I love the snow. I love you more. It's night like this... stars burning bright in the sky, snow fresh fallen on the ground. The cold is intense but there's a certain warmth about it all. Or I could just be insane...
You're acting you're five years old... bundled up in warm clothing, running through the white as if you have no cares in the world. I think it's beautiful. You turn and catch my eyes with your own. Like stars plucked from the heavens, your eyes remind me of a beauty that should be placed in the heavens.
And you love me. *Me*... Yes, that is a miracle when I look at how we've acted in the past. We were friends, and then we weren't, we were friends again... and then we weren't, but this time it's so very different.
But I don't doubt the sincerity when you say those three words, 'I love you'... I believe you with all of my heart. Because my heart and my soul and everything that makes me, me, belongs to you. And I don't know that you're aware of that power, love... I don't think you're aware at all.
But that's part of your charm, I think. Your way of viewing the world with your eyes shut tight, but your heart wide open. You have such a more vulnerable stance than my own. And that is so very precious, and endearing...
You run to me and catch my hands in your own. I could chide you for this... "Where did your gloves go, Sato-chan?" I ask and you shrug your shoulders. I can see the mischief dancing in your eyes. They're... I have to change that I thought before. They're more than any star in the sky right now. So lovely...
"I must have lost them..." You whisper and I pull you close. You meld into my touch, into my embrace. You're warm, and you love me, and you make my life complete.
I don't think that time with you has ever been this perfect. And all that there is, is you in my arms. I could will this to go on forever. I truly could. "We should go in, then, I think..." I muse aloud and I feel you pull away from my embrace. You gaze up at me with star pierced eyes.
"If you say so, Geru-chan." You say after time stops and then starts again. Your breath frosts in the dark air and then you pull yourself close and I feel your lips on my own.
Pale on the horizon
Like leaves frozen in the snow
Our two shadows merge inseparably
Will time stand still if it's pierced with cold
We could stand like this forever, and I know it. I think you do as well. I open my eyed - I hadn't even noticed they were closed at all, unwinding my arms from around you as I do. You smile up at me and then a bit of white floats by.
It's snowing again. Paleness that drifts on the night frozen air... You take my hands again, though as I chided you before, you could truly be as annoyed with me. I wear no gloves either... And I have no excuse. I think the cold helps me feel alive.
Not that you impair me at all. No... you make me live more than I ever have in my entire life. And now... You pause as we near the house, turning to me with those bright eyes of yours wide and intent. "Geru-chan...?" You whisper and kiss my hand. Your lips are warm...
"What is it, Satoshi?" I ask in reply, pulling you close. I can hear the serious tone in your voice. You've changed so much since you were a child. You were so much more impulsive, hardheaded... Not that you're without your stubborn streak.
You pause and then you look away. It's not as if you can pull away, safe in my grasp. You sigh and pillow your head on my shoulder. Your words are soft yet grow with intensity. "...dream last night."
"What was it about, love?" I ask and close my eyes. I truly could imagine standing like this with you forever. It feels as if time is standing still yet again. Again and again, forever and always.
The more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
I love you
Because, truly... Every breath that I take, every moment that passes, I know one thing. And it is the only truth that I believe completely in my life. That and one other... I love you. I don't deserve you, I never will be worth your love, but I love you.
And you love me too... You speak finally and now I can hear the emotion in your voice. You're fighting to control it, fighting so very much. "I left you. I didn't mean to, but I left you... I couldn't even say good bye..."
Your cheek is chill under my cold touch as I touch you and turn your face to my own. Tears trickle down your cheeks and they leave a warm path against the cold of your flesh. "It was just a dream, Sato-chan... you're still here..."
You shake your head and you sniffle, and though I can tell you try not to, more tears are all that fall. "You don't understand... I left... I left... forever... I..." You close your eyes and bury your face against my sweater. Even though you can't finish it...
I know what you mean. The snow is bright around us and I kiss the top of your hair, sable locks glinting in starlight. "It's a part of life, Satoshi. I know you didn't want to... but it was only a dream..." You tremble and then you're just as simply still in my arms.
"But Geru-chan..." You begin, yet your words go no further than that. You look up at me and tears still glisten on your cheeks, a painful light. I don't want you to hurt, Satoshi. I don't... "I love you and I don't want to leave you."
I smile and wipe at your tears. They're warm on my cold fingertips, and then I kiss away more that fall. "I know that you do, Satoshi. And I love you..." You smile and though I can still see the pain in your eyes, you kiss me again and time, like it does every time you kiss me, stands frozen and still.
There's a warmth in my heart
It haunts me when you're gone
Mend me to your side and never let go
Say 'Time knows nothing, we'll never grow cold'
I know that when time starts again, I am and will be sad. I hate when life has to intrude on our time together. "We should get back to the ranch..." You murmur and I know that you're right. I nod and somehow we pick our way through the ice and cold, and return to the warmth of my home. It's yours, too. You made it yours with your love. And you'll always be accepted...
You're all I have now. I have no family, Nanami is gone and Ojiichan left us both. So you're all that I have. And I feel empty when you're gone. And uncomfortable warmth in my heart that us almost painful. I wish you could stay by my side forever... But I know that's not possible. You do have a life of your own.
The night passes by and when the sun rises the world around us is blinding white. You wake me with a kiss. I love this... I love you... "How are you this morning, Geru-chan?" You ask with a smile. It's so very beautiful. Everything is about you. And you're mine, I'm yours, and I love you so very much...
"Perfect, now." I murmur after I kiss you again. You chuckle softly and shake your head. Your hair is so soft, as soft as your skin. You, you see, are my perfection. You're all that I need in my life.
I do fear the day that you leave me... I'd rather I leave you first... I don't want to be without you. But you would be without me... And I don't want you to suffer again. Not if I could stop it. So I pull you into my arms and you fall against me on your bed.
I kiss you and you kiss me and clothing stands against our flesh no longer as I make time stand still. No more worry, no pain at all. I don't want you to suffer, my Satoshi... I don't want you to suffer at all.
The more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
I love you
The day passes by but you don't leave my side. Not for long, at least. It's as if you're afraid of something. Or that you know that you need me as much as I need you. No matter what... our lives have come to rely upon one another for existence.
Truly... all that I need is to know that you are happy. Because I want you to be happy. And as far as I know... you are happy with me...
We sit together on the couch and the sun is sinking towards the horizon. You kiss my neck and I look down at you, my eyes questioning. "Satoshi?"
"Hmm, Geru-chan?" You murmur. You're so beautiful... I wonder if I tell you that half as often as I should. Your dark eyes, darker hair... pale skin like the snow...
"I'm not sure, Sato-chan..." I reply and I grin. You smile and it's ever so infectious. "I love you, Satoshi. You make me feel complete."
Your grin is like quicksilver. "And I love you, Geru-chan. You make me more whole than anything else..." You pause for a moment. "Want to dance?" You ask... but there's no music... I don't care, though, so I nod. And then you pull us to our feet and you wind your arms around me...
Twilight descends on our silhouette
How soon spring comes
How soon spring forgets
I wanna hold time, say it'll never begin
Old man winter be our friend
Old man winter be our friend
Life is something special because you are with me. I know that. And I never want to let go. Slow motions that build to a higher pitch. I love the feel of your body against mine.
"I didn't know you could dance this well, Geru-chan..." You murmur. It's not as if this is the first time we've wandered this way... pointless motions that mean nothing except to our own hearts.
"The same goes for you, Satoshi..." I whisper in reply as I kiss your forehead. You sigh softly and your arms hold me tighter. Forever... So many things with you... So many things make me crave eternity with you...
I'm not sure, but the winter suits you. It lights you in a way that no other season can touch. At times I wish that spring would never come and turn over a new leaf. I could spend night after night just watching the snow with you.
And I do.
You'll lie down to sleep soon. I know you will. I know you well... And I could watch you then as well, just as happy. It's happened before. Sometimes I just can't sleep...
I'm so very grateful that you're in my life, Satoshi. You have no idea just how thankful I am for you... Or maybe you do. Though I cannot understand how you would be grateful for me...
As long as I can hold true to the simple truth that I hold in my heart. "I love you, Satoshi..." I tell you, safe still in my arms.
"I love you..." You say in reply.
And that is what matters most to me. Your love... because I know it is the complete truth. Simple and true...
'Cause the more I live
The more I know
What's simple is true
What's simple is true
I love, I love you