Bittersweet
Email: m_shell@hotpop.com
Rating: R, probably.
Pairing: *counts on fingers* Hermione/Lavender, Lavender/Parvati . . .
*blinks* My, they do get around, don't they?
Spoilers: Nah, although without having read most of the books, I doubt
it'll make a lot of sense.
Warnings: Still more angst. .
Notes: (hides head) sorry. this has taken a really. long. time.
Summary: Parvati finds a boy, and Lavender goes looking for a girl.
Hermione gets involved, and complications ensue.
Hermione stared at the note for a long time. Although she could hardly bear not knowing what Lavender wanted to say to her, she also felt she could hardly bear to know. Things between them were so thoroughly wrecked that a large part of Hermione wanted to avoid the entire question of what to do next. But there was the letter. Gritting her teeth, she forced herself to open it.
Dear Hermione,
I hardly know how to begin this. I don't suppose that anything could really explain, but you deserve a try, anyway. So...
I suppose I should tell you that I never could understand what possible reason you could have for being interested in me in the first place. You're so intelligent and self-confident...and really astoundingly beautiful, too. Even before this, I noticed, you know. I honestly don't think I have anything to compare...I'm not smart or funny or all that pretty, really, even though I try. So when you started to avoid me, I imagined that was why.
Of course, I'm attracted to Parvati. To be honest, I've had a mad crush on her ever since our first day here. But I never thought anything would come of it. I was a bit jealous that she spent so much time with Terry, but not because I thought she'd ever consider going for me. I was so pleased when she started coming around more again, I'm afraid I treated you really badly. But I tried to talk to you about it and you kept avoiding me, and so then I started thinking it was that you'd gotten tired of me. Parvati bothered me until I told her why I was so melancholy, and then she was really sympathetic, and then. Well.
But today, the way you looked when you found us...maybe it was just being disgusted, but I thought you looked like someone who still cared. So I've probably ruined my chances entirely, but I had to tell you...I'm in love with you. I don't know how that happened, and I told myself there was no point, but I am. If you want me to swear off Parvati, I will. Please, if there's anything in the world I can do to make it up to you, tell me, and I will. Please tell me there's something.
Love,
Lavender
Hermione realized that the letter was crumpled in her hand. Her eyes were teary, and she swiped at them ferociously. She stared at the paper as if it could reveal to her what she should do. Finally, she dug a quill out of her bookbag and scribbled on the bottom of the note,
Lavender,
In the Herbology greenhouse if you want to talk.
Hermione
chapter 6
