Sometimes I hate you.
I hate the way you beat me down with words.
I feel weak and powerless
Against the verbal fist you punch into my gut.
When I am alone I feel strong.
Like I could leave you.
But then, why I don’t know, I offer you my bloody kisses.
Sometimes you push them away.
Easy come easy go.
It’s hard to say “no”.
You think I’m a slut, whore, bitch, and cunt.
But you love me more than anyone, you say.
It’s always my fault.
I can’t be trusted because you can’t trust yourself.
Sometimes you walk a fine line
And dance around the truth
You outright lie to everyone.
Your conscience and soul are as black as your skin.
All you know is sin.
If I threw your belongings out the door. Would you cry?
I don’t think so. No.
So, stop this vicious circle of raping my self-confidence.
Quit squeezing life out of my heart.
Let it go, Vampire.
Go suck on someone else’s life.
You say you don’t know why you love me and I don’t even think you do.
You’re a scared little boy
Inside a tough shell.
You’ll probably go to hell.
I’m done. I’m gone. I’m out.
Ready to fill these holes you’ve kicked in me
With beauty and love.
You say I’m naïve and know nothing of the world.
Well, I would rather die than live in your ugly world.
A land of darkness and misery.
So many cobwebs and mysteries.
I’ve learned a lesson and I am quick to know a creep when I see one.
I will run and run and run
Far far away to a realm full of love, smiles, hugs, and kisses.
I may remember you sometimes
As the worst part of my life.
Now, at least, I’ll know that the worst part is over.