Just Some Flesh Caught in This Big Broken Machine - Nine Inch Nails lyrics
from the EP "Purest Feeling"

MAYBE JUST ONCE

I can’t believe that what I feel is finally happening to me.
Make it hurt, and point the finger at my insecurities.
Well, I guess I just don’t understand about those complexities in your mind,
And I guess I just don’t understand why this world seems so unkind.
Maybe just once I get what’s coming to me.
So once again, the way you feel will never ever stay the same, and I’m to blame.
I wonder just who made the rules up for this game.
Well, I guess I just don’t understand about what you want and what you need,
And I guess I just don’t understand about why this is how it has to be.
Maybe just once I get what’s coming to me.
So go ahead, you say those thousand things you think you have to say.
Look at me and tell me love’s not such a hard word anyway.
Well, how can you count on me? I thought you realised for sure.
And how can you just believe? I thought I deserved a little more.
Maybe just once I get what’s coming to me.
Oh God, what’s coming to me?

PUREST FEELING

Well, I think I’m gonna push it as far as it will go,
Give in to desire, only you will know.
So tell me all your secrets, I’ll stick it in your head.
I wish I could remember everything she said, purest feeling.
Well, she could be a saviour with everything she does,
Or some kind of punishment for people just like us.
I don’t really believe she understands what’s happening to me.
The sooner that she gets it, the better it will be, purest feeling.
I have got it figured out; I should have known all along I can’t live with it.

TWIST

Well, you’ve got me working so hard lately, working my hands until they bleed.
If I was twice the man I could be, I’d still be half of what you need.
Still you lead me and I follow, from the small of your back up to your chin,
Over to the tip of your switchblade as you pull it out, as you stick it in.
(Twist twist twist) It can go a little deeper, I’m wearing these chains.
You make it hurt real good, I love the pain.
Well, you just leave me nailed here, hanging like Jesus on this cross.
I’m just dying for your sins, and aiding to the cause.
(Twist twist twist) It can go a little deeper, I’m wearing these chains.
You make it hurt real good, I love the pain.
Wrap my soul in bandages, I’m tired of this war.
Go ahead and cut me, I can’t even feel it anymore.
(I’m so tired I can’t get to sleep, and the squeaking of the bed is right in time with the song that’s repeating in my head.
It’s uncomforting to remember how you used to like a good fuck every once in a while.
I just wanted you to know that when I do it, I only think of you.)

SUPERNAUT

(Practically every one of the top forty records being played on every radio station in the United States
is a communication to the children to take a trip, to cop out, to groove. The psychedelic jackets on
the record albums have their own hidden symbols and messages as well as all the lyrics of all the top
rock songs, and they all sing the same refrain: it’s fun to take a trip, put acid in your veins.)
I want to reach out and touch the sky, I want to touch the sun, but I don’t want to fly.
I’m gonna climb up every mountain of the moon and find the dish that runs away with the spoon.
Supernaut.
I’ve crossed the ocean, through every land, I found the crossing near the golden rainbow’s end.
I’ve been through magic and through life’s reality,
I’ve lived a thousand years, it never bothered me.
Supernaut.
Got no religion, don’t need no friends, got all I want and got no need to pretend.
Don’t try to reach me cause I’ll tear up your mind,
I’ve seen the future and I'd leave it all behind.

NOW I'M NOTHING

I smashed myself to pieces, I am gonna fuck myself up.
I'm sifting through the ashes, oh, what I have become?
I threw it all away; now I'm nothing. I let you slip away; now I'm nothing.
All that I can do is break myself in two. I fucked it all away; now I'm nothing.
Wave goodbye.
from the album "Pretty Hate Machine"

HEAD LIKE A HOLE

God money, I’ll do anything for you, God money, just tell me what you want me to.
God money, nail me up against the wall, God money don't want everything, he wants it all.
No you can't take it, no you can't take that away from me.
Head like a hole, black as your soul, I'd rather die than give you control.
Bow down before the one you serve; you're going to get what you deserve.
God money's not looking for the cure, God money's not concerned about the sick among the pure.
God money, let's go dancing on the backs of the bruised, God money's not one to choose.
No you can't take it, no you can't take that away from me.
Head like a hole, black as your soul, I'd rather die than give you control.
Bow down before the one you serve; you're going to get what you deserve.

TERRIBLE LIE

(Hey God) Why are you doing this to me? Am I not living up to what I’m supposed to be?
Why am I seething with this animosity? (Hey God) I think you owe me a great big apology.
Terrible lie.
(Hey God) I really don't know what you mean, seems like salvation come only in our dreams.
I feel my hatred grow all the more extreme.
(Hey God) Can this world really be as sad as it seems?
Terrible lie.
Don't take it away from me, I need someone to hold on to.
Don't tear it away from me, I need you to hold on to.
(Hey God) there's nothing left for me to hide, I lost my ignorance, security and pride.
I’m all alone in a world you must despise,
(Hey God) I believed your promises, your promises and lies.
Terrible lie.
You made me throw it all away, my morals left to decay.
How many you betray, you've taken everything.
My head is filled with disease, my skin is begging you please.
I’m on my hands and knees, I want so much to believe.
(I give you everything, my sweet everything.)

DOWN IN IT

Kinda like a cloud, I was up, way up in the sky,
And I was feeling some feelings you wouldn't believe.
Sometimes I don't believe them myself, and I decided I was never coming down.
Just then a tiny little dot caught my eye, it was just about too small to see,
But I watched it way too long; it was pulling me down.
I was up above it; now I’m down in it.
Shut up! So what? What does it matter now?
I was swimming in the haze, now I crawl on the ground
And everything I never liked about you is kind of seeping into me.
I try to laugh about it now, but isn't it funny how everything works out?
‘I guess the joke’s on me,’ she said.
I was up above it; now I’m down in it.
I used to be so big and strong, I used to know my right from wrong.
I used to never be afraid, I used to be somebody.
I used to have something inside, now just this hole that's open wide.
I used to want it all, I used to be somebody.
I’ll cross my heart, I'll hope to die, but the needle's already in my eye,
And all the world's weight is on my back, and I don't even know why.
What I used to think was me is just a fading memory.
I looked it right in the eye and said goodbye.
I was up above it; now I’m down in it.
(Rain, rain, go away, come again some other day.)

SANCTIFIED

It's still getting worse after everything I’ve tried.
What if I found a way to wash it all aside?
What if she touches with those fingertips as the words spill out like fire from her lips?
If she says come inside, I’ll come inside for her.
If she says give it all, I’ll give everything to her.
I am justified, I am purified, I am sanctified inside you.
Heaven's just a rumour she'll dispel as she walks me through the nicest parts of hell.
I still dream of lips I never should have kissed, she knows exactly what I can't resist.
And if she says come inside, I’ll come inside for her.
And if she says give it all, I’ll give everything to her.
I am justified, I am purified, I am sanctified inside you.
(Dear Mom and Dad, this is the hardest letter I’ve ever had to write. I'd hoped somehow to get out of
this quickly so that you'd never have to know about it, but that just isn't possible now. I don't know
what's going to happen, but what can I say to you? Will ‘I’m sorry’ make a difference? Will it ease
the pain? The shame you must be feeling... Forgive me, please.)
I’m just caught up in another of her spells while she's turning me into someone else.
Every day I hope and pray that this will end, but when I can, I do it all again.
And if she says come inside, I’ll come inside for her.
And if she says give it all, I’ll give everything to her.
I am justified, I am purified, I am sanctified inside you.

SOMETHING I CAN NEVER HAVE

I still recall the taste of your tears, echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.
My favourite dreams of you still wash ashore,
Scraping through my head til I don’t want to sleep anymore.
You make this all go away, you make this all go away.
I’m down to just one thing and I’m starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away, you make this all go away.
I just want something, I just want something I can never have.
You always were the one to show me how; back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart, grey would be the colour, if I had a heart.
Come on tell me, you make this all go away, you make this all go away.
I’m down to just one thing, and I’m starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away, you make this all go away.
I just want something, I just want something I can never have.
In this place it seems like such a shame.
Though it all looks different now, I know it's still the same.
Everywhere I look, you're all I see, just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.
I just want something I can never have.

KINDA I WANT TO

I can't shake this feeling from my head, there's a devil sleeping in my bed,
He's watching you from across the way, I cannot make this feeling go away.
I know it's not the right thing, and I know it's not the good thing, but kinda I want to.
I’m not sure of what I should do when every thought that I’m thinking of is you.
All of my excuses turn to lies; well, maybe God will cover up His eyes.
And I know it's not the right thing, and I know it's not the good thing, but kinda I want to.
Kinda I want to, maybe just for tonight we can pretend it's alright.
What's the price I pay? I don't care what they say. I want to.

SIN

You give me the reason, you give me control, I gave you my purity, my purity you stole.
Did you think I wouldn't recognise this compromise?
Am I just to stupid to realise stale incense, old sweat and lies?
It comes down to this: your kiss, your fist, and your strain,
It gets under my skin, within, take in the extent of my sin.
You give me the anger, you give me the nerve, carry out my sentence while I get what I deserve.
I’m just an effigy to be disgraced, to be defaced, your need for me has been replaced.
And if I can't have everything, well then just give me a taste.
It comes down to this: your kiss, your fist, and your strain,
It gets under my skin, within, take in the extent of my sin.

THAT’S WHAT I GET

Just when everything was making sense, you took away all my self confidence.
Now all that I've hearing must be true; I guess I’m not the only boy for you.
But that's what I get.
How can you turn me into this, after you just taught me how to kiss you?
I told you I'd never say goodbye, now I’m slipping on the tears you’ve made me cry.
But that's what I get.
Why does it come as a surprise to think that I was so naïve?
Maybe didn't mean that much, but it meant everything to me.

THE ONLY TIME

I’m drunk, and right now I’m so in love with you,
And I don't want to think too much about what we should or shouldn't do.
Lay my hands on heaven and the sun and the moon and the stars
While the devil wants to fuck me in the back of his car.
Nothing quite like the feel of something new.
Maybe I’m all messed up in you.
This is the only time I really feel alive.
I swear I just found everything I need.
The sweat in your eyes, the blood in your veins are listening to me.
Well, I want to rip it up and swim in it until I drown, my moral standing is lying down.
Nothing quite like the feel of something new.
Maybe I’m all messed up in you.
This is the only time I really feel alive.

RINGFINGER

Well, you've got me working so hard lately, working my hands until they bleed.
If I was twice the man I could be, I'd still be half of what you need.
Still, you lead me and I follow, anything you ask you know I’ll do.
This one act of consecration is what I ask of you.
Ringfinger: a promise carved in stone, deeper than the sea.
Ringfinger: sever flesh and bone and offer it to me.
Well, you just leave me nailed here, hanging like Jesus on this cross.
I’m just dying for your sins and aiding to the cause.
Ringfinger: a promise carved in stone, deeper than the sea.
Ringfinger: sever flesh and bone and offer it to me.
Wrap my eyes in bandages, confessions I see through.
I get everything I want when I get part of you.
Ringfinger: a promise carved in stone, deeper than the sea.
Ringfinger: devil's flesh and bone do something for me.
from the "Sin" single

GET DOWN MAKE LOVE

(How old were you when you first let a man make love to you?
Next, who was he? Next, how did you feel at the time? Next, how did you feel afterwards?
What did you feel? What did you think? Were you pleased, frightened, ecstatic, disgusted?
What did he say? What words did you speak? That's what I want to know.
Now, tell me, now, now, all of it, now, tell me, yes!)
Get down make love.
You take my body, I give you heat, you say you’re hungry, I give you meat.
I suck your mind, you blow my head, make love inside your bed.
Everybody get down make love.
Every time I get hot, you want to cool down,
Every time I get high, you say you want to go down.
Say it's enough, you take too much every time I want to get down make love.
I can squeeze, you can shake me, I can feel when you break me.
Come on so heavy when you take me, you make love.
You can make everybody get down, make love.
Every time I get high, you want to come down,
Every time I get hot, you say you want to cool down.
Say it's enough, you take too much every time I want to get down, make love.
from the EP "Broken"

WISH

This is the first day of my last days.
I built it up, now I take it apart; I climbed up real high, now I fall down real far.
No need for me to stay, the last thing left, I just threw it away.
I put my faith in God, I put my trust in you, now there's nothing more fucked up I could do.
Wish there was something real, wish there was something true.
Wish there was something real in this world full of you.
I’m the one without a soul, I’m the one with this big fucking hole.
No new tale to tell, twenty-six years on my way to hell.
Got to listen to your big time hard line bad luck fist fuck.
Don't think you're having all the fun, you know me, I hate everyone.
Wish there was something real, wish there was something true.
Wish there was something real in this world full of you.

LAST

Gave up trying to figure it out, and my head got lost along the way.
Worn out from building it up, and my soul I pissed it all away.
Still stings these shattered nerves; pigs, we get what pigs deserve.
I’m going all the way down, I’m leaving today.
Come on, you got to fill me up, got to let me inside of you.
Come on, you've got to fix me up, got to let me inside you.
Still feel it slip away, but it doesn't matter anymore.
Everybody's still stripping away, but it doesn't matter anymore.
Look through these blackened eyes, you'll see ten thousand lies.
My lips may promise but my heart is a whore.
Come on, you got to fill me up, got to let me inside of you.
Come on, you've got to fix me up, got to let me get through to you.
This isn't meant to last; this is for right now.
I know it's all getting away, and it comes to me as no surprise.
I know what's coming to me is never going to arrive.
Fresh blood through tired skin, new sweat to drown me in.
Dress up this rotten carcase just to make it look alive.
Come on, you got to fill me up, got to let me inside of you.
Come on, you've got to fix me up, let me get through to you.
This isn't meant to last; this is for right now.
(I wish I could put the blame on you.)
I want you to make me, I want you to take me,
I want you to break me, and I want you to throw me away.

HAPPINESS IN SLAVERY

Slave screams, he thinks he knows what he wants.
Slave screams, thinks he has something to say.
Slave screams, he hears but doesn't want to listen.
Slave screams, he's being beat into submission.
Don't open your eyes, you won't like what you see.
The devils of truth steal the souls of the free.
Don't open your eyes, take it from me,
I have found you can find happiness in slavery.
Slave screams, he spends his life learning conformity.
Slave screams, he claims he has his own identity.
Slave screams, he's gonna cause the system to fall.
Slave screams, but he's glad to be chained to that wall.
Don't open your eyes, you won't like what you see.
The blind have been blessed with security.
Don't open your eyes, take it from me,
I have found you can find happiness in slavery.
I don't know what I am, I don't know where I've been.
Human junk, just words and so much skin.
Stick my hands through the cage of this endless routine,
Just some flesh caught in this big broken machine.
(It controls you.)

GAVE UP

Perfect little dream, the kind that hurts the most, forgot how it feels, well almost.
No one to blame, always the same, open my eyes, wake up in flames.
It took you to make me realise, it took you to make me see the light.
Smashed up my sanity, smashed up integrity,
Smashed up what I believed in, smashed up what's left of me,
Smashed up my everything, smashed up all that was true,
I’ve smashed myself to pieces, I don't know what else to do.
Covered with hope and Vaseline, still cannot fix this broken machine.
Watching the hole, it used to be mine, just watching it burn in my steady systematic decline
Of the trust I will betray; give it to me, I throw it away.
After everything I've done I hate myself for what I've become.
It took you to make me realise, it took you to make me see the light.
Smashed up my sanity, smashed up integrity,
Smashed up what I believed in, smashed up what's left of me,
Smashed up my everything, smashed up all that was true,
I’ve smashed myself to pieces, I don't know what else to do.
I tried, I gave up. (Throw it away!)

PHYSICAL

I want to date you maybe, I want to take you out,
I want to wine and dine you, I want to twist and shout.
I want you hard in my arms, so soft on my bed.
You get the key to my heart when you wear that sweet dress,
But you’re just too physical to me.
I want your roughhouse, baby, I want this right in your ear.
You let me feel your danger, I let you make this feeling clear.
I want the touch of your charms, the heat of your breath.
I want to say all those things that would be better unsaid.
But you’re just too physical to me, too fucking physical.

SUCK

There is no God up in the sky tonight, no sign of Heaven anywhere in sight.
All that was true is left behind; once I could see, now I am blind.
Don't want the dreams you try to sell, this disease I give to myself.
How does it feel?
She makes it sweeter than the sun, I get too tight, I come undone.
I bowed my head to confess, her temple walls are made of flesh.
Runs up my arms til I’m on track, itches my skin right off my back.
I’ll heal your wounds, I’ll set you free, I’m Jesus Christ on ecstasy.
How does it feel?
(I am so dirty on the inside.)
How does it feel? Suck.
A thousand lips, a thousand tongues, a thousand throats, a thousand lungs,
A thousand ways to make it true, I want to do terrible things to you.
from the album "The Downward Spiral"

MR. SELF DESTRUCT

I am the voice inside your head (and I control you).
I am the lover in your bed (and I control you).
I am the sex that you provide (and I control you).
I am the hate you try to hide (and I control you).
I take you where you want to go, I give you all you need to know.
I drag you down, I use you up, Mister Self Destruct.
I speak religion's message clear (and I control you).
I am denial, guilt and fear (and I control you).
I am the prayers of the naïve (and I control you).
I am the lie that you believe (and I control you).
I take you where you want to go, I give you all you need to know.
I drag you down, I use you up, Mister Self Destruct.
You let me do this to you. (I am an exit.)
I am the needle in your vein, I am the high you can't sustain,
I am the pusher, I'm a whore, I am the need in you for more.
I am the bullet in the gun (and I control you).
I am the truth from which you run (and I control you).
I am a silencing machine (and I control you).
I am the end of all your dreams (and I control you).
I take you were you want to go, I give you all you need to know.
I drag you down, I use you up, Mister Self Destruct.

PIGGY

Hey pig, yeah you, all of my fears came true.
Black and blue and broken bones, you left me here, I'm all alone.
My little piggy needed something new.
Nothing can stop me now cause I don't care anymore.
Nothing can stop me now cause I just don't care.
Hey pig, nothing's turning out the way I planned.
Hey pig, there's a lot of things I hoped you could help me understand.
What am I supposed to do? I lost my shit because of you.
Nothing can stop me now cause I don't care anymore.
Nothing can stop me now cause I just don't care.

HERESY

He sewed his eyes shut because he is afraid to see.
He tries to tell me what I put inside of me.
He got the answers to ease my curiosity.
He dreamed a god up and called it Christianity.
God is dead, and no one cares; if there is a Hell, I'll see you there.
He flexed his muscles to keep his flock of sheep in line.
He made a virus that would kill off all the swine.
His perfect kingdom of killing, suffering and pain
Demands devotion, atrocities done in his name.
Your god is dead, and no one cares; if there is a Hell, I'll see you there.
(Drowning in his own hypocrisy.)

MARCH OF THE PIGS

Step right up, march, push, crawl right up on your knees,
Please, greed, feed (no time to hesitate).
I want a little bit, I want a piece of it, I think he's losing it.
I want to watch it come down.
Don't like the look of it, don't like the taste of it, don't like the smell of it.
I want to watch it come down.
All the pigs are all lined up, I give you all that you want.
Take the skin and peel it back, now doesn't it make you feel better?
Shove it up inside, surprise, lies, stains like the blood on your teeth,
Bite, chew, suck (away the tender parts).
I want to break it up, I want to smash it up, I want to fuck it up.
I want to watch it come down.
May be afraid of it, let's discredit it, let's pick away at it.
I want to watch it come down.
All the pigs are all lined up, I give you all that you want.
Take the skin and peel it back, now doesn't it make you feel better?
The pigs have won tonight, they can all sleep soundly, and everything is alright.

CLOSER

You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you,
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you.
Help me, I broke apart my insides, help me, I've got no soul to sell,
Help me, the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself.
I want to fuck you like an animal, I want to feel you from the inside.
I want to fuck you like an animal, my whole existence is flawed.
You get me closer to God.
You can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings,
You can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything.
Help me tear down my reason, help me, it's your sex I can smell,
Help me, you make me perfect, help me become somebody else.
I want to fuck you like an animal, I want to feel you from the inside,
I want to fuck you like an animal, my whole existence is flawed.
You get me closer to God.
Through every forest, above the trees, within my stomach, scraped off my knees,
I drink the honey inside your hive, you are the reason I stay alive.

RUINER

You had all of them on your side, didn't you?
You believed in all your lies, didn't you?
The ruiner's got a lot to prove, he's got nothing to lose and now he made you believe.
The ruiner's your only friend, well he's the living end to the cattle he deceives.
The raping of the innocence, you know the ruiner ruins everything he sees.
Now the only pure thing left in my fucking world is wearing your disease.
How'd you get so big? How'd you get so strong?
How'd it get so hard? How'd it get so long?
You had to give them all a sign, didn't you?
You had to covet what was mine, didn't you?
The ruiner's a collector, he's an infector, serving his shit to his flies.
Maybe there will come a day when those that you keep blind will suddenly realise.
Maybe it's a part of me, you took it to a place I hoped it would never go,
And maybe that fucked me up much more than you'll ever know.
How'd you get so big? How'd you get so strong?
How'd you get so hard? How'd it get so long?
And what you gave to me, my perfect ring of scars.
You know I can see what you really are.
You didn't hurt me, nothing can hurt me.
You didn't hurt me, nothing can stop me now.

THE BECOMING

I beat my machine, it's a part of me, it's inside of me.
I'm stuck in this dream, it's changing me, I am becoming.
The me that you know, he had some second thoughts,
He's covered with scabs, he is broken and sore.
The me that you know, he doesn't come around much.
That part of me isn't here anymore.
All pain disappears, it's the nature of my circuitry.
Drowns out all I hear, no escape from this, my new consciousness.
The me that you know, he used to have feelings,
But the blood has stopped pumping and he is left to decay.
The me that you know is now made up of wires
And even when I'm right with you, I'm so far away.
I can try to get away, but I've strapped myself in.
I can try to knock away the sound in my ears.
I can see it killing away all of my bad parts.
I don't want to listen, but it's all too clear.
Hiding backwards inside of me, I feel so unafraid.
Annie, hold a little tighter. I might just slip away.
Won't give up, it wants me dead, goddamn this noise inside my head.

I DO NOT WANT THIS

I'm losing ground. You know how this world can beat you down.
And I'm made of clay. I fear I'm the only one who thinks this way.
I'm always falling down the same hill, bamboo puncturing the skin,
And nothing comes bleeding out of me, just like a waterfall I'm drowning in.
Two feet below the surface, I can still make out your wavy face,
And if I could just reach you, maybe I could leave this place.
I do not want this.
Don't you tell me how I feel. You don't know just how I feel.
I stay inside my bed. I have lived so many lives all in my head.
Don't tell me that you care. There really isn't anything, now is there?
You would know, wouldn't you? You extend your hand to those who suffer,
To those who know what it really feel like,
To those who've had a taste, like that means something.
And, oh, so sick I am, and maybe I don't have a choice,
And maybe that is all I have, and maybe this is a cry for help.
I do not want this.
Don't you tell me how I feel. You don't know just how I feel.
I want to know everything, I want to be everywhere,
I want to fuck everyone in the world, I want to do something that matters.

BIG MAN WITH A GUN

I am a big man, yes I am, and I've got a big gun,
Got me a big old dick and I like to have fun.
Held against your forehead, well I'll make you suck it.
Maybe I'll put a hole in your head, you know, just for the fuck of it.
I can reduce you if I want, I can devour.
I'm hard as fucking steel, I've got the power.
I'm every inch a man, and I'll show you somehow.
Me and my fucking gun, nothing can stop me now.
(Shoot shoot shoot) I'm gonna come all over you.

ERASER

Need you
Dream you
Find you
Taste you
Fuck you
Use you
Scar you
Break you
Lose me
Hate me
Smash me
Erase me
Kill me

REPTILE

She spreads herself wide open to let the insects in.
She leaves a trail of honey to show me where she's been.
She has the blood of reptile just underneath the skin.
Seeds from a thousand others drip down from within.
Oh my beautiful liar, oh my precious whore,
My disease, my infection, I am so impure.
Devils speak of the ways in which she'll manifest.
Angels bleed from the tainted touch of my caress.
Need to contaminate to alleviate this loneliness.
I now know the depths I reach are limitless.
Oh my beautiful liar, oh my precious whore,
My disease, my infection, I am so impure.

THE DOWNWARD SPIRAL

He couldn't believe how easy it was. He put the gun into his face.
Bang... so much blood for such a tiny little hole.
Problems do have solutions: a lifetime of fucking things up fixed in one determined flash.
Everything's blue in this world, the deepest shade of mushroom blue,
All fuzzy, spilling out of my head.

HURT

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel.
I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real.
The needle tears a hole, the old familiar sting.
Try to kill it all away, but I remember everything.
What have I become? My sweetest friend.
Everyone I know goes away in the end.
You could have it all, my empire of dirt.
I will let you down, I will make you hurt.
I wear this crown of shit upon my liar's chair,
Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair.
Beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear.
You are someone else, I am still right here.
What have I become? My sweetest friend.
Everyone I know goes away in the end.
And you could have it all, my empire of dirt.
I will let you down, I will make you hurt.
If I could start again a million miles away,
I would keep myself, I would find a way.

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