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Embracing Negativity
by s1ckend
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another excuse 10/16/2001

ahh...

so here i am thinking again.

pathetic visions of unhappiness, insane questions of purpose, and general generalizations of stereotypical grouping.

here i am creating false realities, a slave to my equipment. the hi-tech whore of entertainment.

here i sit on my crown of procrastination. my throne overlooking the vast fields of boring existence...

every movment is exaggerated. sluggish reactions - an altered state of thinking.

she bores into these thoughts with her shiny red crowbar. she drags up memories from past illusions. i can tell by the mud on her shoes. the guilt carries in a think encircling cloud around her...

yet the screaming circuitry doesn't bother to remedy the situation.

the words on paper. her thoughts in my hands; i'm reading my own eulogy twice a week.

the umbilical has rotted and he's left to be trimmed, but my scissors are dull and you're still so comforting...

it keeps us connected,

   it reminds me of home.




You've given me a heart like a gun and I'm so shocked that I made it through these billion days.
I've made it through these billion days.

-Glassjaw

 
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It is possible to suspend the melodramatic misery for a moment and be no less interesting. Or is Buddha on the Mountaintop afraid he'll pull a Jack and Jill if he condscends to descend? ~ [lyra]

sometimes its possible to alter your state of mind for the sole purpose of having the ability to see what ISNT altered and what is actually true..... [antigravity3418]

Thanks for stopping by and leaving me a note! The things you have to say are wrenching and fascinating.I really enjoy reading this.... [the_crooked_halo]

Hey, this is a bitchin' diary. [Mercurio]

RYN: thanks for the imput, I was just bored and ranting, but I dont put anything past them. Later [analyticallyspeaking]

RYN: Aw I guess pessimism ain't such a bad thing. Hell it even gives me character, too bad most of the rest of the world doesn't see it that way.....see you soon [the_crooked_halo]

I just visited your homepage.....you are a fascinating person to say the least! Were there pictures there, cuz I kept getting an "image interferancce" message whatever the hell that is!!!Anyway whatever images were there I couldn't see :-( [the_crooked_halo]

belief of 'god' doesnt have to be involved in saying the pledge.

its is the only piece left for these garbage wired kids to have some respect for where they live. instead of perhaps working in a sweatshop or digging through landfills.

where would you rather be?

say the pledge. who cares? its one word. thats all.

brain radiation. yes.

your quote on the contents page is the ultimate. [dolmen]


Hey, just answering your note..what is it that I usually do? Well..I clean, come online, and sit on the recliner until I decay..lol exciting life, I know..not. [MindOnKevin247]

I should actually try that! =P
[Zion]

P.S. But I do think the anthrax idea is more creative. =P
[Zion]

if you don't know what you are talking about....don't leave notes in othe ppl's OD's that "effing book" was written by men who were inspired by God [Mr. Smiley Pants]

I can totally relate to the throne of procrastination part...I am the queen of putting things off :-) [star-flower-a]

Yeah I changed that one line cause I was tired when I wrote it. Yes it is of me. I hate being told every muthaf u c k i n g day I am going to hell by these christians. Satanist, pagans, wiccans, and many more of the minority religions have to take this shit everyday well I am not going to ne more I am standing up for what I believe and someday I will shock the world. [666]

RYN Well, no, the card was actually lightly humorous, something about not saying the "F" word, as in "you're turning 40." Kept it extra-light. Can't imagine him seeing it as a signal, but everyone says he will. *shrug* just trying to be nice, which, as we all know, is strictly not allowed. I liked this entry, especially the "crown of procrastination" part. I wear one a lot. It's a tiara, actually. [TheDarkCarnation]

Wow...I have some poetry things I can learn from you actually. Glad you thought it was interesting, but I am very far from finished. I'll have to come back here. And as for a Rolls--I prefer Cadillacs and large cars, not super luxury. [Silver Seraph]

RYN: Well, have you seen that hidden camera in your room?

Of course not. [Polter-Cow]


ryn:

jealous?

your sarcasm is flattering...

i KNOW its sarcasm.

right? [dolmen]


Brilliance, sheer brilliance. I Hate Myself would be a wonderful person to room with, WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT. I can sence you and him have deep conversations about being in the womb of society and rotting in it's decay. Perhaps... or better yet the moongoddess... or you just get stuck listening. :) I know how that is. Darn these in love people! Enjoy your day... [Magnilia]

RYN: Darcy is Fitwilliam Darcy...a man. Sorry to bust your bubble. ;-) [~top totty~]

I dont know what to say in a note on this entry.

Heck...I never know what to say! But here is a note for you to say that I did read it. [~top totty~]


RYN: Thanks for leaving me a note. I think the answer is BOTH! :0). The commitment not so much; just because you are committed to someone doesn't mean you love them. I guess, I just want to "feel" loved. But blah, blah, blah. Thanks. [~~*Seli*~~]

Ha...I always thought being pessimistic was really just being REALISTIC! [~~*Seli*~~]

I really enjoyed the note about Frank the midget.

And I like the above, but it's not making any immediate Aha's for me like the gun one did.

[Dammitall]


...and this should be worth hours of fun:

http://www.opendiary.com/entryview90.asp?authorcode=A545347&entry=10040 [Dammitall]


yeah, i don't know what that entry was all about... i'm sure it all means something really interesting but i don't want to burst a blood vessel trying to figure it out... right, so thanks for your note! ahem... good day. [jen & tonic]

what else is left but excuses? [hellzapoppin]

.......... [Tom Mix]

ha i do that crap all the time. sometimes it makes no sense..... [his0angel0]

yep. i know. i'm buh buh buh buh buh buh bayad.

i will die and pay for loving you and you will win prizes and snicker at my naivete and how i can't read french. [maddieblaylock]

 

   
 
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