Harper of Glory Forerunning Prologue 489, Age of Ascent, Early Summer ^Are you ready?^ Herran Turnlong turned his head and nodded calmly at the woman who crouched beside him. ^As ready as anyone ever will be to face death.^ Chemilli Glint smiled, and her dark indigo eyes shone. Her hair, as golden as his own, stirred as she rose to her knees, straining to see through the thick leaves. ^Shhh,^ Herran cautioned her as the leaves rustled. ^I know,^ she telepathed back at him, her smile flashing to take the sting out of the thoughts. ^Talk to the others, if you're so worried.^ Herran laughed at her silently, and sought out the others where they crouched in their places above the trail, sending his words in short, scattered, pulsing bursts that would resemble thoughts, and not be nearly so identifiable as the smooth streams that normal telepathy produced. ^Keesa, are you ready?^ ^Yes.^ He could feel the quiet strength of the woman who responded even in that thought, and the readiness of Viana, Chemilli's cousin, beside her. ^Good.^ Then he went seeking Rai, contact with the man's mind baffling him a little as always. It did not seem possible that anyone could be so cool, so calm, away from the city and the laws that forbade the expression of emotion within its walls. Herran sometimes thought Rai would have been this way if the Laws had never been made. Still, it was better than touching the mind of Amara, whom he understood not at all. ^Are you ready?^ ^Yes, my lord.^ Herran nodded, and then sighed as the moment came to make the final contact before the battle. Before he could do so, however, Chemilli's hand gripped his arm. He looked over to see her eyes wide with a mixture of panic and excitement, and he looked down through the bushes into the trail that led along the foot of the embankment, about twenty feet beneath them. There were the curalli already, shadowed Elwens trotting in neat formation, fourteen of them- twice as many as the patrol. Herran sucked in his breath through his teeth and thought for a moment. Chemilli caught the doubt in his mind and flashed him a sweet smile. ^We can take them,^ she said, so confident that she used a telepathic stream instead of the jerking bursts to convey her thought. Herran thought he saw the last curalli in line turn her head a little and listen hard, as though she had heard something physical. ^Perhaps we can,^ he said, using the scattered form of his message as much to emphasize the words as to hide it from the curalli's notice. ^But I would prefer not to take any chances.^ Chemilli nodded and lifted a hand in understanding, then looked down at the trail again. The shadowed Elwens had halted and were almost all looking upward now, their silver-skinned faces wary or wearing the faintest traces of smiles. Their dark hair tumbled down their shoulders or clung close to their heads; their dark or dark-bright eyes flashed between the branches above them or scanned the bank itself to either side. They showed as much variety as individual land Elwens. But Herran could not care about that at the moment. He had to make contact with Irrall. The importance of Chemilli's warning could not be ignored. If she was getting impatient to move, he would be dancing in place, snorting like a restless horse, his eyes full of fire and fuss. ^Irrall? Report.^ This time he let his telepathy flow. Chemilli looked at him with a curious smile, her eyebrows lifted. Herran smiled in turn and focused his eyes on the curalli, feeling the blood-hatred begin to burn within him as the time of battle with these traditional enemies of his people came nearer and nearer. He wanted to tempt fate now, to challenge them. It did not really matter what they did. They would not cross Rowan's borders. If he died, they would not cross Rowan's borders. Irrall answered at last, his voice reluctant, his words brief, the mental world thick with the colors of blood-hatred. ^Yes? What is it?^ Herran jerked his head up and stared in the direction of the lone man, who was hidden down the trail a short distance. ^Keep your mind on the work, Irrall,^ he said after a long moment. ^You have seen, have heard, what can happen when you don't.^ He sent this thought as a simple stream- it was too important not to- and saw the shadowed Elwens stir uneasily. There was a long, tight moment, and then Irrall's, ^Yes, I am ready.^ But some of the hatred in his mental voice now bore the bright golden tinge that meant it was directed towards a land Elwen. At the moment, Herran could do nothing but close his eyes and sigh. This had happened before, and the score would have to be settled later. For now, all that would matter was Irrall keeping his eyes and his mind on the work, which ought to be easy enough considering how much he hated curalli. ^Then move.^ Irrall rather deliberately rattled the bushes as he jumped onto the path. The curalli started back, and one of them flung a knife. The land Elwen avoided it without seeming to see it, his dark eyes fixed on this dark people. He was part curalli, Herran thought, watching him, and that was what made his hatred so intense. It had to be. Of course, trying to get Irrall to talk about his family had pretty much the same uselessness as trying to get a silver unicorn to surrender would. Or trying to understand the orders of the Council of Rowan, Herran thought wryly. Less than five centuries ago, they had fought the humans beside the curalli, and now when raided human villages called on Rowan for help against the shadowed Elwens, they received it. Herran dealt with it by thinking of the whole thing as a violation of Rowanian borders, and leaving it at that. Irrall spread his hands, and Herran started. He had wandered so far into the reverie that he had missed the sharp-voiced question one of the shadowed Elwens had asked. And he thought Irrall wasn't paying enough attention, he chided himself. Mistakes like that would not only cost him his life, but others'. He crouched, and was still, and listened. "I want to join you," Irrall said. One of the curalli in the front laughed. "Why would you want to do that?" he asked, eyes flashing and hand toying with a dagger. "Anyone can see the paleskin blood in you is stronger than the shadowed. Go back to the light, light-souled." There were laughs and cruder insults from the Elwens gathered behind the leader. Herran smiled a little, though, as he saw the two standing hindmost fall, felled by arrows springing from cover on opposite sides of the trail. The arrowheads had been honed so sharp that the victims did not immediately feel the cut, and their steel was also coated with shoolin poison. Any feeling of the cut was too late. They fell without a sound. So did two more before the soft thump of falling bodies, barely audible over Irrall's pleading words, attracted attention. The leader whirled, and saw the last arrow fall. Not in time to save the woman it struck, of course, but enough time to track the angle back to Rai's and Amara's hiding place. He lifted one hand to point, and two of the living rushed over and flung themselves against the bank, beginning to climb. Curalli could climb like nothing else alive. Herran flung himself into motion from a completely unexpected direction, sliding down the bank on his back with Chemilli right behind him. As he spun and twisted down, he flung knives that had likewise been coated with shoolin poison. Not all of them hit the mark, but enough so that by the time he reached the bottom, there were only seven left alive. Herran smiled as he regained his feet and drew his sword. He liked even odds. The leader called in the high, honey, poisoned Melli tongue of his people, too swiftly for Herran to follow. Then he opened his mouth. So did two of the others. Herran steeled himself, hoping that Amara could handle that many. That had always been the one unpredictable part of this plan. They would never know how many of the curalli would try to sing their dark, enchanting siren song and entrap the land Elwens who faced them. He could hear Chemilli fixing earplugs to her ears, but knew that she would not be fast enough to hand him a pair. And earplugs were not always proof against the siren song, anyway, more was the pity. Then one of the two climbing down the bank let out a short, sharp scream. It was so unexpected that Herran found himself wincing, and the other two preparing to sing turned to look. The leader did not turn, keeping his eyes grimly fixed on Herran. The curalli on the bank dropped to his knees, panting and fighting, for a moment. Then he rose to his feet, and drew his sword. The companion standing beside him caught on more quickly than curalli usually did to land Elwen mental warfare, and she tried to stab him in the back. He caught her instead with a quick thrust that went between her breasts and out through her back, using a speed that made Herran catch his breath. Amara had gone deeply into this one's mind, deeply enough to add her own strength and reflexes to his own. He hoped that she had gone in lightly enough so that she would not be with him when he died. Always before she had come out. But this time... His attention was stolen back as one of the curalli in front of him began to sing. He felt the song cut at him, freezing his muscles, forcing him to stand still in dreamy contemplation of the beauty all about him, so that his throat could be easily slit. Chemilli bounded past him and slew the singer with a cut through the throat. The earplugs were working this time. The other two still standing there, unengaged, began to flee. Keesa and Viana slid down from above, firing wild arrows from reckless bows. They killed them, both almost at once, but sent a few more shafts plunging down to be sure. The other singer was engaged with Amara's mind- controlled slave. That left the leader. He knew it even as Herran did, and his dark eyes fixed on the land Elwen's pyrite ones in hatred. For a moment, something like loss flickered there too, but then it was gone, buried beneath the dark fire that was burying the curalli as well, consuming and engulfing him. He pulled a knife from his belt, elegantly, lazily, and then gestured to Herran, as though wanting him to follow or inviting him to single combat. Herran stepped forward, and the man flung the knife, hitting him on the inside of the arm. The motion had been almost too fast to follow. The shadowed Elwen spun away into the trees then, and Herran bounded after him at once, running past where the bank ended and into the deep forest that lay all along the border between Rowan and the curalli town of Shadows. He heard one person, then another, running after him, but he paid it no mind at all. His rage rose in him, the great rage of the land Elwen kind, slower to kindle in him than many others but relentless once roused. Behind the pressure of the silver haze at the edges of his vision, the cries of the others faded to nothingness. Then he saw the shadowed Elwen just ahead of him, standing, smiling, arms folded, one hand holding another knife. Waiting for Herran to come close so that he could finish him. But there was something curalli tended to forget, especially the shadowed Elwens like this one, who looked as young as Herran himself was, or at least not much older. Land Elwens might have the Laws now, but not all land Elwens obeyed them with the same devotion when there was no one else to see them doing it. Especially when one's life was at stake. Herran stopped a short distance away, holding his enemy's eyes. The man smiled and smiled. He did not really care if he lived or died now, as long as he took his enemy with him. That was the curalli way. They told themselves it was noble. Herran thought it ridiculous. But then, he could almost see the sense of it now, under the pressure of his rage. He did not come near the curalli, instead spreading his hands and concentrating. This was a skill he seldom practiced now, but it had been honed again and again in the War of Acceptance with the humans. He ought to be able to do it still. The curalli's confident smile faltered, as if he had remembered something. Herran gave him no time to think on it. He had the trick now. Magic is emotion. Emotion is magic. His rage transformed, and went snarling out of him in a cloudy burst of acid. The curalli caught it full across the face, and went down with a cry of startlement that quickly became a scream of agony. The plants and trees, suffering likewise, bore the pain in far more silent dignity. Herran could be merciful. He died quickly. He was still standing there, gazing at his kill, when the others came up. They gave him one glance and a little room. "We have fulfilled our duty," he said, through a throat that felt scraped raw. "Let us return to Rowan." As he turned away, he caught Irrall's eye and nodded. The other land Elwen nodded back, eyes dark. Chapter 1 Waiting For The Challenge "Waiting is perhaps the longest and most tiresome part of any war." -From Bmer Hosilin's Tumblao Corra, or Book of War. Herran lifted an arm to shield his eyes from the gleam of the sun on the distant silver buildings, smiling a little at the rapt look on Chemilli's face. She had been born in the city, lived all her life within it, but- "You always act as if you're seeing it for the first time," he teased her. "In a way, I am," she answered quietly, without moving, her eyes fastened to the largest buildings, the gleam of silver trees and animals in which nearly a million of Herran's people lived. Noting the look in her eyes, Herran inclined his head and moved away to the others. All of them had insisted on returning to Rowan as soon as possible the moment he had announced they could, and he had had no time to make sure that they were not more wounded than they appeared. "Find anything new?" he asked Keesa Firehair. She had taken a slight cut on her arm from the swinging branch of a nyrecho. Keesa looked up and shook her head. Her face resembled a hawk's, long and fierce, with the emotions that she was never completely successful in taming seeming to flash forth through her golden eyes and even her red hair. "They didn't touch Viana or me," she said. "I would be more worried about Amara." Herran drew breath and nodded. "I'll speak to her. Did it seem bad?" Keesa snorted and bent to apply a little more healingbloom to the cut on her arm. There would be poison in the cut, Herran knew. It was only dangerous if it was not properly treated. "I couldn't really tell. Can anyone ever tell with her? I'm just glad that you have the job of patrol leader and have to talk to her." "Maybe I'll tell Lord Shennalor that I want to rest for a little while, and then you can have it." "Maybe I'll ask Lord Shennalor for some lessons and then see how long I can keep you alive." Herran laughed and moved on, stopping to speak briefly with Viana and confirm that she was all right. The young woman nodded her head. Her dusky eyes, so like her cousin's, were fixed on Chemilli, and she moved towards her as soon as possible. Herran let her go, though he was beginning to think that he would have to speak with her. A kind of shadow had lain over her for months now, and she had privately asked Herran not to assign her to pair work with Chemilli anymore. And yet, she took every opportunity to speak with her, no matter how uncommunicative her cousin was. Herran's respect for her privacy was slowly yielding to his worry, both for her and for the patrol. He shook his head and moved on. He would still rather speak with Viana, delicate as the balance between friendship and excessive concern would be, than Amara. And there she was. Herran stood still for a long moment, gathering his courage, and then walked forward and stood before her. Rai Leaflaughter, to whom she spoke, looked up and nodded. His long white hair flowed past his shoulders, almost to the middle of his back, and he was picking twigs and leaves out of it as he listened to Amara. The delicate gestures with which he accomplished the complicated task of grooming himself were in direct contrast to his cold red eyes. "Herran," he said, partially in greeting and partially to alert Amara. She turned. Herran braced himself for the shock that ran through him when her dark eyes, flecked with white stars, met his. She gave the impression of having seen far more years than the rest of her appearance indicated. As always. Her face, perfectly cold, perfectly smooth, turned inward and withdrawn, gave nothing away. As always. She sat there, giving him all the attention that he could ask for as a patrol leader speaking to a member of his patrol, but with something missing. As always. "Yes?" she prompted, when a moment had passed and neither of them had said anything. Her voice was too musical, Herran thought as he answered. That must be part of it. "I thought I would ask if you had experienced any problems in pulling out of the curalli's mind in time." Amara shook her head. "Your concern is kind. Thank you for asking." Herran nodded, and made his retreat, after only a glance at Rai to ask the same question. They were not words that anyone else would not have used, he told himself for the seven thousandth time in five hundred years. He could not understand why she so unnerved him. That only meant that she unnerved him even more, of course. He shook his head, this time mostly at himself, and turned away to study Irrall, who stood off by himself, arms folded, staring at the city as if he hated it. Cold dark eyes, cold face with a touch of silver, cold stance that turned hot with anger as Herran approached. "Why have you come?" "I wanted to make certain that you were all right," said Herran, ignoring the temptation of the rage that hovered on the edges of his vision. He had shown too much emotion already. That was probably the charge that Irrall would use against him. "Were you wounded?" The dark eyes held him. Deep and blazing rage that was not land Elwen; it was too cold, too dark, the light in it the light of the black stars gleaming off a frozen river. Purely curalli. Herran fought the rising tide of the blood-hatred that would take him out of himself and make him hack Irrall limb from limb if necessary, to make him stop staring at him that way. "How could I be wounded?" Irrall asked at last, his voice as sharp with bitterness and hatred as his gaze. "You allowed me no opportunity to fight them." "You rush into battle like a Killsworn," said Herran quietly. "Making no attempt to defend yourself. Last time, you nearly died." "I know that," Irrall said, not in a shout, but in that kind of repressed shout that is more frightening than the loudest scream. "Stop reciting useless facts that I already know." His eyes found Herran's, gleaming, shining with the passion that he despised so effectively within the city's walls. "Stop it," he whispered. "I will not," Herran said. "You know them, but you do not acknowledge them, or know what they mean. You nearly died. I do not want to lose any member of my patrol to such stupidity." "Any member of your patrol," Irrall whispered, but he turned away. "You do not say- any friend." "Had I done so, you would have derided me for claiming it." Herran now had to quell impatience. He had no tolerance for this kind of stupidity, but unless he wanted the duel to start before Irrall issued a formal challenge and cleared the matter with Lord Shennalor, then he would have to tolerate it. "Listen to me. I have the answer to my question, and I will go now. But if you endanger the patrol through any more foolishness of the kind that you pulled at Hyall's Hill, then I will ask to have you removed from the patrol circuit." The cold face was soft for the first time he had ever seen it, soft with hatred. "You will repay the debt you owe me." "I will." Herran turned his back on the crossbreed and stepped away, to find everyone else watching him, even Chemilli and Viana, who appeared from their flushed faces and hands frozen in wide gestures to have been caught in an argument of their own. He shook his head a little, to let them know that Irrall was not a danger, and walked to the bluff to look down at the city again. Stars, she was beautiful. Rowan, lady of the Corallen Valley, lady of the land Elwens in a way that not even their Goddess Suulta, the Lady of Calm, could not be. All Free Ones, even if they did not worship Suulta, knew Rowan, and had their hearts poised to seek it at the slightest chance, as a lodestone will seek the north by natural inclination. Herran took calm and peace from the sight of the strong silver buildings that nothing had ever destroyed and nothing ever would. Even when silver unicorns had walked its streets, it had endured, and land Elwens had returned to claim their home after a million years of Empire. The humans had besieged Rowan for two years, but never entered. The city had lost thousands of her citizens in the War of Acceptance, and the greatest Councilmaster in living memory when the Lady Eleriad Deerfriend died in the Battle of Esshellen. Still, she went on. "What god are you worshiping when you look like that?" Chemilli asked with what sounded like wonder as she joined him. "None and every," Herran answered, turning to her with a smile. "The hearts of land Elwens. Everything that is of our people. And yet that cannot be really worshiped, can it?" "I think it can." Herran started. He had meant the answer half as a joke, knowing that he could never really put what he felt into words. But she had taken it seriously, and was studying him with the same rapt attention she had so lately given the city. "Really?" he asked after a moment, awkwardly. This was a side of Chemilli he had never seen, or had left alone before this, a side that she had never given any sign of wanting to share with him. She always showed him the fierce battle-maiden who alternated between war and laughter, her ideals visible only in her intense dedication to the city and to certain principles of fighting that she considered honorable. "Yes." "I see," he said then, not knowing what else to say. Chemilli drew a breath and smiled suddenly. "But we can speak of such things later, my lord," she said, pointing downward. "I think that we have been given entrance to the city, now." Herran turned to follow her pointing finger with his gaze obediently, but couldn't help wondering how much the ending of the conversation had been due to Viana coming to stand behind them, her purple eyes burning as she listened silently, intently. Flying towards them came a bronklo, one of the great winged lizards ridden by some Free Ones in order to help defend the city. It was an ugly thing up close, with the long jaws and dull scales of a crocodile, but beautiful in flight. It came and hovered off the edge of the bluff just before them, the rider holding his lance tightly as he surveyed them. Herran stood patiently under the scrutiny. Several patrols had been broken by the curalli and then sent back to spy, or curalli had disguised themselves with illusion and tried to enter. The checking was routine, as the rider and bronklo read him together in some way that he did not really understand. The rider turned away then, and nodded to him. They had read everyone in the patrol at the same time, or simply plucked the information from his mind. The patrol leaders were granted a measure of trust in that. They were assumed to know their own patrols, and to bring them in undamaged, if they themselves passed the silent test of the guards. Herran motioned to the others, thinking as he did so that the trust might be misplaced in him. He would not know if someone or something else came to dwell behind Amara's eyes. Rai would, though. It was widely accepted among the patrol members and in Rowan that the two were in love, and Herran expected an announcement after every mission that they were leaving the patrol circuit to start a betrothal, and eventually a family. It had not come this time, though. Herran thought as he watched the pair walk down the hill ahead of him. He was glad. Though he might not understand them, he appreciated their competence, and accounted them friends. It would not have been the same without them, after over four centuries of working together. Irrall followed Rai and Amara, staring at Herran with hostility all the while. Herran merely shook his head and waited for the other man to pass him before walking down the hill with Keesa. Chemilli and Viana followed, resuming their argument in more subdued voices. Keesa spoke the moment they reached the floor of the valley and began to thread their way through the ranks of shining golden crops, dodging the mages who worked constantly to renew the land, that it might be used again and again. "There is something I think you should know, my lord." Herran stared at her, alerted as much by the title as by the tone. She met his eyes, face and gaze grave, and then averted her eyes again as a mage scurried by. They were approaching Rowan, where the Laws said that no feeling might be openly expressed, and the calm that she never did well must claim her again. Herran kept his own voice smooth and without inflection as the mage knelt beside them, laid her hands on the earth, and closed her eyes. Her white robe glittered in the sunlight, almost as blinding as the silver city, but he found it easier to look at than Keesa's face. "What is it? Is something wrong with Chemilli?" For a moment, humor was in her voice. But it was all right; they were past the mage. "You would think about her first, of course." Herran smiled and inclined his head. "You know why." "Yes." The smile faded from her voice. "Does she?" Herran sighed. "You know that she does not." He smoothed his face briefly as Irrall looked back over his shoulder, and then let it fall into place again when the other man turned around, unsatisfied, yet unable to blame him. "I thought it would be best if I waited. And besides, I am sure that she has guessed by now. We have worked together often enough that-" "Herran, that's not the point!" Only the presence of watching eyes from the walls as they drew nearer and nearer to the city kept her from shaking her hair back, glaring at him, and launching into a diatribe, Herran was sure. "That's what's wrong, the reason that you command a patrol but you're never going to rise any higher. You think you know what other people would think and do and want without ever asking them." "Yes, I do do that," Herran agreed. "Can you say that it is not justified in this situation?" There was a long moment of silence, of memory of something that she knew even better than he did. And then she sighed and said, "No." "Well, then." She laughed, a low sound that could be mistaken for a sneeze. "Keep your caution and your counsel, then. But I think that someday she will want to know." "When she does, when she asks, then I will tell her. But Chemilli wasn't to be the subject of our conversation. What did you want to talk to me about?" "Not so much a speech as a- warning. Have you seen any of these about?" For a brief moment, her hand flashed into view from behind the curtain of her long red hair, holding something that looked like a twisted circle of silver wire. No, not merely a circle, a sphere. The wires that built up the sphere around the initial ring were made of a paler metal, and so he could not really see them with a casual glance at them. "No." He was about to ask what it was, but at that moment they arrived at the gate, and Keesa concealed the sphere again in whatever place she had taken it from. There were perhaps fifteen guards on duty; the number tended to change every day, both to keep the guards alert and to suit the Commander's whim. One of them leaped down and came towards them, stepping easily over the lowered wings of the city's great gate, which was constructed of a metal that was not gold but looked like it, and shaped as a swan. He stopped several steps away, his eyes moving from one face to another before settling on Herran's face as the one most likely to be the leader's. "Name and report." Herran studied the other man carefully as he replied. He knew he had seen him before, but beyond that he did not recognize him. Green hair, cold silver eyes showing no more emotion than the metal of the buildings behind him, a smooth face without the lines of exposure to wind and sun that Herran's face already possessed. This was one like Rai, it seemed, who had been born to fit the new city of the Laws. "Herran Turnlong. Sent to destroy the curalli raiding the human towns of Esteban, Werlana, and Ybrian. Seven raiding parties destroyed, and warnings issued to Shadows and the curalli villages in the area." "Understood. How many kills?" That was the one gap in the Laws, Herran thought, that all of them like this man had. The Laws could not tame the stronger emotions- love, hatred, bloodlust. "Two hundred and nine." "Well done. The justice master will wish to see you, of course." "Of course. The entire patrol, or only myself?" "Only yourself. Pass." The man turned and stepped back over the swan's wings again, then swiftly leaped to the top of the silver wall to watch for any more travelers, his silver eyes as still as if all life had gone out of them. Herran at last identified the man as they passed into the city. Edelwith Goatleap, the son of Terin, the grandson of Dorren. His family- And then his thoughts were swept away by a sudden surge of pure happiness as he heard the familiar sounds of his city and really realized that he was back in Rowan. He closed his eyes and tilted his head back to savor the rich mixture of scents, sounds, and emotional currents that made Rowan what she was. He thought he saw Chemilli doing the same thing before he closed his eyes. Food, first of all and foremost. All the farmers of the surrounding lands came into Rowan to trade their crops, and the main markets were not far from the Gate. Earlyfruit, though that was spoiling this late in the year and filling the air with a kind of sickly sweet scent that probably meant it would be used only as food for the pigs. Magically grown fruit, out of season and so costing a little more than it would at harvest time. Cooked meats that the vendors offered for a cheaper price here than many of the buyers could get anywhere else. Freshly baked bread. Wines that the connoisseurs carefully tasted and nodded over before buying. The burnt sugar smell of magic from the booths where the carefully supervised mages made trinkets for those who wanted them. Cries of vendors shouting their wares. The rumble of wheels and the click of hooves. The quick, sweet chatter of land Elwen voices, the words liquid and sliding, silvery, a miracle to him after hearing the dark voices of curalli lowered in secret discussion for so long. The clash of swords from the Guards' compound as they passed it. The sounds of breathing and beating hearts that sensitive Elwen ears could hear, but which largely blended into one low hum, so many were there about him. And the emotions, both light and dark flaring around him like guttering lamps, sometimes blazing before their owners swiftly controlled them again. "Herran." With a little start, Herran realized that Keesa had been trying to get his attention for some time. He opened his eyes and shook his head with a little smile. "Do forgive me; I drift off like that without meaning to. What were you saying?" He noticed that Keesa was the only one left beside him; the others had scattered. Well, after all, he thought after a moment of shock and disappointment, they had been out of the city for over a month. It was only natural that they would want to see family and friends, tell them about their grand adventures. Or the injustice they had suffered at the hands of Herran Turnlong, in Irrall's case. "I wanted to speak with you about this," said Keesa, displaying the ball of wire again. "I was hoping that you might know something about them. I have been seeing them cast before the doors of houses; I have found them in dark back streets. Everyone I speak to either admits ignorance of them or is determined not to talk about them." Herran shook his head. "I would speak to you about them if I knew anything, Keesa, but I must admit to being of the first category that you mentioned." The regret in his voice caused a nearby woman to stop arranging the apples on the wooden top of her stall and regard him with a face that was not the less suspicious for being so placid. He changed his voice a little, made it seem blander and quieter, as if he did not really care about the small, strange object that rested in Keesa's hand. "I have never seen one before this." "Very well." Keesa sighed and tucked the ball away. "Actually, I was wrong when I said that I had learned nothing about them. One woman wearing one quite openly on her person said that I should be careful, and start wearing one of the spheres myself if I wanted to be spared." "From what?" "That was what I wanted to ask her. She disappeared into the crowd before I could." Keesa shivered a little. "I've never seen anything quite like her smile." The apple-seller had continued to watch them, as if not believing their emotionless pretense. Herran gripped Keesa's arm and guided her a little distance away from the woman. "May I have the ball, to take to the justice master? I promise that you won't get in trouble for this," he added, when Keesa's face darkened, and her hand froze in her motion towards the ball. "He- will know where to find me, in any case," she said with some difficulty, as she pressed the ball into his hands. "He's not that terrifying, Keesa." "You're a patrol leader, Herran. He doesn't have any reason to hurt you." "He doesn't have any reason to hurt you, either," Herran began, but she was gone into the crowd like the woman she had described. The patrol leader shook his head and turned away, rolling the ball between his hands for a moment before he began to fear that he shouldn't, and made to slip it into a pouch. A gloved hand caught it, and a voice rich with mockery, and deep and bright with utter unconcern for the Laws, said, "Would you mind telling me where you got this?" Herran sighed as he turned to look up at the cowled figure of the justice master. Recognizing him- not by his face, but by his lack of it- the apple-seller turned away hastily. She was not about to report a breach of the Laws to someone who embodied the common concept of justice in Rowan. "From Keesa Firehair," he said. "Where she picked it up I don't know." "I can find it." The justice master tossed the ball from hand to hand for a moment, like a child playing, and then did something to hide it. "That is not what matters, however. What matters is that you destroyed over two hundred curalli." Herran did not ask how he knew, or why he had wanted to speak to Herran if he knew. There were some things one did not ask the justice master. "Yes." The voice turned slow, thoughtful. "And the mission before that, over three hundred." "Yes," Herran said again, not knowing where this was leading. He knew that most of the other patrol leaders had a record as good or better. What mattered was not some idiotic competition for kills, but the service a patrol leader did in the service of Rowan. He could not begin to understand why the numbers would interest the justice master, other than as a way of making sure that no one had developed a false sympathy for the curalli and killed suspiciously few. "Come with me." The justice master turned with a snap of his cloak and walked off, the heavy folds of cloth drifting behind him. Herran followed at once, well-aware that those in the street were staring at him. One glance from the justice master, though, and their looks of fear and wonder, expressed so openly in flagrant violation of the Laws, flickered and disappeared. Herran did come up with one possible explanation as he followed the justice master down a street that was quieter than some of the others but silver-paved like all of them, meaning the echoes of their boots filled his ears and the gleaming sun off the metal made him shield his eyes. Perhaps Irrall had declared his challenge already, and the justice master had come to bring him to the appointed meeting place. It was not the sort of thing he needed to do, but it was one that he might. He delighted in doing things for himself, by himself, on a whim that might not seem even sane to an ordinary man- "Not an ordinary one, no." Herran calmed his thoughts. The justice master was a trained psychic assaulter, just as Amara was. He could not hope that his thoughts would not be read. He could only hope that the man would do it with courtesy, and not use the evidence of his own mind against him in a trial. If that was where he was being taken. But it did not appear so. They bent back through streets they had already walked, and the great, bear- shaped Prison appeared ahead. The bear reared on its hind legs, paws outstretched and grasping at the air, mouth open to show the great, gleaming fang-teeth. No trial, then. Prisoners known to be guilty, prisoners who had received trials but refused to confess, were brought here for the justice master to practice his art upon them. Herran did not think his guilt already confirmed. He sighed and let himself walk a little more freely because of his relief. "The Laws were never meant for our people," said the justice master, without looking over his shoulder. "Not when we can read each others' emotions so easily. Any violation of the Laws can be made and then reported without our even noticing." Herran said nothing. The justice master might make such statements because he believed them, or they might be meant as traps, to take and confine the enemy who was so unwary as to agree with them. With this man, there was never any telling. The man laughed and looked at him, and Herran sensed the approval that radiated from that invisible face, though of course he could not see the expression. "I do appreciate leaders who are cautious, and take care to see that nothing festers in the depths of their minds, where it might grow to take on horrid form." Herran knew, then, what he was being brought here for. He nodded in simple agreement with the statement and said nothing as they walked through the great gates to the accompaniment of hastily swept salutes by the guards. The lawn surrounding the Prison was a pleasant place, though nothing like the elaborate gardens that surrounded the Council building. There were no paths of crushed stone, no weeping willows, no hidden pools. Simply grass, sweeping green and glowing up to the hind paws of the Bear. The justice master made his way across it without a pause, and into the door between the bear's hind paws. Herran followed him. He stepped into a dark, cool hall that nonetheless seemed hot. It took him a moment to realize that this came from the currents of emotion in the air. Intense pain always appeared to be heat to his magical senses for some reason. A distant scream exploded to his right. Herran winced and turned away, experiencing a familiar sensation of disorientation. He stood on a precipice, with a wave crashing down on him; he was going to fall- But he did not. The moment passed, and his faith in Rowan overwhelmed his disgust that she should contain such things. It was for the light and not the darkness that he loved her, and as long as he acknowledged the darkness and hated it, then he was doing his duty to his own heart. "Come." Herran looked up as the justice master pulled away from a torturer who wanted to ask him something, and began to climb the stairs. The torturer stared enviously after Herran as he followed, but he had only spoken with the justice master at all because he had paused, courteously, to let Herran have some time to recover from the assault of the emotions. They mounted the long, spiraling stair for only a short distance, it seemed, before they came to the landing that spread out in the bear's belly, where several staircases joined, fusing into an awkward platform. The justice master stepped into the exact center of it. Herran joined him at once, even before a commanding glance could sweep out from those hidden eyes. The man nodded very slightly, or at least his hood did, and then he lifted his hands and said something that the patrol leader could not hear in a low, pleasant voice. Mad blue light flickered all around them for a moment, and then caught them up. Herran knew that this was merely the effect of the transportation wards; he had even ridden them before. But he could still not stop himself from trembling and breaking out into a cold sweat, and he knew the expression of fear and shock on his face must have been clearly visible. "That's enough," said the justice master, walking over to the desk that stood in the center of the oddly sloping room. "I make the laws in this room, and I don't want you to be terrified out of your wits for fear that you've broken one of them." He sat down behind the desk and flung back his hood. Lord Shennalor's face came into view. Herran knelt at once, his composure restored by the needed formality. He was never sure why he was unable to think of Lord Shennalor by his name when he met him outside the Prison, but the fact was that he could not. In here, Lord Shennalor- Quirrin Shennalor- was master torturer of Rowan, meaning that he was master of all the forces of justice in Rowan, inside the law and out, save the guards alone. Out there, he was the justice master, an Elwen with a love for and dedication to Rowan greater than anyone else's, checking to make sure that everything in his city was as it was supposed to be. "Herran Turnlong." Lord Shennalor's voice was warm, smooth, quiet, without excess emotion. He masked his own feelings with little effort, almost as little as he found them out. He turned back and forth, gazing at Herran like a bird, the light from the high windows catching in his dark red, almost brown, hair and silver eyes. "I watched you destroy that last curalli party not two hours ago." "Yes, my lord." So calm before the moment, as he ever had been. All the fear faded when he went into battle, as well. Herran wondered with a slight smile if he was simply the exact opposite of what the Laws demanded, finding passion in everyday life but not at the height of fighting for his life, when even the Laws excused expressions of emotion. "I was impressed. But then I saw a strange thing." Quirrin leaned forward and put his elbows on the edge of the desk, his voice so suddenly warm and soft with compassion that Herran dared to think of him by his first name. "Tell me, Herran, what that thing was and what it meant." Herran risked a glance into his eyes, and Quirrin deliberately released his hold on his emotions enough that Herran could see that he was interested in Herran's answer, and wanted the explanation he was asking for. This was not a trap. Herran risked following his instinct, and answering as it seemed Quirrin wanted him to. "You saw the falling apart of my patrol, my lord, the hidden conflicts within it. I think this happened because battle bonds us, but otherwise we do no trust each other." Quirrin leaned back, smiling, pleased. Or so it seemed. His emotions had retreated behind the mask again, and Herran could not read him. "That was exactly what I saw, and that is a good reply. But why did such a thing happen? You have fought together for nearly five hundred years. The bonds should either have been forged by now, or proved too hard to forge. In that last case, you would have drifted apart from each other." The silver eyes, alive and glowing like Rowan seen from a distance, fastened on Herran's face, demanding an answer. "Our loyalties to each other have ever been strong," said Herran quietly, respectfully, neither taking his eyes from Quirrin's not bending his other knee to touch the floor. "But our dedication to Rowan is even stronger. And I will freely confess that something has entered the group lately that I do not understand, something that threatens to split us into factions." "A pretty answer, but one anyone could have given," Quirrin said, leaning forward, his eyes narrowing. Herran still could not read anger in him, however, could not tell whether or not this was a pretense. "Why have you made no effort to find out what this thing is?" Herran lifted his shoulders and spread his hands in a shrug. "The truth is, my lord, I prefer to let the members of my patrol have their own privacy. I have been thinking that I should speak to them about it, but I would prefer to let them come to me and speak when they wish to speak, if they ever do." "It cannot be, Herran. Your patrol is ripping itself apart. Hidden secrets, hidden hatreds and loves-" Quirrin shook his head. "It may already be too late to save the patrol." Herran swallowed back the emotions that threatened to overwhelm him, used all the training in the Laws he had ever ignored but still remembered to calm himself, and listened. "I would not want to lose such a fine patrol," Quirrin went on, ignoring Herran's start at this characterization of the patrol's record. "Yet I would fear more to lose a group of fine young Elwens who might be of more use if pulled off the patrol circuit and used elsewhere." He flicked his eyes towards Herran. "Where would you recommend that I put them if I do such a thing?" Herran was quiet and still for a long moment. Any agreement might be interpreted by Quirrin as his saying that he didn't think the patrol was working, either, and should be pulled apart. But if he said nothing, or worse, if he protested- "Well?" "Amara is a psychic assaulter," Herran said at last. "If you really must pull us apart, then she would do well as a teacher of that discipline, or with another patrol." Quirrin moved his hand in a negating gesture, his eyes still fastened to Herran's. "No. Not that. I am talking about removing her from the patrol circuit altogether. If I decide to do it, then all of them will need a rest, and the last thing I mean to assign them to will be another patrol." "The guards, then. Any place that might require her to face danger directly." Herran was painfully aware that he was making these decisions for his patrol, and, in Amara's case, with little understanding. But wasn't that what a leader had to do in any case? Make decisions? And it was not as if this were battle, where they stood a good chance of being killed if his decisions were not the right ones. "And the others?" "Rai Leaflaughter will want to go with Amara, wherever she goes. Chemilli Glint might prefer to accompany her cousin, Viana, to a career in the guards, city or Council. Keesa Firehair might well want to pursue a career in the Council, or at least work near them; she still lacks four hundred years of the age necessary to become a Chosen." He hesitated, then plunged on. "And I do not really know what Irrall will want to do." Quirrin already knew that he did not really understand Irrall, if he had scryed the battle. "And yourself?" There was a small smile playing around Quirrin's lips, a smile that was almost ironical. Herran shrugged. He had never really thought about it before, but the answer had been obvious, there, no less present for his refusal to spend waking moments on it. "I would help my father and grandmother in tending our own orchards and gardens, and perhaps become a guard in the Temple of Suulta if my father wished it." Quirrin nodded, and leaned back in the chair, his fingers working together, his eyes as distant as if the Councilmaster had come into the room and he had begun to obey the Laws. Herran waited for the verdict, his hands trembling a little and his heart slowly increasing its pace no matter how he tried to tame it. "Well," Quirrin said at last, "you do have a good record. I would hate to destroy so fine a patrol without giving you a chance to heal the wounds. And that is what I will give you." He raised a hand when Herran opened his mouth to thank him. "If there is no change when you go out for the next circuit, then you will bear the consequences of this. Alone." It was actually the best thing he could have said. Herran knew now that none of the others would suffer for his stupidity, if stupidity it was. He nodded, whispered his thanks, and then knelt there while the master torturer stared into the distance for a short time, at last remembering him and dismissing him. His mind churned as he climbed down the front of the Bear to the lawn, and yet he was calm. The problems he had seen were real, but he had the time he would need to heal them. He would have a dance, ten days, before they made their next circuit. He would speak to every one of the others within those ten days, and heal the hidden breaches between them. He would redeem it no matter what he had to do. ---------------------------------------------------------- "Herran." Herran paused to let his eyes adjust to the light of the fire that always burned no matter what the season and filled the room with soft shadows, and smiled at his grandmother. Anadrel Cytheriao had risen from her chair at his entrance, and now came towards him with her hands held out. He took them and kissed their backs as was the custom in the city she had come from, then drew her into a tight embrace. "Tati," he whispered, giving her the affectionate name that meant "grandmother" in Primal. "It is good to be home." He held her for a long moment before he broke away, to smile into the silver eyes so unlike his own. So frail and shadowed those eyes were, still full of grief at the loss of her husband Haasinon in the War of Acceptance, and yet so bright and strong. "Good to see that you have returned in one piece," Anadrel murmured, putting out a hand to touch the bones of his face gently. "Or did you run into trouble, and take it in a place where it will not show to a lady's eyes?" she added with a mixture of concern and humor. Herran shook his head and kissed the backs of her hands again. The skin there retained a slightly darker sheen than his own, still burned by the southern sun, though she had come to Rowan over four thousand years ago. "And you, tati? How have you been?" "You can guess, ianaga," she said, naming him in Primal her grandson. It was something she did so rarely that he guessed the news, in a fashion, before she told him. "Your father claims that the Goddess has granted him a vision of your mother." Herran sighed. "It is possible, isn't it?" he asked. "The Goddess sometimes tries to heal our grief in such a manner. That She may have done Her best to heal Costan that way-" "If that were possible, She would have done it long ago," Anadrel answered quietly, with the authority that had quelled his father's grief for a few centuries after his mother's death. It was only lately that the authority had begun to fray, Herran thought as he took her arm and moved her gently back to the chair where she had been sitting. She nodded to him and sank down gracefully, staring into the fire. "You know as well as I do that he became Her priest hoping to see such a vision. For no other reason does he serve Her. And She does not reward such things." "How dare you speak of the Goddess in such a way!" Anadrel rose to her feet and turned to face Costan as if she had never needed Herran's help to sit, her face taut and haughty. "If you had been listening, Costan," she said viciously to her son, "if you ever listened to anything, you would hear that I spoke of the Goddess as admirable. It is your intentions that I do not find so pleasing." "When you speak of Her-" Herran sighed and advanced a step, knowing that Costan had not seen him. "Father," he said quietly, when the shimmering silver eyes fastened on him. "Please." Costan stared for a moment more; then he turned away, waving a hand and murmuring something that Herran could mistake for "Welcome home," if he listened charitably. "Thank you, Father," Herran said, and moved to join him, with an apologetic glance at Anadrel. She nodded and sank back into the chair, closing her eyes. Her fingers tapped the arms of her chair restlessly a few times, and then were still. Her breathing slowed, deepened, and she was gone, in a trance as deep and real as any his father had ever undergone. Herran shook his head. Privately, he feared that his grandmother's attempt to recapture her lost powers of a magic that she would not even describe to him were as fruitless an endeavor as his father's hunt for his mother in the spirit realm, as false a mask for her grief. But she was not inclined to listen to him; she had never been inclined to listen to anyone but Haasinon, and him only barely. He kept his opinions to himself, and only asked politely about it on occasion, as he did about his father's work in the Temple. As he did now. "The Goddess responds?" he asked his father, who had retreated to the window of the wide sitting room and was gazing out upon the sweep of fields and fruit trees that could be seen from it as if it were vitally important that he memorize every detail. "Yes." His father did not pull his eyes from the view to look at Herran, and his voice was flat, without its usual religious fervor on the subject. "She gives us everything that we could ever desire; She is the inspiration for the Laws. She is the fount of all goodness and light." Herran frowned and dared to touch his father's arm in concern. "Is something wrong?" he asked hesitantly, when Costan looked at him. "No," Costan said quietly. "Nothing." The sunlight shimmered in the white hair that he and his mother shared as he looked back out the window at the estates. "Nothing..." he repeated, his voice slowly trailing off, his eyes widening as if he meditated upon the Goddess or fixed his mind on another subject equally cloudy and distant. Herran moved away from him, concerned and yet unable to do anything. If Costan's faith in the Goddess, the one tie he had to sanity since the death of his wife in the same battle that had claimed his father, faltered, then the consequences might be terrible. But how could Herran speak with him about it when he did not wish to talk about it, as long as he could pretend to himself that nothing was wrong? And especially when Herran was not all that devout himself? Herran retreated to his own room, set slightly off the main room and down one of the rolling corridors that formed the twisted spiral of the Turnlong dwelling, to rest a little and reflect on what he must do. The room, comfortable and quiet and familiar from his earliest childhood, surrounded him and shut him off from the world, and he treasured the sensation as he wandered about the room, fingering the books, scores of music, paintings, and silver knickknacks set on fine wooden tables that his father had made for him in better days. If only he could overcome the conviction that it was better to watch someone else go to ruin rather than interfere when one's help was not needed. Such a thing was Elwen, and yet he was uneasy with it, convinced in some part of himself that it was wrong. But he believed it, and he could not change it. Abruptly, he realized two things at once: he still wore his patrol boots, which pinched his feet and stank of something he had stepped in crossing the Corallen Valley to the Gate; and his fingers held one of the spheres of silver and paler metal that Keesa had shown him. Frowning, Herran held it up before his eyes, turning it this way and that. It revealed no secret message to him, no clue to reveal how it had gotten there. He sniffed it, but there was no scent of magic. Mortal agency had placed it there on the table, then. But why? And who? He sat down on the bed, and pulled off the boots, setting them in a corner of his room. Then he tossed the ball back and forth from hand to hand, enjoying the sensation of the pain leaving his feet in shimmering waves and seeming to travel into the earth. When he thought he could stand it, he folded his feet beneath him and lay back on the bed, still tossing the sphere from hand to hand. It did nothing. It did not seem to have a purpose. No matter how he touched or tapped the wires, they did not unfold and pierce him. The silver ring rang sweetly when he tapped it, with no sound to indicate that it was more or less valuable than it looked. He gave up at last and set the sphere on the table beside the bed. He let himself sleep for a little while, dark and dreamless, controlled rest that he pulled himself out of as soon as the smell of the boots became too much, and then carried the boots outside. The gleaming lawns and the trees, laden with clusters of fruit changing colors like the leaves in autumn, tossed in the wind. Herran smiled and walked among the trees for a short time, his head uplifted, his eyes closed as he listened to the song of the leaves rubbing against each other and smelled the fruit bobbing. Inevitably, of course, the smell reminded him too much of the forest on the border between Rowan and Shadows, and he awakened himself and moved briskly between the trees and beyond them, to where a small pool fed by one of Rowan's numerous underground springs lay. One of the tenants, a young boy, knelt there when he arrived, scrubbing a tunic that was too large to belong to him with only a shadow of the grace that would be his when he had seen more years. Twice he almost fell into the pool. Herran watched him in amusement from the shadow of the nearest tree, and went to help him out of the water when he did fall in, the third time. "Thank you," he gasped as he struggled out of the water, clutching the tunic with one hand and Herran's arm with the other. "I didn't think the water was that cold." He shivered and looked at the pool with a mixture of irritation and longing. He wanted to climb in, with the day so hot, but he feared the first touch of the coolness on his skin. Herran shrugged as he knelt at the pool's edge himself and searched for a stone with which to knock the worst of the mess from the boots. It seemed that he had stepped into one of the fresh piles of manure that they often spread in the fields to aid the natural waste that the bronklos shed, and it did not want to come loose, having crusted and dried. "It comes from underground. What would you think?" "I- didn't really think about it," the boy said, his teeth chattering as a delayed attack of the shivers hit him. He wrapped his arms around himself for a moment, and then remembered and raised his body temperature, smiling a little sheepishly at Herran as if to excuse the magic. "I suppose I should have." Herran shook his head, and went back to his scrubbing, adding enough water to get the manure off without ruining the hard leather of the boots. The boy watched in silence for a few long minutes, and then decided that he should introduce himself. "I'm Gistajamalena," he said, putting out one hand. Herran clasped it and nodded, giving his own name. "You're the Lord Turnlong?" Gistajamalena gaped at him. "You look too young." He bit his lip then, and looked down at the grass. "I didn't mean any disrespect, my Lord Turnlong-" "I know," said Herran, a little impatiently. It seared him when people thought him a lord because of something his great-grandfather, or someone even further back, had done. He wanted to be recognized on his own merits, not those of his blood, however heroic his ancestors might have been. "I didn't mean any disrespect, either. I didn't recognize you, after all, or ask for your name, but I should have." "But you don't owe me anything," Gistajamalena said, his eyes puzzled, almost wary, as he watched Herran knock the clods loose. "Neither do you owe me anything." "We rent the land from you." Herran shook his head. "The land is yours. So is the food that you cultivate, any animals you can raise on it, and any treasures that you might find. We have your help in harvesting our own food as well, and that is more than enough." The young man stared at him with fascinated attention, and then said, "I didn't know that. That wasn't the way they explained it to me." "Who?" Herran asked, concentrating on a stubborn clod clinging to the sole of the boot. How could he possibly have walked through this without noticing it? Too engaged in his conversation with Keesa, most likely, and then too nervous about meeting with the justice master to notice the smell. "I don't know their names. They said it was very important that I not know them." There was the sound of a thrill in the boy's voice. "But they gave me this, and said they would like to talk to me again." Herran turned his head to see what the boy was holding- though that proved unnecessary; Gistajamalena was almost shoving it into his face. When he did see it, he tensed and stared. A silver ring, with tangles of pale metal wire twisting out of it and back into it. This one was slightly more intricate than the one Herran had left in his room. He had no idea what that meant, if anything. Even though he did not think the spheres weapons, even though Gistajamalena obviously wanted him to take it, he did not touch it. "Did they tell you what they wanted you to do with it?" he asked as calmly as he could, again calling upon his training in the Laws. Gistajamalena shook his head and tucked his treasure into his pocket again, seeming slightly disappointed that the Lord Turnlong was not more interested in it. But he brightened almost at once, and did his best to look mysterious. "They said it was important, and special, and that I was a good student. They wanted to speak with me again." "Do you remember what they looked like?" "I couldn't see their faces," said the boy, his bright blue eyes sparkling with something that danced between mischief and awe. "They were cloaked and hooded. But there were five of them, and except for my not knowing their names, they told me everything else." "What everything else?" "That the Laws are evil, and that the prominence of the great families has endured too long, and must come to an end if any true greatness is to be achieved," Gistajamalena said, with the quick and prompt recall of a student who does not know what any of the words he has spoken really mean. "They said that we rented the land from you, and that we shouldn't have to do that. They said that curalli were being mistreated." He hesitated, then, and a shadow darkened his face. Even so young, he was still Elwen, and it was obvious how much the words he had to speak next hurt him. "They said that you and your father use curalli as- slaves- on your northern farms," he said, peering up at Herran almost timidly. His voice sank on the dreaded word. "You don't, do you?" he asked in a pleading tone. Herran shook his head, though it was more of an automatic reaction than a firm denial. Shock danced in him. Such accusations were- ridiculous. And even if the accusers believed that they had some right to make these claims, then why did they make them from the shadows, rather than out in the open light of day, where anyone could hear them? There were numerous Rowanian laws for such things: dueling procedures for revenging insults, means of hiring psychic assaulters who could read the truth in the thoughts of the accused- And means, as well, for punishing the insult offered by the accusers if their claims did not turn out to be true. Feeling anger begin to boil in him, Herran stood with a swift, sharp movement and pulled the boots on. They were mostly free of the manure, and that would have to do. The more he thought of someone accusing the Turnlongs without having the courage to face him directly and look into his eyes, the angrier he got, and the Laws be damned. He would go to the justice master again this very night, not only to answer the challenge that Irrall would be sure to make at midnight, but also to claim the right to challenge anyone who came forward and said this. "What are you going to do?" Gistajamalena, who had been watching him with a mixture of fascination and fear, whispered suddenly. Herran glanced at him, and saw the boy shrink back a little. He smiled and did his best to calm his temper. No need to frighten children in the streets, and be accused of breaking the Laws before he ever reached Lord Shennalor. "I'm sorry," he said, dropping into a kneeling position again before the boy. "But my family's honor has been threatened, and I must seek out and challenge the offender before he can do something about it." "I- you don't keep slaves, do you, after all?" "No." "Then I don't understand why you're so upset," said Gistajamalena, in the hesitant voice of a child who is not sure his observations matter, or that they will be listened to if they do. "My mother said that you weren't like that." "Like what?" "Obsessed with honor, and your family, and-" The boy paused, then shrugged and said, "She said everyone in your family was mad except for you. And you looked mad just now." Herran closed his eyes for a moment. Obeying the Laws had never been his forte, but this! He would have to hope that Irrall's challenge would come at midnight, or later, though midnight was the traditional time for such things. He would need that long to calm the rage that stormed through him, and threatened to explode at any moment in flames or lightning or acid. "I am sorry," he said quietly. "Perhaps-" He looked down at the boy, and wondered if he would understand. But whether he understood or not, it seemed that the cowards who had told him these lies were using children to spread their falsehoods. Perhaps he could counteract that, a little, by giving one of them some truth. Even if he did not understand it, he might repeat it to someone who would, as he had with the lessons the cloaked figures had given him. And besides, Herran liked the boy, and thought he deserved to know the truth. "I do not consider myself obsessed with honor," he said. "But there is something happening here that could threaten not only my family but me, later, if I do not quell it in the beginning. So, I move to challenge those who would challenge me. It is cowardly to speak from the shadows, when we might speak from the sunlight." "That-" The boy's mouth was open in wonder. "That's just what they said you would say," he whispered, after a long moment. "What?" Herran stared at the boy, a chill of fear moving through the middle of his hot anger. Gistajamalena nodded earnestly, his dark hair flopping about his shoulders. It badly needed to be cut, but Herran supposed that the boy was not yet allowed a knife sharp enough for the task. "They said that you would say they spoke from the shadows. That you would insist on challenging them. They said that they expected you to do it, and that they welcomed the challenge, when you made it." Herran had to look away to keep the expression on his face from the boy. What in the name of the stars could he say to that? How was he supposed to look? He had no enemies save Irrall, who would disdain contacting him in this way, if only because it would look too curalli and start the rumors of his mixed blood yet again. He had no one, he thought, who knew him so well. Save his father and grandmother, of course, who would have no need to play these kinds of games, and would likely disdain them as much as Irrall did in any case. Herran shook his head, bewildered. "Herran." Herran swung back at once. The boy's voice had changed, become stilted and almost familiar. The expression on his face was blank, eerily still, without a stir of any kind of emotion. The urgency in the psychically controlled child's voice made all the stranger a contrast, therefore. Herran laid a hand on the hilt of his sword, but it was an empty gesture. He could not attack the child even if Gistajamalena should be made to attack him. "Yes?" he asked as calmly as he could. "This is a warning. I do not belong to the side that would seduce you. But you must choose a side now, and they will not let you believe that you have a choice. Be sure that you know what the choices are, and that you make it rather than be forced into it." "Why are you warning me like this?" Herran's voice crackled with disgust. He stared hard at the boy's face, as if by doing so he could knock the mind of the psychic assaulter connected to him loose. "Because I account you a friend, and I do not want to see you forced into a corner." And then she was gone. Herran let out a slow breath, knowing who it had been, of course. Amara. Gistajamalena shook his head and seemed to come back to himself. "What happened?" he whispered, and then stared up into Herran's face with sudden sharp loathing- not for the older Elwen, but for what had been done to him. "I know!" he said. "I was-" "I know," Herran said in turn, patting the boy's shoulder firmly. "It won't leave any lasting effects. I'm sorry that you had to go through it." "Thank you," Gistajamalena said in a subdued voice, but his heart wasn't in it. In moments, he excused himself and trotted away across the open lawn, clutching the dripping tunic, his head bowed. Herran stared after him, but the boy's fate was only one of the worries suddenly tangled in the net of his spinning mind. He still did not know what the silver spheres meant, or what the decision he needed to make would be, or what was tearing the patrol apart, but he had gained the strange idea that they were all connected. For what it was worth. ---------------------------------------------------------- And the link was Amara, whom he understood not at all, who would have no real reason to warn him. He did not trust her. There had to be something more than friendship behind the warning. "Herran? You've hardly touched your food. Is something wrong?" Herran raised his eyes to his grandmother's face. They were alone already, Costan having said something about praying to the Goddess. Anadrel gazed at him across her own mostly empty plate of meat, bread, and fruit, and Costan's nearly full one, her silver eyes bright but her voice hesitant. Herran looked down at his own plate. It looked more like his father's than he had thought it would. "Yes," he said quietly. "Strange things have been happening. And I can't really find a way to understand them, because I do not understand the person who binds them all together." Anadrel stared at him for a long moment, her eyes narrowed, and then said, "That's not all that's bothering you. Is it?" "No." Herran looked up at her and held her gaze. "Tati, what do you seek when you sit before the fire? Do you think you will find your magic again, or are you looking for Grandfather?" Anadrel let out her breath in a hiss. "Herran," she said. "I would thank you not to speak about that, either alone with me or in front of your father-" "You asked." "There is something else wrong," Anadrel said in the manner of the healer she had once been and sometimes was still, ignoring the unpleasant remark. "What?" Herran shook his head. "What is not wrong? These strange wire spheres appearing everywhere. My patrol ripping itself apart over something that divides them bitterly, but which they will not speak to me about. The justice master thinking that it may be time to split up my patrol. Your obsession, Father's obsession, a mysterious warning from the mouth of a child who seems to have spoken with me only to warn me-" "I should like to see one of these wire spheres. I have seen your father carrying one at times, but never for long enough that I might get a good look at it. Do you have one?" Herran jerked his head up. "Then you know what they mean?" "I did not say that. But I should like to see it." Sighing, Herran stood and went into his bedroom. He heard Anadrel mutter something behind him, and he turned to see her staring into the fire across the room, her eyes wide and blank and her fingers tapping their unsettling rhythm on the arm of the chair. He turned his back again and went into the room. A few minutes of searching convinced him that the wire sphere was not in his bedroom any longer. Cursing and muttering under his breath, he stepped through the door. "It's not here any more, tati-" He stopped. Her head sagged on her chest, and he could hear no sound of her breathing. "Grandmother!" He rushed to her at once, kneeling beside her chair, his curses changed to prayers. He would give up anything and everything simply to see her breathe again. "Grandmother, answer me, please!" She did not move. Her heart was not pounding. Frantic now, Herran pulled her back and tried to breathe air into her lungs. They released it into his face again in a fetid gush, as if he were trying to give breath back to a dead thing. "No," he whispered, stepping back and staring at the body. His mind worked and flipped, trying to decide what to do. Go for a healer? Try his own untrained and technically illegal magic? There came a great whoosh, and then suddenly Anadrel was breathing again, as if the breath he had tried to give her had gone into her lungs after all. She coughed rackingly and touched her sharp face; all at once she looked all her seven thousand years. "What happened?" she said, when she had her breath back from Herran's sudden and ferocious hug. "I don't know," he said, stepping back, partially to let her breathe and partially to block the sight of the fire from her with his body. He thought that she might have fallen too deeply into the trance, but he knew that she would reject the suggestion at once with a tirade of fierce pride. "Well, it won't happen again, so you can stop looking at me like that." But Anadrel's face was pale, and she avoided his eyes. Herran patiently pursued it. "What were you thinking of just before the darkness came?" "I can't remember." Herran's eyes widened. His ears had buzzed with her lie. It was the first time he could remember that she had lied to him. Even the deaths of his grandfather and mother she had told him with a tight and tearless face, her emotion held in check, thrown towards the human foe before she began to grieve. "Tati." Anadrel lowered her head and looked away from him, the part of her face that he could see the picture of misery. "Please, Herran," she whispered. "I do not wish to speak of this now, and perhaps I will not wish to ever speak of it." Herran sighed and stepped back. When he did try to figure out what was wrong with someone else, to learn the problems he or she faced, it always ended like this. "I am sorry, tati. What-" He stopped, because Anadrel had begun to sing. It was eerie, both because her face was blank and she did not seem to know she was singing, and because though she had a fine voice, his grandmother was embarrassed at her lack of composing skill and had set her harp aside long years before he was born. And eerie because he had never heard this song before. "In a country drowned by the sea, Where the seafolk sing all that will be, I make musics clear, songs of cheer, And wonder why they went away from me. "In a country drowned by the sand, Where the wind sings to the lonely land, I makes musics of old glories, faded stories, And wonder what will bring them to my hand. "The songs flutter just beyond my reach, Beneath the sand, on sandy beach. They sing and play the livelong day, And will not learn what I have to teach." Anadrel paused, her face twisted as she stared, sweat gleaming on the cheeks and near her eyes. For a moment, Herran thought she was finished, and he started to move forward, thinking to calm her. But she began to sing again, and the song was bright and terrible to hear. "In a country raised on high, Where mountains chant grim tales to the sky, I makes musics of prayers for the frosty airs, And wonder if I will see her, by and by. "In a country drowned by trees, Where the leaves clash like soft green seas, I make musics of living for gift-giving, And wonder what will bring me content, hearts-ease. "She laughs just beyond my dreams, A fragile dancer by my music's streams. All love in a day may vanish away, And leave not even the tiniest of gleams." The song ended, but Anadrel repeated the last two lines again, weeping now, the flames catching and setting fire to her tears. "Tati-" For a long moment, she stared at him as if she had forgotten who he was, eyes mad and wild, teeth bared, mouth giving sobs that seemed oddly unconnected to her tears. Then she stood and ran into her bedroom. When she reached it, she stood in the doorway for a moment, and then turned and faced him. She had regained her dignity; her hand wiped the tears away as if they had never been there. But the expression on her face was even more heartbreaking than the one she had worn in the first months after Haasinon's death, and Herran turned his gaze away, feeling the wave of pain that emanated from her. Hot, this wave. Hotter than that coming from a torture victim. Herran ached for her and wondered what he could possibly do to mend the wound it seemed he'd torn open, both at once. "I simply wish to be left alone for a little while," his grandmother said in a soft voice with steel and something else beneath it. "You will see to that, won't you, Herran?" He nodded. "Keep your father from coming in after me?" He nodded again. "Thank you, ianaga. I am proud that you bear my blood." On the heels of the last word came the sound of the door closing softly. Herran stared at the fire, then moved closer to it, holding out his hands to the blaze. But it did not matter. He still shivered violently, and could not calm that shuddering, nor the wild beating of his heart. Rationally, he knew that Anadrel's sickness, or trance, or whatever it had been, had nothing to do with the silent struggle that seemed to infect not only the patrol but everyone he knew. Still, both at once frightened him. He feared that he would not be able to deal with it, that something would happen to keep him from healing everyone. He sighed, and sat down to await Quirrin's summons. Chapter 2 Singing Darkness "When a summons comes for one, it is always wise to answer it. Unless it is a summons to death, of course, or a duel." -Attributed to Denya, Lord of Daydark. Herran looked up at the cool gleam of the Bear in the darkness, and noticed that the stars stood at almost midnight. It seemed that Irrall had not waited that long to issue his challenge after all. He meant for them to fight at that time. The two guards on either side of him stirred. He had asked that he might have a moment to look up at the Prison, and traditionally every request of the challenged was to be answered, as he might not live to see the morning, but they were getting impatient. Just before one of them would have spoken, urging that they move on, Herran found the sight he wanted to see. A gleam of light from the bear's muzzle, glaring through the windows that were its eyes as if defying the dark. That was the light in the master torturer's office, and it meant that Quirrin was there, and that this was a real duel, not some mockery that Irrall was trying to conduct without his noticing. "Good," he said, and smiled. One of the guards glanced at him curiously, but said nothing. They moved through the gates without trouble, largely because the glorlai, great cougar-like and telepathic cats who worked with the guards, had run ahead to warn the men at the gate. They saluted respectfully as Herran passed them, in fact. Along with requests, the traditions demanded that the challenged be granted honor. Herran moved without thought or sound across the lawn and towards the Prison, keeping his mind fixed in distant and dream-like contemplation of the night's beauty. Clouds shielded the moons, but not all of the stars, and the silver light turned the clouds to silver as well. A scattering of wealth across the sky, they looked, like fleecy stars themselves. A good omen, of course. It had to be. But for whom? The black stars that Herran could not see surely shone this night as well, and Irrall might have taken them as a sign of his victory. Stars, for all Herran knew, the silver ones might be for him as well. He laughed. The same guard who had glanced at him before looked at him again, and as swiftly looked away. Herran smiled. He had lost his earlier anger, and now found himself filled with a mixture of eagerness and impatience. His eyes burned, his step constantly quickened almost enough to take him from between his guards, and his hand never strayed far from the hilt of his sword. Perhaps that did look like anger, come to think of it. Herran was not thinking of it. Stars reigned in his mind; the Goddess reigned there, as his father proclaimed She always should. He might die. He might not. What mattered was that he should swing his sword, and did he die, it would not be in some craven and dishonorable manner. He came at last, after a long time of walking up and down stairs and through tunnels- it was not simple to get anywhere in the Prison, due to the necessity of delaying any prisoner who might escape- to the master torturer's office. Soft voices came from inside that stopped at once when one of his guards knocked on the door. "Come in," said Quirrin's voice a moment later, the same smooth and warm one that Herran remembered from this afternoon. He stepped forward and opened the door before the guard could. The room was warmly lighted by lamps, brighter than it had been this morning with the sun pouring through the windows. Quirrin stood behind his desk, hands clasped behind his back. The casual pose did not make him look less intimidating. He wore the extremely formal clothes of the master torturer, silver so as not to show the blood, with the red-and-yellow badge of the whip and chain fastened to his tunic. At his side hung a whip with twenty-one tails, the number of the branches of the rowan tree, the numbers of members on the Council of Rowan. He looked solemn, but he caught Herran's eye and winked. "Herran." Herran turned, his eyebrows lifted a little at the unexpectedly courteous greeting. Irrall stood in the far corner, clad formally in black and silver. Silver gloves encased his hands, even, and a pendant of a dragon wound about a rowan tree hung at his throat. He had brought the full regalia that the oldest customs demanded, customs so old that they had had duelists wearing the dragon and the rowan tree long before those became the symbols of the Council of Rowan. "Irrall," he responded, inclining his head politely. Irrall smiled, and his voice continued, patient and friendly. His coldly glowing eyes, showing a fever equal to Herran's in its own way, belied his tone. "I am glad to see you still alive. I would have thought you might have committed suicide." "Why would I?" Irrall changed the subject. "You might have put on more formal dress." The patrol leader still wore tunic and leggings stained from travel through the forest. "I might have." Irrall put his eyebrows up as well, and smiled without humor. "Brave words, my friend, but we shall see your death in those clothes, and would that not be shaming for such a proud lord as yourself?" "Is that the charge brought against me?" Herran asked calmly, glancing at Quirrin. "Arrogance?" "No." The master torturer spoke without inflection, and his eyes shifted from one young man to the other as if merely appraising them like jewels, as if he did not care who won the contest. That was the way it should be, Herran thought, obscurely comforted. All was proceeding just as it should. "The charge-" "I will tell him," Irrall interrupted. Quirrin shot him a glance cold as a curalli's heart. "I will finish speaking," he said, when the crossbreed had seemed to shrink into himself. "Irrall claims that you insulted him this morning in battle, and he has the right to claim recompense through the Arbleronwa." Herran nodded. The Arbleronwa was the dueling contest that had to be fought; its name meant "irrefutable." If he did not take up the sword, Irrall would simply kill him where he stood. Luckily for both his own honor and Irrall's, he carried his sword mainly for reasons such as this. He loved fighting things he could understand, rather than on the many times incomprehensible orders of the Council or the justice master. "Also," Quirrin continued, "he claims that you broke the Laws of Rowan by using emotional magic against a curalli, killing him with acid. He claims that he saw this with his own eyes." His cool silver gaze measured Herran for a long moment, and then he said, "Do you wish to deny this claim?" Herran shook his head. "No." "And you know what it means?" Quirrin lifted his eyebrows. "That even if you win the duel, then I have the right to claim what debt I will from you, whether that be punishment or service?" "I do." "Then there only remains the anointing, and then we may begin." Quirrin stepped back, looking from one of them to the other. Irrall's sword flashed out and towards Herran with a quickness that dismissed his doubts about the man's shadowed Elwen blood right then and there. He tried to dodge, but the point scraped his shoulder. He stopped as he felt the blood begin to flow, and nodded. Irrall had won the right of the anointing. Excited, Irrall struck again, this time at Herran's left arm. Herran suffered a gash before he could step backwards and draw his own weapon. Irrall tried a third time- and then went sprawling to the ground, shrieking, as the master torturer's whip tangled his ankles and pulled them out from under him.