30/10/2001

Tears of sorrow flow through my body. My father died today. It doesn't seem right, for this person just to leave, i didn't even get to say goodbye. I guess we never get that chance, we never expect things as horrible as this to occur, yet when they do we try to pretend that it didn't, so in reality our head is always up in the clouds wishing and praying for a better world. But does this make us selfish? I wonder if I am being selfish praying for him to come back.

24/10/2001

I haven't been writing for the past two days, instead my life seems to revolve around a guy. Typical, huh? Well what can I say about J. I like him and I thought he liked me. I know he has a girlfriend now, but he didn't before. I still get a feeling that in someway he wants me, just as much as I want him. But I won't come between him and his girl. It was a shame we never went out before, it was a pitty we both kept our feelings for each other a secret. When you like a guy just tell them, it is so much easier. You will either get, yes I like you back, or I don't feel like that. If you don't ask you will always wonder did he, and if he did you will always have on your mind, why didn't I tell him.

22/10/2001

What can I say. This is my first entry and it won't be the last. Today poetry hasn't been thought of, only just quick sentences here and there, in which I know I should have written down, because in some way they seem to be apart of me, even though the words are forgotten to me now.
Poetry is not just about words, but meaning, understanding. Within one piece you can understand a person you never thought you could know. Images are created, and you get swept up into it, the world no longer becomes words, but rather meaning.
Some one once said to me if you don't understand it, how can you appricate the work. Well in my mind I have always pondered upon that question myself, but I guess you have to look for the meaning, the reason why they wrote what they did, even if you have to ask.
I'm not claiming to be a poet, or a person whocan wite well, all I want to do is voice ou what I'm saying, write down my feelings thoughts, no matter how useless they seem. I went to this sit today, it made me think so if you want to go CLICK HERE. It has usefull info, well I thought it did.