from the album “Smile Empty Soul”
BOTTOM OF A BOTTLE
Been scared and lonely, I’ve asked myself, is something wrong with you?My girlfriend told me I need some time alone to deal with issues.
But something makes me carry on, it’s difficult to understand why I always want to fly.
I do it for the drugs, I do it just to feel alive,
I do it for the love that I get from the bottom of a bottle.
You always call me and ask me how I make it through the day.
I’m always falling, I guess it’s just God’s way of making me pay.
But something makes me carry on, it’s difficult to understand why I always want to fly.
I do it for the drugs, I do it just to feel alive,
I do it for the love that I get from the bottom of a bottle.
When I wonder why I try, and I wonder why I bother,
And I wonder why I cry, why I go through all this trouble.
I do it for the drugs, I do it just to feel alive,
I do it for the love that I get from the bottom of a bottle.
SILHOUETTES
Silhouettes above the cradle hold me down, they won’t let me go the wrong way.My mother taught me all the fables, told me how in the end all the sinners have to pay.
But I don’t want to live like my mother, I don’t want to let fear rule my life.
And I don’t want to live like my father, I don’t want to give up before I die.
He works so hard, his bones are breaking, he wore them down, but long ago he lost the feeling.
His good intentions leave me shaking, show me how I don’t ever want to end up like he did.
And I don’t want to live like my mother, I don’t want to let fear rule my life.
And I don’t want to live like my father, I don’t want to give up before I die.
When I have kids, I won’t put any chains on their wrists, I won’t.
I’ll tell them this: there’s nothing in this world that you can’t be if you want it enough.
I don’t want to live like my mother, I don’t want to let fear rule my life.
And I don’t want to live like my father, I don’t want to give up before I die.
NOWHERE KIDS
In the land of dirt and plaster lies an army of a thousand nowhere kids,Losing ground and falling faster into a life that no one should have to live.
We are the people that you hate, we are the bastards that you created,
A generation with no place, a generation of all your sons and daughters.
Behind the fake family image, behind the smiles of a thousand moms and dads,
Inside the cage that we’ve been given, I see an image of the future that we don’t have.
We are the people that you hate, we are the bastards that you created,
A generation with no place, a generation of all your sons and daughters.
We are the people that you hate, the fucking bastards that you created,
A generation with no place, a generation of all your sons and daughters.
And what did you expect, a perfect child? Raised by TV sets, abandoned every mile.
We never get respect, never a fair trial, no one gives a shit as long as we smile.
THIS IS WAR
I’m just a normal man, I wouldn’t hurt nothing at all, but here we are.Our leaders have a plan, I’d only kill if it’s for them, now here we are.
I drove in a car and flew in a plane to come to your house and kick your door in.
Now it’s down to this, it’s just you and me, I’ll blow your fucking head off for my country.
I go to church and tithe, I go to work in a suit and tie, but this is war.
I’m really not sure why, but the TV says that you are wrong, now here we are.
I drove in a car and flew in a plane to come to your house and kick your door in.
Now it’s down to this, it’s just you and me, I’ll blow your fucking head off for my country.
My feet hurt from the sand, but still I march on, gun in hand, cause this is war.
This isn’t want I planned, I wanted to be so much more, but this is war.
THERAPY
Too many weeds in the flowers, too many pills in the pharmacies now.Too many bugs in the shower, there’s too much shit in the air we breathe now.
There’s too much anger inside me, there’s too much scarring when I bleed,
There’s too much therapy I need, there is no god that I have seen.
There’s too much doubt in my mom’s words, there’s too much fear in the way she sees life.
I wonder if I’m just like her, I wonder if I can make myself right.
There’s too much anger inside me, there’s too much scarring when I bleed,
There’s too much therapy I need, there is no god that I have seen.
You try to help, you listen well, you cannot change the way I see.
FOR YOU
I waited for you, I died inside my own head and I’d die again for you.I’m faded and tired, completely uninspired, and I’d die again for you.
So kill me with the love that you won’t give to me,
And pack the wound with salt, I want to feel it bleed.
I’m searching for reasons to keep away the demons and I’d die again for you.
I wish you were near me, could feel it when you hear me say I’d die again for you.
So kill me with the love that you won’t give to me,
And pack the wound with salt, I want to feel it bleed.
You wanted me to crawl, so now I’m on my knees.
Why’s it always have to be me that’s always left out to burn and I’ll never learn.
YOUR WAY
Stand there with your ball and chain, bitch about what you’ve created,All caught up in the masquerade, you’ve already been paid and made it.
Don’t pretend to know what it’s like to feel the things that we must live through.
You only see with your dying eyes, there’s only one thing I will ask of you.
Can you take this life, can you make it right?
Do you have the words to say to make it all go away?
You act so wise and so refined, you keep your lies cause I’m never gonna go your way.
Promises of a better life, what’s wrong with the one I’m leading?
Everyone has a different fight, different wound that keeps them bleeding.
What’s wrong with a little fun? Everybody needs to find their something.
Is this how you’re gonna treat your son? Fuck them up and give them nothing.
Can you take this life, can you make it right?
Do you have the words to say to make it all go away?
You act so wise and so refined, keep your bullshit lies cause I’m never gonna go your way.
Everybody needs to find their own way through life.
THE OTHER SIDE
I walk into the room, you don’t have to scream, I can hear you.Bad trip, the needle sticks, you get your fix from confrontation.
I try to make it past, I don’t want to get into it right now.
Can’t this family have one day to get away from all the pain?
And through the night I see the light shining from the neighbours’ windows,
I dream of life where I’m safe in a home where I am not alone.
Someday I will lay me down on the grass where everything is greener.
It always looks seems good on the other side.
I’m sick of all the heat, you can taste the hate in the air,
Running through this family, uncomfortably, it’s burning me.
Is anybody there? In your eyes there’s nothing to see.
Just because your dreams have died, don’t drag me down, I’ve still got mine.
And through the night I see the light shining from the neighbours’ windows,
I dream of life where I’m safe in a home where I am not alone.
Someday I will lay me down on the grass where everything is greener.
It always looks seems good on the other side.
Neighbour boy runs up to me, his eyes all black and blue,
I said, ‘What happened to you, boy?’ He said, ‘My daddy flew
Off the hook cause I was playing too loud. I guess he couldn’t hear the TV.’
He said, ‘Son, I’m gonna teach you a lesson,’ and then he…
Maybe it’s not so good on the other side.
It always seems so good on the other side.
EVERY SUNDAY
I don’t have time for your solutions and I don’t want to deal with your mistakes.No matter how much medication the doctor says I need to take, I still say:
You’re the ones that kill your babies, you’re the ones that fuck your kids.
You’re the ones that throw each other away, you’re the ones sitting in church every Sunday.
I don’t want your religions and I don’t need your sympathies,
And I don’t want a part of all your hatred.
No matter how much you yell at me, I still say:
You’re the ones that kill your babies, you’re the ones that fuck your kids.
You’re the ones that throw each other away, you’re the ones sitting in church every Sunday.
WITH THIS KNIFE
I let myself fall into a lie, I let my walls come down.I let myself smile and feel alive, I let my walls come down.
No matter how I try, I don’t know why you push so far away.
You wrapped your hands tight around my heart and squeezed it full of pain.
With this knife I’ll cut out the part of me, the part that cares for you.
With this knife I’ll cut out the heart of me, the heart that cares for you.
I can’t believe the way you took me down, I never saw the pain
Coming in a million broken miles, like poison for my veins.
With this knife I’ll cut out the part of me, the part that cares for you.
With this knife I’ll cut out the heart of me, the heart that cares for you.
The hate and the fear, the nightmares that wake me up in tears.
RADIO IN A HOLE
Run to me, I can’t live without you.I’ve walked up walls, over them all, so don’t think you’re such a queen.
You’re mine in a sick way, you’re my radio in a hole covered up,
You’re all the love that could be but never was.
Care for me like I need you.
You’re in my mind, it’s only time before the drug you feed me ends it all.
You’re mine in a sick way, you’re my radio in a hole covered up,
You’re all the love that could be but never was.
It’s okay to be what you want, don’t pretend to smile.
It’s okay to be what you are, don’t pretend to smile.
You’re mine in a sick way, you’re my radio in a hole covered up,
You’re all the love that could be but never was.
It’s only time in my mind, it’s meant to be in my mind.
ALL MY PROBLEMS
By now I should have been somewhere or gone to school or fixed my hair.Back down, tell it to someone else who gives a shit and needs your help.
Cause I found what I needed and I don’t need you to tell me how you feel,
And if I fall you are not the one that has to cope and deal.
All my problems are for me.
My God, look at his tattoos and those earrings, he could never get a good job.
Go home and beat your kids so they don’t turn out as bad as me.
Cause I found what I needed and I don’t need you to tell me how you feel,
And if I fall you are not the one that has to cope and deal.
All my problems are for me.
I don’t need your eyes to see, I will be what I will be.
Stop coming around cause you bother me, stupid motherfucker pull your head out your ass and see.
What don’t you get, was I stuttering? I don’t need to take your shit, get away from me.
I WANT MY LIFE
I try to be the man I am, in times of broken lives and shattered dreams and plans,Standing up to fight the pressures and demands staring at the knife,
And holding in your hand what used to be your life.
This world is crazy, my demons are fading, I want my life.
You fight your fucked up holy wars, fire Antichrist, Jesus will come down and help us win tonight.
Now how should I feel? I think I feel alright, now tell me where to aim, I’m blinded by the light.
This world is crazy, my demons are fading, no one can save me, I want my life.
And when I wake up you’ll be here, and it will be the way it was.
ERASER
Some days are better than others, can’t run forever, you’re pushing me under.What a way to live my life, I’m hiding from the battles I don’t want to fight what I’ve become.
And now it’s going grey, all the lines are blurring and decayed,
I can’t recall exactly who’s to blame anymore.
It is me or is it you, something isn’t right.
Of all the things that we could do, we just want to fight.
Someday I will find the courage to embrace you, someday I will find the strength to erase you.
Some days I think I am nothing without you, sometimes I wish that I could just kill you.
What a way we live our lives, it’s hard to breathe, it feels like I’m infected by my dad’s disease.
And now it’s going grey, and you’re the one I chose to feed me pain,
And I’m the one you bring home, so ashamed, through their eyes.
It is me or is it you, something isn’t right.
Of all the things that we could do, we just want to fight.
Someday I will find the courage to embrace you, someday I will find the strength to erase you.
And I see myself in heaven if I can free myself from this hell.
from the soundtrack to “The Punisher”
FINDING MYSELF
I don’t care anymore if I let you down, I believe that I need to be free.I’m so used to my life with you around, I don’t know anymore the real me.
And I thought that I found myself today, and I thought that I had control,
All the change in my life just fell away, for a moment I didn’t need you.
All these tears that I’ve cried, you must be tired of taking care of me,
But it is what you do best and I’m a liar cause really it is what I need.
And I thought that I found myself today, and I thought that I had control,
All the change in my life just fell away, for a moment I didn’t need you.
Someone like you, someone like me, maybe it’s change that sets you free.
from the soundtrack to "Spider-Man 2"
WHO I AM
Another night again, another journey without friends,Another fight to wish away the loneliness I live.
Another circus show, another face that I don’t know,
Another night of people asking what I have to give.
I thought that I would drown, but it’s okay right now.
And all the miles away, I feel a part of me I have to fight,
Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin.
The emptiness in me has faded, I can see my life is waiting.
Now I know I’m living for who I am.
The fire grows inside, the feeling cannot be denied
And everywhere I turn, the size of guys, they push me.
And all has fallen down, but it’s okay right now.
And all the miles away, I feel a part of me I have to fight,
Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin.
The emptiness in me has faded, I can see my life is waiting.
Now I know I’m living for who I am.
And everything seems great and everyone is fake, no one really knows you,
Look into their eyes, rip off your disguise, let them see the real you.
And all the miles away, I feel a part of me I have to fight,
Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin.
The emptiness in me has faded, I can see my life is waiting.
Now I know I’m living for who I am.
from the album “Anxiety”
BRIGHT SIDE
Break everything you love; after all, there’s no hope or God above, looking at the bright side.Kill everything inside, it’s better to be dead then always have to hide, looking at the bright side.
Give me just one more chance to think about it.
There’s more to life than sad and there’s more to me than mad,
And I need to pick myself up off the ground before I sink into it.
Why do I feel like this? Whenever I get up, I’m right back in the shit, looking at the bright side.
As long as I get my fix, I watch the pain dissolve, there’s nothing left but bliss, looking at the bright side.
Give me just one more chance to think about it.
There’s more to life than sad and there’s more to me than mad,
And I need to pick myself up off the ground before I sink into it.
I need to rebuild my mind so I’m strong again, I need to rebuild my life so I’m full within.
TO THE GROUND
You are my light, you are my fire, the only one that’s not a liar.You get me through all of my days, you keep me numb to the pain.
When I’m lonely, when I’m calling out, screaming for a friend, you always hear the sound.
Keep me happy now when all the world around crumbles to the ground.
You keep me calm when I’m not fine, you take the pressure off my mind,
And even though I don’t see clear, I feel safe cause you’re here.
When I’m lonely, when I’m calling out, screaming for a friend, you always hear the sound.
Keep me happy now when all the world around crumbles to the ground.
Am I too fucked up to really see, you’re the best friend that’s killing me?
CALIFORNIA’S LONELY
Wait, it’s coming to me, I’m starting to see so very clearly why I’m never happy,Cause California’s lonely, California’s lonely just like the rest of the world.
I always feel sick, so hard to breathe in, my head is spinning,
Rounded by the only one that’s always lonely, California’s lonely just like the rest of the world.
I’m so cold in this heat, I’m so alone in these crowded streets.
There’s no way I’m the only one that’s always lonely, California’s lonely just like the rest of the world.
SELF INFLICTED
You see these cuts and bruises, isn’t this all so amusing, I feel the emptiness of just another day in hell.My life is so confusing, do this to myself I’m losing, guess I’m only proving what everyone can see but me.
And I won’t let myself be happy, I cut myself just to feel the pain,
And I won’t give up anything for you, I’m going down and no one can save me.
I am cold, my legs are shaking, there’s no hope right now, I’m begging
For just one sign to show me someone out there really cares.
My clothes are soaked, I’m crying, there’s no doubt, I know I’m dying,
I did this to myself and that’s the part I can’t believe.
And I won’t let myself be happy, I cut myself just to feel the pain,
And I won’t give up anything for you, I’m going down and no one can save me.
These cuts and bruises are all self inflicted.
HOLES
I’ve been through everything I’ve seen, religions and beliefs, but nothing’s ever really helped.I’ll try drugs until I die, breaking others’ lives until I really find myself.
And all these people think they know what’s missing from my show, tust admit that Jesus died for me.
Take your Bibles and go home.
Cause as I’m walking through this life, I know that things aren’t right,
I don’t know how to fill the holes I keep falling in along the way, no matter what they say, no one has it figured out.
You act like everything is great, there’s nothing out of place, I can see right through the words you spin.
You’re burning up within, You’re tired and you’re thin, your can’t believe God let you down.
And all these people think they know what’s missing from my show, tust admit that Jesus died for me.
Take your Bibles and go home.
Cause as I’m walking through this life, I know that things aren’t right,
I don’t know how to fill the holes I keep falling in along the way, no matter what they say, no one has it figured out.
DON’T NEED YOU
They always warn, don’t get caught up, you’ll just get burned.The storm has come to crumble my world to the ground.
So now I’m cutting myself off, am I really done with you?
I don’t need you anymore.
We breathe as one to feed the fiend that I’ve become.
This is so hard, you helped me cover all my scars.
But now I’m cutting myself off, am I really done with you?
I don’t need you anymore.
Someday we’ll see a better stronger me, once I get the fuck away from you.
FIGHT OF A SUBURBAN COUPLE
You’re so into this news thing on the TV set, I don’t know why you care when ‘Wheel of Fortune’ is on next.We could watch yuppie families playing for great prizes, we could forget about this fucked up world while TV blinds us.
You’re so into your game shows on the TV set, when we could watch the world explode tonight on channel ten.
We could watch fucked up families as they fuck each other, we could forget about the good things in this world together.
REFILL ME
I love my job, I love the house I live in and I love my mom.I love the teachers at my school, they teach me how to love,
But best of all, I love the pills the doctor gives me.
Don’t talk, shut up, just refill me, cause I’m feeling kind of low today,
Pills will make it go away.
My friends are great, all they do is talk but have nothing to say.
I love L.A., the air is beautiful and it’s sunny every day,
But best of all, I love the pills the doctor gives me.
Don’t talk, shut up, just refill me, cause I’m feeling kind of low today,
Pills will make it go away.
I’m better off like this than to feel the real shit,
This haze, this fog, this bliss, twist the top, give me another kiss.
GOD’S ARMY
Tell me when to eat, tell me when to breathe, tell me what to think and what to believe,Tell me when to cry, who to trust and why, and send me off to die, I’ll sacrifice my life.
Cause I’m ready and I’m waiting to give my life for my country.
I’m so sorry, Mama don’t worry, let’s hope I’m fighting for God’s army.
Hold me as I pray, this is my last day, before I go to sleep, freedom from decay.
God, I’d like to say, thank you for the eight years we’ll spend in pain, I’ll probably die in vain.
Cause I’m ready and I’m waiting to give my life for my country.
I’m so sorry, Mama don’t worry, let’s hope I’m fighting for God’s army.
I really don’t know why we’re fighting, I know there’s got to be a reason.
Our government would never send us without a cause.
NOT ALRIGHT
The cuts I bear are deep and all they do is bleed, I wish I could release all the hurt you’ve given me.I can’t let go and all I know is that I hope you’re not alright, I hope you’re not okay,
And when you sleep at night, dream of only me.
I know I need to forgive and hopefully forget, to leave the past behind is probably for the best.
I can’t let go and all I know is that I hope you’re not alright, I hope you’re not okay,
And when you sleep at night, dream of only me.
I hope you’re not alright.
I should only want the best for you, a happy life, the skies are blue.
I can’t let go and all I know is that I hope you’re not alright, I hope you’re not okay,
And when you sleep at night, dream of only pain.
SATURDAY
Another Saturday night, don’t remind me that there’s nothing to do.What do we expect from life, so fucking play or teach for two.
What if I’m scared and I don’t want to come out, cause I get busy, get you fucked up at my house.
What would you think of me, then since you’re doing the same under your brother’s tent?
And there’s nothing that I won’t do, just feel the vibe run through my feet.
And there’s nothing I have to prove, just another Saturday.
I’m only pretending to care, I should listen to you because your trying to help.
Who are you to say what’s fair? If your so fucking smart, why can’t you figure it out?
I’m out of control, that’s what it says in the polls, I guess it’s just because there’s nothing else to do,
So come and arrest me now, want to be like you, please show me how.
And there’s nothing that I won’t do, just feel the vibe run through my feet.
And there’s nothing I have to prove, just another Saturday.
Saturday, bored out of my mind, I need to breathe, I need to fly,
I want to live, I want to die, the things I love, I want to fly.
And there’s nothing that I won’t do, just feel the vibe run through my feet.
And there’s nothing I have to prove, anyone would do the same.
PROUD TO BE
Here I am, man, with my big cock, so bend over, boy, and take my best shot.All I want to be is the boss of you, this cowboy hat makes me king, I thought that you knew.
That’s why I’m proud to be, I’m so very proud to be, I’m so goddamn proud to be,
I’m so fucking proud to be an American right now.
I’m so glad, man, that we rule the world; that would suck if they told us what to do.
Our country here is a shining pearl in a world that’s so unjust and cruel.
That’s why I’m proud to be, I’m so very proud to be, I’m so goddamn proud to be,
I’m so fucking proud to be an American right now.
All my life I’ve dreamed of giving the finger to the rest of the world.
When I sleep I dream of our bombs levelling the rest of the world.
NEVER AGAIN
I need to give up all my hate, cause all it seems to ever do is put me deeper in the grave.I always bottle up my rage, but I need to let it out because all it ever does is put me in a cage.
And I don’t know how this world can be so cold, it hurts me no one really cares that you’re alone,
And I don’t know why I always seem to let it get the best of me, but I’m never gonna let it beat me down again.
Lately I’ve been so stressed out til I couldn’t even breathe and now I’m shaking on the ground.
Inside of me is a dark cloud and it needs to be released so I can change what I’m about.
I don’t know how this world can be so cold, it hurts me no one really cares that you’re alone,
And I don’t know why I always seem to let it get the best of me, but I’m never gonna let it beat me down again.
Can you see that I really want to change, can you see that I’ve opened up my cage,
Can you see that now I’m not afraid, can you see that?
END OF THE WORLD
Tears of angels are falling, children’s mothers are calling,And I’m not even looking down, and miss these demons hit the ground.
Little babies are crying, pretty ladies are trying to bring some order to their worlds, the Lord is with you, little girl.
And I don’t know what to do but sit here and wait for the end of the world.
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