Break your face when you break the mirror

They don’t understand its what you fear

When the glass shatters and cuts your skin

You find the impurities of pure sin

You can only reflect what’s within

Destroy the demon in the mirror

Cry not a word but a simple tear

Carry the glass ashes in your hand

Hold them close to your heart and...

Break your face when you break the mirror

They don’t understand the demon you fear

The memories remain on your blooded fist

Scars and cuts and bloody bliss

You can’t resist the devil’s kiss

You can’t resist the demon’s...

Destroy the demon in the mirror

Cry not a word but a simple tear

Destroy the demon as it stares

Broken heart with your broken mirror

Broken because nobody cares

When the glass shatters and cuts your skin

You’ll find the impurities of pure sin

Aren’t always what they seem

As I keep on growing older

My heart keeps getting colder

When I say that I like you

It doesn’t mean that I love you

But this life keeps getting better

I can put the pieces together

I think I just got used to the pain

Wouldn't change a thing

All the cigerettes

Wouldn't make it better

Cause all the pain we’ve suffered

Would just return to us stronger

All the glass you break

And all the scars you make

Is just not enough

To cure a broken heart

And all your acting

Wouldn’t hide a thing

All your anger

Wouldn’t change their minds

All the illusions you use

Wouldn’t help you escape reality

All the artificial smiles you give

Wouldn’t hide your insanity

Cause all that is

And all that was

Is the shadow that your darkness hides

Let the sun come up

And it’s by your side

Cause all you do

And all you are

Wouldn’t change the truth

All I get from you is that you'll be there for me when you're not tired of me

All I want is for someone to be my friend when I'm lonely and he's lonely too

All I get from you is that you won't be my friend because I have other people to hold on to

All I want is to make the one I love show me a smile and a laugh

All I do for you is speak my mind and for you inspire wrath

All I want is to earn your warmth by righting my wrongs

All I do, whenever it is I do, I've been your nuisance all along

All I want is for someone there to be here for me the way he was there for me

All I get from you is that you'll be there for me when you're not tired of me

All I need is for someone to love me the way I am for who I am

All I feel from you, my solitude, my solitude, godawful solitude

Nothing resolved

You apologized, but you still ignore

I carry the burdens

Of more paths than I can take

I held, I held

And now I break

The lifelessness I live

I haven't used my voice since it began

The solitude of lonliness

Even when you are around

Its still the same

Nothing changed

Nothing given

Nothing gained

I held, I held

And now I break

Yet another thing I could not do right

In this world I’ve been alone

To drown my sorrows cease to moan

Taken the path of a living less scenic

If my tears were blood I’d be anemic

If my smiles had souls, they’ve all been sold

If my breath was life, it has run cold

If my heart was glass, it has been ground to dust

And the heave of my sighs blows it away with a gust

If you told me you loved me, I’d no longer believe it

If my tears were blood I’d be anemic

There’s no more pain where I used to cry

There’s no more sorrow when I see a good thing die

No more happiness where I used to smile

No more paintings in my aisle

I think the world stopped moving

I think my heart stopped beating

I think the universe collapsed

The crumbling remains slipped through my fingers

I threw the ashes on my casket

And ran away

In the outfit that she wore

Just yesterday &

Everyday before

Black rose bed in her living room

Feel the thorns, feel the thorns

Crawling up your skin

Pushing up

Makeing you bleed

Black rose bed

Its in you head

You’re the one tearing up your own flesh

You’re the one who’s in this mess

It’s you that fears yourself

Alive rather than dead

Black rose bed

Everyday you lose another

In your heart or in your leg

Sleeping day and night

In your black rose bed

Feel the thorns, feel the thorns

Crawling up your skin

Pushing up

Bleeding you till you’re dead

And what lives on is your

Black rose bed

My spirit, my soul

I'm being torn apart

Can you please let it go

I promised I'd stay

Forever lasting till the end

Now my hearts gone astray

A mistake I've tried to mend

I'll hide these tears

As I stand in the rain

I've awakened my fears

I don't want to bring you pain

I'll try to hold on

Please let my heart go

So I can move on

So that pain you'll never know

That someone's left you

The person you still love

To feel for a moment a life without hell

I wish I could sing

But my madness is brief

A short while to feel relief

I wish I could yell deep into the dark night

If only I had the will, I might

I wish I could see the world through blind eyes

Feelings of shadows, nobody dies

I wish I could hold on longer to laughter

And heal my wounds here on after

I wish I could be if being were true

I’d be able to live my life without you

I wish I could paint just what I’m feeling

It’s too many colors to be revealing

I wish I could fall forever and ever

What it happen, never.

I wish I could buy an invisible door

Paint it blue and place it on the floor

I wish I could die

But not in your arms

The smile you’d give

Would do too much harm

Ever so serene

I can look and I can feel

But I cannot touch

Whisper in my ear

Those things I like to hear

I can listen and adore

But I cannot watch

Blow those kisses on my face

Like little drops of grace

I can catch with my hand

But I cannot embrace

Love me while I'm gone

Ever for so long

I can love and I can want

But I cannot have

I sent you there

Dead man in a box

I hated you so

Dead man in a box

They drained your blood

Dead man in a box

Lying there cold

Dead man in a box

Rotting so slow

Dead man in a box

I’ll never see my reflection in your eyes

Dead man in a box

If true meaning hides no sound

In the heart or in the eyes darkest dreams are disguised

Not a noun but a void

Darkest dreams you can’t avoid

Heartfelt apologies have no meaning

In the darkest dreams you are dreaming

The pain and suffering of our memories

Darkest dreams remember these

Get revenge and feel pleasure

It’s the darkest dream you’ll treasure

Delight and terror, sweetened with horror

Taste my darkest dreams

It felt like death

The last heart beat

But my heart beats on

Death would have more mercy

Death would take the pain away

Death is understanding

I felt my heart break

Not for the first time

But by the same love

It shatters like glass

And the splinters won’t leave

So why can’t I?

Death would have more mercy

Death would take the pain away

Death is understanding

Death would have more mercy

The one that once belonged to you

You seem to fade out of my life

And death calls me more than you

And who do I run to?

Where do I go when I’m falling?

The voice I hear calling is no longer you

Because death calls me more than you

Do I take the call?

What else can I do?

When I’m no longer your love

And death calls me more than you

The last petal has fallen with love now decay

Leaves nothing but thorns and rot

And all the love you gave me you have forgot

Nothing, sweet nothings, were whispered away

Blown away with promises of with me you would forever stay

Nothing is left here but my broken heart

It withers away like my roses fell apart

All the roses you have me have withered away

Lost hope you would bring me more one day

Lieing in my bed of fallen rose petals

And together we decay

I can embrace myself in his name

To me my heart is something

Something left to blame

To him I am no one

No one but a game

And I’m hurt and lost forever

I should have known better

Better than to let my heart free

Better to think of him before me

And in this world I wanted nothing

Nothing that can’t exist

But my ignorance is taunting

Taunts I can’t resist

To slash and scar my skin

Like some sort of masochist

To offer myself to the sky

Arms spread like a crucifix

My desire for him means nothing

Nothing’s never the same

Because I know this life meant something

Only cause death never came

A ray of lost hope

A breath full of smoke

Disenchanted

Do I wait for you here

As you make love to her

Disenchanted

Bleed the embers of this pain

While you smiled in her eyes

Disenchanted

I’ll sulk and wonder why

She’s in the warmth of your arms

While I’m…disenchanted

If there where reasons there’d be a why

I don’t know what’s in my mind

But my tears have run me blind

Does my sadness awaken your fears?

I’m sorry, but please don’t wipe away my tears

When they run down my face

I feel hopelessness embrace

Please don’t wipe away my tears

They’ve been building up for all these years

It won’t be long

Till I’m gone

But please don’t wipe away my tears

Then closed my eyes

I let it out, I let it go

Into the ocean below

It tasted like tears

I breathed them in

A broken heart struggled to find its pace

A shattered dream wept

Great sorrows on my face

A voice called out to me

And reached for my hand

It was too late for me

I was in too deep

And there I sank into eternal sleep

Beneath the frozen eyes

The sky is rich

The birds sing with pride

In the corner of my room

I see nothing

I can feel it all

The force of the wind

Sweeping the blades of grass

The hollow emptiness

Of never knowing when

In the corner of my room

Where I spend all my time

I see nothing

I can feel it all

I feel the ocean beneath my feet

I do nothing

Yet I feel tired

And I feel beat

Defeated by the world

Its trees with rustling green leaves

The sprinkle of rain droplets

On a cold winter’s day

I know it happens

That’s what I assume

But I can see nothing

In the corner of my room

But its hard to not envy you

When everything you do is better

Than anything I produce

When everyone thinks you are beautiful

But no one gives me a second look

When they all say you are kind and pure

And I am just an annoying punk

Its hard not to envy you

And though I envy I can never hate

For you are my closest friend

And the only kindness I get nowadays

Empty hearted and cold blooded

Experiment on a counter

Dark haven to encounter

Lost to shadows of illusions

A life’s story and conclusion

The envy and the rage

To rebel on this age

Leaving everything behind

To discover what I could not find

Self peace and serenity

A lost hope and identity

Wish I found a place that felt like home

Wish I had a love that would last

Wish I had not grown up so fast

Wish I had a star I could call

Wish my wishing star would not fall

The smell of rain on a Friday afternoon

I don’t know where I’m going

I hope I’ll be there soon

They ran away from me so much

I ran away from home

I’m not lost at all

I’m just free to roam

My hair slashes my face whenever the wind blows

I follow where it goes

I follow what I don’t know

When the dark clouds gather they proclaim

When I fall so will the rain

We’ll both disappear

Gone with the sunshine

And my hope and despair

Roads aren’t endless

The end right here

They get colder and darker

And cover up my cries

From anyone to hear

Or save my lies

Nothing will be left

Nothing of a birth in June

With the smell of rain

On a Friday afternoon

The embers of a darkest passion

Smother eyes till they blacken

And the world has lost its luster

Just when you thought you could trust her

Mother the father of his son

While they crumble one by one

Into the hands of the rising sun

Fortune told to the believer

When its gone it’ll deceive her

Frozen ashes of today

Will burn your soul and won’t go away

And every pixel on a rose

Wouldn’t reveal a hint of gold

All the colors in our spectrum

Can’t be placed on a flag to show our freedom

When your hand caress my face

And you move in close to kiss

I turn away

I cannot let you touch a body like this

I'd give my all to you

But I'd rather find a better gift

Such loving arms I long to be with

I cannot let you touch a body like this

People say love is blind

I do not believe in the ugliness that is I

I love you more than I can say

I cannot let you touch a body like this

When you look into my eyes I cry inside

I'll let your whispers pass like a breeze

I want to show you how much I love you

But I cannot let you touch a body like this

Where did all the light go

It used to glow in your eyes

Now I see it fading

With all the words you gave me

Why would you lie

Why wouldn’t you

Goodbye midnight

So long sunrise

Leave me be sundown

Hold me when I drown

Your voice was my breath

Take it away like all the rest

Sky night echoing the stars

Your life nothing but a scar

Fall off to nowhere

Nowhere to go

Should I hide with the light

Keep it with me till I die

Carry the soul

That haunted your eyes

It wasn’t too long ago

Maybe two years last Monday

I looked up to you

And you turned the other way

And I cannot help this heart from beating

And I cannot keep this soul from wanting you

And cannot help to help loving you

Every time I try you ignore me

Every time I look you pretend

You don’t notice

And when I think of you, I want to die

Cause what you think of me would make me cry

It’s not hard to say this love is deadly

Even the thought of his kiss is poison

Makes my blood weaker and weaker

And I cannot help this heart from beating

And I cannot keep this soul from wanting you

And I cannot help to help loving you

Do we even listen when the other speaks

I stayed up late one too many nights

Lost hours of sleep because I think of you

Is this love? What is is that I try to hold on to?

I want to reach you but you're so far away

We're both hurt, not even lieing to ourselves

Is there a way to mend our pains

Is this love? What is it that I try to hold on to?

Why must you always be so far away

You got your time, I've got my time

Can we ever find a time of our own?

I try to stay sane, but I'm weary of this riddle

Is this love? What is it that I try to hold on to?

No where to go, no one to turn to

Nobody knows, would they even care

That everynight I cry myself to sleep with memories

And when I wake I wonder

If your eyes had tears to cry, would you do the same

Is this love? What is is that I try to hold on to?

I'll stop this here

I'll stop this now

Its too good to be true

So it must be a lie

Tell me that you love me

But I won't fall again

Passion is a poison

I won't let my heart die another time

Don't look at me like that

Don't make me cry

Even if love is real

Its too painful to try

I won't give you a chance

You won't hurt me

I cannot give you a chance

Though it hurts me

When it all began it was beautiful

When it all began it was happiness

Rosebuds blossomed and never seemed to die

Life was wonderful when I was the sparkle in your eye

You closed your eyes to me

Rose petals fallen

You closed your heart to me

Life is bleak

Life is dismal and dying

When you are not mine

Hey here we go again

Pretend to be my best friend

But it’s all a joke

No need to play this hoax again

Cause it doesn’t matter what happens to me

It’s all about you

I don’t want to know

What you ate this morning

I don’t want to know

About that stranger in class today

Hey, I don’t want to know

I don’t want to talk

Just leave me alone

You never ask

How my day went

And you never ask

"Hey how did you get that bruise on your face?"

You never ask

Now I don’t want to talk

Just leave me alone

No, I don’t want to know

How the world revolves around you

All I wanted was to get a word in or two

And here you are, yet again

But save your breath

Don’t want to be your friend any more

I don’t want to talk

Just leave me alone

The hall is filled with a child's sadness

As I hide behind closed doors with no one to embrace

And there they go again

Walk away my child, walk away

But the pain will be back another day

Look away my child, look away

But would that help anything go away

There is only peace when the moonlight flows through his windows

But the child is haunted by nightmares

As I hide behind fake smiles and laughter, what goes on here, no one knows

And there they go again

Run away my child, save your sorrows

The pain will be back tomorrow

Look away my child, look away

But would that help anything go away

only Keeper of my heart

give me Reason to fall apart

your Incantation has imprisoned me

give me Salvation so I can be

you Taunt my soul

like an Infection killing me slow

but to you I am Nobody

just a game in your moral Anarchy

Like a bug in the gutter

Alone in the dark

Can’t find my way

The stench of the earth

There’s nowhere to pray

I see the light from above

And there’s no way up

Alone in the dark

I can’t find my way

There’s no where to go

No more faith to pray

The sound of my own heart

Death becomes a part

Alone in the dark

Like a bug in the gutter

My child torn wings

They can’t even flutter

No, there’s no way out

Sleep with filth

Alone in the dark

Abuse in my body

Trapped in my own hell

Alone in the dark

There’s no way out from this place

Nowhere’s a destiny

Nowhere I’d like to be

Nowhere I’d like to go

Nowhere well never show

Nowhere’s a time lost in space

Nowhere I’d like to see my face

Know where I’m hiding?

Neither do I

Nowhere’s a part of me

Lost in eternity

Know where I am?

Niether to I?

I saw this picture

And thought of you

Hope is lost to what it may seem

And in this picture

You are my Dream

I saw this picture

And in it what you Desire

A life filled with beauty

For you to admire

I saw this picture

And thought of your Delight

When the image of Delirium

Ravished your eyes at first sight

And in this picture

I feel Despair

And in this picture

I see Destruction

And in this picture

I want Death

And in this picture

I’ll lose you to Destiny

For in this picture

I do not see me

Three in the morning

Tears in one’s eye

The soul is hopeful

The body will die

Manifested pain

By living a lie

Nothing is right

Waited far too long

Want to deny it

It’s all that’s wrong

Wake up dead and lonely

Wake up dead and only

Wake up to the fear

Manifested pain

Wake up to the anger

And the love

That are so near

Wake up dead and lonely

Wake up dead and only

Wake up dead and mourning at

Three in the morning

With tears in one’s eyes

The soul is hopeful

The body will die

Manifested pain

By living a lie

A single strand of hair

Stuck upon my hand

Is all I have of her

Did it ever touch her lips?

Did it ever touch her face?

I can wear my heart on my sleeve

But it would not be in the right place

Living in a labyrinth

Time giving chase

I hunger for happiness

Tied with velvet and lace

Did it ever touch her lips?

Did it ever touch her face?

Did the rain fall on her tongue?

And leave its bittersweet taste?

I can wear my heart on my sleeve

But it wouldn’t be in the right place

Far off is where I’m waiting

For someone to save me

Deep down buried in this earth

I know the pain you are feeling

But love hurts

I took the breath you gave me

Breathed it in

But now I’m exhaling

I hate the love you gave me

Don’t need

What’s been done to me

Can’t stand

Yes, it’s changing me

I have your heart

Which you gave to me

Held it tight

Until it stopped beating

I know the pain you are feeling

I know, but love hurts

I heard the words that you said to me

I heard them well

But I’m no longer listening

To my muse

I give a song

For the abuse

I’ll make it long

To get you back

I’ll paint it black

Because it is blue

I am too

The sun sets beneth the horizon

It's there to keep my eyes on

Cause when I return from its bliss

I know I’ll be without his tender kiss

I’ll never hear his laugh, or see him smile

I’ve always been lonely without him

And all the while

There goes the sun

And the shadow of the land he was buried on

One that betrayed me

One that saved me

I wish I knew where I was coming from

You know me better than yourself

You know the hurt of being alone

Candlelit stars fade behind the sun

Hope dissolves upon your tongue

New born child

New born child

I wish I knew where I was coming from

New born child

New born child

Teach me how to dream

New born child

New born child

Before you open your eyes

Teach me how to dream

Look around

See the sun

Burn my eyes

No one knows

No one cares

No one loves

A pitiful thing like me

Stand around

Watch his lips

As they sing

Songs I know are me

No one knows

No one cares

And I feel that it’s over

For a pitiful fool like me

Hear the sound

And I know its over

Poison drink

Of your life

Take a sip

No one knows

No one cares

No one loves

No one understands

A pitiful thing like me

It’s now or never

Time to face the world again

Oh black shadows

That follow the river bend

But it’s now or never

Got to live before you’re dead

Got to try before you fall

Time won’t last forever

Time can be too late

And it’s now or never

Try to face the world again

Now or never

Live it all before you’re dead

Now or never

Just give it one more try again

And it’s now or never

Time to give it all away

Oh black shadows

That follow the river bend

Now or never

Doesn’t matter if you crawl

Just to make it there

It’s worth another chance

But it’s now or never

Sweet lover that never was

Take my heart and all it loves

Store it in an empty box

Wrap it up in chains and locks

Sweet lover that never believed

Take the air that I breathe

Keep it in a brown paper bag

"Life less," label the tag

Sweet lover that never missed

Take the emptiness I kissed

Save it in a secret place

Tie it with ribbons and lace

Sweet lover that never hurt

Take this soul from the dirt

Hide it deep in your thoughts

Leave it there till it rots

Sweet lover that never cared

Take this feeling we could not share

Preserve all that still remains

Press it under a glass with an onyx frame

Sweet lover that never cried

Hurt me within till I died

You can’t have what remains

I’ll take it with me to my grave

Ophelia, Ophelia

Why did you drown

Ophelia, Ophelia

Where was your crown

Did you wake before you died

Does the water hide the tears you cried

Does your ghost haunt the night

Does your skin radiate in the moonlight

Ophelia, Ophelia

Where did you wander to

Ophelia, Ophelia

Did you feel love was untrue

Does the world look down on you

Does your ghost haunt the night

Does your skin radiate in the moonlight

Ophelia, Ophelia

Why did you drown

Ophelia, Ophelia

Where the flowers that you saved

Really meant for your grave

Did you know you’d take your last breath

When you shed your last tear

Did you know your last look

Would be your reflection

In the weeping brook

Maybe, had I taken the chance

You would have gave your heart to me

But I fell back into my silence

Missed an opportunity

Now you're giving your love to her

I sit here nice and lonely

What am I supposed to do to ease a broken heart?

Bottle the pain inside of me

Till I crumble and fall apart

And through the pain I can still see

Had things been different

You still would not have given your heart to me

I haven’t seen my soul in years

Lost behind fire’s sears

Other times I stood and fought

Now I take the pain and rot

Dismal and crying, I lay here

I’m dyeing

I love you, I need you, it can’t be

You taunt me

I’ve never been this close to tears

Drowning me in nightmares

Other times I’ve never lost

And now I have to pay the cost

Yelling and screaming, it can’t be

I’m dreaming

I want you, I need you, you are the key

But you do not see me

I’m lost deep in my fears

Breathing demon’s cheers

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust

This love is stronger than any lust

Dismal and crying, I lay here

I’m dyeing

I love you, I need you, it can’t be

You taunt me

I've sat in silence

And waited in stillness

And all I've been longing for

A sign that you know I still exist

I cry behing a door that never knocks

I held on to the remains of Pandora's Box

I watched in vain

As you changed

I lost you when

When you forgot my name

I tried to ignore my loss

I held on to the remains of Pandora's Box

I wither in this darknes

I cried aloud for help

I called your name and stretched out my arm

You didn't even glance my way

You closed your door, and locked the locks

I fell

And crushed the remains of Pandora's Box

Plush

like pillows on a grave

like the dolls that you gave

Plush

like cotton candy on my lips

like roses on my fingertips

Plush

like clouds in the sky

like an innocent white lie

Plush

like hugs from a friend

like relief at the days end

Plush

Just drink it

Let it take hold

Swallow it down

No more to fear

Knees shake

Close eyes

Do not wake

Swallow it fast

For no taste

Lie down

Relax

Breath slowly

Then it stops

Everything

Stops

Have I always been so lonely

Has it always been this way

Have I always been a psycho

That’s what they call me anyway

But if they’d only listen

Then they might comprehend

That everyday I suffer

And it’s all because of them

They don’t know I know the truth

But they stab my back with it

The matches burn and the candles lit

I just can’t handle it

There’s my ugly face in the mirror

No wonder they say I’m very queer

I wish they could see in my eyes

Maybe then they’d realize

That no one’s different

We’re all the same

If not I might be sane

Then there’d be no reason

To call me a psychopath

Just because I’m not like them

They put my heart to shame

That’s why I have so much wrath

Then they do it again

Maybe that’s why I’m a psychopath

When I stop living

And start thinking

I want to stop living

Because of who I am

Nothing but a burden

I have to believe there is no reason

As a reason to go on

I am not alone in all of this

But I sure am lonely

I have to go on feeling

My feelings are wrong to go on

What did I hope for in life?

Nothing, but to have hope

I want to be loved

But love is replaceable

No need for a return

Just pick up a new one along the way

And what can I do?

Wear a smile, fake some laughter

Make them think I have a reason for being

I'm tired, I feel old

Living lost its luster

If it ever had it

Where could it have gone?

How much longer do I have to wait?

I want to stop living

For I am tired of this life

I want to start living

For I truely never have

Time runs deeper

Into her brow

Pain plants its roots

Further into her heart

Where’s the hurry

Where’s the rush

What’s the big deal

Of growing up

Had she taken time

Time would not have taken her

If she lived her life living

She leave life not grieving

"Oh, untimely death!"

Closed it up inside my mind

I'll keep it there

Close it up

Keeps me from hearing

Keeps me from hearing them

Lock it up

Shackled my pain

Keep it a secret

Hold it tight

If it does not escape

Then it'll rot

Hide it deep

Deep deep inside

Binding my sorrow

Keeps me from hearing

Keeps me from hearing them

Can't let it go

Can't let it out

It's trapped within me

Stored away

Swallowed it up

In hopes of decay

It deteriorates

It crumbles with my will

And now it's lost

Dead and gone

Residues inside of me

And now I have forgotten the sound of my own voice

How soon it seems you forget

What is to become of me now

There’s always a reason to forget

Always a way to feel lament

You’re nothing but a shadow now

Just an image lost in light

Some shadows last forever

Some shadows fade to past

In my heart I’m raven black

Charred by the emotions you’ve given back

Somewhere we drowned in our pain

Sometimes I realize we are to blame

Can I caress what is left?

Or are the pieces too frail?

Bleeding into your wound

Seeping into your veins

Are you high on my pain?

Maybe you just don’t abstain

Shadow’s lament

Holding salvation

Controlling us now

In our disfiguration

Who are we now?

It didn’t forget

Just a memory

In shadow’s lament

Just say the words and I’ll believe

In my heart I know you deceive

Tell me someone what’s going on

Why what I feel is so very strong

Why I hate who I’ve become

Tell me, someone, what is wrong?

You say the words I want to hear

Yet I feel sadness, my eye bleeds a tear

Tell me, someone, what am I supposed to feel?

Why does his love feel so fake?

Why I believe mine is real

Tell me, someone, where is my mistake

Spider lilly

Without your sorrows

Pick your petals

Die tomorrow

You seem like nothing

But you are everything I could have been

Everything

No one will harm you for your beauty

They’ll all blame me

Eternal duty

Beautiful spider lilly

If she speaks, my heart's untrue

Then I’d rather be her than you

I can’t stand the pain burning in my hands

I’ll hide it away

Bury it in the sand

There is no end to begin

Lilly, innocent and sweet

I’ll devour your life

I’ll have my defeat

Let the world punish me cause I’m to blame

I never was the child my parents wanted

I never liked my life

But I still want it

Never thought pain could feel so good

Spider lilly without your sorrows

Pick your petals

You’ll die tomorrow

Star gazing alone

In the back of my home

Tears run down my face

As I gaze into space

Maybe we are not alone out there

But I’m alone in here

With the wastes of today

Running down my face

Star gazing alone

I let my mind roam

But it always comes back

To this cold, dismal place

And if space is space

Is space alone

Let is rest in my heart, a home

Star gazing, alone

Star, shine just for me

I need you now

For there is nothing left for me

I had another vision

And in it I died

My one true love did not cry

He was not around

Oh star, shine, I need you now

Comfort me to my last breath

I’ll die without love’s caress

Star, shine just for me

I fear the end is drawing near

Without my love, my darling, my dear

I’m dying from a heart so foolish

Star, shine just for me

I lost a dream today

And threw my faith away

Drew a star upon my hand

For a wish that wouldn’t withstand

Want to wrap myself in clean white sheets

Want to hold my world away

Want to be all that I can be

But I lost a dream today

The night knows how I’m feeling

It covered up its stars

It left this place dark and eerie

Just how I feel in my heart

The wind howled

And my sighs kept in tune

I held back my tears

The coulds could not rain

The night knows how I’m feeling

Maybe it lost an angel too

Misery, stone cold, alone, scared, and weak

Misery everyday of every week

Here’s another day of every year

For wanting what I fear

Death

Life, a helpless game and a cruel sport

Misery everyday of every week

Hey misery, you’re coming for me again

My faithful friend

Misery

You always miss me, you always will

Watching as my blood does spill

Misery everyday of the week

Here’s another day of every year

For wanting what I fear

Death

When next I stray

I’ll go away

My heart to hide

Or coincide

I fade to mist

I’ll cease to exist

A heart to break

And a head to ache

My one and only

Must leave me lonely

My love to you

Be it true

Will last forever

Though I may see you never

So carefully

The rain washes all my tears away

And the thunder covers up my cries

Rain drops sing a lullaby on my bedroom window

How beautiful

Is this eulogy the sky presents

Coldness dawns and whispers all my blood away

Held a rosary with some bright red fingers

So cheerfully

The lightning goes into its dance

Ode to this pain

Its only vision of a better future

Ode to this pain

But I shall not live to see another day

And you did not think I would be crying

And you did not think I would be crying

Your warm kiss upon my lips

My heart melts and I lose myself

Your strong arms cradel me gently

I feel safe from harm

Your sweet breath upon my face

I inhale and embrace

Your eyes gaze deeply into my own

And trap me in an abyss

My eyes close

And await another kiss

Then I opened them

And was alone

I long to be with you

Still I long to be away

To complete a transformation

By being led astray

I want a change

I need a change

I must get away from you

I want to stay

Should I stay?

My heart cannot deliver life without you

My mind can only feel peace without you

I saw the world

And broke my wrist

I caught a falling star

And burned my lips

I held on to twilight

And bled my eyes

I watched an aurora

And fell to my demise

I embraced the rain

And cut my skin

I smelled a rose

And withered within

I fell in love with you

And you with what remained

I fell in love with you

And await what this beauty offers in pain

There’s no way of telling what to do

No time to stop time for you

In the mirror there’s a broken heart

The reflection of reality now we are apart

On the bed there is your scent

And the blood and tears of my lament

You go and I know you love her

But your heart cannot love forever

You said those words with no meaning

But the look in your eyes deceived me

There’s no way of telling what to do

It’s all misconception until it’s true

Once in love I called love art

Now I call it bitter, vile, tart

If I read the letters you once sent

I would cry for the moments we once spent

You left my embrace for her lips

What feeling can there be in that kiss?

If time heals and leaves a scar

May I wander life without you

Your memory afar

Why do you do what I do

Say What I say

Tell me your troubles

And hope they all go away

I'll tell you I'm sorry

That you've been dismayed

I have my own troubles

Guess I'll save them for another day

Who worries for me, I wonder

Who would worry anyway

Cry on my shoulder again

In a pool of tears I shall lay

And when its all over

I'll just get up and walk away

Tunnel vision

No division

Part of a whole

Broken soul

A superstition

Peaceful earth

Laughing curse

Tunnel vision

Indecision

Which way to go

Never know

Tunnel vision

An incision

Rigor mortis

Death will sort us

Tunnel vision

No permission

Got away

Got a day

Tunnel vision

Television

Cruel dictator

Individuality hater

Tunnel vision

Let go

Fell down

You smile

I drown

Let go

Broke heart

You smile

Lost parts

I have no self-pride

I have no self-confidence

I’m a picture of grotesque unrewarded innocence

Misery loves company

And three’s a crowd

When I want to speak

I’m never aloud

My mouth duct taped by hatred and anger

My eyes blinded by kindness and laughter

Served on a silver plate with shame by my side

They cut me open

I should care

I have no self-pride

I have no self-confidence

I’m a picture of grotesque unrewarded innocence

A child that went wrong

An image of the truth

I’m a picture of grotesque unrewarded innocence

Misery loves company

Three’s a crowd

I’m the outcast

But I’m always around

I waste away

I waste a day

I waste a tear

I waste a year

Hush, my darling

Do not cry for me

Sweet lullaby

My melody

I waste away

I waste a day

I waste a tear

I waste a year

Beautiful rose

Celestial peace

You froze

I waste away

I waste a day

I waste a tear

I waste a year

My angel

Save me

Everlasting heaven

I fell

I’ve wasted

My life

Be there for me when I dream

And I’ll wait an eternity

Be there for me when I dream

Save me from uncertainty

Watch over me when I cry

So I have something left to hold on to

Watch over me when I cry

And I’ll feel one thing is true

Who Am I without you?

I am no one

No one true

I will not breathe

I will not smile

I will not try

To live my life

I’d rather die

You keep me up

You give me reason

I give you love

Words on a page

They make me cry

A silence broke unto my heart

I forgot frustration and rage

Sadness filled my eyes

I could feel my heart beat in my head

But it is still in its cage

I read to myself the words that hurt

I read myself a last goodbye

My tears mixed with those on the page

Trying to find myself

But I’m lost in you

You, who are you

Became a part of me

Became a part I never wanted to see

You, who are you

Said words I wanted to hear

Said words that were unclear

You, who are you

Take them away

Take them all away

You, who are you

Can you tell me your name

Can you tell me we are the same

You, who are you

The last faith in an amber fire

The last light in a fading desire

You, who are you

Please don’t give me your heart

Please don’t make me fall apart