WHEN THERE IS NOONE THERE TO HOLD ME

You only see me with my
starched coats
and my long legs
striding across the marble floor.

You don't see me
being cut up
by my self-esteem
and the jabs made at me
when I get home.

Just because the things
that are said about me
fall off of my laugh and my shoulders
when I'm out,
don't hurt me,
doesn't mean that they don't stay-
hanging,
to hurt me
when I get home.

Oh how they tear at me,
and cut open, to my heart,
when there is noone there
to hold me.

Copyright ©2008 Ashi Shadow 1/01/08

Talking to Heather and listening to Leave Me Alone - Pink

I know that it's not grammatically correct in 3rd stanza but decided to leave it because I like it better.

Originally "cut up" in 6th line. considered changing it to just cut. originally "and my long legs" in 3rd line, not sure if my was intended originally or just by mistake, considered taking "my" out. Also made with a version without the word "Oh" at the end. Dash wasn't there before hanging in original, but decided that the word "hanging" on that line by itself didnt' have enough emphasis without the dash before it.