STORY
OF A CHAMPION
For
Ethel Clifton
There
are those
who
would say this is too personal
and
too private to share with
the
world, but I must write it -
it
is too precious to hoard.
If
it were up to me to
pass
out trophies,
my
mother would be a Champion!
The
last night of her life,
mother
didn’t want me to leave -
as
with every other night
since
she had entered the rest home.
But
I went again with the automatic promise
of
returning.
The
next day at noon,
I
came to feed her lunch.
When
I came into the room it was
a
different look I got from her.
She
scrutinized me as if in a microscope.
Every
hair was
examined, every pore of my face.
In
an instant she had it done and I felt
it
very profoundly.
A smile spread across her face
and
her crystal blue eyes were
shining!
Any
semblance of Alzheimer’s was gone!
“Oh,
honey! You look just like my little girl!”
“Well,
I hope so, mother, I am your little girl.”
She
clapped her hands together like a child
at
first sight of the carnival.
She
held them there smiling all the while.
“You
are?? Oh, I’m so glad!”
I
began getting things ready to feed her,
but
I felt those eyes and turned to her.
She
was as earnest as a lover,
looking
directly into my eyes.
“If
you only knew
what
you mean to me!
I
love you!”
“And
I love you...”
“No,”
she was emphatic.
“No,
I LOVE
you!!”
“I
love you too, mother,
and
if you love me, you’d better take a little bite..”
She
tried.
But
only about 3 bites and
a
swallow or two of the chocolate shake
they
had brought.
She
told me she was full,
and
sick at her stomach.
She
had her
digestive system upset the day before,
but
I was expecting it to be better today.
She
started to be sick at her stomach
and
I took a lot of phlegm from her.
The
med. nurse
came in with a light nerve medicine.
I
walked to the nurses station and told them
she
was still sick to her stomach and
wondered
if they wanted to give her something
for
a sick stomach.
I
walked back to her room
and
told her I was going to check on my husband
who
had just
received a pace maker/ de-fibralator
placed
in his chest 4 days before.
She
smiled again.
I
told her to rest a little
so
she could eat some supper.
Then
I left, came home, fed my husband,
and
began the errands that had been
delayed
because of the surgery.
Bills
to pay, a few groceries to pick up.
I
got home
and went to put the water on the yard.
I
was just connecting a sprinkler to
the
hose when my recovering husband
called
from the back door
“The
manor wants
you to call”.
It
was nearly time to go feed her supper,
but
I laid down the hose
and ran in to telephone.
Then
I heard the words that stunned me.
“
She’s gone...”
“No..you
don’t mean....
I’ll
be right there!”
I
ran out of the room crying.
Straight
to the car....
”She’s
gone, she’s gone!....”
I
never expected to keep her forever,
but
I had a different idea of how it would be.
My
father had died 8 ½ years earlier
and
she had developed Alzheimer’s Disease.
The
most cruel enemy of a human mind.
She
had fallen several times in the last
few
weeks, but even though her Osteoporosis
was
measured off the chart, nothing
had
broken.
I had envisioned that was how the end would come,
a
broken bone,
a
hospital stay, pneumonia.
But
this was so sudden!
The noon time had been so sweet!
If
ever I saw blue eyes sparkle, this was the time!
They
had the door closed.
I
pushed it open and entered.
She lay on the bed with
clear
blue eyes looking as if they could still see me.
I just ran to her and took her ace
in my hands.
“Oh,
you darling mother!
You
sweet, sweet, mother!
You
are so
precious!
I should have come back sooner!
I
love you!
You
precious, dear lady!”
I
had to cry a little longer.
My
son arrived.
A
medical technician, he reached over
and
very gently closed the blue eyes.
I
knew I would never seen them again on this
earth.
I
just fell to pieces.
Somehow
I managed to call my sister.
Somehow
I called the mortician. Somehow
I
took care of the mirid of little things
that
must be done.
During
all this time, I couldn’t
keep from remembering
the
last hour we had together.
What
a blessing she
gave me!
And I knew too,
that
I would always see those beautiful eyes.
I
really couldn’t
ever forget them
nor
the beautiful words...
nor
the wonderful examination
of
my face.
I
thought of all the times
she
had been brave in a way
I
have never had to encounter.
Trying
to still be “friendly” like she had been her whole life
when
all the words
are
taken away and you can’t recall the simplest things
or
the simplest pass times.
Even
trying to assist a fallen room mate -
forgetting
that you can’t stand alone.
Faking
it so you cover you disease as if it were disgraceful.
What
a heroine
you
were!
It
won’t be long, just over the hill,
we’ll
have our reunion day.
I
already know...
What
she will say.
I
already see the sparkle.
I
really do understand now how
faith
in Jesus pays off.
When
the test is there,
He
really comes through.
I
praise
Him
for the merciful way it happened
and
for the faith he built up in my heart
through
the years.
Her
room mate told me
she
had gotten sick to her stomach and so she called for
the
nurse.
Mother
was in her wheelchair
and
when the nurse was delayed, her
room
mate decided to go find a nurse,
but
mother followed in her chair, by her
own
power.
When
they reached the lobby,
she
became sick again and the nurse
noticed
and quickly took her to her room.
By
the time they got her laid down...
She
was gone!
That
quickly.
Before
I could be called or drive the 6 blocks...
She
was already in Heaven.
She
was already surrounded by loved ones that
she
had been asking for, for years!
Those
dazzling beautiful blue eyes, were
already
beholding the face of our Savior!
Joan
Clifton Costner
Copyright
Mother
was 89 ½ years old.
She
died at 4 p.m. July 7, 2003.
Her
funeral was
held
Thursday and to me,
it
was the most beautiful ever.
We
laid a beautiful
Child
of God to rest
who
now can remember her Savior’s name!
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