As I sit here at your grave
my mind begins to wander
That very last night...
is what makes me ponder

You were my hero
but always asked me for advice
And now I sit here all alone
God, why did I have to pay this price?

You took my Johnny
my brother, confidante and friend
And left me in a night mare
that never seems to end

He was my everything
the one that made me smile
Let me see his spirit
Let me see him for a while

I would like to tell him
some words left unsaid
Cause in the deepest of my heart
he will never be dead

These are the words for you, Johnny
My inner feelings I want you to see
My heart is locked forever
and you are the one with the key

I feel this guilt
It never seems to fade
I wish I could have been there
I wish I could have stayed...

...holding your hand
as your spirit faded away
Telling you how I love you
on this your very last day

Hugging you gently
Let you rest on my arm
Protect you from the pain,
the fear and the harm

But I could not be there
I truly did not know
And I feel this terrible guilt
and it seems it will never let go

Give me a sign,
a symbol that I am forgiven
I want to move on...
all these days I have striven

And each day I miss you even more
There can never be another
who can take the place of you
My sweet, little baby brother.