Hard to say how I'm feeling today. I've been up, down, all over the place - mostly up. The medication is working at last. My mood has definitely been better the past couple of days. But I still feel weird.
Went to see my counsellor today. We talked about various things - my parents, my flatmates, my writing... I don't know if it helped. I cried, so it must have done something. I haven't cried in a while.
I'm feeling quite down tonight, although I just watched Banzai on Channel 4, which is a good laugh. I love Mr Shake-Hands-Man... Anyway, I think my flatmates are heading off to bed, so soon the flat will be quiet, and I'll be feeling lonely. Although I've hardly seen them all day, so it won't be much different.
One of the things the cousellor said made some sense to me, and that was that some people expect you to recover from depression quickly. So they might seem willing to listen and to help, but then lose interest or get tired of you not responding, or not taking their advice. And it's all down to a lack of understanding. I've seen this in several of my friends already. I've pretty much worked out who gets it and who doesn't, and who to talk to about things and who not to bother telling stuff to.
Well, I'm going to leave this for now. Got nothing else to say really... Think I'll go to bed soon, 'cos I'm pretty tired. Had an appalling night's sleep last night, so I'm gonna make up for it tonight - if I can...
