Chapter One: Sayuri:

    Everyday I live alone. They say angels aren't supposed to know what love is. I must be defective then. I used to have a love. Every day was like summer with him. I was happy for the ten years we were together. But then, he joined the fallen and abandoned me in Heaven. Now, I live in a permanent winter. I am scared of my former love now. He used to be sweet and loving to me. But, things have changed.

    He is cold and cruel towards me. I think he's obsessed with me. My love won't let anyone else have or look upon me. Many angels have gone missing because of it. Some of the elder women in the city have called me the deadly beauty. I hate that title so much. It makes me sick. I find myself crying my white silk sheet bed. All because my lovely demon won't let me go. I thought I was doomed to be in this false Eden forever. Until, I met my soon-to-be husband one fateful rainy day in Tokyo, Japan.

    Chapter Two: Kisses Like the Rain:

    April 1st, 2010. It was the day of the cherry blossoms. It was pouring rain that day. I used to hate the rain. It reminded me of my tears. I watched the people walk in the rain from a skyscraper. I have always loved to people-watch. It is the only thing that makes me happy. So far, everything looked normal. I began to feel better already. I was forgetting about my loneliness and misery I felt when Night came to visit me. I was just... happy. But then, my day became much better.

    I saw a man walking to work. He was a lovely man. Pure Japanese and in his early thirties. I had my eyes fixed on him. I was following his every step. Suddenly, I felt myself rising upwards and trailing this charming man. I didn't know what I was doing at first. It was more on an impulse. (I know it sounds weird. Angels with impulses. But it happens from time to time.)

    I trailed the charming man all the way to the company that he worked at. I watched him walked into the building and punch in. He took the elevator to the ninth floor. The man then walked to his office and sat down at his desk. Right there, I got a very good look at him. Oh, he was really charming now! He had neat short black hair to his ears. His eyes were a beautiful caramel-walnut brown. This man was very tone in his body. The black-grey business suit looked so good on him. Oh, if only I knew his name! Then, I looked on his desk and saw his name plague. Sakumoto Mastuo was his name. It all happened so fast from there. Before I knew it, I was infatuated with Mastuo-san. I was afraid to at first, but it just happened in a flash. I couldn't get out in time. But yet, I didn't want to. I want Mastuo to be my lover. My heart flipped in joy at that notion. But then, I was let down again.

    For I looked and saw a wedding band on his left finger. My heart sank at this discovery. "He's married!" I thought sadly. My happiness was flying away. But then, it came back stronger. I figured out a solution to my problem. I could love Mastuo from a distance. It has worked before. I can be his guardian angel. Okay, that's settled then! I will be Mastuo's guardian angel until he dies. Or at least that the plan...

    My change of plan came later in the evening. I had been watching Mastuo all day. I learned so much about him quickly. He is a very kind man. He works really hard every day. Mastuo makes friends pretty easily. He is somewhat shy. My love had a normal and decent childhood. Oldest of four children, he had to take of his siblings while his parents worked at night. Mastuo was a straight A student. He was good boy throughout his life. In short, my love was a normal guy. That may sound bad for some people. But, I would love something normal for a change. It would be really nice for a change.

    By the time the work day was over, I followed him home. He takes the subway home. I followed him in silence. I made it to his apartment. I had just planned to return to Heaven for the night and watch Mastuo's dreams from there. But then, my plans changed from there. All of a sudden, I felt a tight pain in my chest. I held my chest tightly. "I... can't... breathe..." I thought in misery. Seconds later, it all became black as I began slowly sinking downwards onto Matsuo's porch.

    Moments later, I woke up inside of a room. I looked all around me. Walls and curtains were all above me. The only light in the room was from the street lights outside. I suddenly realized I was in a living room in an apartment somewhere. But where was I exactly?

    "Oh good, you're awake now!" I heard someone say to me. I looked up quickly in the dark. Mastuo was standing before me. He looked even more beautiful close-up. My love seemed so worried about me. I blushed when I saw his lovely face. I just couldn't speak at all. Mastuo stepped forward lightly.

    "For a moment there, I thought you were going to die," he went on. "I grabbed you inside and laid you down. I'm glad you're okay now." I lied there in silent surprise. He did all of this for me? I... I can't believe it!

    "T-Thank you!" I said at last. Mastuo smiled at me warmly as he knelt over me.

    "It's okay," he said. "Just get some rest, miss." Then, my love lightly kissed me on the forehead. I slowly began to shut my peaceful eyes. For once, I was happy that I had an attack. The last thing that I could remember was Mastuo's lips gently touching mine. And then, I sank into a sweet deep sleep.

    Chapter Three: Wisteria Days:

    The next morning, I awoke and looked around. I was still in the living room. A sense of peace came over me. I blinked many times to see if I was dreaming. No, it was real. I was happy to be here all over again. If only it could get better...

    "Morning!" I heard someone say. I looked up and saw Mastuo standing in the doorway. He had a tray of tea in his hands. I blushed when I saw him. He looked just as beautiful as last night. My love walked over to me.

    "You okay?" he asked me. I couldn't speak at first. My cheeks were bright red. I could only nod at him. My love smiled at me.

    "Good to know," he replied. Then, Mastuo set the tray on the nightstand and sat down with me. I sat up smiling and blushing.

    "Tea?" my love offered me. I nodded quickly. Mastuo smiled again.

    "Okay," he said. Then, my love handed me a cup. I took a sip. Surprise hit my face.

    "Oh wow!" I said. "Green Camille! This is really good!" I took another sip. I noticed that Mastuo was smiling at me sadly. My heart began to feel the same.

    "Mastuo-san," I said. "What's wrong?" The glow from his face was dead now. He sat down with me on the couch. He lightly took me by the hands. I felt my cheeks turning red again. His eyes were a beautiful shade of blue. I was falling in love with him again.

    "You remind me over my wife," Mastuo said at last. I looked at him slightly confused.

    "Your wife?" I asked him. My love nodded at me once. I paused for a moment. I was afraid to ask on. But the questions kept flooding out. I just couldn't stop.

    "Is she... dead?" I let slip out. I was completely startled by what I had just asked him. It sounded so bad. Now, I wished that I hadn't asked him at all. But, Mastuo was fine with it. He shook his head with a little smile.

    "No," my love replied. "She's dying." I looked on listening. Mastuo took in a deep breath. We waited for a long moment.

    "She has a cancer," he went on. "It spread all the way to her major organs. She has been in a coma for six months now. Everyone keeps telling me to pull the plug. But I can't!" He trembled all over at those words. My love lowered his head in sorrow.

    "I still believe that she will wake up one day and get better," Mastuo pressed on. "I know  it sounds foolish. But, I can't let her go! I love her so much!" He was now crying. My heart ached for him all over. I suddenly felt guilty for falling in love with him. He was married to a woman that could die at any given moment and I was entertaining the very idea of adultery. Shame covered my body like a duvet.

    But, I felt his hand gently touching mine. I was blushing all over. I looked up at him right away. Mastuo looked at me with eyes of desperation.

    "Please angel-chan!" he pleaded with me. "Stay with me!" I stared at him startled.

    "What?!?" I asked him.

    "Please!" Mastuo pleaded again. "I'm begging you, angel! Until you came along, my home was empty and sad. I had lost my reason for getting up in the morning. But now, I have a to live again!" He turned my face to his when I started to look away.

    "This will sound crazy," Mastuo went on. "But I think I have fallen in love with you! You remind me so much of Akane! I can't afford to lose you or her forever! So please stay with me forever, I am begging you!" I didn't know what to say. Mastuo was asking so much of me. He was a man broken down with grief. His wife was in a coma dying and he had been so lonely ever since. I wished that there was something I could do for him.

    Surprisingly I said, "Okay, I will stay with you." Mastuo looked at me with a mix of joy and sorrow.

    "Thank you," he said happily. "If only I knew your name!" I smiled at him in warm sympathy.

    "Sayuri," I said to him. "My name is Sayuri!" Mastuo's eyes lit up some.

    "Thank you, Sayuri!" he repeated. "Thank you so much!" Then, Mastuo kissed me on the lips softly and tenderly. I was in a whirlwind of surprise because of it. I wasn't expecting this! So many things that were going through my mind. I didn't know what to say or do. All of sudden, I found myself kissing him back. We didn't seem know how to stop kissing. He lightly pushed me back while we were kissing. Mastuo began nibbling on my ear and kissing on my neck. I moaned out loud. I hadn't felt this intense pleasure since I was with Night before his fall. I began to feel a sea of sorrow, guilt, excitement, and love as Mastuo was kissing down to my chest. I wanted to be happy, but yet I scared to even try to move on. My mind ended up in a heavy tug-of-war. In the end, my heart and desires won out and I had succumb to Mastuo.

    From then on, I stayed in Mastuo's house. He was so gentle to me. I helped him out around the house. I always greeted him with all of the love in my heart for him. It was like we were married. I kind of wished that I was married to him. For the first time in many years, I found myself completely happy and in love. However, with happiness a small cloud of doubt was always spying on others, waiting to attack at any moment. In the back of my mind, I wondered when mine would strike in my new relationship with Mastuo.