| I don't understand... |
| why I'm here crying... |
| in a large pool of my own blood... |
| how could things have ended this way?... |
| How can the person who meant the most to me... |
have been the bringer of my downfall?...
|
| How could she pierce me so deeply... |
| when I didn't even betray her... |
| I only did it to protect myself... |
| I didn't do it to hurt her... |
| and it didn't hurt her... |
| although she felt hurt by it... |
| I said I was sorry for what I did... |
| for I was... and I was sorry that it hurt her... |
I should not have done it...
|
| But how could she strike me down... |
| and then keep stabbing me... |
| even as I tried to help her?... |
| I know that she was in pain.... |
| and that as she stabbed me... it was out of pain... |
| but it hurt so much and I begged her to stop... |
| But she merely said that I could leave if I pleased... |
| and continued to stab me... repeatedly... |
| over and over again... |
| as I sobbed painfully on the floor... |
| refusing to leave her... |
| for I knew that was not what she wanted... |
although she stabbed me then...
|
| I told her she was hurting me... |
| I told her she was wounding me deeply... |
| And she told me I was free to leave... |
| And yet I didn't... |
| I remained... and suffered the pain... |
| but she didn't even seem to notice my pain... |
| she was too busy acting like she didn't care... |
and too busy wounding me still...
|
| I couldn't believe that she... |
| the person who meant most to me in the world... |
| was stabbing me repeatedly... |
| and was ready to leave me to die.... |
| It hurt too much... |
| and I screamed in agony between sobs and blood.... |
| I begged her again to stop... |
| I beseeched that she cease before I expired... |
| She only said that it was my fault... |
| that I had made my own decisions... |
| and that I would have to live with the consequences... |
| to stay and be stabbed forever... |
or to leave... and lose her forever...
|
| I can't leave her... |
| I never could... |
| I never would... |
and I never will...
|
| So I shall stay... |
| while she stabs me still... |
| while she ignores my pain... |
| while she waits for hers to leave... |
| while I lie here crying... |
| curled up in a pool of my own blood... |
| while she stabs me still... |
| though I shall love her anyway... |
| until the end of time... |
while she stabs me still...
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