Remains Of My Soul

If I could see the light, I would ask her to guide me through
The path of justice.
If I could touch the rainbow, I would ask him for a wish,
A wish that could change my life forever.
My wish would be to stop my heart from bleeding.
The pain is too profound.

To love is to give unconditionally.
Unfortunately, I have not reached the maturity to
Love, and not be loved in return, but
Instead rejected.
Rejection is a cruel
Feeling that nobody wants to experience.
Don't worry, I will follow the path
That God wants to give me.

If I had never loved, I would have never known
What the pain is like. I am grateful for loving somebody
And getting nothing in return. Maybe, Am I just wrong?
Help me dear God, I am confused.

Just stop this pain that is killing me. I would rather
Die than be alive at times. But I think wishing
Death is being a coward. I must face the light with honesty.
I must ask the light to help me see through this moment
Of darkness.
Help me dear God to continue my way forward and not
Look back ever again.

Nobody will ever love you the way I did. I did everything
To make this work, but I can't continue. It would be
Too painful to follow this road when the other soul
Does not want to share the essence of life.

Don't you worry. One day God will touch your heart and
You will love someone in such a special way that you
Will understand why I have swollen eyes and a weak heart.
I hope you make somebody happy and aren't embarrassed
When she lays her head next to your arm and you are
Afraid of your friends' strange looks.

When you find that fine person, don't make her suffer.
Don't forget to tell her how much you love her.
There is nothing wrong in telling someone how much you love that
Person. We only live one life and we must enjoy
Every second of it.

I wish I could pick you up from my dreams and
Make everything different. But it does not matter now.
I know God will touch the door of your heart and
Will make you feel like nobody has felt the power of love.

Just evaluate yourself and don't blame me for what went
Wrong. We are not perfect and we must seek the truth
In everything. I am not perfect and indeed not a saint.
But I try to improve as I walk through my journey.
I hope that one day I can be a whole person and not only half.

Forgive me for whatever I did wrong. If I hurt you, I am sorry.
Have a great life and let the light touch your soul.
Let the wind shake your spirit,
Let the power of love come into your life and you will
See how happy you are going to be.

I don't regret loving you. It was great! Thanks for everything.
I will never forget all you have done for me.
You went out of your way to help me. I can't forget that.
If you ever need me, please let me know.
I have faith my heart will be healed soon,
And I won't keep any resentment anymore.
It will be a happy day.
The sun will shine brighter than ever, and
The rain will flood the unbelievable.

What is left of me is all that I can give to
The rest of the world, just pieces: Remains of my soul.

* Laura Martinez *
©2002