TO PRETEND

I will pretend
to pretend to love you,
so that you don’t know
that I really do.

I will pretend
to pretend to be special,
so that I can be sure
you love me unconditionally.

I will pretend
to play the guitar
better than I do
so that you think I can.

I will pretend that when you kiss me
that my heart does not beat so hard
so that when you put your hand there
one day, while kissing me,
you will be surprised.

Copyright ©2018 Ashi Shadow - 10/26/18 listening to pretenders brass in pocket.
Probably partially on Aishwarya and partly on Ash.
Last 2 lines were originally supposed to be one line, but just didn't fit that way.