On with the show

it doesn't matter
what's going on
inside
outside
I must be strong

not that masculine macho bullshit
either but the really
very
tough stuff like
relating emoting lying smiling
to make you feel better
I must feel nothing

why are your feelings more valid than mine
you've got the carrot
the stick
and all I've got are
empty hands
an empty smile
is lack of feelings
what makes small talk
small

© 2008, Antonia Balvanz