No Lighting
No Lighting
Heh, fresh from the StarOffice WordProcessor! And this fic has a name, too! *glee!* Though, it's umm... depressing in a way... and it's all in 'Geru-chan's POV... ._.o I hope you like this one
I'm sitting here. Just. Sitting. Here. Alone. I wish Satoshi were with me. He always makes me feel better. And I really need him now. Now that I'm just. Sitting here. He promised me something I won't forget, and I only think about it. As I. Sit here.
It was raining outside that day. Then again, the rain was beautiful. Wetting his tame-less hair down so it clung to the sides of his head. His clothes sticking to his body. You could see his muscles standing out slightly, even though they weren't very big, his large black eyes looking wistfully up to me as if *I * were the better, more powerful one of the two of us. But in reality, it was him, considering he became a Pokemon master before I did. I love his eyes, their so deep you can't know what he's thinking at times, even though he seems so dull and thick-headed, he's not. I love him so much, I can't stand it sometimes.
Oh, getting off track. It was raining outside, and we were on his small, outside porch that lead to his room. We were watching the rain as our water pokemon enjoyed the fresh fall, our pokemon always seem to get along anyway. I was holding his hand in mine as he shivered a bit. But he refused to go back in because I like the rain. Soon he was tightly held in my arms, his shivering down to a minimum. God, I love him. He looked up to me, our eyes locked and he smiled that way he does. I still love him for that, you know. He turned in my arms so our faces were opposite each other. His warm breath on my lips so intoxicating. He took in a deep breath before asking me,
"'Geru-chan? Do you love me?" Hai, that did hurt when he asked; but I didn't show it, or at least, I tried not to. I smiled weakly before pressing my lips to his. They were always soft and inviting, because he always wanted me to kiss him. Just like I always wanted to. I still do sometimes.
"Hai, koi, I love you much. More than I can express with words. Though, by saying the world means pennies compared to you might come close." He smiled at me and giggled like an obsessing school girl, he always did that. Though, he stopped, nodding slightly at me.
"Shigeru, I want to make a promise with you." I waited for him to continue.
"I want to promise that we will never leave each other, we will never ever say anything we don't mean, either. I want us to be together forever, 'Geru-chan; I love you too much to loose you." That warmed my heart, and I shivered from the cold rain, and I normally don't do that, so we went back inside his room. Our clothes soaked through with rain-water. I could hear the thunder crash loudly, but the lightning didn't follow. I kissed his lips again, savoring his taste.
"I promise Satoshi, only if you promise back." I was serious then, more serious than ever. "Hai." Was all he said before we collapsed on the bed. The rest is history.
~*~*~
So, as you can see, I can't get that out of my mind. While I just. Sit here. Alone. I look down on my black suit. There's some tear stains on the front and on the shoulder. I can still hear Kasumi in the other room, crying loudly. Her and Satoshi were close friends. I bet if I listened closely I could hear Takeshi. I imagine he's consoling her sweetly. She's not the kind to be able to take these things too well. I hear footsteps and Hiroshi walks in. His face tear stained as mine is, as well.
"Shigeru." He says simply.
"Hiroshi." I look at him in the eyes and I can see the pain there. I still wish Satoshi was here. I can hear other people sobbing dramatically out in the main room. I know Satoshi is in there, too. I quietly get up and head there. I know what's there and I've seen all that has been needed of me. I've cried all my tears. I can see Pikachuu, she refuses to leave his side at whatever costs she has to pay. I can feel the hot liquid on my cheeks. I'll probably cry the rest of my life, now.
'Shigeru, I want to make a promise with you.' The words start up in my mind. His voice is so sweet, so soft, so him. ' I want to promise that we will never leave each other...' I gasp for air as I lean over him.
'.. I want us to be together forever, 'Geru-chan; I love you too much to loose you.' I let out a loud sob and I feel someone patting my back comfortingly.
"I promise Satoshi. But.." I gulp in air as the tears begin to flow more rapidly. "..why did you...you.." My voice cracks. And I sigh. "Why did you break your end of the deal?" I know he can't hear me. I know it's not his fault, as well. I shake my head and go back to the room I was in before. Hiroshi is still there. As Kasumi and Takeshi are there now, too. I nod at them and Kasumi lets out a loud howling cry, putting her head in her hands. I sit in the chair I was in before, Hiroshi putting a gentle hand on my shoulder.
"Shigeru." He speaks softly to me. He doesn't have to say anything else. I know... I shudder a little as I hold back a sob. Satoshi is gone, I know, and I'll always miss him. But there's so much we meant to do for our future. So much that I wanted to tell him.
I wish Satoshi were here. So I could hold him again. I wish I could just kiss him one last time. But, as I know, wishes like these cannot come true, and I must savor what we had. I close my eyes and pray to God that he's safe in angel wings. Safe where I know he belongs now. But still...
~*~*~
I hold Satoshi in my arms and he melts against me. I run my fingers along his soft, sweaty skin. His breath coming out in small tufts of warm air that blow on my face. I press my face in the nape of his neck and inhale deeply. He smells so sweet, even after what we just did. I press my hand to his, our fingers entwining. Mine's still sticky, though. I moan into his neck as he licks my ear.
"Aishiteru, Shigeru." He says.
"Aishiteru, Satoshi." I whisper back. We would lay there for the next few hours. Rain beating down still outside on the roof. The thunder crashing even louder. But still, no lightning to light everything up with. No lightning.
