from the album "Hybrid Theory"
PAPERCUT
Why does it feel like night today? Something in here’s not right today.
Why am I so uptight today? Paranoia is all I got left.
I don’t know what stressed me first, or how the pressure was fed,
But I know just what it feels like to have a voice in the back of my head.
Like a face that I hold inside, a face that awakes when I close my eyes,
A face that I watch every time I lie,
A face that laughs every time I fall, and watches everything.
So I know that when it’s time to sink or swim,
That the face inside is hearing me, right underneath my skin.
It’s like I’m paranoid, looking over my back,
It’s like a whirlwind inside of my head,
It’s like I can’t stop what I’m hearing within,
It’s like the face inside is right beneath my skin.
I know I’ve got a face in me, it points out all my mistakes to me.
You’ve got a face on the inside too, and your paranoia is probably worse.
I don’t know what set me off first, but I know what I can’t stand.
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is I can’t add up to what you can,
But everybody has a face that they hold inside,
A face that awakes when I close my eyes, a face that watches every time they lie,
A face that laughs every time they fall, and watches everything.
So you know that when it’s time to sink or swim,
That the face inside is watching you too, right inside your skin.
It’s like I’m paranoid, looking over my back,
It’s like a whirlwind inside of my head,
It’s like I can’t stop what I’m hearing within,
It’s like the face inside is right beneath the skin.
The face inside is right beneath your skin.
The sun goes down, I feel the light betray me.
ONE STEP CLOSER
I cannot take this anymore, I’m saying everything I’ve said before.
All these words, they make no sense, I find bliss in ignorance.
Less I hear, the less you say; you’ll find that out anyway, just like before.
Everything you say to me takes me one step closer to the edge, and I’m about to break.
I need a little room to breathe, cause I’m one step closer to the edge, I’m about to break.
I find the answers aren’t so clear, wish I could find a way to disappear.
All these thoughts, they make no sense, I find bliss in ignorance.
Nothing seems to go away, over and over again, just like before.
Everything you say to me takes me one step closer to the edge, and I’m about to break.
I need a little room to breathe, cause I’m one step closer to the edge, I’m about to break.
Shut up when I’m talking to you!
WITH YOU
I woke up in a dream today to the cold of the static and put my cold feet on the floor.
Forgot all about yesterday, remembering I’m pretending to be where I’m not anymore.
A little taste of hypocrisy, and I’m left in the wake of the mistake, slow to react.
Even though you’re so close to me, you’re still so distant, and I can’t bring you back.
It’s true, the way I feel was promised by your face.
The sound of your voice, painted on my memories,
Even if you’re not with me, I’m with you.
You, now I see, keeping everything inside.
You, now I see, even when I close my eyes.
I hit you and you hit me back, we fall to the floor, the rest of the day stands still.
Fine line between this and that, when things go wrong I pretend that the past isn’t real.
Now I’m trapped in this memory and I’m left in the wake of the mistake, slow to react.
So even though you’re close to me, you’re still so distant, and I can’t bring you back.
It’s true, the way I feel was promised by your face.
The sound of your voice, painted on my memories,
Even if you’re not with me, I’m with you.
You, now I see, keeping everything inside.
You, now I see, even when I close my eyes.
No matter how far we’ve come, I can’t wait to see tomorrow.
POINTS OF AUTHORITY
Forfeit the game before somebody else takes you out of the frame and puts your name to shame.
Cover up your face, you can’t run the race, the pace is too fast, you just won’t last.
You love the way I look at you, while taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through.
You take away if I give in, my life, my pride is broken.
You’d like to think you’re never wrong, you have to act like you’re someone,
You want someone to hurt like you, you want to share what you’ve been through.
You live what you’ve learned.
You love the things I say I’ll do, the way I’ll hurt myself again just to get back at you.
You take away when I give in, my life, my pride is broken.
You’d like to think you’re never wrong, you have to act like you’re someone,
You want someone to hurt like you, you want to share what you’ve been through.
You live what you’ve learned.
CRAWLING
Crawling in my skin, these wounds, they will not heal.
Fear is how I fall, confusing what is real.
There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming, confusing.
This lack of self control I fear is never ending, controlling,
I can’t seem to find myself again, my walls are closing in.
Without a sense of confidence, I’m convinced that there’s just too much pressure to take.
I’ve felt this way before, so insecure.
Crawling in my skin, these wounds, they will not heal.
Fear is how I fall, confusing what is real.
Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me, distracting, reacting.
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection.
It’s haunting, how I can’t seem to find myself again, my walls are closing in.
Without a sense of confidence, I’m convinced that there’s just too much pressure to take.
I’ve felt this way before, so insecure.
Crawling in my skin, these wounds, they will not heal.
Fear is how I fall, confusing what is real.
RUNAWAY
Graffiti decorations under a sky of dust,
A constant wave of tension on top of broken trust.
The lessons that you taught me, I learn were never true.
Now I find myself in question, they point the finger at me again.
Guilty by association, you point the finger at me again.
I want to run away, never say goodbye.
I want to know the truth instead of wondering why.
I want to know the answers, no more lies.
I want to shut the door and open up my mind.
Paper bags and angry voices under a sky of dust.
Another wave of tension has more than filled me up.
All my talk of taking action, these words were never true.
Now I find myself in question, they point the finger at me again.
Guilty by association, you point the finger at me again.
I want to run away, never say goodbye.
I want to know the truth instead of wondering why.
I want to know the answers, no more lies.
I want to shut the door and open up my mind.
I’m gonna run away and never say goodbye.
I’m gonna run away and never wonder why.
I’m gonna run away and open up my mind.
BY MYSELF
What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams and give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it, or do I try to catch them red handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness, or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can’t hold on when I’m stretched so thin,
I make the right moves, but I’m lost within.
I put on my daily façade, but then I just end up getting hurt again, by myself.
I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myself.
I can’t hold on to what I want when I’m stretched so thin.
It’s all too much to take in.
I can’t hold on to anything, watching everything spin, with thoughts of failure sinking in.
If I turn my back I’m defenceless, and to go blindly seems senseless.
If I hide my pride and let it all go on, then they’ll take from me til everything is gone.
If I let them go I’ll be outdone, but if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun.
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer,
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer, by myself.
I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myself.
I can’t hold on to what I want when I’m stretched so thin.
It’s all too much to take in.
I can’t hold on to anything, watching everything spin, with thoughts of failure sinking in.
How do you think I’ve lost so much? I’m so afraid I’m out of touch.
How do you expect I will know what to do when all I know is what you tell me to?
Don’t you know I can’t tell you how to make it go, no matter what I do, how hard I try,
I can’t seem to convince myself why I’m stuck on the outside.
IN THE END
It starts with one thing, I don’t know why, it doesn’t even matter how hard you try.
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme to explain in due time all I know.
Time is a valuable thing, watch it fly by as the pendulum swings,
Watch it count down to the end of the day, the clock ticks life away, it’s so unreal.
Didn’t look out below, watch the time go right out the window,
Trying to hold on, but didn’t even know, I wasted it all just to watch you go.
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart.
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time
I tried so hard and got so far, but in the end, it doesn’t even matter.
I had to fall, to lose it all, but in the end, it doesn’t even matter.
One thing, I don’t know why, it doesn’t even matter how hard you try.
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme to remind myself how I tried so hard,
In spite of the way you were mocking me, acting like I was part of your property,
Remembering all the times you fought with me, I’m surprised it got so far.
Things aren’t the way they were before, you wouldn’t even recognise me anymore.
Not that you knew me back then, but it all comes back to me in the end.
You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart.
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when
I tried so hard and got so far, but in the end, it doesn’t even matter.
I had to fall, to lose it all, but in the end, it doesn’t even matter.
I’ve put my trust in you, pushed as far as I can go.
For all this there’s only one thing you should know.
A PLACE FOR MY HEAD
I watch how the moon sits in the sky on a dark night, shining with the light from the sun.
The sun doesn’t give light to the moon, assuming the moon’s going to owe it one.
It makes me think of how you act to me; you do favours and then rapidly
You just turn around and start asking me about things you want back from me.
I’m sick of the tension, sick of the hunger, sick of you acting like I owe you this.
Find another place to feed your greed while I find a place to rest.
I want to be in another place, I hate when you say you don’t understand.
You’ll see it’s not meant to be.
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy, a place for my head.
Maybe someday I’ll be just like you, and step on people like you do,
And run away all the people I thought I knew, I remember back then who you were;
You used to be calm, used to be strong, used to be generous, but you should’ve known
That you’d wear out your welcome, and now you see how quiet it is, all alone.
I’m sick of the tension, sick of the hunger,
Sick of you acting like I owe you this.
Find another place to feed your greed while I find a place to rest.
I want to be in another place, I hate when you say you don’t understand.
You’ll see it’s not meant to be.
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy, a place for my head.
You try to take the best of me; go away.
FORGOTTEN
From the top to the bottom, bottom to top, I stop,
At the core I’ve forgotten in the middle of my thoughts,
Taken far from my safety, the picture’s there,
The memory won’t escape me, but why should I care?
There’s a place so dark you can’t see the end,
Skies cock back and shock that which can’t defend,
The rain then sends dripping acidic questions forcefully, the power of suggestion,
And then with the eyes shut looking through the rust and rotten dust,
A spot of light floods the floor and pours over the rusted world of pretend.
And the eyes ease open and it’s dark again.
From the top to the bottom, bottom to top, I stop,
At the core I’ve forgotten in the middle of my thoughts,
Taken far from my safety, the picture’s there,
The memory won’t escape me, but why should I care?
In the memory you’ll find me, eyes burning up,
The darkness holding me tightly until the sun rises up.
Moving all around, screaming of the ups and downs,
Pollution manifested in perpetual sound.
The wheels go round and the sunset creeps
Behind street lamps, chain link, and concrete.
A little piece of paper with a picture drawn
Floats on down the street til the wind is gone,
And the memory now is like the picture was then;
When the paper’s crumpled up it can’t be perfect again.
From the top to the bottom, bottom to top, I stop,
At the core I’ve forgotten in the middle of my thoughts,
Taken far from my safety, the picture’s there,
The memory won’t escape me, but why should I care?
In the memory you’ll find me, eyes burning up.
The darkness holding me tightly until the sun rises up.
Now you got me caught in the act, you bring the thought back.
I’m telling you that I see it right through you.
PUSHING ME AWAY
I’ve lied to you the same way that I always do.
This is the last smile that I’ll fake for the sake of being with you.
Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down.
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie.
Everything has to end, you’ll soon find we’re out of time, left to watch it all unwind.
The sacrifice is never knowing.
Why I never walked away? Why I played myself this way?
Now I see your testing me pushes me away.
I’ve tried, like you, to do everything you wanted to.
This is the last time I’ll take the blame for the sake of being with you.
Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down.
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie.
Everything has to end, you’ll soon find we’re out of time, left to watch it all unwind.
The sacrifice is never knowing.
Why I never walked away? Why I played myself this way?
Now I see your testing me pushes me away.
We’re all out of time, this is how we find how it all unwinds.
from the soundtrack to “Queen of the Damned”
SYSTEM
You fell away, what more can I say?
The feeling’s evolved, I won’t let it out.
I can’t replace your screaming face, feeling the sickness inside.
Why won’t you die, your blood in mine?
We’ll be fine, then your body will be mine.
So many words can’t describe my face.
This feeling’s evolved, so soon to break out.
I can’t relate to a happy state, feeling the blood run inside.
Why won’t you die, your blood in mine?
We’ll be fine, then your body will be mine.
Why is everything so fucking hard for me?
Keep me down to what you think I should be.
Must you tempt me and provoke the ministry?
Keep on trying, I’m not dying so easily.
(I will not die.)
from the album “Meteora”
DON’T STAY
Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe, sometimes I need you to stay away from me.
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know, somehow I need you to go.
Don’t stay, forget our memories, forget our possibilities.
What you were changing me into, just give me myself back and don’t stay,
Forget our memories, forget our possibilities.
Take all your faithlessness with you, just give me myself back and don’t stay.
Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well, sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself.
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I don’t know, somehow I need to be alone.
Don’t stay, forget our memories, forget our possibilities.
What you were changing me into, just give me myself back and don’t stay,
Forget our memories, forget our possibilities.
Take all your faithlessness with you, just give me myself back and don’t stay.
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored.
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away with no apologies.
SOMEWHERE I BELONG
When this began I had nothing to say and I’d get lost in the nothingness inside of me.
I was confused and I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind, inside of me,
But all the vacancy the words revealed is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel.
Nothing to lose, just stuck, hollow and alone, and the fault is my own.
I want to heal, I want to feel what I thought was never real.
I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long, erase all the pain til it’s gone.
I want to heal, I want to feel like I’m close to something real.
I want to find something I’ve wanted all along, somewhere I belong.
And I’ve got nothing to say, I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face.
I was confused, looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind.
So what am I, what do I have but negativity?
Cause I can’t justify the way everyone is looking at me,
Nothing to lose, nothing to gain, hollow and alone, and the fault is my own.
I want to heal, I want to feel what I thought was never real.
I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long, erase all the pain til it’s gone.
I want to heal, I want to feel like I’m close to something real.
I want to find something I’ve wanted all along, somewhere I belong.
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed.
I will never be anything til I break away from me.
I will break away, I’ll find myself today.
LYING FROM YOU
When I pretend, everything is what I want it to be,
I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see.
When I pretend, I can forget about the criminal I am,
Stealing second after second just cause I know I can.
But I can’t pretend this is the way it’ll stay, I’m just trying to bend the truth.
I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be, so I’m lying my way from you.
(No turning back now.) I want to be pushed aside, so let me go.
Let me take back my life, I’d rather be all alone, anywhere on my own,
Cause I can see the very worst part of you is me.
I remember what they taught to me, remember condescending talk of who I ought to be.
Remember listening to all of that and this again, so I pretended up a person who was fitting in
And now you think this person really is me and I’m trying to bend the truth.
The more I push, the more I’m pulling away cause I’m lying my way from you.
(No turning back now.) I want to be pushed aside, so let me go.
Let me take back my life, I’d rather be all alone, anywhere on my own,
Cause I can see the very worst part of you is me.
This isn’t what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I said would have you running from me, like this.
HIT THE FLOOR
There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me,
Wondering what I think of you, and I protect you out of courtesy.
Too many times that I’ve held on when I needed to push away,
Afraid to say what was on my mind, afraid to say what I need to say.
Too many things that you’ve said about me when I’m not around.
You think having the upper hand means you’ve got to keep putting me down,
But I’ve had too many standoffs with you, it’s about as much as I can stand,
So I’m waiting until the upper hand is mine.
One minute you’re on top, the next you’re not, watch it drop,
Making your heart stop just before you hit the floor.
One minute you’re on top, the next you’re not, missed your shot,
Making your heart stop, you think you won and then it’s all gone.
So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies.
So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside.
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long.
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I’m not stepped on.
There are so many things you say that make me feel you’ve crossed the line.
What goes up will surely fall and I’m counting down the time,
Cause I’ve had so many standoffs with you, it’s about as much as I can stand,
So I’m waiting until the upper hand is mine.
One minute you’re on top, the next you’re not, watch it drop,
Making your heart stop just before you hit the floor.
One minute you’re on top, the next you’re not, missed your shot,
Making your heart stop, you think you won and then it’s all gone.
I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say.
You knew your lies would divide us, but you lied anyway,
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all, but what goes up has got to fall.
EASIER TO RUN
It’s easier to run, replacing this pain with something numb.
It’s so much easier to go than face all this pain here all alone.
Something has been taken from deep inside of me,
A secret I’ve kept locked away, no one can ever see.
Wounds so deep they never show, they never go away,
Like moving pictures in my head, for years and years they’ve played.
If I could change I would, take back the pain I would,
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would,
If I could stand up and take the blame I would,
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would.
It’s easier to run, replacing this pain with something numb.
It’s so much easier to go than face all this pain here all alone.
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past,
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have.
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there’d never be a past.
If I could change I would, take back the pain I would,
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would,
If I could stand up and take the blame I would,
I would take all the shame to the grave.
Just washing it aside, all of the helplessness inside,
Pretending I don’t feel misplaced is so much simpler than change.
It’s easier to run, replacing this pain with something numb.
It’s so much easier to go than face all this pain here all alone.
FAINT
I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard,
A handful of complaints, but I can’t help the fact that everyone can see these scars.
I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel,
But it’s like no matter what I do, I can’t convince you to just believe this is real,
So I let go, watching you turn your back like you always do,
Face away and pretend that I’m not, but I’ll be here cause you’re all that I got.
I can’t feel the way I did before, don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored.
Time won’t heal this damage anymore, don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored.
I am a little bit insecure, a little unconfident,
Cause you don’t understand I do what I can, but sometimes I don’t make sense.
I am what you never want to say, but I’ve never had a doubt.
It’s like no matter what I do I can’t convince you for once just to hear me out,
So I let go, watching you turn your back like you always do,
Face away and pretend that I’m not, but I’ll be here cause you’re all that I got.
I can’t feel the way I did before, don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored.
Time won’t heal this damage anymore, don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored.
Hear me out now, you’re gonna listen to me, like it or not, right now.
FIGURE.09
Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them.
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening.
It’s like nothing I can do will distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again,
Cause from the infinite words I could say I put all the pain you gave to me on display
You didn’t realise, instead of setting it free I took what I hated and made it a part of me.
It never goes away.
And now you’ve become a part of me, you’ll always be right here.
You’ve become a part of me, you’ll always be my fear.
I can’t separate myself from what I’ve done.
Giving up a part of me, I’ve let myself become you.
Hearing your name, the memories come back again.
I remember when it started happening.
I’d see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them,
And I knew as they escaped away I was committing myself to them, and every day
I regret saying those things cause now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me.
It never goes away.
And now you’ve become a part of me, you’ll always be right here.
You’ve become a part of me, you’ll always be my fear.
I can’t separate myself from what I’ve done.
Giving up a part of me, I’ve let myself become you.
Get away from me, give me my space back, you got to just go.
Everything comes down to memories of you,
I’ve kept it in but now I’m letting you know I’ve let you go.
And now you’ve become a part of me, you’ll always be right here.
You’ve become a part of me, you’ll always be my fear.
I can’t separate myself from what I’ve done.
I’ve given up a part of me, I’ve let myself become you,
I’ve let myself become lost inside these thoughts of you,
Giving up a part of me, I’ve let myself become you.
BREAKING THE HABIT
Memories consume like opening the wound, I’m picking me apart again.
You all assume I’m safe here in my room, unless I try to start again.
I don’t want to be the one the battles always choose
Cause inside I realise that I’m the one confused.
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for or why I have to scream.
I don’t know why I instigate and say what I don’t mean.
I don’t know how I got this way, I know it’s not alright,
So I’m breaking the habit tonight.
Clutching my cure, I tightly lock the door, I try to catch my breath again.
I hurt much more than anytime before, I had no options left again.
I don’t want to be the one the battles always choose
Cause inside I realise that I’m the one confused.
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for or why I have to scream.
I don’t know why I instigate and say what I don’t mean.
I don’t know how I got this way, I’ll never be alright,
So I’m breaking the habit tonight.
I’ll paint it on the walls cause I’m the one at fault,
I’ll never fight again and this is how it ends.
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for or why I have to scream,
But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean.
I don’t know how I got this way, I’ll never be alright,
So I’m breaking the habit tonight.
FROM THE INSIDE
I don’t know who to trust, no surprise, everyone feels so far away from me.
Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies.
Trying not to break, but I’m so tired of this deceit.
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet,
All I ever think about is this, all the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me.
Take everything from the inside and throw it all away,
Cause I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you.
Tension is building inside steadily, everyone feels so far away from me.
Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me.
Trying not to break, but I’m so tired of this deceit.
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet,
All I ever think about is this, all the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me.
I’ll take everything from the inside and throw it all away,
Cause I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you, I won’t waste myself on you.
NOBODY’S LISTENING
Peep the style and the kids checking for it,
The number one question is, how could you ignore it?
We drop right back in the cut over basement tracks
With raps that got you backing this up like rewind that.
We’re just rolling with the rhythm, rise from the ashes of stylist division
With these nonstop lyrics of life living, not to be forgotten but still unforgiven.
But in the meantime there are those who want to talk this and that,
So I suppose that it gets to a point feelings got to get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt.
(it goes) Try to give you warning but everyone ignores me,
Told you everything loud and clear but nobody’s listening.
Call to you so clearly but you don’t want to hear me.
Told you everything loud and clear but nobody’s listening.
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress, handful of anger held in my chest,
And everything left’s a waste of time, I hate my rhymes but hate everyone else’s more.
I’m riding on the back of this pressure, guessing that it’s better.
I can’t keep myself together because of all this stress gave me something to write on,
The pain gave me something I could set my sights on.
You never forget the blood, sweat and tears, the uphill struggle over years,
The fear and trash talking and the people it was to,
And the people that started it, just like you.
Try to give you warning but everyone ignores me,
Told you everything loud and clear but nobody’s listening.
Call to you so clearly but you don’t want to hear me.
Told you everything loud and clear but nobody’s listening.
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress, handful of anger held in my chest,
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears, nothing to gain, everything to fear.
NUMB
I’m tired of being what you want me to be, feeling so faithless, lost under the surface.
I don’t know what you’re expecting of me, put under the pressure of walking in your shoes.
Just caught in the undertow, every step that I take is another mistake to you.
I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there, become so tired, so much more aware,
I’m becoming this, all I want to do is be more like me and be less like you.
Can’t you see that you’re smothering me, holding too tightly, afraid to lose control,
Cause everything that you thought I would be has fallen apart right in front of you.
Just caught in the undertow, every step that I take is another mistake to you.
Just caught in the undertow, and every second I waste is more than I can take.
I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there, become so tired, so much more aware,
I’m becoming this, all I want to do is be more like me and be less like you.
And I know I may end up failing too,
But I know you were just like me, with someone disappointed in you.