My First Mistake - Vanessa Carlton lyrics
from the album "Be Not Nobody"
ORDINARY DAY
Just a day, just an ordinary day, just trying to get by.
Just a boy, just an ordinary boy, but he was looking to the sky,
And as he asked if I would come along I started to realise
That every day he finds just what he's looking for,
Like a shooting star he shines, and he said,
'Take my hand, live while you can,
Don't you see your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand?'
And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary words, though they did not feel,
For I felt what I had not felt before, and you'd swear those words could heal,
And as I looked up into those eyes, his vision borrows mine,
And I know he's no stranger, for I feel I've held him for all of time, and he said,
'Take my hand, live while you can,
Don't you see your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand?'
Please come with me, see what I see, touch the stars, for time will not flee, can't you see?
Just a dream, just an ordinary dream, as I wake in bed.
And the boy, that ordinary boy, was it all in my head?
Didn't he ask if I would come along, it all seemed so real,
But as I looked to the door, I saw that boy standing there with a deal, and he said,
'Take my hand, live while you can,
Don't you see your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand?'
Just a day, just an ordinary day, just trying to get by.
Just a boy, just an ordinary boy, but he was looking to the sky.
UNSUNG
If only I could get into that corner of your head
Where things finally match and meet the standards that you set.
How I wish I was the treasure that you were looking for,
I bet I would feel better if only I could find the door.
Well, I am crying, you aren't trying, I am melting away.
I wait for the words on the tip of your tongue, I'm only as good as the last one.
Well, you decide and I abide as my song goes unsung.
Things are going crazy and I'm not sure who to blame.
Everything is changing and I do not feel the same.
I'm slipping through the cracks of floors I thought that were strong,
I'm trying to find a place where I can feel like I belong.
Well, I am crying, you aren't trying, and I am melting away.
I wait for the words on the tip of your tongue, I'm only as good as the last one.
Well, you decide and I abide as my song goes unsung.
If I could be the lesson that you learn, if only I could be the last one that love burns.
A THOUSAND MILES
Making my way downtown, walking fast, faces pass and I'm homebound,
Staring blankly ahead, just making my way, making a way through the crowd.
And I need you, and I miss you, and now I wonder,
If I could fall into the sky, do you think time would pass me by?
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles if I could just see you tonight.
It's always times like these when I think of you and I wonder if you ever think of me,
Cause everything's so wrong and I don't belong, living in your precious memory.
Cause I need you, and I miss you, and now I wonder,
If I could fall into the sky, do you think time would pass me by?
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles if I could just see you tonight.
And I don't want to let you know, I drown in your memory, I don't want to let this go.
Making my way downtown, walking fast, faces pass and I'm homebound,
Staring blankly ahead, just making my way, making a way through the crowd.
And I still need you, and I still miss you, and now I wonder,
If I could fall into the sky, do you think time would pass us by?
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles if I could just see you,
If I could just hold you tonight.
PRETTY BABY
You light me up and then I fall for you, you lay me down and then I call for you.
Stumbling on reasons that are far and few, I'd let it all come down and then some for you.
Pretty baby, don't you leave me, I have been saving smiles for you,
Pretty baby, why can't you see you're the one I belong to?
I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm, for you're the sun that breaks the storm,
I'll be alright and I'll sleep sound as long as you keep coming round, pretty baby.
And I know things can't last forever, but there are lessons that you'll never learn.
Just the scent of you, it makes me hurt, so how's it you that makes me better?
Pretty baby, don't you leave me, I have been saving smiles for you,
Pretty baby, why can't you see you're the one I belong to?
I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm, for you're the sun that breaks the storm,
I'll be alright and I'll sleep sound as long as you keep coming.
Why can't you hold me and never let go? When you touch me, it is me that you own.
Pretty baby, the place that you hold in my heart, would you break it apart again?
RINSE
She'd do anything to sparkle in his eye,
She would suffer, she would fight and compromise,
She's been wishing on the stars that shine so bright,
For answers to questions that will haunt her tonight.
She must rinse this all away, she can't hold him this way,
She must rinse this all away, she can't love him this way.
How she'd be soothed, how she'd be saved if he could see
She needs to be held in his arms to be free,
But everything happens for reasons that she will never understand,
Til she knows that the heart of a woman will never be found in the arms of a man.
She must rinse this all away, she can't hold anybody this way,
She must rinse this all away, she can't love him.
And if she runs away, she fears she won't be followed.
What could be worse than leaving something behind?
And as the depth of oceans slowly become shallow,
It's loneliness she finds, if only he was mine.
She'd do anything to sparkle in his eye,
She would suffer, she would fight and compromise,
She's been wishing on the stars that shine so bright,
For answers to questions that will haunt her tonight.
She must rinse him, she can't, she won't, she must rinse him.
She must rinse this all away, she can't hold him this way,
She must rinse this all away, she can't love him this way.
SWAY
My heart, your hands; gentle, my friend; break me neatly, numb me sweetly.
Say you would, say you could, say you'd come and stop the rain,
Say you'd try and hold me tight and you just give me away,
Make me high on lullabies, a melody for me to sway,
Say you would, say you could, and you don't do anything.
Come down heavy, try and steady, precious ladies, love you, love me.
Say you would, say you could, say you'd come and stop the rain,
Say you'd try and hold me tight and you just give me away,
Make me high on lullabies, a melody for me to sway,
Say you would, say you could, but you don't do anything.
Hold my head up to the lies that you feed me,
I'll fall under the spell you cast as you let me down.
PARADISE
Once upon a year gone by, she saw herself give in.
Every time she closed her eyes she saw what could have been.
Well, nothing hurts and nothing bleeds when covers tucked in tight.
Funny when the bottom drops how she forgets to fight.
And it's one more day in paradise.
As darkness quickly steals the light that shined within her eyes,
She slowly swallows all her fear and soothes her mind with lies.
Well, all she wants and all she needs are reasons to survive,
A day in which the sun will take her artificial light.
And it's one more day in paradise, one last chance to feel alright.
Don't pretend to hold it in, just let it out, don't pretend to hold it in, just push it out,
Don't you try to hold it in, just let it out and don't you try to hold it in, you hold it in.
PRINCE
Willing and able to run, I am willing and able, I'm able to come.
And if I wait for you now, would you come, would you run, would you bring it back around?
Willing and able to run, I am willing and able, I'm able to come.
If it all went away, nothing left to say, would you fight it or would you lay down?
At the hand of your god, could you see the light?
Oh my prince, can't you see what's been found?
Willing and able to run, willing and able to come.
PAINT IT BLACK
I see a red door and I want it painted black.
No colours anymore, I want them to turn black.
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes.
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes.
I see a line of cars and they are painted black,
With flowers and my love, both never to come back.
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away.
Like a newborn baby, it just happens every day.
I look inside myself and see my heart is black.
I see my red door and it's heading into black.
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts.
It's not easy facing up when your whole world is black.
I want to see it painted black.
No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue.
I could not foresee this thing happening to you.
If I look hard enough into the setting sun,
My love will laugh with me before the morning comes.
I want to see it painted black, black as night, black as coal,
I want to see the sun blotted out from the sky, painted black.
WANTED
I have wandered far and wide for something real, something to die for,
But I have found you and you do not see all that is me, all that is true.
And I am more than you will see, I am more than you will need,
I am more than you will see, more than wanted.
As you float the flimsy surface, you should know life lies beneath it,
And don't pretend you feel what I feel, for you live illusion and I am real.
I am more than you will see, I am more than you will need,
I am more than you will see, more than wanted.
I know you like the way you feel when I play,
I know you don't really hear what I say,
I know you are waiting for something to raid,
I know you wish you could be more than you say.
I have wandered far and wide for something real, something to die for,
But I have found you and you do not see all that is me, all that is true,
And I am more than you will see, I am more than you will need,
I am more than you will see, more than wanted.
More than you'll love, more than you'll hate, more than you'll hold, more than wanted,
More than you'll crave, more than you'll cherish, more than you'll have, more than wanted.
TWILIGHT
I was stained with a role in a day not my own,
But as you walked into my life, you showed what needed to be shown,
And I always knew what was right, I just didn't know that I might
Peel away and choose to see with such a different sight.
And I will never see the sky the same way and I will learn to say goodbye to yesterday,
And I will never cease to fly if held down and I will always reach too high cause I've seen twilight.
Never cared, never wanted, never sought to see what flaunted,
So on purpose, so in my face, couldn't see beyond my own place,
It was so easy not to behold what I could hold,
But you taught me I could change whatever came within these shallow days.
And I will never see the sky the same way and I will learn to say goodbye to yesterday,
And I will never cease to fly if held down and I will always reach too high cause I've seen...
As the sun shines through, pushes away and pushes ahead,
It fills the warmth of blue and leaves a chill instead,
And I didn't know that I could be so blind to all that is so real,
But as illusion dies, I see there is so much to be revealed.
And I will never see the sky the same way and I will learn to say goodbye to yesterday,
And I will never cease to fly if held down and I will always reach too high cause I've seen twilight.
from the album "Harmonium"
WHITE HOUSES
Crashed on the floor when I moved in, this little bungalow with some strange new friends,
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin, we promise each other it's til the end.
Now we're spinning empty bottles, it's the five of us with pretty-eyed boys girls die to trust,
I can't resist the day, no I can't resist the day.
Jenny screams out and it's no pose, cause when she dances, she goes and goes.
Beer through the nose on an inside joke, and I'm so excited I haven't spoken,
And she's so pretty and she's so sure, maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her,
Summer's all in bloom, summer's ending soon.
It's alright, and it's nice not to be so alone, but I hold onto secrets in white houses.
Maybe I'm a little bit over my head, I come undone at the things he said,
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt, we were all in love and we all got hurt.
I sneak into his car's cracked leather seat, the smell of gasoline in the summer heat,
Boy, we're going way too fast, it's all too sweet to last,
It's alright, and I put myself in his hands, but I hold onto secrets in white houses.
Love or something ignites in my veins and I pray it never fades, in white houses.
My first time, hard to explain, rush of blood and a little bit of pain.
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you'd think, he's my first
mistake.
Maybe you were all faster than me, we gave each other up so easily,
Silly little wounds will never mend, I feel so far from where I've been,
So I go, and I will not be back here again, I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses.
I lied, wrote my injuries all in the dust, in my heart it's the five of us, in white houses.
And you, maybe you'll remember me, what I gave is yours to keep, in white houses.
WHO'S TO SAY
Stand up straight, do your trick, turn on the stars, Jupiter shines so bright when you're around.
They tell us slow down, we're too young, you need to grow.
Well, speed's the key, and they don't know who we are.
Who's to say we're not good enough? Who's to say that this is not our love?
Mother, don't tell me friends are the ones that I lose, cause they'd bleed before you.
Sometimes family are the ones you choose.
It's too late now, I hold onto this life I've found.
And who's to say we won't burn it out? Who's to say we won't sink in doubt?
Who's to say we won't fade to grey? Who are they anyway, they don't know.
And you say we're too young, but maybe you're too old to remember,
And I try to pretend, but I just feel it when we're together,
And if you don't believe me, you never really knew us, you never really knew.
You and I are packing up my room, we feel alright, but we're not welcome.
Soon we'll be driving, cause they don't know who we are.
Who's to say we won't stay together? Who's to say we aren't getting stronger?
Who's to say I can't live without you? Who are they anyway, they don't know.
And you say we're too young, but maybe you're too old to remember,
And I try to pretend, but I just feel it when we're together.
Who's to say, who are they anyway?
Stand up boy, I shine so bright when you're around.
ANNIE
Watch her as she flew, deep within the blue, a day out from the county ICU.
There is nothing you can do, someone gently says to you,
The doctor says that now it won't be long.
I try and live up to the moment and hope that I don't blow it.
What is it in me that she hears?
It's just a song she likes, little arms around my neck, and a dying girl whispers in my ear.
Tell me now, can you feel it? I've been keeping company with a ghost.
She comes to me like a piece of summer, she comes to me on the days when I need it most.
Well, summer dies and nothing lasts forever,
And you're so fine, girl, the way you stand up to your fears.
Summer dies and it's just moments we have together.
I'd give my bones for you to get a few more years for you and I, oh Annie,
More to life than trying to survive, oh Annie.
My boyfriend took pictures of me as I held you, I travel alone and the loneliness brings me to tears.
Summer dies and it's just moments we have together.
I'd give my bones for you to get a few more years for you and I, oh Annie,
More to life than trying to survive, oh Annie.
Stronger than the hands that hold you, you sing along to the song on the radio.
If I drank too much and I am reckless, just this once could you forgive this?
I hold onto days gone by.
Tell me now, can you feel it?
I can't keep this all to myself, she's elegant and she means it.
Years for you and I, oh Annie, more to life than trying to survive, oh Annie.
Watch her as she flew, deep within the blue, watch her as she slips away from you.
I'll keep fingers crossed always for you.
SAN FRANCISCO
I know what you did, like a boy of summer gives his first kiss.
Love is dancing on my finger, he got to the heart of the matter and lingered.
Now I'm walking with the living, I always like Steinbeck and those old men whistling.
We're back in San Francisco, we're back and you tell me I am home.
Talking in the mission over coffee, this is my utopia.
Man, I'll be your lady, as the ocean rises, the sun is fading.
We're back in San Francisco.
And now I feel the ever after, over red wine on the eve of summer.
The buzz of a city as we settle in its majesty.
I know what you did, like a boy of summer gives his first kiss.
We're back in San Francisco, we're back and you tell me I am home.
You tell me I am home, back in San Francisco.
And I know what you did in San Francisco.
AFTERGLOW
Just when the days start getting colder, I walk the streets I never knew.
There's some words I never told you, the sound rings out like the truth.
And if you could see what's come over me, then you would know,
Cause I'm walking free, the wind at my back, bathed in afterglow.
And as I sit here in this dark room, all I seem to feel is light,
I see colour, I see the maroon in the blood of this life that's ours.
And if you could see what's come over me, then you would know,
Cause I'm walking free, the wind at my back, bathed in after...
Watch the sun, it paints an orange sky, lay me down and feel the days gone by.
Just when the days start getting longer, I walk the streets I never knew,
The sun comes out for you.
And if you could see what's come over me, then you would know,
Cause I'm walking free, the wind at my back, bathed in afterglow.
PRIVATE RADIO
Got to get a little.
All the world has gone to bed and I am drowning in its silence,
But a solitude lives in my head from you, baby.
And if this silence was a song, well, its rhythm grooves and it's a private radio,
And on this night I do belong in harmony.
You can't deny me, you will oblige me, it's my melody.
When the night comes and no one knows, I can feel it, I've got my private radio.
Find me out of my pillow, cause I'm lying here but I am ready, good to go.
And on a whim I leave this town, or not, I'll stay and chase the sun down.
You can't deny me, you will oblige me, it's my melody.
When the night comes and no one knows, I can feel it, I've got my private radio.
Catch me not, can't call me later, morning's rising.
All the world has gone to bed and there's a sound inside my head,
And in the dark inside my bed, and the melody that's in my head.
HALF A WEEK BEFORE THE WINTER
Half a week before the winter, the chill bites before it comes,
And I'm a child of the pleasure that he brings before he runs.
He sits behind a desk of mahogany, he whispers dreams into my ear,
And though I've given him his empire, he delivers me my fear.
The unicorns are riding high, powerful in coat of white,
I turn to look and burn my eyes, I carry on, I carry
All the weight of empty promise, as I stand swallowed by the light,
Flickering above the highway, I hold my head and know the streets are mine tonight.
The vampires are growing tired, the coats of white all turn to red,
My heart burns with desire, I carry on, I carry on.
The unicorns are riding high, powerful in coat of white,
We turn to look and burn our eyes, I carry on.
The vampires are growing tired, the coats of white all turn to red,
My heart burns with desire, I carry on, we carry on.
C'EST LA VIE
I've been taking what you're giving, now I'm thinking I've been living the fantasy of your sweet smile.
Sad as blue and blue as only you could cast the colour on me, can you see my fire red?
C'est la vie, here in my lonely without him.
Boy, you swallow truth like honey as you spew your lies upon me,
Sweet and smooth as it goes down.
C'est la vie, here in my lonely without him.
Oh, say you, say me, say always and forever more, I'll be your perfect little sugar bride,
But if you could see the strength within a perfect harmony, your melody is bringing me down.
C'est la vie, here in my lonely without him.
Boy, you swallow truth like honey.
PAPA
Look up, look where you want to be; look left, look where you left me.
I should have known by the ice in his eye, but you warmed me up with your so sweet demise,
And nestled in your calculated moonshine, boy you give good
Love, plastic love, you're a genuine wannabe and you got it all up your blue sleeve, but me.
Papa, oh papa, tonight, papa, oh I'll be alright.
Look left, look where you want to be; look up, look where he left me.
I should have known by the ice in his eye, but you warmed me up with your so sweet demise,
And nestled in your calculated moonshine, boy you give good
Love, plastic love, you're a genuine wannabe and you got it all up your blue sleeve, but me.
Papa, oh papa, tonight, papa, oh I'll be alright.
SHE FLOATS
Watching puddles gather rain, there's no better place to lay,
She's as fine as dandelions blowing in the wind,
She's not thinking about anything, she floats.
Wearing black patent Mary Janes, she steps out into the rain,
But she's as dry as clear blue skies, swallowing you whole,
Got no secrets, though I'm told she floats.
She's as fine as dandelions blowing in the wind,
She's not thinking, she's listening, she floats.
THE WRECKAGE
Speeding into the horizon, dreaming of the sirens,
Wishing for broken glass on a highway, it could be so easy.
The rhythm of an engine always makes me empty,
I see the headlights coming at me, can't help but wonder.
Flying in slow motion, wind through my hair and ripping through the scenery of the wreckage,
It is my secret me.
NOLITA FAIRYTALE
I know, you know, we don't see, so our truths wait patiently.
I walk the streets with a song in my head, we ebb and we flow so.
Got my toes on my pup at the foot of my bed, my heart always seems to know.
I'll take the glitz back, I want the soul instead, cause I've found some kind of fairytale.
I used to hover outside my truth, always worried about what I'd lose.
Take away my record deal, go on, I don't need it.
Spent the last two years getting to what's real and now I can see so clear.
I hope you feel just like I feel, I found some kind of fairytale.
Want a garden by the ocean tide because I lose my way searching for stage lights,
But Stevie knows and I thank her so, cause it's your seeds I sow and now I know.
Nolita flat on rent control, that's the life I choose.
Can't drag me to a fashion show, the poses that I see through.
Ruby's in the afternoon cause I found some kind of fairytale, Nolita fairytale.
HANDS ON ME
I first saw you at the video exchange, I know my heart and it will never change.
This temp work would be alright if you'd call me, I lie awake at night for you and I pray.
We'd cross the deepest oceans, cargo across the sea, and if you don't believe me, just put your hands on me,
And all the constellations shine down for us to see, and if you don't believe me, just put your hands on me.
The subway radiates with heat, we've barely met and still I cross the street to your door.
We'd cross the deepest oceans, cargo across the sea, and if you don't believe me, just put your hands on me,
And all the constellations shine down for us to see, and if you don't believe me, just put your hands on me.
Someday when our stories are told, they'll tell of a love like this.
When our descendents are all growing old, a thousand years they'll be singing.
We'll climb Tibetan mountains where we can barely breathe, I'll see the Dalai Lama, I'll feel him blessing me,
And all the constellations shine down for us to see, and if you don't believe me, just put your hands on me.
I first saw you at the video exchange.
SPRING STREET
I was heading down to Spring Street with a suitcase in my hand
Filled with love and life and grand illusion, I knew you'd understand.
And I left you by the stairwell and your eyes were wet with tears.
Mother, you knew you had to let me go, even after all these years,
And we sing
she said
walk on
you're alright.
And I found myself a new life, and I've been living with some friends,
And we hold on to dreams and live like kings, like the days will never end.
And I left him by the statue and his eyes were filled with tears.
Lover, you knew you had to let me go even after all these years,
And we sing
and he said
walk on
you're alright.
Everything changes and friends become strangers, what we hold so dear slips away.
The past keeps on fading but I'll never forget you, it's hard to see that you're a part of me,
Even when we have to say
walk on
we sing
well alright.
And I moved out of the city to start a family of my own.
When I look into my daughter's eyes, I don't feel so alone,
And as I walk her down to Spring Street and she holds onto my hand,
Mother, you knew my eyes would be wet with tears, and now I understand.
And I said
walk on
thank you
we're alright
can't hold on.
MY BEST
We scream and shout and try to make it last; though it didn't work out, I don't love you any less.
My lover or friend, I won't ever tell; our secret's safe, an unspoken citadel,
And in these broken times, well, it's so easy to forget, so I sing to remind
Upon my shoulder you can rest, cause I'll always give you my best.
A sidewalk's path leads me to you; though we don't look back, we hold on to a truth,
And in these broken times I promise I will not forget, though you're not mine
Upon your shoulder I can rest, cause you always give me your best.
Like a promise kept, it's like you never left.
And though it's been so long, I can't ever seem to forget,
All it takes is a song and I could swear I hear your steps down the hall,
Echoes of a past that leaves an ache, it's never left, cause I gave you my best.
It's like you never left.
We scream and shout and try to make it last.
COME UNDONE
I've seen myself in a thousand faces strung out on life's path, I would add up what you mean to me but I cannot do the math,
And this fashionista's garden party, well, I had enough of that, cause the only one I come undone for is you.
I'm a special lover sometimes but you only touch a ghost, I'm a sycophantic courtier with an elegant riposte.
Needless to say you're the one that I need the most cause the only one I come undone for is you.
I know I'm done and now I see the truth, I know I'm done, I come undone for you.
You've been gone so long, waiting here for you, you've been gone so long, come undone for you.
There are people in this lifetime that we should never meet, cause to be here now without you, well, my life's so incomplete.
I tell you what you mean to me, maybe then you'll see now, cause the only one I come undone for is you.
THE ONE
Holiday and I come home, I hope to see this boy I know, I can't wait for us to be alone.
Flipping through the radio, we sing along to the indie show, the songs they play mean more than I can say.
And the tape I made you, hope you think of me when it plays through, I'm kind of sad now that it's done.
And you think my time's for free in all the ways you say to me sweet versions of 'let's wait and see',
But you're always a golden boy and I'm the girl that you enjoy, my parents say 'isn't he a gifted son?'
Time is always passing by but still I have to wonder why you can't come to tell me I'm the one.
Summer goes and we have grown, we have our friends, live on our own, still I'm not the girl you want me to be.
Say gravity can bend the time, funny, I always liked your mind but this whole thing is crushing me,
But you're always a golden boy and this girl's heart that you destroy, you smile at me and then you have your fun.
Time is always passing by, still I give you another try and hope that you will see that I'm the one.
You say you're scared to get too close, come let's see how it goes, I see you now at the show, the seventh in the seventh row.
Now you look at me and see what I've known for so long, sad that you could be so lovely and so wrong.
Came to say that I moved, I see your face, you don't approve, guess you could say that I'm already gone,
But you'll always be my golden boy and I'm the summer girl that you enjoy, some melodies are best left undone.
I feel the time pass away but in my songs you will always stay, I don't need you to tell me I'm the one, no.
You'll never know that I was the one.
HEROES & THIEVES
Well, disaster it strikes on a daily basis and I'm looking for wisdom in all the wrong places,
But still want to laugh in disappointed faces, but you can't help me, I'm blinded by these
Heroes and thieves at my door, I can't seem to tell them apart anymore.
Just when I figured it out, darling, it's you I'm without.
Well, I'm stubborn and wrong, but at least I know it; I keep moving along and hope I can get through this,
But maybe this song is the best I can do, so I'm patiently waiting on these
Heroes and thieves at my door, I can't seem to tell them apart anymore.
Just when I figured it out, darling, it's you I'm without.
Your comforting logic like, these days are the ones I'll miss, and I seek a solitude that I can't find without you.
Seems like I'm getting closer somehow, a flicker of peace that I finally found.
Thank you for believing in me now, cause I do need it.
Give me a year or two and I'll mend my ways and see these mistakes,
And when I see the truth, darling trust me, when I can see I'll be coming back,
Cause there are heroes and thieves at my door, I can't seem to tell them apart anymore.
Just when I figured it out, darling, it's you I'm without.
THIS TIME
It's four AM and I'm wide awake, waiting for my thoughts to fade, a flickering of all of my mistakes.
And as the light starts creeping in, I slowly feel the day I'm missing, but I wouldn't even know where to begin.
Do I push too hard or fall too fast, the moment never seems to last, will I stop long enough to know?
Everybody burns and when it starts to hurt, I cry.
I feel it in my veins, I just can't walk away this time.
Your words circle in my head, weigh so heavy on my chest and I'm crushed by your expectation.
I only want to do some good, too dumb to know if I could and I just want to feel the days I'm in.
Do I go too far, not far enough, why can't I keep my big mouth shut, and do we lead the life that we should?
Everybody burns and when it starts to hurt, I cry.
I feel it in my veins, I just can't walk away this time.
Did I say too much again, I'm just a girl in a panic; if I tell you my truth am I getting through?
It just seems I should confess, who I am to pretend? This is more than I can carry.
Everybody burns and when it starts to hurt, I cry.
I hold my head up high, I know I'll be alright this time.
I feel it in my veins, I just can't walk away this time.
It's four AM and I'm wide awake, waiting for my thoughts to fade, and it's times like these I see your face.
FOOLS LIKE ME
Beware the danger, it lurks for those who get swept away.
The dreamers get punished most by the truth,
They say it's all in a little ways one reveals their love's gone away.
When my hand was in your hand my heart was pure; now I see a different man rewriting memories.
The dogs run down the beach and all I'm left with is sand in my shoes.
Fools like me, we love blindly, and the cracks don't count, it's got to break in front of me.
Now I recall that time at the cafe, the thunderstorm outside, words you could never say,
They hold the loudest tones, you say you'll write but it's ink on a page, just ink on a page.
Fools like me, we love blindly, and the cracks don't count, it's got to break in front of me.
Tick-tock the time, distant look grows in your eyes but fools never ask, afraid of what lurks in your mind.
I always knew, somehow always knew, I always knew the truth.
Fools like me, we never see, cause the cracks don't count, it's got to break for me,
And it's breaking, it's got to break for me to see.
At least I can say I was not afraid, I loved you all the way, I'd pick the fool any day.
HOME
Some people live in a house on a hill and wish they were someplace else.
There's nobody there when the evening is still, secrets with no one to tell.
Some I have known have a ship where they sleep, with sounds of rocks on the coast.
They sail over oceans five fathoms deep but can't find what they want the most.
And even now when I'm alone, I've always known, with you I am home.
Some live in towns, cardboard shack on concrete, all bluster and bustling life.
They search for the colour you can never quite see, cause it's all white on white.
And even now when I'm alone, I've always known, with you I am home.
For me, it's a glance and the smile on your face, the touch of your hands, an honest embrace,
For where I lay it's you I keep, this changing world, I fall asleep, with you all I know is I'm coming home.
MORE THAN THIS
Cradling stones hold fire bright as crickets call out to the moonlight,
And as you lean in to steal a kiss, I'll never need more than this.
We all share the pain of our histories, but the ache goes away if you could see,
This night under stars, well, I call it peace if you say I'll never need more than this.
The trees grow so thick you can barely see through, but the forest bestows the simplest of truths,
And you think you'll be happy if granted one more wish, but the truth is you'll never need more than this.
Want so much in this life, there's so much to be, we sail through our youth so impatiently until we see
That the years move along and soldiers and heroes come home and they carry a song.
Don't live in forgotten times, may this always remind you of the sea under the sky's blue looking glass.
Let's make this our story, let's live in the glory; time, it fades away, precious as a song, cause someday we'll be gone.
Cradling stones hold fire bright as we watch the glow of the morning light.
Someday our bones, here they will lie, and so we sing.
As the years move along and soldiers and heroes come home and they carry a song.
Let's make this our story, let's live in the glory; time, it fades away, precious as a song, cause someday we'll be gone.