Poetry

UPDATE:I have just recently added a few new poems. Lemme know what ya think : ) This is my favorite part of this site. These are a few poems I have written over the last year.And some poems and lyrics to songs I like a lot. This page kind of reflects my life. Some of it anyway.

Broken Dream

This pain has silenced the truth of an empty tomorrow I'm praying that maybe just one of these dreams could come true Maybe those missing pieces don't exist Every day I wish I could abandon this tortured soul that is chronically bleeding in this life All I have gained are more regrets to hate I don't need your sympathy It's never real anyway I have nothing the shadow of a chance the once existed faded just as quickly as it came I don't remember how it feels to smile One question screams in my head as I keep going, Will I ever find a cure for this heart that won't fail me? -Amber S. Miller (c)2001

Gone Away

Maybe in another life I could find you there Pulled away before your time I can't deal it's so unfair And it feels And it feels like Heaven's so far away And it feels Yeah it feels like The world has grown cold Now that you've gone away Leaving flowers on your grave Show that I still care But black roses and Hail Mary's Can't bring back what's taken from me I reach to the sky And call out your name And if I could trade I would And it feels And it feels like Heaven's so far away And it stings Yeah it stings now The world is so cold Now that you've gone away -The Offspring

Everything
Find me here, speak to me I want to feel you, I need to hear you You are the light, that's leading me To the place, where I find peace, again You are the strength, that keeps me walking You are the hope, that keeps me trusting You are the life, to my soul You are my purpose, you are everything And how can I stand here with you And not be moved by you Would you tell me how can it be Any better than this You calm the storms, and you give me rest You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall You still my heart, and you take my breath away Would you take me in, would you take me deeper now And how can I stand here with you And not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be Any better than this Cause you're all I want You're all I need You're everything, everything And how can I stand here with you And not be moved by you Would you tell me how could it be Any better than this Would you tell me how could it be Any better than this -Jason Wade of Lifehouse

I Wish For Yesterday

To hear you gentle words calms the raging storms in my heart the touch of your loving hands on my face heals the scars caused by the burn of hot tears I find where I belong is in your arms forever Just to look into your eyes blesses me with a happiness I've never known You picked up the million peices of my shattered heart when I was too weak to even breath Today I wake up and reach for you when I find that you are gone And the only thing I have are these four white walls I cry and tell them how I wish for Yesterday When I was living in the beauty of your love -Amber S. Miller (C)2001

Forgive Me
A million things I need to say But I do not speak a single word Maybe I'll have this mind of mine written out For you by morning I'm searching for some kind of evidence To prove my theory to be a fact My ignorance isn't by choice But by lack of good teachers Forgive me for not being perfect for you Perfection isn't what I am or ever will be But I could try to fix my unworthiness with your aid Don't raise your voice or leave bruises on my body to mold me Tell me I can make it with a little time and strenght Then, maybe, I could become someone you are able to love -Amber S. Miller (C)2001

Waste
Your mother came up to me She wanted answers only she should know Only she should know It wasn't easy to deal With the tears that rolled down her face I had no answers 'cause I didn't even know you But these words They can't replace The life you...the life you waste How could you paint this picture? With life as bad as it should seem That there were no more options for you I can't explain how I feel I've been there many times before I've tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me But these words They can't replace The life you...the life you waste Did Daddy not love you? Or did he love you just too much? Did he control you? Did he live through you at your cost? Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own? WELL F*** THEM! AND F*** HER! AND F*** HIM! AND F*** YOU! For not having The strenght in your heart To pull through! I've had doubts! I have failed! I've f***** up! I've had plans! Doesn't mean I should take My Life With my own hands But these words They can't replace The life you...the life you waste But these words The don't replace The life you...The life you waste -Staind

For The Sake Of Me
I continue walking down this road of pain and loneliness The rain stabs me like a million knives My face is stained from tears that rarely dry I am determined to find an answer to a prayer I have whispered more times than I can count It seems like this road I have been on all my life may never end. I remember a time when I could say I was happy But now it only seems like one of my pointless dreams Signs on the left tell me to give up and on the right I read the promises that I will find a way back to happiness I want to give in and end it all right now But for the sake of my heart's desire to be complete again I keep going If happiness can't last forever then neither can pain -Amber S. Miller (C) 2001
Quotes

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone,an hour to like someone,A day to love someone-but it takes a lifetime to forget someone-Unknown
Let your light shine upon others--That they might see the and wish to become it also -WindDancer
The best gifts are from the heartFriendship...Love...Happiness...Gifts that can only be given by one heart And Received by another-Rainbow Skywolf
People are like stained glass windowsThey sparkle and shine when the sun is outBut when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealedOnly if there is a light from within-Elizabeth Ross
I keep my idealsBecause in spite of everythingI still believe that people are really good at heart-Anne Frank
The best most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touchedThey must be felt with the heart-Hellen Keller
Every man dies; Not every man truly lives.-Braveheart
Fear less, Hope more:Whine less, breathe more;Talk less, say more;Hate less, love more;And all good things will be yours.-Unknown
Pain is inevitable.Suffering is optional-Unknown
The greater the obstacle,The more glory in overcoming itMoliere
To love and be loved Is the greatest joy on Earth-Unknown No man is worth your tears but the one who is won't make you cry.-Sent in by Tamika Williams

Defensless
Happiness is entirely beyond my reach I slowly die as I drown in a million and one liesI seach for an easier escapeHow do you turn your heart off?I'd give any thing for one of stone right nowIt seems as if the only cure is death Obstacles that had intentions to make me strongerOnly drain me of what little life I had in me left to claimIt's amazing how you cover yourself so well With all of those masks you wear.Maybe someday I will learn to be happy againUntil then I will live in myself hiding from youFor it is my only defenseYou have stripped me of my only shield-Amber S. Miller (C)2001
For You
To my mother To my father It's your son Or it's your daughter Are my screams Loud enough for you to hear me? Should I turn this up for you? I sit here Locked inside my head Remembering everything you said The silence gets us nowhere Gets us nowhere Way to fast The silence Is what kills me I need someone Here to help me But you don't know how to listen And let me make My decisions I sit here Locked inside my head Remembering everything you said The silence gets us nowhere Gets us nowhere Way to fast Your insults and your curses Make me feel like I'm Not a person And I feel like I am nothing But you made me So do something Cause I'm f***** up Because you are Need attention Attention you couldn't give -Staind
Lost
Oh precious one, why is it you hide so deep, Deep inside you ocean of secrets?In your eyes a fear is visible but still unknown Feared, yet held so close-Love Your kisses pouring sweet emotions all over me and your touch pleading for more that you still hide Surrender to every need that you possess- I will give it all to you in a simple request Through the fire and the freezing ice-I am hereNever doubt: Just understandMy own fears have been revealed to youYou-searching but not yet foundTell me my love what demon forced you so far into yourself?Desperatly waiting, searchingA craving for pleasing you-Will it ever be satisfied?Tell me precious one:What is it you hide so deep? -Amber S.Miller (c)2001
Never Forever
Breaking ,forgetting , losing trust I see the end in a clear vision You feel you know but in only a matter of time it will be just as before Another pretty face will fill your heart and dreams She will speak sweet words to tempt you Today you say "It'll always be you and me" Tomorrow the truth will show "We've grown apart, maybe we'll find one another again someday" Typical and painful I already see the seams splitting and the coldness begin to creep in The shadow of lonliness lurks beside me waiting to engulf me and swallow me again before teasing me with another false hope I'll wrap myself in never and trust in only that I've been "loved" I've been "hated" but never has someone kept their word to me Slower than before I walk down the road of predicatable heartbreak They never payed their promises to me Why would it change? Doubts are facts Remember the "promises" are never-ending lies All good things must come to an end... -Amber S.Miller (c)2001
Close To You
I am gone from that world but the memory still flollows me just a few steps behind It taunts me in photos And phone calls from the people who were supposed to care the most Everytime I cry I remember them And the words they killed me with The knife I used to heal myself is tucked inside a tiny shoebox The hate they made me see myself with still sometimes seeps through the cracks They claim to be the beholders of the universe Do they know they could end before their next breath begins? And if tomorrow doesn't come for me bury me deep inside your precious heart The rest of the world is too blind to see just why you mean so much to me Living without your love is the most painful thought of all all I ask if for you to never leave my side Don't be like the others and leave me on my knees in tears You are my only peace in this carousel of hell on earth A broken record their words of "wisdom" as they say They are only filled with jealousy They wish they could feel the way I do when I'm close to you -Amber S.Miller (c)2001
No Promise For Tomorrow
We live in a world where quanity of possesion divides us I watch silently as horrifying scenes are burned into my mind from a television setWe've never had a promise for tomorrow But now it's sadly more of a realization than ever Everyone tells us how we are just too young too see "You'll understand someday" they repeat The wrong I see if for prayer being illegal in school and the murder of an unborn child seen as "moral" If the older one is so wise do they not see that life too unstable and unpredictable Each new day could be our last We say "united We Stand" When everyman is truthfully only standing for himself You can plan for the future but you cannot say there will be one I want to lock myself inside my room with you Away from the ugliness of this world and drown myself in the beauty inside youBecause tomorrow may not exist -Amber S.Miller (c)2001
Safe
Slipping, suffocating in a flood of my tearsHypocritic monsters point and push me deeper into my deathSo close to surrenderingA voice from above the surface, so calming, so gently calls my nameA strong hand brings me back The monsters watch in awe and cry with icy envy as you dry my tears and kiss away all my fears My only sanity The only one stading tall for me A burden I do not mean to place upon your loving heart I owe you everything All I have for you is a love that runs deeper than the earth and passes the end of time Your touch speaks to my heart Never will they break me wrapped in the blessing of your Love -Amber S.Miller (c)2001
Motionless
Laying in a motionless state, As time trickles between my fingers, Stems start to spout splitting the grass, Engulfing my body in the ruins. They swallow the rain, And drink the soils, Growing deeper and higher. Surrounding me. Tangling me in its coils. Say good-bye to freedom. Then close my eyes, As the painful whips lash out at my skin, And embedded fear weave through my bones. I lay here wishing for A tulip to hide all of my grief in. It would grow above my head, Overlooking my straining eyes. My gravity would never be seen again, As my body wrapped in tugging vines. -Amy
Glycerine
Must be your skin that I'm sinking in Must be for real cos now I can feel And I didn't mind It's not my kind Not my time to wonder why Everything's gone white And everything's grey Now you're here now you're away I don't want this Remember that I'll never forget where you're at Don't let the days go by Glycerine I'm never alone I'm alone all the time Are you at one Or do you lie We live in a wheel Where everyone steals But when we rise it's like strawberry fields I treated you bad You bruise my face Couldn't love you more You got a beautiful taste Don't let the days go by Could have been easier on you I couldn't change though I wanted to Could have been easier by three Our old friend fear and you and me Glycerine Don't let the days go by Glycerine I needed you more When we wanted us less I could not kiss just regress It might just be Clear simple and plain That's just fine That's just one of my names Don't let the days go by Could've been easier on you Glycerine -Gavin Rosdale
"Remebered Times Forgotten"
Did you let the moment pass you by? In it all you cried for your dreams and misplaced trust I healed your scars and replaced the void you ached about Immune to the sweetness; you are apathetic Ifluencing voices-demons pushing you too far Why did you leave the safe? You break the gold line and wait for your freedom to sink in You feel nothing but a missing place Forgotten and missed is the love you once accepted A broken heart and forgetton dreams remember all there was I watched the stars shine as I forgot my name Where did you go? Instill in me some sort of grasp on a hope that isn't a lie They tore away your wings and destroyed your faith Beautiful one why did you leave your shelter?-The place I kept you safe

I have also posted some of my poems at blessedwithlove.com you can also read My Love Poems here
-Amber Miller (c)2001