from the album "Darkest Days"
DARKEST DAYS
There are times when I'm just a shell, when I do not feel anything for anyone.All I feel is hollow and bruised, used up and misused,
Forced to be someone I don't want to be.
Have I failed somehow or some way?
Will the weight of today finally pull me down to drown in the depths of despair,
Where I am alone except for my rage?
My rage, my pain, I hate my darkest days.
EVERYTHING I TOUCH
The more I feel, the more I die, nothing to give, nothing inside.Everything I touch I break, I want to break you down.
I scratch and tear until it bleeds, I do not want, I only need.
Everything I touch I break, I want to break you down.
HOW CAN I HOLD ON (DOG ATTACK)
Back when you were my life, you gave me something that I could live for.Now everything's changed, and you're gone, but I'm still here waiting.
How can I hold on with nothing to hold on to?
Why should I hold on when there's nothing to hold on to?
Sex made me feel alive, but now I'm so bored with mindless passion.
Drugs were somewhere to hide, but they've left me feeling cold and empty.
How can I hold on with nothing to hold on to?
Why should I hold on when there's nothing to hold on to?
I thought you were my friend, that you were someone that I could turn to.
Now I realise that you were a friend when you needed something.
DRUGSTORE
You seduced me, lonely in your hell; naked, hungry, I crawl into your cell.A virtual drugstore is piled on your bed, I can't resist with your tongue inside my head.
How can everything be justified by you?
You get off on watching me bleed, you get off on feeding my disease.
This time will be perfect, you explain, but your tongue's as deadly as a needle in my vein.
How can everything be justified by you? How can my demise be justified by you?
I'm so tired of living for your touch, I'm so tired of needing you so much.
How can everything be justified by you? How can my demise be justified by you?
When did I decide to be crucified by you? How can everything be justified by you?
YOU COMPLETE ME
I am lost in the darkness between two worlds, and here I'm struggling.You're the light that I've been seeking, cause my whole life there's been something missing.
Only you can make me whole, just one touch and you complete me.
Rescue me from this black hole that's sucked me in and left me dying.
You're the truth that I've been seeking, cause my whole life I've been lying.
Only you can make me whole, just one touch and you complete me.
God, I pray you find me worthy of the right to stand beside you,
And of your truth, and of your passion, of the right to sleep beside you.
Only you can make me whole, just one touch and you complete me.
SAVE YOURSELF
I know your life is empty and you hate to face the world alone,So you're searching for an angel, someone who can make you whole.
I cannot save you, I can't even save myself, so just save yourself.
I know that you've been damaged, your soul has suffered such abuse,
But I am not your saviour, I am just as fucked as you.
I cannot save you, I can't even save myself, so just save yourself.
Please don't take pity on me.
My life has been a nightmare, my soul is fractured to the bone,
And if I must be lonely, I think I'd rather be alone.
You cannot save me, you can't even save yourself.
I cannot save you, I can't even save myself, so just save yourself.
HAUNTING ME
Everywhere I go I see your face, and every sound I hear is the sound of your voice.Why are you haunting me, why can't I let you go?
Why are you haunting me?
Everything about me is a lie, at least it feels that way when I look in your eyes now.
The truth scares the shit out of me.
Whoever said love is real and love is blood has never felt the way that I feel.
What does it matter? What's done is done and I should get on with my life.
Why are you haunting me?
Well, I don't know what it is, but I can't seem to make myself forget.
Was it something that you said, or is it all the guilt inside my head?
Why are you haunting me?
TORN APART
I know I should have told you, I was so afraid you'd leave,And now there's nothing left to say, well, nothing that you'd believe.
I never meant to hurt you with the things I couldn't say.
I promised you tomorrow while denying you today.
These lies have torn my world apart.
A darkness grows inside me in fading shades of grey.
All the colours of the world are slowly sucked away.
I'm sinking ever deeper to a place that's cold and black.
I can't believe I've lost you and you're never coming back.
These lies have torn my world apart.
Soon the night will take me and save me from my pain,
Cloak me in cold darkness and help me lose your name.
These lies have torn my world apart.
SOMETIMES IT HURTS
Six o'clock in the morning, my head is ready to explode, I can't believe I made it home alive.I don't remember where I went or what I was drinking, I know it made me sick,
And I'm not denying that I get this way when I try to get over you.
Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love.
I tried so hard to hate you, but it only makes things worse, I only end up hating myself.
And as my hatred grows, so do the lies, it's hard to face the truth sometimes.
God, I feel so useless.
God, I hate myself when I try to get over you.
I hate myself, will I ever get over you?
Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love.
And after all this time you'd think I'd understand the way you feel, but no,
I only think about myself, and it's driving you away, I always knew it would one day.
Sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love.
DROWNING
I'm drowning in nothing, nothing real, nothing left, nothing.I'm losing myself, sinking deeper down.
Silently leaving this behind, nothing left but me.
I'm hating myself, hating me, everyone hates me now.
Everyone has changed, everything has changed, everyone has changed, but me.
DESPERATE NOW
I keep breaking all the promises that I keep making to myself.You'd think by now that I'd be over this, instead I'm feeling sorry for myself.
So why does everything seem desperate now? I should be feeling so alive,
But it feels like something's missing, something's wrong somehow.
It feels like something deep inside has died.
So why do I feel desperate now? Why do I feel like dying? Why do I feel desperate now?
I keep breaking all the promises that I keep making to myself,
But promises mean nothing to me anymore, circling the drain, spiralling to hell.
So why do I feel desperate now? Why do I feel like dying? Why do I feel desperate now?
GOODBYE
So this is where I say goodbye, this is where my story ends.And if there's one thing that I've learned from life, it's that it gets you in the end.
So goodbye, my friend, goodbye.
WHEN I'M DEAD
I know the tears you're crying in your bed at night alone.I've cried those tears a thousand times.
But those shallow empty songs about suicide are patronising.
You've got to learn to face your fears.
Or do you think I'll be less lonely when I'm dead?
It can't silence all the voices in my head.
I close my eyes but I can't make it go away.
Do you think I'll be less lonely, God I pray that I'm less lonely when I'm dead.
When I'm dead I won't feel any pain, but when I'm dead I won't feel anything.
I know the songs you're singing, saying nothing, loud and clear.
I've heard that song a thousand times.
But your shallow empty lies about suicide are patronising.
You can never understand what I feel.
Or do you think I'll be less lonely when I'm dead?
It can't silence all the voices in my head.
I close my eyes but I can't make it go away.
Do you think I'll be less lonely, God I pray that I'm less lonely when I'm dead.
THE THING I HATE (P.O.M.F)
Lost in a world of doubt and insecurity,Nothing that you hold sacred, nothing you believe.
Your life is a contradiction while you thrive on manipulation,
And I fight to just hold onto what I believe.
I won't become the thing I hate, I won't become you.
You've treated me like I'm a worthless piece of shit.
You think you're in control, but you make me sick.
I want to watch you suffer the way that you've made me suffer.
I want to fuck up everything you've ever loved.
I won't become the thing I hate, I won't become you.
ON YOUR WAY DOWN
I hope I see you on your way down, I hope you break every bone,I hope it kills you on your way down, and I hope you die alone.
All of your hate and all of your lies, will it be worth it?
When all of your friends refuse to be alibis, will it be worth it?
I'll see you on your way down.
It's kind of sad to watch you break down, you greedy fuck, you pissed it all away.
So who will catch you on your way down? You've only got yourself to blame.
When all your worst fears materialise, will it be worth it?
There's nobody left who cares you're alive. Was it worth it?
I'll see you on your way down.
WAKING UP BESIDE YOU
I've been so alone for so long, forgotten by the world, forgotten to myself.Your effervescent eyes have awakened me and brushed the dust away, but I knew you'd never stay,
So I memorised the colour of your eyes as I lost myself inside you.
And I memorised the way our legs entwined as I drifted off beside you.
I miss, God, I miss waking up beside you.
At night I cling to you, I'm so afraid the day will come, and I'll wake and find you gone,
But you promised that you'd not abandon me
And then kissed my fears away, but I woke up to that day.
But I memorised the way our eyes would meet, reflected in the bathroom mirror.
And I memorised your naked silhouette as you slowly brushed your hair.
I miss, God, I miss waking up beside you.
I've been so alone for so long, forgot how much it hurts to wake up so alone.
But I memorised how warm your body felt as you lay half asleep beside me,
And I memorised the way the sunlight filled the room and played upon your body.
I miss, God, I miss waking up beside you.
from the album "Stabbing Westward"
SO FAR AWAY
Each night I feel the distance that has grown between usOpen up as lonely as the space between the stars.
I wish that I could find a way to smash my fist right through these walls
Of ugliness and emptiness and gently touch your face,
But every time that I touch you, you feel so far away,
And every time that you need me, I feel so far away.
As you lie silently beside me choking back your tears,
I wonder if you recognise that silence now defines us.
Desperately I try to fight this overwhelming sense that I
May never find the strength to change how hopeless we’ve become,
And every time that I touch you, you feel so far away,
And every time that you need me, I feel so far away.
We need to find a way to break this silence that’s between us, so I scream your name,
But every time that I touch you, you feel so far away,
And every time that you need me, you feel so far away,
And every time that you reach out, you feel me pull away,
And every time that I touch you, you feel so far away.
PERFECT
Lately I’ve noticed how much you’ve changed, even though you swear you’re the same.So why do I feel a million miles away? Why do I feel like we’re broken?
Why can’t we be perfect like we used to be?
Why can’t it be perfect like it used to be?
Perfect is how I once described our love, but that was before we fell apart.
So why do I feel a million miles away? Why do I feel like we’re broken?
Why can’t we be perfect like we used to be?
Why can’t it be perfect like it used to be? It used to be perfect.
Lately I’ve noticed how much you’ve changed, even though you swear you’re the same.
I REMEMBER
Do you ever wonder where we would be if we had tried a little harder?It seems like yesterday that we were making plans for the future,
But it’s been so long since I have mourned the dreams, those dreams we left abandoned,
And I’m haunted by your face and the memory of your kisses, sweet kisses.
Do you remember? I still remember so much, I remember never feeling so alive.
Do you remember? I still can’t forget your touch.
We swore that we would never end, we knew our love transcended space and time.
As memories slip away, the ghost of what we were, it’s faded,
But there is no more pain, which is funny cause that night I was dying.
Now I don’t even recognise the girl I swore that someday I would marry.
But I can’t forget her face, and I can’t forget her kisses, sweet kisses.
Do you remember? I still remember so much, I remember always feeling so alive.
Do you remember? I still can’t forget your touch.
We swore that we would never end, we knew our love transcended space and time.
Do you remember? I still remember so much, I remember never feeling so alive.
Do you remember? I still can’t forget your touch.
I always swore that we would never be alone.
Do you remember? I still remember so much, I remember never feeling so alive.
Do you remember? Cause I still can’t forget your touch.
We always swore that we would never end, we knew our love transcended space and time.
Do your remember? God, I remember so much.
WASTED
I spent my life running from an emptiness that haunts me,And I’ve spent my whole life trying to fuck the loneliness away,
And I die inside when I think of all the people I have damaged,
But I’m tired, I’m so tired, and there’s no one else except myself to blame,
My life’s been wasted, everything is gone.
My life’s been wasted, and I am all alone.
My life’s been wasted, there is no one else.
My life’s been wasted, it's time I face myself.
And I’ve spent my life trapped inside a cycle of self destruction,
And I’ve spent my whole life trying to numb the pain inside my soul.
Tonight I cried when I realised I fought this world with no one.
I’m tired, I’m so fucking tired, but I found a way to keep my faith alive.
My life’s been wasted, everything is gone.
My life’s been wasted, and I’m all alone.
My life’s been wasted, there is no one else.
My life’s been wasted, it's time I face myself.
When I reach the end, will anything I’ve done mean anything?
My life’s been wasted, everything is gone.
My life’s been wasted, now I am all alone.
My life’s been wasted, there’s simply no one else.
My life’s been wasted, and it’s time I face myself.
HAPPY
I know you’ve grown to hate me even more than you had grown to hate yourself,But has it really made a difference sharing all that hate with someone else?
Please tell me, are you really happy? Do you think he’s really worth the pain?
Tell me are you really happy, or did you simply throw our life away just to be unhappy?
Does he worship and adore you? Does he make you so beautifully complete?
Is your life so much better now, or do those same old demons haunt your sleep?
Please tell me, are you really happy? Do you think he’s really worth the pain?
Tell me are you really happy now, or did you simply throw our life away just to be unhappy?
Is he everything you’ve dreamed of? I imagine he is so much more than me.
And I tried to make you happy, but I believe you thrive on misery.
THE ONLY THING
All I need is the air you breathe, all I need is the air I breathe,All we need is the air we breathe, all I need is the air I breathe.
There’s so many things we need so desperately, and the TV preaches we can’t live without them.
You tell me what is need, I’ll tell you what I believe:
If I ever were without it, we’d all be worthless,
Cause you are everything, the only thing that matters.
You are everything, the only thing I need.
You are everything, the only thing that matters.
Yes, you are everything, you are the air I breathe.
What if someday we took all their toys away?
Do you think they’d find the strength to go on living?
Cause deep inside I know if I lost everything I owned,
I’d be a king as long as you’re beside me,
Cause you are everything, the only thing that matters.
Yes, you are everything, the only thing I need.
Our love means everything, the only thing that matters.
Yes, you are everything, you are the air I breathe.
I hope someday they find a place to bid online,
Where all lost souls can find their lives some meaning.
I know we’ll survive, all we need’s more time, as long we’ve got loving on the ocean.
And we are everything, the only thing that matters.
We are everything, there’s nothing else I need.
Our love is everything, the only thing that matters,
Yes, we are everything, you are the air I breathe.
You are everything, you are the air I breathe.
ANGEL
I believed that love was sacred as I dove blindly into her sea,But soon that warm embrace felt more like drowning, as endless waves crashed over me.
She was an insatiable black hole, feeding off my mind and off my soul.
I find love humiliating, a sickened desperate need that drains me.
God, I hope I never feel again.
But I’ve never been loved by an angel, I've never felt anything so pure.
And I’ve never been loved by an angel, until tonight, when your heaven filled my room.
She showed that love could lift me higher, with a kiss she repaired these broken wings.
She revived my fading spirit, restored my faith in everything.
I have never felt I had a home, even in a crowd I felt alone,
I’d almost given up on life, I believed it all a lie.
I never thought I’d ever feel again,
But I’ve never been loved by an angel, I've never felt anything so pure.
God, I’ve never been loved by an angel, until tonight, when your heaven filled my room.
I believed in nothing, but you believe in me.
I thought that life was worthless, but you told me I’m a star.
God, I’ve never been loved by an angel, I’ve never felt anything so pure.
God, I’ve never been loved by an angel, until tonight, when your heaven filled my world.
BREATHE YOU IN
Tomorrow came too soon, I barely made it through today.Still empty inside, I guess nothing’s really changed.
I’m still afraid of fear cause I cannot take the blame.
I’m still afraid to feel, afraid to lose someone again.
I wish that somehow I could leave my past behind, my fears behind,
If I could only breathe you in, every drop of you.
Guess it’s time to face the truth and admit my past mistakes,
Come to terms with all that’s wrong with me and all the things I’ll never be.
Why am I afraid of fear, afraid of what is true?
Why am I afraid to feel when all I really want is you?
To taste your skin, to share your thoughts, there’ll never be enough for me.
If I could only breathe you in, every drop of you.
HIGH
I can’t hide it, I can’t fight it when every nerve is crying out for release.I can't recapture the rapture, the passion that is burning inside of me.
I’ve lost so much chasing that perfect high.
I’ve never been as high as I was with you, I’ve never been so high.
I’ve never been as high as I was with you, I've finally realised that’s the perfect high.
This hunger, it consumes me, I lost my soul as you came rushing through my veins.
Pathetic little junkie, but I’m the whore that needs it one last time.
And I’ve lost so much chasing that perfect high.
I’ve never been as high as I was with you, I’ve never been so high.
I’ve never been as high as I was with you, I've finally realised that’s the perfect high.
TELEVISION
I sit alone, contemplating what is missing inside me.I desperately try to remember a life that’s not meant to be.
I meditate and try to recapture some sense of reality in my life.
But I look around, I see numb empty faces, the world is waiting to die,
And this apathy is so suffocating, the slow decay of my mind.
I’ve searched the world for someone with answers to questions that are plaguing me.
I scream in vain at anyone who’ll listen, but everybody’s watching TV.
Is anyone alive?
Am I lost in a world where nothing matters? Am I lost in a world where no one cares?
Are we lost in a world where nothing matters? Are we lost in a world where no one cares?
Is anyone alive?
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