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Stop
Stop


Disclaimer: The song is "Stop", by Meredith Brooke's. The characters involved are not my own.
Rating: NC17
Author's Notes: For Janine as the 5,555th visitor to eos.. she wanted a shishi lemon, so that's what she's getting. *grins*
Archive: At end of summer and wherever Janine wants it to go.
Feedback: It would be appreciated...

**It's seven in the morning and your walking out the door
You got no time for coffee
I'm starring here remembering when my kisses made you late**

Life is very depressing, sometimes. You're on your way out the door, without anything at all. I know that it was my choice to stay home while you went out to work... let's face it, I feel better cleaning up. But its like we're not even in love anymore... I walk to the front door, and wave as you go down the drive.
"I love you, Shigeru. Have a nice day, at work! I'll see you when you get home!" He looks up at me, and smiles for a fraction.
"Good bye, Satoshi." Though I'm smiling on the outside, I'm not within. He didn't even say I love you... I close the door as he starts the ignition.

~~~

Why do I feel like I've missed something? Because that is the way that I feel... I'm tempted to call you as I drive away from the house. But you hate when I call and it's not an emergency... It's like we're having a problem of communication, yet neither of us are brave enough to say something to start it off. And that's not helping at all... I turn on the air and find a station that's not the morning news, as I drive towards the city. I should have said something... I love you... but you know I love you. Of course you do...

**Gonna take a minute for my morning meditation But I'm on the phone call... waiting... click... done Under an invasion I feel like I'm a spinning ball in a lottery cage**

I sigh. As much as I'd like to sit and pout and watch TV all day, I have chores that need to be done, and errands that need to be run.
"Pikachu." My pokemon sighs from her seat on the barstool. Sometimes, I wish I hadn't ever given up training... at least then I'd have something *proper* to do with my days.
"Want to go grocery shopping and pay the bills?" I ask her, trying to make it sound like more fun than it actually is.
"Pika." I smile.
"Thanks..." I hug her and set her back down. "Let me get my keys and then we can be off..." The phone rings and I race to catch it; I can't even find the cordless... ahh, there it is! I grab it right in time, or so that's what it feels like. Of course, I'm on hold, and a recording speaks in my ear. Since it's about our mortgage and the bank, I decide to stay on the link.

~~~

I'm greeted by co-workers as I arrive at the office.
"Good morning, Shigeru-san. It's a beautiful morning, isn't it?" I nod and shoulder my briefcase, winking at the secretary.
"Not more beautiful than you." She grins.
"You tease! What would Satoshi-san say!"
"You do have a point... Do I have any messages?"
"Hmm, the department head called... he wants to have a meeting with you at 3. Beyond that..." I nod.
"I understand. I'll need to call Oikawa-san, then... thank you, Kimiyo."
"You're welcome, Shigeru-san." I walk to my office in silence. Today is going to be a long, long day...

**If we aren't making love how can we be lovers? Gonna post a vacancy sign under the covers Before it gets to late I'm gonna say Stop what you're doing and love me now I'm making my move come on and love me now**

Being on hold gives you time to think about all *sorts* of things... I'll need to mop; the floor looks a little grungy... there's laundry to do. Should I put it on before I go to pay the bills? I need to add Pikachu's chow to the grocery list... The music they're playing right now is driving me crazy... Music... Shigeru played the guitar, once. I think he gave it up after he got himself an office job. That, or he just gave it up when he got together with me... I sigh. That just doesn't seem right. But... what else am I supposed to think? Everything seems to have gone down the drain... I gave up training for him, and... what's the point? There doesn't seem to be one at all... I love him... I know I do... I just don't know if he loves *me* anymore... Or if I've become just a stable point in his life; one that needs no upkeep... I don't know if I can do this. We haven't even made love... in forever... and I just don't think that's right. We shouldn't be tired of each other. Not this soon... I don't even remember what his touch is like anymore. And his kisses... We've only been together for three months... This shouldn't be happening. I don't have time to think on it anymore, because a *real* person comes to talk on the other end of the line, and I have that to worry about and keep me busy.

~~~

Satoshi's not going to be happy, and I have no idea how I'm supposed to break this to him. I'll have to work on Satoshi... I'm glad it's the middle of the day, because I'm afraid for it to end. That's silly of me... Maybe I should do something for him. Something nice... But what could I do? I sigh and the phone rings. I pick it up, and the day continues.

**I come home so tired just wanna put my feet up You watch Letterman and eat something old I heat up Then we both fall asleep before the rooster starts to crow No time to fight we pretend love is so sweet When all we're missing is what's between the sheets Used to find an hour between start and go**

The day is long, and by the time I'm home I have to start on my work there, right away. I'll have to make dinner... at least tomorrow is Saturday. That's a small miracle...
"Pikachu, sit up here while I sweep and mop. Don't want you to slip and slide..." She sits on the stool near the pantry as I seem to meander through the kitchen. I need to find a way to reach him, again... Because I know tonight will be like. He'll come in, we'll eat... he'll stay up late watching TV, and I'll fall asleep beside him. At least I'll wake up in our bed... At least there's not. So much has changed... and I want it to go back the way that it was before.

~~~

I know that you're smiling as you throw yourself into my arms. I kiss you chastely, and put you at arm's length.
"How was your day?" you ask.
"Perfect..." I reply. "A bit tiring, though."
"As always... I finished dinner. Soup and salad... simple yet nutritious." You have a beautiful smile; I wonder when's the last time I told you so...

**What ever happened to staying up all night? When the bed became our island and it was just you and I Our troubles would slip away when we said**

You're eating dinner quietly, reading through your mail. I sip at my soup, and your voice calls me to you.
"I have to go into the office tomorrow." I nearly wail.
"But it's Saturday." You sigh.
"I know. But Oikawa-san has been on my back... I shouldn't be too late, Satoshi." I bow my head and nod. I don't feel like fighting. I don't feel like arguing loud enough that our neighbours will hear it. I think you're surprised when I submit and nod...

~~~

Satoshi gave up... just like that. I shake my head. I expected more than that... anything more than that.
"Thank you... I'll have to go in early." You sound hollow. Oh Satoshi... I wish I could get out of it, I really do.
"Hopefully that will help you get out early, ne?" I nod.
"Ne."

**Stop what you're doing and love me now I'm making my move come on and love me now Time... time... Time... time... time... Are we beating the time? Just you and I, magic ride**

I want to just yell at you; scream. Do something to get your attention... but the weekend has begun as any weekday. I woke to make breakfast, and now I'm seeing you off down the drive... This just isn't fair, Shigeru. I'm going to save our relationship, Geru-chan. I'm not going to let it all fall apart. I just need an idea; that's all... something simple.
"Maybe I should do something nice for dinner..." I say, sitting down in the living room. The TV is bright with Saturday morning cartoons.
"Pika!" I smile.
"I don't think Shigeru wants a vat of ketchup! But... I should make something nice. His favourite... You know how he is about Chicken Parmesan."
"Pika... pikachu." I grin and pat Pikachu before she crawls up onto the head of the couch. Yes, a nice dinner... and something else...
"You're going to love me again, Shigeru, whether you like it or not."

~~~

You have no idea how happy I am as I pull into the driveway. The thing is, you're not there to greet me... Silly, yes, but nothing has ever stopped you before. Am I becoming stuck to routine? I think I am... Maybe, I tell myself, he doesn't feel as though he should since it's a weekend. I tell myself that as I go inside. The light in the front hall is dimmed...
"Satoshi?" I call, putting up my briefcase and locking the front door again.
"I'm in here, Geru-chan," you reply sweetly. I go towards the dining room, and stop dead in my tracks. The table is set, candles are lit, and you're standing there, smiling. You blow out the match you were holding.
"Welcome home, Geru-chan."

**If we aren't making love how can we be lovers? Gonna post a vacancy sign under the covers Before it gets to late I'm gonna say Stop what you're doing and love me now I'm making my move come on and love me now**

You sputter a bit.
"Satoshi... what's all this for?"
"It's a celebration... because I love you." I reply, moving towards you. I wind my arms around you, and look up into your eyes.
"I don't think we tell each other it often enough, Shigeru. And... I know it's silly... but I need to hear it." I finish that softly, and then he pulls me closer against him.
"Oh Satoshi..." he groans. "I didn't know. I-I..." I kiss him, and it seems to help. I can feel the tension loosening in your muscles, and you return the kiss intently, passionately.
"I love you, Satoshi."
"I love you too, Shigeru..." And it feels so good to hear it.
"Dinner now, then. Sit down... I'll serve you well." I grin, and he *blushes* as I help him to sit. I linger and hug him, kissing his neck. I pull myself away, reluctant. I bring in the dishes from the kitchen, setting them out...
"It smells delicious." He says. I smile, appreciative.
"I know you like Italian..."
"This is amazing. I don't deserve it... Satoshi..."
"You do too," I reply, forcefully. And then we sit down to eat.

~~~

I feel like we're dating again... we play footsy, and I can hear faint music in the background. He really went all out for this... I'm almost feeling sorry as it's finished.
"Let me put it all up..." he says. "Sit here and I'll be right back." I have to show him how much I love him...
"Actually," I catch his hand and pull him to me. He sort of collapses in my lap, "I have other ideas, Sato-chan..." He sort of melts against me.
"And those are?" he whispers, his eyes fluttering closed. I capture his lips in a simple, breathless kiss.
"I love you, Sato-chan... I'm so sorry for how I've treated you..."
"Shigeru, it's all-"
"No, it's not..." I kiss him again, shedding clothing as we do. I want to feel him, I want to learn him again... I feel as if it's been forever since I've tasted him.
"You are not taking me on the dining room floor!" he gasps, writhing as I move my lips to his neck, nipping at the warm flesh there. I don't reply, but I scoop him up into my arms. He yelps,
"Shigeru!" I grin deviously and take him into the bedroom.
"Shigeru..."
"Satoshi..." I don't stop until he's moaning and writhing against the covers, and we're both bare; I push myself further, then...
"I want to make you feel loved..." I murmur, kissing him hard. He gasps, panting my name.
"Shi-shi...Shigeru..." I move to take the lubrication; he cries out sharply.
"No!"
"No?" I feel dazed.
"Just take me, please. I forget what it's like, Shigeru... I just want to feel you." Either he's on the edge of tears, or I'm already crying... did I have that much penned up? Did he? I lay atop him, and he pulls me down against him. He kisses me hungrily, and the feel of his skin, that warmth, drives me crazy. I rub my hips against his own, and then I kiss his neck, marking him. He's mine, and I forgot that he was at all... He cries out as I enter him, fingers digging into my shoulders. I try and ease in... I know this could hurt... yes, we've been together before, but it's been so long... His fingers ease up on my shoulders, and his eyes open slowly. I move my arms so my hands are planted near his shoulders.
"Satoshi..."
"Shi... mmm... geru..." I withdraw, then thrust in to the hilt. He jerks and closes his eyes, moaning. He's sensual, beautiful. His skin is pale, and his breath is short, ragged. And he's all mine...
"Love you, Shigeru." He whispers, panting, gasping.
"Love you too," I reply, thrusting into him again. He digs fingers into my flesh again, bucking his hips up against the motion. Begging for more silently. So I give it to him... Until we fall over the edge and end up a sweaty, sticky mass of limbs, his seed sticking us together. I fall into the most pleasant sleep I've had in ages, and I do it with him in my arms...

**Stop what you're doing and love me now I'm making my move come on and love me now**

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The end