WASTED TIME
by Dave LeFave
The
time that I've wasted is my biggest regret
Spent in these places
I will never forget.
Just sitting and thinking about the
things that I've done
The crying, the laughing,
the hurt and the fun.
Now it's just me and my hard driven
guilt
Behind a wall of emptiness
I allowed to be built.
I'm trapped in my body, just wanting
to run
Back to my youth with
its laughter and fun.
But the chase is over and there's no
place to hide
Everything is gone, including
my pride.
With reality suddenly right in my
face
I'm scared, alone and
stuck in this place.
Now memories of the past flash through
my head
And the pain is obvious
by the tears that I shed.
I ask myself why and where I went
wrong
I guess I was weak when
I had to be strong.
Living for the drugs and the wings
I had grown
My feelings were lost,
afraid to be shown.
As I look at my past it's so easy
to see
The fear that I had,
afraid to be me.
I'd pretend to be rugged, so fast and
so cool
When actually lost like
a blinded old fool.
I'm getting too old for this tiresome
game
Of acting real hard with
no sense of shame.
It's time that I change and get on
with my life
Fulfilling my dreams
for a family and wife.
What my future will hold I really
don't know
But the years that I've
wasted are starting to show.
I just live for the day when I'll get
a new start
and the dreams I still
hold deep in my heart.
I hope I can make it, I at least have
to try
Because I'm heading toward
death,
and I don't want to die.
Wasted Time.
Reprinted by permission of Dave
LeFave.
©1994 Dave LeFave from "Chicken
Soup for the Prisoner's Soul"
by Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen,
and Tom Lagana.
In order to protect the rights of
the copyright holder,
no portion of this publication may
be reproduced without prior written consent.
All rights reserved.
For more information, contact co-author,
Tom Lagana at e-mail:
Success@TomLagana.com
or Web site:
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Dave LeFave is an inmate in the Colorado
Department of Corrections.
He was born and raised in Massachusetts
and has spent most of his adult
life in prison.
He has written numerous poems.
He is a contributing author in "Chicken
Soup for the Prisoner's Soul."
He may be reached at #86651, SCF
Unit 8, P.O. Box 6000, Sterling, CO 80751.
