all depends on how your point of view can change, round and round, rearrange.
All the while I feel like I could go either way behind your backs, I just may.
Don’t count the days.
All along, I could do anything; anything without you, anyway.
It all depends on how your point of view can change, round and round, rearrange.
All the while I feel like I could go either way behind your backs, I just may.
Don’t count the days.
FROM YOUR MOUTH
Sometimes life’s not fair, I correct myself, I mean, all the time.I feel like complaining, but it only bothers you.
The things I do, they make your blood run cold.
There’s a lot of things that no one likes,
But I want the answers now, must be all confused somehow.
Did you say what I heard about?
I’ve heard a million things, gossips being sent to me.
I don’t want to believe it until I hear it from your mouth.
Tell me, why are you friendly to my face? What I mean is barely nice.
But when I’m not around, I hear you like to put me down, embarrassment is what I get.
There’s a lot of things that no one likes,
But I want the answers now, must be all confused somehow
Did you say what I heard about?
I’ve heard a million things, gossips being sent to me.
I don’t want to believe it until I hear it from your mouth.
CAN’T COME DOWN
Starved myself from poisoned love, memories with traces of what knocked me out.Act as if I’m just alright but I’ve already lost my sight,
And you’re treading ground, without a sound.
Something for nothing, I know that I haven’t given, you know that I haven’t risen.
Fight for love or love to fight? Never knew what’s wrong, what’s right.
Patiently I wait for the day when it hits me hardest yet, and it’s real, not second best.
My heart’s for you, you know it’s true.
Something for nothing, I know that I haven’t given, you know that I haven’t risen above.
Please believe me, round and round, hear the sound.
Reality is crashing into me, I hear the sound, but I can’t come down.
ALONE AGAIN
The past few years have been so trying, between the drugs and the drinking and the touring.In my eyes I’m stabilised, and now all I need is you, someone who understands.
I know you now, the shortest yet, and we just met.
I thought that you’d be different; then again, you came on strange, but still the same as what I know.
I try and try and then I’m alone again.
Now my life’s become a challenge because my confidence has been decreased profoundly.
In my mind I’ve realised I’m stuck on a worthless hill with no one who understands.
I know you now, the shortest yet, and we just met.
I thought that you’d be different; then again, you came on strange, but still the same as what I know.
I try and try and then I’m alone again.
BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION
Morals so undefined, new schemes to undermine.He likes to leave a burn, so much for live and learn.
My saviour and his low behaviour, someday everybody owes me a favour.
If the look on my face is any indication, I keep giving in to temptation.
He creates a false pretence that it was self defence.
He just can’t mask the flavour, my saviour and his low behaviour.
My saviour and his low behaviour, someday everybody owes me a favour.
If the look on my face is any indication, I keep giving in to temptation.
Excuse me.
THE RUSH IS LOUD
They saw him from the rooftops, they saw him from way up there,They just couldn’t come down to where he was.
They studied for years on end, they were always confused,
They just couldn’t believe how he abused himself.
It’s with us all the time, how he abused himself, and we abuse ourselves.
They took lots of pictures, hid microphones, all he wanted was to be left alone.
After years of footage and miles of tape,
They’re on their way down to him and he can’t wait to be with them all the time.
We abused ourselves, and he abused himself.
It’s with us all the time, we abuse ourselves.
They were looking for answers to all the hits he sent, there were way too many to document.
They settled on a theory that we all knew, we just hide the fact that we abuse ourselves,
It’s with us all the time, we abuse ourselves.
Shot in the arm or shot in the head, it’s killing me or all my friends.
It spreads like a disease we all become with ease, blood balloons like a mushroom cloud and the rush is loud.
DRESS REHEARSAL FOR REPRODUCTION
It’s cold outside, but not cold enough, I wish that it was winterAnd behind my eyes the muscles control the movement to a place surrounding you.
To be with you, to be in motion.
It’s wide outside, but not wide enough, I wish that I was thinner.
Suffice to say I should pray for a colder sun and a brighter moon.
All for you, and be in motion.
To be with you, to be in motion.
HAPPY?
Every day’s the same since I’ve been alone.Every day I wait for you, but you’re never coming home.
And I hope that you’re happy; at least one of us is.
Maybe someday you’ll see I need you.
Everyday I swear that I see you everywhere I go.
I know my mind plays tricks on me, and that’s something that you know.
And I hope that you’re happy; at least one of us is.
Maybe someday you’ll see I need you to save me.
And I hope that you’re happy; at least one of us is.
Maybe someday you’ll see I need you to save me from myself.
VAPORS
I live under a sky of angels, bulletproof vest of all my dangers.I’ve been deceived by all the flowers planted around me, sweet smell replaced by all the vapours.
Every day you think I live a lie.
You think I want to die, but can’t you see I’m what I want to be?
I’ve been misunderstood about my being around.
I can’t seem to stop letting people down, or that’s what they say.
I still don’t care about them, or what they’re thinking.
It’s not fair for anyone to believe them or me or the papers.
Every day you think I live a lie.
You think I want to die, but can’t you see I’m what I want to be?
(I’ve been misunderstood about my being around.
Now I know what my destiny is, it’s the ultimate rift in the little will I have.
I’m not gonna last til the end, I’m still my only friend, now I know what to do.)
Much to your dismay, I’m choosing a day to find my new home with the answer to my biggest question.
MEDICATED TO THE ONE I LOVE
I just can’t figure myself out, or what’s surrounding me, or what I surround myself with.A two-tonne fist is pushing me to the streets again, looking for relief in my restricted state.
I wake from dreams of high before I rush by, a crush I have on you, you’re a lover most true.
I’m falling off again, you’ll always be my friend, she never lies, but she eats me alive.
Elastic mind that always bends for my drug of choice, I think I hear her voice.
It’s like pixies and angels and cocteau twins, so beautifully sung, but it’s a noose she’s hung.
I wake from dreams of high before I rush by, a crush I have on you, you’re a lover most true.
I’m falling off again, you’ll always be my friend, she never lies, but she eats me alive.
from the Depeche Mode tribute album “For the Masses”
FLY ON THE WINDSCREEN
Death is everywhere, there are flies on the windscreen, for a start,Reminding us we could be torn apart tonight.
Death is everywhere, there are lambs for the slaughter, waiting to die,
I can sense the hours slipping by tonight.
Come here, kiss me now.
Death is everywhere, the more I look, the more I see,
The more I feel a sense of urgency tonight.
Come here, touch me, kiss me, touch me now.
There are flies on the windscreen, there are lambs for the slaughter, there are flies on the windscreen.
Come here, touch me, kiss me, touch me now.
from the album “upoffthefloor”
WHITE NOISE
And now the pendulum is swinging towards the left and to the left again.I tried to stay to the right and do what’s right, we’re all aware it’s a constant fight, you know it.
I’ve been the one away, I’ll be the first to say.
Now I’ve become the rat in experiments that I invent and I put myself through.
I can’t explain the process in my brain when all I say comes out the same, like white noise.
I’ve been the one away, I’ll be the first to say that where I’ve been is not cool,
To be the one with nothing, I’ve always got nothing.
TRICKED
That’s the way I like it and that’s the way I want it.I’m a dumbass, I go too fast when I shouldn’t be moving at all.
I know I’m the last and your only chance at having something meaningful.
I won’t ever be tricked into thinking that she loves me cause no one does and no one will,
And that’s the way I like it, and that’s the way I want it.
I jump into things, buying wedding rings when I can’t keep myself in line.
Try to stop myself, I put it on its shelf and save it for another time.
I won’t ever be tricked into thinking that they love me cause no one does and no one will,
And that’s the way I like it, and that’s the way I want it.
Here I am again, left to my own devices, this is the last time anyone can bring me down.
1% (THE LONG WAY DOWN)
For once I wasn’t hanging over the cliffs on which I normally awoke,And then you thought you’d make me stronger by pointing out the long way down.
I’ve been thrown, I’m looking up but all I can head is down,
I’ve been thrown, I’m reaching out but all I can head is down to one per cent.
It tries so hard to flip me back over, stranded once again on my shell.
Left me to my weak defences and then told me of the long way down.
I’ve been thrown, I’m looking up but all I can head is down,
I’ve been thrown, I’m reaching out but all I can head is down to one per cent.
WHATEVER YOU’VE GOT
I feel the train changing tracks, the sound of that, I reminisce.I try so hard to stay intact, no one knows, no one cares.
I’ll take whatever you’ve got, I’ll take whatever you feed me,
When it’s time for me to come down, there’s never a compromise, you know.
I’ll take whatever you give and what you give I’ll put in me,
When it’s time for me to come down, there’s never a compromise, you know it.
I feel the thoughts that you don’t have, think of me you probably don’t.
Disappointment’s all I know and all I do, but I say I won’t.
I’ll take whatever you’ve got, I’ll take whatever you feed me,
When it’s time for me to come down, there’s never a compromise, you know.
I’ll take whatever you give and what you give I’ll put in me,
When it’s time for me to come down, there’s never a compromise, you know it.
NO WAY (YOU MUST UNDERSTAND)
I made reference to a subtle affair and then I got one, what a simple machine,The way you coax me into believing, then you took away the odds.
You led me down a road you know I’d go with you, when I had nothing and no one.
You made me think that I could have you someday, that day would never come.
No way, why did I trust again? Believe me, this is the last time.
No way, why did I trust again? Repeating, this is the last time for me, you must understand.
You’ve got to admit you set a trap for me, princess,
Maybe I’m just a little paranoid, I seem a little odd.
But now the days go by like a school year, just like I’m failing every class.
I realise I’ll never pass here with you, you let me fall behind.
No way, why did I trust again? Believe me, this is the last time.
No way, why did I trust again? Repeating, this is the last time for me, you must understand.
SLIP TO FALL
Now that I’m out of the nuthouse and on my own, having worn out my welcome in every home,I’m to blame for all of the things that went wrong, I’m just a kiss away from losing it all, I slip to fall.
I live two minutes from where I bought medicine, I skate past the guy on my way to sober friends.
I’m to blame for all of the things that I’ve done, I’m just a kiss away from losing it all, I slip to fall.
Time creeps by when I’m in reality, sometimes my feet start walking unconsciously,
I’ve got some time but I’ve got my life to go, I wish the best for us all but I don’t know.
I’m to blame for all of the things that went wrong, I’m just a kiss away from losing it all, I slip to fall.
HISTORY
You fall like a waterfall, pouring down your insincerities,I erode you to your bedrock and in your fossils the inscription reads.
If you think you’ve made history, you’re not as huge as you thought,
So pull the safety pins out your palms, there’s no more room on the cross, so step off.
Your presence is a gaping hole, a wound from which your contradictions bleed,
It’s documented in my laptop and it just reaffirms statistically that
If you think you’ve made history, you’re not as huge as you thought,
So pull the safety pins out your palms, there’s no more room on the cross, so step off.
72 HOUR HOLD
I lost some time, I wasn’t on vacation; I lost my mind like a hundred times before.Unlike the time I spent in Pasadena, they tied me down and then they closed the door.
What did I do to deserve this? Oh yeah, I did some stupid things, locked down in a seventy-two-hour hold.
I’m not a threat to myself or to others.
They let me out and said, ‘Keep your nose clean.’
They whispered to themselves, ‘He can’t stop.’
I told them thanks for all of the encouragement, and I’m just stuck with what I knew I got.
What did I do to deserve this? Oh yeah, I did some stupid things, locked down in a seventy-two-hour hold.
I’m not a threat to myself or to others.
MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING
I’ve been trying my hardest but it’s not good enough, I’m back where I started when life was tough on me.There’s only so much you can do when it’s started, pull away, just pull away.
You can try to no avail to discard it, go away, just go away.
Solved all my problems for everyone but me, how is that a solution or recovery?
There’s only so much you can do when it’s started, pull away, just pull away.
You can try to no avail to discard it, go away, just go away.
I’ve done it again, let down my closest friend, at least he used to be until I pushed you away.
You’ll never understand and I’ll never understand how I could do these things when I miss you more than anything.
I stopped my ill behaviour and I’m up off the floor; it didn’t stop the pain, it cleared the way for more, much more.
POSITIVITY
Yes hello it’s me, some positivity, so turn the mike gain up, let’s force another one.Should I grin and stay hopeful when we both look to different lights about what we perceive as high?
It’s not the same, it won’t ever be the same, we’re not the same and we’ll never be the same.
Well, I’ve been crowned the king of insensitivity, so put your thick skin on, let’s force another one.
Should I grin and stay hopeful when you’re here with your eyes half-closed?
But that tired routine gets old, it’s not the same, it won’t ever be the same.
We’re not the same, we won’t ever be the same, respect the fact that I feel it every day.
