Got a phone call from the student counselling service this morning. I've got an appointment for Friday afternoon, before my doctor's appoinment. So I suppose that's a good thing.
Went to my class this morning and felt really sick throughout. I felt shaky and thought I was going to spew. I just about managed to listen to the lecturer though, so that's something.
I'm trying not to sleep this afternoon even though I'm really tired. That way I should sleep tonight. I slept right through for about 8 hours last night, which was great.
I really don't care today. About anything. About my course mainly. I've got tons of work to do in the next few weeks, but I can't be bothered. I don't care if I do it or not. I never used to feel that way - I used to panic about not having enough time to get my work done. I used to want to do it. Now I'm just not interested. I don't want to do anything in particular. Don't want to watch TV, or listen to music. Don't want to play my guitar or talk to anyone. Don't want to write this stuff really, but I'll just get bored and feel down if I do nothing. I read a bit of the newspaper earlier. I can't remember what it said. In one ear and out the other, or something like that. I'm not with it at all, just feeling kinda dazed. Like nothing's real.
