Love Pet

8/2/10

Dear Diary:

I have done it! I have finally come out of the closet to my family. Just as I expected, they all flipped at that one. (Well, most of them did. The men in my family already now apparently.) How did I do it? I will tell you!

It all started yesterday. I got off of the train in Kyushu. Everyone has to take a boat to get to Okinawa. Nothing against the island, but I hate to go there every year for any reason! Sorry to the people who are from there. But I blame my family for my hate of Okinawa. Anyway, I had gotten off the train when I met her. Her name is Aoki Shirley. Her name in Katakana is Aoki Shaarii. Yes, she is Japanese. Very beautiful woman. I can tell she’s a native of Southern Japan. It shows in her accent. Shirley is the quintessential beauty of Japan. Milky complexion, long silky black hair, sweet milk chocolate brown eyes, tall, slender, and very clean-looking. She looked great in Western-style clothes.

I have to confess something, I fell attracted to her. But, I felt a little out of place here. My luck with women is terrible. Every woman I have been attracted to is either taken or straight. I feared that Shirley could be either one. But what if she’s single and gay? Only one way to find out. I slowly walked over to my new crush. She looked up and saw me. I froze up on the spot. Suddenly, I didn’t think I could do it anymore. But, I had to try. I forced myself to walk over to her. I finally stood in front of my crush.

“Hi!” I said aloud.

“Konnichiwa!” she greeted me. I quickly pulled out my ticket.

“I’m looking for this port,” I said to her. “I haven’t been here in so long. Could you show me the way?”

“Sure,” she said to me. “I’m heading that way as well.” I found myself happy to hear that.

“Really?” I asked her.

“Yes,” Shirley replied. “I’m heading to Okinawa myself. Maybe we could ride on the way there together.”

“Okay,” I said semi-excited. Then, we walked down to the port. We both boarded the boat together when it arrived. Along the way to the next port, we talked to past the time. Turns out, Shirley is gay too. She came out of the closet last year. She was raised as a traditional Japanese beauty. She came from Saga, Kyushu. Shirley even came from a rich family. Her dad had an obsession with Americans thus her name. My crush was going to Okinawa to check on her sick grandma there. I fell more in love with her with each words. I really want to ask her out on a date. But, I’m not too sure if I should do that…

“So, where are you going today?” Shirley asked me.

“What?” I asked her as I looked up from my thoughts. My lovely geisha looked me smiling. Oh her smile could melt my soul away into a sea of bliss. I could barely speak at first.

“Why are you taking a boat to Okinawa?” she asked me. I quickly came back to the grim Earth around me.

“Oh,” I said. “I’m going to visit my family for inspiration on a script I’m writing.”

“Really?” my crush asked me.

“Yeah,” I said. “A top director in China has asked me to write it.” Shirley’s eyes lit up in delight.

“Really?” she asked again. “What’s it about?” I sat back some.

“A dysfunctional family during the summer,” I answered. “It’s a comedy.”

“Oh,” my crush said excited. “That’s sounds interesting.” I smiled at her. Something could work between us. Then, Shirley quickly took my hands. I found myself pleasantly surprised by this sudden gesture. My crush looked at me blushing.

“When can I see you again?” she asked me.

“What?” I asked her surprised. Shirley looked away blushing.

“You seem so nice and really cute,” she replied. “I would really like to get to know even more. If you would please, could you go out with me sometime?” I couldn’t help but to smile at her. I neatly held her hands in mine.

“Sure,” I told her. “Let’s see each other tomorrow night!” Shirley gave me a sexy little smile.

“Okay,” she agreed. Then, my potential girlfriend kissed me on the cheek. I felt myself blushing all over. Wow! My first real girlfriend in years. I can’t wait! I’m so excited! But now, that leads to another problem. My family still doesn’t know I’m a lesbian. *Swallows hard* This is bad. Really bad. That only means one little thing. I would have to come out of the closet. I didn’t want to do that yet! But I have to if I’m going to date Shirley from now on. *Swallows hard again* Okay, all for love, I guess. Aw man, this is going to suck!

I rode the taxi all the way home in dread. I counted down to regretfully seeing my family again. Dealing with the craziness was bad enough. I can’t and don’t want to even imagine how they’ll take finding out I’m gay. That will ruin everything even more. (Not that they had screwed up my life enough already.) But all for love, I guess. You know, love can be an evil thing sometimes.

The taxi pulled up at my childhood house. I sighed as I looked out the window. On the outside, it looked like a normal house. But inside, the crazy storm brewed on and on each and every single day. I drew in a deep breath. “Oh crap!” I thought. “Here goes nothing!” I quickly exited the car. I paid the driver and he drove away. I stood in front of my childhood home. Here I was. About to go into the belly of the beast. I drew in some more breaths. Okay, here I go. I bravely walked up to the house. From outside, I could hear my parents screaming at each other once again. I even heard some China and glass breaking.

“I HATE YOU, YOU CHEATING SON OF A BITCH!!!!” I heard my mom yell. Oh boy, this is going to be a *long* visit. I made it up to the door and rang the bell. I waited in terror and dread. The door opened wide. I looked and saw Brookey staring back at me. Let me tell you, she’s certainly grown since the last time I saw her. She’s just about tall as me now. She still had some rollers in her hair. I could tell that she had just woken up. Her eyes narrowed at me in half-sleep. I gave her a nervous little smile.

“Hi, baby sister,” I said to her. Brookey turned to inside the house.

“Mom, dad!” she yelled. “Daryl’s home!” The fighting stopped right away. Footsteps rushed right to the door. Mom and dad pushed Brookey out the way to see me.

“Ow!” my baby sister yelled out. Our parents just ignored her. They both hugged me tightly. I thought I would pass out from lack of air.

“Mom, dad! I can’t breathe!” I choked out. They didn’t listen. Mom and dad kept nearly crushing me to death. All I could remember after that was a heavy veil of black coming down over me.

I woke on the couch in the living room with screaming and yelling in the background. I sat up and looked around. Rachel, Toby, and Brookey stood over me as if I was an animal of interest to them.

“Oh good, she’s awake!” Toby said. I shook my head once.

“Back up!” I called out. “You guys are too close!” They all did so. More China broke in the kitchen.

“Mom and dad at it again?” I asked.

“Yeah!” my siblings said all together. I sighed aloud.

“Figures,” I mumbled to myself. “Always the same!”

“Yeah,” Rachel agreed.

“Daryl!!!” I heard someone yelled out. We all look up and see our grandparents. They both hurried over to me and hugged me tightly. I began to feel bad all over again. I can’t tell these people I’m gay. Not right now! Everyone is in a good mood right now. (My parents’ fighting is an exception to the rule at the moment.) But yet, I know I have to come out of the closet to them sometime. I have to in order to have a full and honest relationship with Shirley. *Sigh* All for love, I guess.

Dinner in the Hudson household is the same as I left it. Mom and dad shouting at each other about his latest affair with a young twenty-year-old blonde-haired woman named Jennifer. (No surprise there.) Toby and Rachel exchanging “dating tips” to get the next set of people to sleep with them. (Ewww!) Grandma and Grandpa arguing about the Bible and young hot girls. (No shocker there either.) Brookey whining and complaining about some brand new designer brand jeans. (Please, shut her up! I’m getting a headache from the other noise around me already!) The fights and the talking were making my head hurt as usual. When that happens, I tend to scream out things that I normally wouldn’t under normal circumstances. I hoped they would all stop before I came out of the closet. Sadly, they didn’t. And guess what happened.

“I’m gay!!!” I screamed out loud. Suddenly, it all went quiet. I looked up and all eyes were on me. I bit my lip nervously as I realized what I had just said.

“WHAT?!?” they all asked in shock. I went pale as I panicked. Oh crap! Did I just say what I thought I just said? Oh no! This is bad! I didn’t want to come out of the closet now! Not like this! Oh this is really bad! I bolted up from my chair and ran all the way to my room. I locked myself in my room for the rest of the night.

There you go. I finally unwittingly came out of the closet. Oh great! May the torment reign in! Damn it! I knew this would happen! *Sigh* But there is a bright side to all of this. I have a date with the lovely Shirley Aoki! Yay! Go me! Go me! Go me! I can’t wait for tomorrow night! Oh, I finally have a potential girlfriend after all! Yes!!! But right now, it’s time to sleep. Night, night!

DEH

Coming Out of the Closet