Didn't do anything today, although I didn't get to bed until 5 in the morning... I went to the open mic session at the pub last night, and somehow found the courage to get up and do two of my own songs. The first one I did is called Only God Can Say. I wrote it after my uncle died from lung cancer last year. As I've said, I don't believe in God, but my uncle did. The second song I did was Alone, which I wrote last week. It's about my depression.
Only God Can Say
Who will shelter and prtect me
From the darkest night
When you're gone from this world
Into the light
Maybe I'm just being selfish
Don't wanna let you go
Maybe I'm just being helpless
Trying to take control
Maybe I'm just being thoughless
No care for no one else
Or maybe i'm just being me, I'm just being me
I'm just being myself.
And now my guardian angel
Is looking down on me
Just wanna make you proud again
Like you always seemed to be
Was I really being selfish?
Didn't wanna let you go
Was I really being helpless?
Trying to take control
Was I really being thoughtless?
No care for no one else
Or was I just being me? Was I just being me?
Was I just being myself?
Was I really being selfish?
Didn't wanna let you go
And will we meet in the next world?
Only God can know
And only God can say.
Alone
27 times I cried
In my lonely room I hide
Trying to keep the world a bay
Trying to keep the world away
Feeling numb inside
Is there something I've not tried?
Is there something I've not tried?
Cos I feel so alone (x3)
Nothing here today
The feeling went away
It's like I just don't care
About which clothes I wear
Nothing you could say
Would take this pain away
Would take this pain away
Cos I feel so alone(x3)
Why must you punish me this way?
Rot my life with your decay
Why do you have to hurt my friends?
Switch it off and that's the end
It doens't work that way
And you can't stop it now
And you can't stop it now
And I feel so alone (x6)
