jj jackman know ye not - index
in your absence 11/22/02 i shall not fight with you like this much more there is no time for me to tell you all that I would not i shall not struggle in your midst much longer and neutralize myself in never never lands i shall not mourn much more my loss in self negation i force myself in vain anew in empty space to see what those that do not see in clearer view to press t’ward what will never be with greater pain to cross the lacquered polished grain against its course to run with passion t’ward dishonor and disgrace i shall digest alone those things that i would share there is no time for me to show you why they’re free i shall not agitate what you now see as calm and vacillate within myself to quell your fears i shall not spark and twirl my arms on verdant fields and merge once more as subtle hues on your horizon i have attained a fair success in your absence as you have felt the vacant spoils of windfall profits we shall reach that place of effervescence there we shall be buoyant and contained without: the framework of my limitation without: the restricting strain of your social agendum i hope for bolts of lightning in my lens i fear the flutter of brown geese in flight you hope for sexual gratification and Spartan ple’sure you fear your womb shall be as barren as your rising i shall not fight with you like this much more there is no time for me to tell you all that I would not i shall not struggle in your midst much longer and neutralize myself in never never lands i shall not mourn much more my loss in self negation i force myself in vain anew in empty space